https://cohostpodcasting.com <![CDATA[TURTZED]]> en 674f39f9-8c8a-4064-9bb9-015466244d5c Thu, 07 Nov 2024 18:25:54 -0500 Sat, 18 Apr 2026 16:15:09 -0400 https://www.turtzed.com/podcast <![CDATA[TURTZED]]> https://files.cohostpodcasting.com/quill-file-prod/daf79a82-c60a-42c8-a86e-28ec8b2da19f/shows/674f39f9-8c8a-4064-9bb9-015466244d5c/cover-art/original_ba874f4b3857f1bfa9e09cc8c0b3b766.png https://www.turtzed.com/podcast episodic false https://feeds.cohostpodcasting.com/YiOK5htz charles@turtzed.com <![CDATA[Pat Jackman: Emotional Release Therapy for Trauma & Somatic Healing | Ep. 62]]> Why does the body remember the traumas that the mind tries so desperately to forget? We often carry "pollution"—layers of suppressed anger, fear, and grief—that manifest as chronic physical pain, yet we struggle to find the key to letting it go. Using Emotional Release Therapy for Trauma, you can begin to navigate the "wound road" to uncover the joy and peace that have been buried under years of survival.

In this powerful episode, Pat Jackman explains her unique approach to somatic healing and the profound connection between physical ailments and the "inner child" calling out for expression. With over 30 years of experience, Pat Jackman shares how opening "heart points" in the body allows individuals to safely process childhood neglect and abuse, moving from a state of frozen survival to one of courageous, heart-centered living.

How to Identify Emotional Pain in the Body

Physical symptoms like neck pain, headaches, or "stuck" points in the mid-back are often the inner child’s way of signaling for attention. These areas act as doorways that, when opened through breath and presence, allow suppressed emotions to finally surface.

The Importance of Opening Heart Points First

In Emotional Release Therapy, the heart point on the back is considered the primary gateway; if this point remains closed, emotional energy cannot be fully expressed or released from other parts of the body.

Why We Suppress Joy and "Negative" Emotions

As children, many of us "froze" or clamped down on our true feelings—whether anger or even joy—to remain "good" and safe within our family dynamics. Over time, this creates a layer of "pollution" on the body that obscures our natural state of love and peace.

Healing the Inner Child Through Somatic Safety

True transformation happens when you can look into the eyes of your younger, wounded self and offer them the comfort and love they were denied in the past. By providing this safety as an adult, you bridge the gap between past trauma and present-day freedom.

Links & Networking

Disclaimer: The TURTZED Podcast reflects the opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. Content is for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare provider for advice tailored to your individual needs. For the full disclaimer, visit our website.


  • 00:00 – The body remembers what the mind forgets
  • 00:30 – The Christmas Day catalyst for healing
  • 01:14 – Opening the "doorways" of the body
  • 01:45 – Why physical pain equals emotional weight
  • 02:40 – Why the heart must be opened first
  • 04:18 – The "tiptoe" test for childhood trauma
  • 06:03 – Meeting your five-year-old self
  • 07:07 – The secret to bringing wounded parts home
  • 09:56 – How parents "slap" pollution onto our bodies
  • 12:12 – The specific burden carried by men
  • 15:25 – The "back heart" and the path to joy
  • 19:22 – Giving yourself the comfort you never got
  • 22:36 – Growing up in a family of "perfect" orphans
  • 28:26 – 15 minutes of "waking up" in 30 years
  • 31:47 – Crawling through the "muck tunnel" to safety
  • 35:16 – Reshuffling the puzzle pieces of your life 


]]> Wed, 08 Apr 2026 04:30:00 -0400 https://www.turtzed.com/podcast 38:00 Why does the body remember the traumas that the mind tries so desperately to forget? We often carry "pollution"—layers of suppressed anger, fear, and grief—that manifest as chronic physical pain, yet we struggle to find the key to letting it go. Using Emotional Release Therapy for Trauma, you can begin to navigate the "wound road" to uncover the joy and peace that have been buried under years of survival.

In this powerful episode, Pat Jackman explains her unique approach to somatic healing and the profound connection between physical ailments and the "inner child" calling out for expression. With over 30 years of experience, Pat Jackman shares how opening "heart points" in the body allows individuals to safely process childhood neglect and abuse, moving from a state of frozen survival to one of courageous, heart-centered living.

How to Identify Emotional Pain in the Body

Physical symptoms like neck pain, headaches, or "stuck" points in the mid-back are often the inner child’s way of signaling for attention. These areas act as doorways that, when opened through breath and presence, allow suppressed emotions to finally surface.

The Importance of Opening Heart Points First

In Emotional Release Therapy, the heart point on the back is considered the primary gateway; if this point remains closed, emotional energy cannot be fully expressed or released from other parts of the body.

Why We Suppress Joy and "Negative" Emotions

As children, many of us "froze" or clamped down on our true feelings—whether anger or even joy—to remain "good" and safe within our family dynamics. Over time, this creates a layer of "pollution" on the body that obscures our natural state of love and peace.

Healing the Inner Child Through Somatic Safety

True transformation happens when you can look into the eyes of your younger, wounded self and offer them the comfort and love they were denied in the past. By providing this safety as an adult, you bridge the gap between past trauma and present-day freedom.

Links & Networking

Disclaimer: The TURTZED Podcast reflects the opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. Content is for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare provider for advice tailored to your individual needs. For the full disclaimer, visit our website.


  • 00:00 – The body remembers what the mind forgets
  • 00:30 – The Christmas Day catalyst for healing
  • 01:14 – Opening the "doorways" of the body
  • 01:45 – Why physical pain equals emotional weight
  • 02:40 – Why the heart must be opened first
  • 04:18 – The "tiptoe" test for childhood trauma
  • 06:03 – Meeting your five-year-old self
  • 07:07 – The secret to bringing wounded parts home
  • 09:56 – How parents "slap" pollution onto our bodies
  • 12:12 – The specific burden carried by men
  • 15:25 – The "back heart" and the path to joy
  • 19:22 – Giving yourself the comfort you never got
  • 22:36 – Growing up in a family of "perfect" orphans
  • 28:26 – 15 minutes of "waking up" in 30 years
  • 31:47 – Crawling through the "muck tunnel" to safety
  • 35:16 – Reshuffling the puzzle pieces of your life 


]]> Why does the body remember the traumas that the mind tries so desperately to forget? We often carry "pollution"—layers of suppressed anger, fear, and grief—that manifest as chronic physical pain, yet we struggle to find the key to letting it go. Using Emotional Release Therapy for Trauma, you can begin to navigate the "wound road" to uncover the joy and peace that have been buried under years of survival.

In this powerful episode, Pat Jackman explains her unique approach to somatic healing and the profound connection between physical ailments and the "inner child" calling out for expression. With over 30 years of experience, Pat Jackman shares how opening "heart points" in the body allows individuals to safely process childhood neglect and abuse, moving from a state of frozen survival to one of courageous, heart-centered living.

How to Identify Emotional Pain in the Body

Physical symptoms like neck pain, headaches, or "stuck" points in the mid-back are often the inner child’s way of signaling for attention. These areas act as doorways that, when opened through breath and presence, allow suppressed emotions to finally surface.

The Importance of Opening Heart Points First

In Emotional Release Therapy, the heart point on the back is considered the primary gateway; if this point remains closed, emotional energy cannot be fully expressed or released from other parts of the body.

Why We Suppress Joy and "Negative" Emotions

As children, many of us "froze" or clamped down on our true feelings—whether anger or even joy—to remain "good" and safe within our family dynamics. Over time, this creates a layer of "pollution" on the body that obscures our natural state of love and peace.

Healing the Inner Child Through Somatic Safety

True transformation happens when you can look into the eyes of your younger, wounded self and offer them the comfort and love they were denied in the past. By providing this safety as an adult, you bridge the gap between past trauma and present-day freedom.

Links & Networking

Disclaimer: The TURTZED Podcast reflects the opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. Content is for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare provider for advice tailored to your individual needs. For the full disclaimer, visit our website.


  • 00:00 – The body remembers what the mind forgets
  • 00:30 – The Christmas Day catalyst for healing
  • 01:14 – Opening the "doorways" of the body
  • 01:45 – Why physical pain equals emotional weight
  • 02:40 – Why the heart must be opened first
  • 04:18 – The "tiptoe" test for childhood trauma
  • 06:03 – Meeting your five-year-old self
  • 07:07 – The secret to bringing wounded parts home
  • 09:56 – How parents "slap" pollution onto our bodies
  • 12:12 – The specific burden carried by men
  • 15:25 – The "back heart" and the path to joy
  • 19:22 – Giving yourself the comfort you never got
  • 22:36 – Growing up in a family of "perfect" orphans
  • 28:26 – 15 minutes of "waking up" in 30 years
  • 31:47 – Crawling through the "muck tunnel" to safety
  • 35:16 – Reshuffling the puzzle pieces of your life 


]]> false full 62 <![CDATA[Andrew Cavanaugh: Marine Corps Veteran Mental Health & Overcoming PTSD | Ep. 61 ]]> What happens when the "stoic hero" identity you’ve built your life around is shattered by a single medical diagnosis? For many, the transition from the front lines to civilian life is a silent battle against an invisible enemy that doesn't follow the rules of engagement. Marine Corps Veteran Mental Health is more than just a clinical term; it is a raw, lived experience of navigating the heavy "backpack" of trauma long after the uniform is put away.

In this episode, Andrew Cavanaugh shares his profound transformation from a 9/11-inspired enlistee to a combat veteran grappling with a chronic PTSD diagnosis. He reveals the specific "method to the madness" of Marine Corps training and the pivotal moment a simple question from his wife shifted his perspective from a lens of destruction to one of humanity. Listeners will discover how to reframe their own "lived experience" and find the courage to prioritize human connection over stoic isolation

How to Transition from Combat Stoicism to Emotional Healing

The military trains individuals to push down fear to accomplish the mission, but this survival mechanism can become a barrier in civilian life. Learning to "unpack the backpack" of trauma requires moving past the stoic mask to address the deep-seated emotions that were deferred during active duty.

The Impact of a Chronic PTSD Diagnosis on Identity

Being labeled with a disorder by a medical professional can feel like being "punched in the stomach," often causing veterans to adopt a "hero to zero" mentality. True recovery involves recognizing that a diagnosis is a human response to extreme events, not a permanent definition of one's character.

Finding Hope Through Positive Reframing and Connection

Healing often begins by asking a different set of questions, such as "Did anything good happen?" to break the cycle of remembering only the worst moments. Reconnecting with those who shared the experience provides the "closure" and "language" necessary to move toward a life lived to the fullest.

Links & Networking

Disclaimer: The TURTZED Podcast reflects the opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. Content is for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare provider for advice tailored to your individual needs. For the full disclaimer, visit our website.


  • 00:00 – The "Right Now" Phone Call That Changed Everything
  • 02:27 – Watching 9/11 from an Alternative High School
  • 03:57 – The "Superman" Myth: Why We Seek Stoicism
  • 05:49 – No Time for Goodbyes: Heading to San Diego
  • 08:17 – The Yellow Footprints and the "Last Time" You’re a Civilian
  • 10:34 – Method to the Madness: Why Drill Instructors Act Like "Demons"
  • 13:58 – The Seven-Day Out-Processing Trap
  • 17:42 – The Eight-Page Report That Felt Like a Punch in the Stomach
  • 20:56 – From Hero to Zero: Wearing the PTSD Identity
  • 24:12 – The One Question from His Wife That Broke the Darkness
  • 29:53 – The Box of "Marine Stuff": A Family’s Incredible Act of Respect
  • 32:19 – Breaking Bread in a War Zone: Humanity Under Fire
  • 37:02 – The "Foreign Country" Feeling of Long-Term Isolation
  • 44:34 – The Jordanian Special Forces Message: Finding True Closure
  • 51:43 – The 90/10 Rule: How Attitude Dictates Survival
  • 53:54 – The Saturday Text Message That Saved a Life 


]]> Wed, 25 Mar 2026 04:30:00 -0400 https://www.turtzed.com/podcast 58:12 What happens when the "stoic hero" identity you’ve built your life around is shattered by a single medical diagnosis? For many, the transition from the front lines to civilian life is a silent battle against an invisible enemy that doesn't follow the rules of engagement. Marine Corps Veteran Mental Health is more than just a clinical term; it is a raw, lived experience of navigating the heavy "backpack" of trauma long after the uniform is put away.

In this episode, Andrew Cavanaugh shares his profound transformation from a 9/11-inspired enlistee to a combat veteran grappling with a chronic PTSD diagnosis. He reveals the specific "method to the madness" of Marine Corps training and the pivotal moment a simple question from his wife shifted his perspective from a lens of destruction to one of humanity. Listeners will discover how to reframe their own "lived experience" and find the courage to prioritize human connection over stoic isolation

How to Transition from Combat Stoicism to Emotional Healing

The military trains individuals to push down fear to accomplish the mission, but this survival mechanism can become a barrier in civilian life. Learning to "unpack the backpack" of trauma requires moving past the stoic mask to address the deep-seated emotions that were deferred during active duty.

The Impact of a Chronic PTSD Diagnosis on Identity

Being labeled with a disorder by a medical professional can feel like being "punched in the stomach," often causing veterans to adopt a "hero to zero" mentality. True recovery involves recognizing that a diagnosis is a human response to extreme events, not a permanent definition of one's character.

Finding Hope Through Positive Reframing and Connection

Healing often begins by asking a different set of questions, such as "Did anything good happen?" to break the cycle of remembering only the worst moments. Reconnecting with those who shared the experience provides the "closure" and "language" necessary to move toward a life lived to the fullest.

Links & Networking

Disclaimer: The TURTZED Podcast reflects the opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. Content is for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare provider for advice tailored to your individual needs. For the full disclaimer, visit our website.


  • 00:00 – The "Right Now" Phone Call That Changed Everything
  • 02:27 – Watching 9/11 from an Alternative High School
  • 03:57 – The "Superman" Myth: Why We Seek Stoicism
  • 05:49 – No Time for Goodbyes: Heading to San Diego
  • 08:17 – The Yellow Footprints and the "Last Time" You’re a Civilian
  • 10:34 – Method to the Madness: Why Drill Instructors Act Like "Demons"
  • 13:58 – The Seven-Day Out-Processing Trap
  • 17:42 – The Eight-Page Report That Felt Like a Punch in the Stomach
  • 20:56 – From Hero to Zero: Wearing the PTSD Identity
  • 24:12 – The One Question from His Wife That Broke the Darkness
  • 29:53 – The Box of "Marine Stuff": A Family’s Incredible Act of Respect
  • 32:19 – Breaking Bread in a War Zone: Humanity Under Fire
  • 37:02 – The "Foreign Country" Feeling of Long-Term Isolation
  • 44:34 – The Jordanian Special Forces Message: Finding True Closure
  • 51:43 – The 90/10 Rule: How Attitude Dictates Survival
  • 53:54 – The Saturday Text Message That Saved a Life 


]]> What happens when the "stoic hero" identity you’ve built your life around is shattered by a single medical diagnosis? For many, the transition from the front lines to civilian life is a silent battle against an invisible enemy that doesn't follow the rules of engagement. Marine Corps Veteran Mental Health is more than just a clinical term; it is a raw, lived experience of navigating the heavy "backpack" of trauma long after the uniform is put away.

In this episode, Andrew Cavanaugh shares his profound transformation from a 9/11-inspired enlistee to a combat veteran grappling with a chronic PTSD diagnosis. He reveals the specific "method to the madness" of Marine Corps training and the pivotal moment a simple question from his wife shifted his perspective from a lens of destruction to one of humanity. Listeners will discover how to reframe their own "lived experience" and find the courage to prioritize human connection over stoic isolation

How to Transition from Combat Stoicism to Emotional Healing

The military trains individuals to push down fear to accomplish the mission, but this survival mechanism can become a barrier in civilian life. Learning to "unpack the backpack" of trauma requires moving past the stoic mask to address the deep-seated emotions that were deferred during active duty.

The Impact of a Chronic PTSD Diagnosis on Identity

Being labeled with a disorder by a medical professional can feel like being "punched in the stomach," often causing veterans to adopt a "hero to zero" mentality. True recovery involves recognizing that a diagnosis is a human response to extreme events, not a permanent definition of one's character.

Finding Hope Through Positive Reframing and Connection

Healing often begins by asking a different set of questions, such as "Did anything good happen?" to break the cycle of remembering only the worst moments. Reconnecting with those who shared the experience provides the "closure" and "language" necessary to move toward a life lived to the fullest.

Links & Networking

Disclaimer: The TURTZED Podcast reflects the opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. Content is for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare provider for advice tailored to your individual needs. For the full disclaimer, visit our website.


  • 00:00 – The "Right Now" Phone Call That Changed Everything
  • 02:27 – Watching 9/11 from an Alternative High School
  • 03:57 – The "Superman" Myth: Why We Seek Stoicism
  • 05:49 – No Time for Goodbyes: Heading to San Diego
  • 08:17 – The Yellow Footprints and the "Last Time" You’re a Civilian
  • 10:34 – Method to the Madness: Why Drill Instructors Act Like "Demons"
  • 13:58 – The Seven-Day Out-Processing Trap
  • 17:42 – The Eight-Page Report That Felt Like a Punch in the Stomach
  • 20:56 – From Hero to Zero: Wearing the PTSD Identity
  • 24:12 – The One Question from His Wife That Broke the Darkness
  • 29:53 – The Box of "Marine Stuff": A Family’s Incredible Act of Respect
  • 32:19 – Breaking Bread in a War Zone: Humanity Under Fire
  • 37:02 – The "Foreign Country" Feeling of Long-Term Isolation
  • 44:34 – The Jordanian Special Forces Message: Finding True Closure
  • 51:43 – The 90/10 Rule: How Attitude Dictates Survival
  • 53:54 – The Saturday Text Message That Saved a Life 


]]> false full 61 <![CDATA[Bettina Gordon: How to Heal Your Body with Your Mind & Reverse Biological Age | Ep. 60]]> Can your mind truly command your biology to repair itself from within? Most of us view health as something that happens to us, but the truth is that your body possesses an incredible, untapped agency to overcome even the most daunting physical challenges. In this episode, we dive into the radical realization that the same body that created a condition often holds the exact blueprint required to heal it.

Join us as Bettina Gordon shares her profound insights on the intersection of mindset, resilience, and the science of aging. Bettina Gordon explains how shifting from a state of self-critique to one of radical self-love can actually trigger biological age reversal. You will walk away with a reclaimed sense of power over your own health journey and a "one step at a time" strategy for long-term vitality.

How to Trigger Biological Age Reversal

Biological aging isn't just about the passage of time; it is deeply influenced by your internal environment. Bettina Gordon highlights that shifting your mentality to one of self-love and support rather than constant critique can actually help with biological age reversal.

The Strategy for Self-Healing and Agency

We often feel like victims of our health, but we actually have immense agency over the next season of our lives. By adopting the right strategy, you can improve your strength, power, and resilience, recognizing that your body has the innate capability to heal what it has created.

Using Travel and Nature for Mental Rejuvenation

Rejuvenation often requires finding specific environments that allow for peace and "reshaping" your thoughts. Whether it's the warmth of the sun or the physical challenge of skiing, identifying the elements that revitalize you is essential for pushing through difficult life moments.

Links & Networking

Disclaimer: The TURTZED Podcast reflects the opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. Content is for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare provider for advice tailored to your individual needs. For the full disclaimer, visit our website.

  • 00:00 – The "little things" that pile up into massive energy.
  • 00:10 – Why you actually have two different ages.
  • 01:34 – Redefining aging: Battle vs. Alignment.
  • 03:02 – The "ticking time bomb" myth for women over 35.
  • 05:41 – The moment a "healthy" person gets an invasive diagnosis.
  • 07:41 – Why "longevity" isn't enough without optimal health.
  • 08:18 – The hidden danger of the "Cancer Warrior" mentality.
  • 10:14 – What your body is actually saying when it gets sick.
  • 11:51 – How your biological age can move backward.
  • 14:15 – Why fixing the "facade" won't save your foundation.
  • 17:37 – How to avoid the "slow death" of chronic disease.
  • 21:15 – The shocking results of the Counter-Clockwise study.
  • 23:44 – The surprising link between travel and younger cells.
  • 26:31 – Simple steps to stop your energy from leaking.
  • 28:25 – The one sentence that changed Bettina’s healing journey.
  • 31:50 – Why sharing your pain is a vital part of the process.


]]> Wed, 18 Mar 2026 04:30:00 -0400 https://www.turtzed.com/podcast 32:51 Can your mind truly command your biology to repair itself from within? Most of us view health as something that happens to us, but the truth is that your body possesses an incredible, untapped agency to overcome even the most daunting physical challenges. In this episode, we dive into the radical realization that the same body that created a condition often holds the exact blueprint required to heal it.

Join us as Bettina Gordon shares her profound insights on the intersection of mindset, resilience, and the science of aging. Bettina Gordon explains how shifting from a state of self-critique to one of radical self-love can actually trigger biological age reversal. You will walk away with a reclaimed sense of power over your own health journey and a "one step at a time" strategy for long-term vitality.

How to Trigger Biological Age Reversal

Biological aging isn't just about the passage of time; it is deeply influenced by your internal environment. Bettina Gordon highlights that shifting your mentality to one of self-love and support rather than constant critique can actually help with biological age reversal.

The Strategy for Self-Healing and Agency

We often feel like victims of our health, but we actually have immense agency over the next season of our lives. By adopting the right strategy, you can improve your strength, power, and resilience, recognizing that your body has the innate capability to heal what it has created.

Using Travel and Nature for Mental Rejuvenation

Rejuvenation often requires finding specific environments that allow for peace and "reshaping" your thoughts. Whether it's the warmth of the sun or the physical challenge of skiing, identifying the elements that revitalize you is essential for pushing through difficult life moments.

Links & Networking

Disclaimer: The TURTZED Podcast reflects the opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. Content is for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare provider for advice tailored to your individual needs. For the full disclaimer, visit our website.

  • 00:00 – The "little things" that pile up into massive energy.
  • 00:10 – Why you actually have two different ages.
  • 01:34 – Redefining aging: Battle vs. Alignment.
  • 03:02 – The "ticking time bomb" myth for women over 35.
  • 05:41 – The moment a "healthy" person gets an invasive diagnosis.
  • 07:41 – Why "longevity" isn't enough without optimal health.
  • 08:18 – The hidden danger of the "Cancer Warrior" mentality.
  • 10:14 – What your body is actually saying when it gets sick.
  • 11:51 – How your biological age can move backward.
  • 14:15 – Why fixing the "facade" won't save your foundation.
  • 17:37 – How to avoid the "slow death" of chronic disease.
  • 21:15 – The shocking results of the Counter-Clockwise study.
  • 23:44 – The surprising link between travel and younger cells.
  • 26:31 – Simple steps to stop your energy from leaking.
  • 28:25 – The one sentence that changed Bettina’s healing journey.
  • 31:50 – Why sharing your pain is a vital part of the process.


]]> Can your mind truly command your biology to repair itself from within? Most of us view health as something that happens to us, but the truth is that your body possesses an incredible, untapped agency to overcome even the most daunting physical challenges. In this episode, we dive into the radical realization that the same body that created a condition often holds the exact blueprint required to heal it.

Join us as Bettina Gordon shares her profound insights on the intersection of mindset, resilience, and the science of aging. Bettina Gordon explains how shifting from a state of self-critique to one of radical self-love can actually trigger biological age reversal. You will walk away with a reclaimed sense of power over your own health journey and a "one step at a time" strategy for long-term vitality.

How to Trigger Biological Age Reversal

Biological aging isn't just about the passage of time; it is deeply influenced by your internal environment. Bettina Gordon highlights that shifting your mentality to one of self-love and support rather than constant critique can actually help with biological age reversal.

The Strategy for Self-Healing and Agency

We often feel like victims of our health, but we actually have immense agency over the next season of our lives. By adopting the right strategy, you can improve your strength, power, and resilience, recognizing that your body has the innate capability to heal what it has created.

Using Travel and Nature for Mental Rejuvenation

Rejuvenation often requires finding specific environments that allow for peace and "reshaping" your thoughts. Whether it's the warmth of the sun or the physical challenge of skiing, identifying the elements that revitalize you is essential for pushing through difficult life moments.

Links & Networking

Disclaimer: The TURTZED Podcast reflects the opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. Content is for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare provider for advice tailored to your individual needs. For the full disclaimer, visit our website.

  • 00:00 – The "little things" that pile up into massive energy.
  • 00:10 – Why you actually have two different ages.
  • 01:34 – Redefining aging: Battle vs. Alignment.
  • 03:02 – The "ticking time bomb" myth for women over 35.
  • 05:41 – The moment a "healthy" person gets an invasive diagnosis.
  • 07:41 – Why "longevity" isn't enough without optimal health.
  • 08:18 – The hidden danger of the "Cancer Warrior" mentality.
  • 10:14 – What your body is actually saying when it gets sick.
  • 11:51 – How your biological age can move backward.
  • 14:15 – Why fixing the "facade" won't save your foundation.
  • 17:37 – How to avoid the "slow death" of chronic disease.
  • 21:15 – The shocking results of the Counter-Clockwise study.
  • 23:44 – The surprising link between travel and younger cells.
  • 26:31 – Simple steps to stop your energy from leaking.
  • 28:25 – The one sentence that changed Bettina’s healing journey.
  • 31:50 – Why sharing your pain is a vital part of the process.


]]> false full 60 <![CDATA[Terence Turner: Stop Letting Fear Dictate Your Life | Ep. 59]]> Is fear the silent architect of your life, building walls where there should be doors? When we allow anxiety to make our choices, we trade our potential for a false sense of security that eventually becomes a cage.


In this moving conversation, Terence Turner shares how to dismantle the barriers of fear and reconnect with the intuitive voices that guide our true path. From the powerful symbol of a grandmother’s cowbell to the literal "spirits" that grew louder in the wake of loss, Terence Turner illustrates how putting in the work and trusting yourself can lead to a more authentic, connected existence.

How to Stop Letting Fear Dictate Your Decisions

Most people avoid the hard work of self-reflection until they can no longer escape the consequences of their stagnation. Breaking this cycle requires an active choice to trust your intuition over your anxieties.

Connecting with Your Intuition After Loss

Grief often acts as a catalyst that thins the veil between us and our inner guidance. Learning to acknowledge these "louder voices" can provide a permanent sense of direction and comfort even in the absence of loved ones.

The Power of Symbols in Personal Transformation

Whether it is a tattoo of a cowbell or a fishhook, physical reminders serve as anchors for our spiritual growth. These symbols help shift our perspective and ensure that the lessons from our past stay present in our daily actions.


Links & Networking

Disclaimer: The TURTZED Podcast reflects the opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. Content is for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare provider for advice tailored to your individual needs. For the full disclaimer, visit our website.

  • 00:00 – The passion for unlocking inner wisdom
  • 01:15 – Why adults bury their natural intuition
  • 01:53 – The birthday present jackpot and early "knowing"
  • 03:15 – The breakfast table "knife incident" and family secrets
  • 04:57 – Being called "crazy" for seeing the truth
  • 06:15 – How to build a "meaning library" for your senses
  • 07:23 – The danger of looking for validation in others
  • 09:41 – How modern routines are "screwing with" your gut
  • 11:11 – The car accident vision and the puzzle of interpretation
  • 13:53 – The battle between love, ego, and intuition
  • 16:17 – Why your fear response might be a "yes"
  • 18:49 – Why you probably have a million soulmates
  • 21:02 – Helping others embrace their "crazy" quirks
  • 25:36 – Overcoming the "fraud" voice within
  • 29:37 – The wealthy uncle and the calendar truth
  • 35:17 – The difference between being connected and actual connection
  • 41:16 – The 3-hour drive dilemma: Being the adult in the room
  • 45:56 – The permanent symbol of the cowbell
]]> Wed, 11 Mar 2026 04:30:00 -0400 https://www.turtzed.com/podcast 54:28 Is fear the silent architect of your life, building walls where there should be doors? When we allow anxiety to make our choices, we trade our potential for a false sense of security that eventually becomes a cage.


In this moving conversation, Terence Turner shares how to dismantle the barriers of fear and reconnect with the intuitive voices that guide our true path. From the powerful symbol of a grandmother’s cowbell to the literal "spirits" that grew louder in the wake of loss, Terence Turner illustrates how putting in the work and trusting yourself can lead to a more authentic, connected existence.

How to Stop Letting Fear Dictate Your Decisions

Most people avoid the hard work of self-reflection until they can no longer escape the consequences of their stagnation. Breaking this cycle requires an active choice to trust your intuition over your anxieties.

Connecting with Your Intuition After Loss

Grief often acts as a catalyst that thins the veil between us and our inner guidance. Learning to acknowledge these "louder voices" can provide a permanent sense of direction and comfort even in the absence of loved ones.

The Power of Symbols in Personal Transformation

Whether it is a tattoo of a cowbell or a fishhook, physical reminders serve as anchors for our spiritual growth. These symbols help shift our perspective and ensure that the lessons from our past stay present in our daily actions.


Links & Networking

Disclaimer: The TURTZED Podcast reflects the opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. Content is for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare provider for advice tailored to your individual needs. For the full disclaimer, visit our website.

  • 00:00 – The passion for unlocking inner wisdom
  • 01:15 – Why adults bury their natural intuition
  • 01:53 – The birthday present jackpot and early "knowing"
  • 03:15 – The breakfast table "knife incident" and family secrets
  • 04:57 – Being called "crazy" for seeing the truth
  • 06:15 – How to build a "meaning library" for your senses
  • 07:23 – The danger of looking for validation in others
  • 09:41 – How modern routines are "screwing with" your gut
  • 11:11 – The car accident vision and the puzzle of interpretation
  • 13:53 – The battle between love, ego, and intuition
  • 16:17 – Why your fear response might be a "yes"
  • 18:49 – Why you probably have a million soulmates
  • 21:02 – Helping others embrace their "crazy" quirks
  • 25:36 – Overcoming the "fraud" voice within
  • 29:37 – The wealthy uncle and the calendar truth
  • 35:17 – The difference between being connected and actual connection
  • 41:16 – The 3-hour drive dilemma: Being the adult in the room
  • 45:56 – The permanent symbol of the cowbell
]]> Is fear the silent architect of your life, building walls where there should be doors? When we allow anxiety to make our choices, we trade our potential for a false sense of security that eventually becomes a cage.


In this moving conversation, Terence Turner shares how to dismantle the barriers of fear and reconnect with the intuitive voices that guide our true path. From the powerful symbol of a grandmother’s cowbell to the literal "spirits" that grew louder in the wake of loss, Terence Turner illustrates how putting in the work and trusting yourself can lead to a more authentic, connected existence.

How to Stop Letting Fear Dictate Your Decisions

Most people avoid the hard work of self-reflection until they can no longer escape the consequences of their stagnation. Breaking this cycle requires an active choice to trust your intuition over your anxieties.

Connecting with Your Intuition After Loss

Grief often acts as a catalyst that thins the veil between us and our inner guidance. Learning to acknowledge these "louder voices" can provide a permanent sense of direction and comfort even in the absence of loved ones.

The Power of Symbols in Personal Transformation

Whether it is a tattoo of a cowbell or a fishhook, physical reminders serve as anchors for our spiritual growth. These symbols help shift our perspective and ensure that the lessons from our past stay present in our daily actions.


Links & Networking

Disclaimer: The TURTZED Podcast reflects the opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. Content is for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare provider for advice tailored to your individual needs. For the full disclaimer, visit our website.

  • 00:00 – The passion for unlocking inner wisdom
  • 01:15 – Why adults bury their natural intuition
  • 01:53 – The birthday present jackpot and early "knowing"
  • 03:15 – The breakfast table "knife incident" and family secrets
  • 04:57 – Being called "crazy" for seeing the truth
  • 06:15 – How to build a "meaning library" for your senses
  • 07:23 – The danger of looking for validation in others
  • 09:41 – How modern routines are "screwing with" your gut
  • 11:11 – The car accident vision and the puzzle of interpretation
  • 13:53 – The battle between love, ego, and intuition
  • 16:17 – Why your fear response might be a "yes"
  • 18:49 – Why you probably have a million soulmates
  • 21:02 – Helping others embrace their "crazy" quirks
  • 25:36 – Overcoming the "fraud" voice within
  • 29:37 – The wealthy uncle and the calendar truth
  • 35:17 – The difference between being connected and actual connection
  • 41:16 – The 3-hour drive dilemma: Being the adult in the room
  • 45:56 – The permanent symbol of the cowbell
]]> false full 59 <![CDATA[Diana Stafford: Root Cause of Chronic Illness & Functional Medicine | Ep. 58]]> Are you suffering from symptoms that your doctor says are "all in your head" or "just anxiety"? If you are in danger on a cellular level, you will never be able to heal, and today we are identifying the root cause of chronic illness through the lens of functional medicine.

In this episode, Diana Stafford shares her transition from a traditional primary care physician to a functional medicine specialist after her own family was "slammed" by the debilitating effects of toxic mold. You will learn how to move beyond "Band-Aid" solutions and understand the critical link between nervous system regulation, environmental toxins, and your body's innate ability to rebalance.

Why traditional medicine fails chronic illness

Traditional medicine often relies on five-minute visits and prescriptions that address symptoms rather than continuity of care or investigating the underlying "why" behind an illness.

How to identify the cell danger response

When your body senses a threat—whether from toxins like mold or emotional trauma—your cells enter a "danger response" that releases inflammatory mediators, making it impossible to heal until safety is restored.

The role of nervous system regulation in recovery

You cannot "out-supplement" or "out-eat" a nervous system stuck in fight-or-flight; healing requires intentional tools to signal to your body that the environment is finally safe.

Understanding the hidden impact of toxic mold

Environmental toxins can manifest as a wide array of "medical mysteries," including extreme fatigue in toddlers, neurologic issues, and sudden onset depression or insomnia.


Links & Networking

Disclaimer: The TURTZED Podcast reflects the opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. Content is for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare provider for advice tailored to your individual needs. For the full disclaimer, visit our website.

  • 00:00 – The "detox" for when nobody is listening
  • 00:01 – Why a humanities student chose the "healer" path
  • 00:03 – The "five-minute visit" trap in modern medicine
  • 00:04 – When your husband's gut issues change your career
  • 00:05 – The "mold house" that changed everything
  • 00:06 – Why a two-year-old should never be "tired"
  • 00:08 – The meeting that ended a traditional medical career
  • 00:11 – Hearing the "whispers" of the body
  • 00:14 – The "Cell Danger Response" explained
  • 00:15 – Why breathing exercises are not just "fluff"
  • 00:18 – The secret to "personalized" protocols
  • 00:23 – Navigating the "medical gaslighting" of normal labs
  • 00:27 – Why your mindset dictates your recovery speed
  • 00:35 – Can you biohack your own genes?
  • 00:38 – The "Bucket Analogy" for toxic load
  • 00:43 – Is functional medicine the future of primary care?
  • 00:46 – Why your symptoms are never "all in your head"
  • 00:50 – The specific emotion that prevents physical healing
]]> Wed, 04 Mar 2026 04:30:00 -0500 https://www.turtzed.com/podcast 37:40 Are you suffering from symptoms that your doctor says are "all in your head" or "just anxiety"? If you are in danger on a cellular level, you will never be able to heal, and today we are identifying the root cause of chronic illness through the lens of functional medicine.

In this episode, Diana Stafford shares her transition from a traditional primary care physician to a functional medicine specialist after her own family was "slammed" by the debilitating effects of toxic mold. You will learn how to move beyond "Band-Aid" solutions and understand the critical link between nervous system regulation, environmental toxins, and your body's innate ability to rebalance.

Why traditional medicine fails chronic illness

Traditional medicine often relies on five-minute visits and prescriptions that address symptoms rather than continuity of care or investigating the underlying "why" behind an illness.

How to identify the cell danger response

When your body senses a threat—whether from toxins like mold or emotional trauma—your cells enter a "danger response" that releases inflammatory mediators, making it impossible to heal until safety is restored.

The role of nervous system regulation in recovery

You cannot "out-supplement" or "out-eat" a nervous system stuck in fight-or-flight; healing requires intentional tools to signal to your body that the environment is finally safe.

Understanding the hidden impact of toxic mold

Environmental toxins can manifest as a wide array of "medical mysteries," including extreme fatigue in toddlers, neurologic issues, and sudden onset depression or insomnia.


Links & Networking

Disclaimer: The TURTZED Podcast reflects the opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. Content is for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare provider for advice tailored to your individual needs. For the full disclaimer, visit our website.

  • 00:00 – The "detox" for when nobody is listening
  • 00:01 – Why a humanities student chose the "healer" path
  • 00:03 – The "five-minute visit" trap in modern medicine
  • 00:04 – When your husband's gut issues change your career
  • 00:05 – The "mold house" that changed everything
  • 00:06 – Why a two-year-old should never be "tired"
  • 00:08 – The meeting that ended a traditional medical career
  • 00:11 – Hearing the "whispers" of the body
  • 00:14 – The "Cell Danger Response" explained
  • 00:15 – Why breathing exercises are not just "fluff"
  • 00:18 – The secret to "personalized" protocols
  • 00:23 – Navigating the "medical gaslighting" of normal labs
  • 00:27 – Why your mindset dictates your recovery speed
  • 00:35 – Can you biohack your own genes?
  • 00:38 – The "Bucket Analogy" for toxic load
  • 00:43 – Is functional medicine the future of primary care?
  • 00:46 – Why your symptoms are never "all in your head"
  • 00:50 – The specific emotion that prevents physical healing
]]> Are you suffering from symptoms that your doctor says are "all in your head" or "just anxiety"? If you are in danger on a cellular level, you will never be able to heal, and today we are identifying the root cause of chronic illness through the lens of functional medicine.

In this episode, Diana Stafford shares her transition from a traditional primary care physician to a functional medicine specialist after her own family was "slammed" by the debilitating effects of toxic mold. You will learn how to move beyond "Band-Aid" solutions and understand the critical link between nervous system regulation, environmental toxins, and your body's innate ability to rebalance.

Why traditional medicine fails chronic illness

Traditional medicine often relies on five-minute visits and prescriptions that address symptoms rather than continuity of care or investigating the underlying "why" behind an illness.

How to identify the cell danger response

When your body senses a threat—whether from toxins like mold or emotional trauma—your cells enter a "danger response" that releases inflammatory mediators, making it impossible to heal until safety is restored.

The role of nervous system regulation in recovery

You cannot "out-supplement" or "out-eat" a nervous system stuck in fight-or-flight; healing requires intentional tools to signal to your body that the environment is finally safe.

Understanding the hidden impact of toxic mold

Environmental toxins can manifest as a wide array of "medical mysteries," including extreme fatigue in toddlers, neurologic issues, and sudden onset depression or insomnia.


Links & Networking

Disclaimer: The TURTZED Podcast reflects the opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. Content is for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare provider for advice tailored to your individual needs. For the full disclaimer, visit our website.

  • 00:00 – The "detox" for when nobody is listening
  • 00:01 – Why a humanities student chose the "healer" path
  • 00:03 – The "five-minute visit" trap in modern medicine
  • 00:04 – When your husband's gut issues change your career
  • 00:05 – The "mold house" that changed everything
  • 00:06 – Why a two-year-old should never be "tired"
  • 00:08 – The meeting that ended a traditional medical career
  • 00:11 – Hearing the "whispers" of the body
  • 00:14 – The "Cell Danger Response" explained
  • 00:15 – Why breathing exercises are not just "fluff"
  • 00:18 – The secret to "personalized" protocols
  • 00:23 – Navigating the "medical gaslighting" of normal labs
  • 00:27 – Why your mindset dictates your recovery speed
  • 00:35 – Can you biohack your own genes?
  • 00:38 – The "Bucket Analogy" for toxic load
  • 00:43 – Is functional medicine the future of primary care?
  • 00:46 – Why your symptoms are never "all in your head"
  • 00:50 – The specific emotion that prevents physical healing
]]> false full 58 <![CDATA[Struggle Jennings: Parenting, Life After Incarceration & Building a Legacy | Ep. 57]]> Could you look at your children today and see the "warrior" that carried them through your darkest moments? For those who have faced the justice system, the hardest battle isn't the one behind bars—it’s the uphill climb to regain custody, rebuild trust, and prove you can be the father your children deserve.

In this raw and deeply personal conversation, Struggle Jennings opens up about the emotional weight of being his own "worst critic" while raising children who have seen it all. From the trauma of losing a mother to drug overdose to the triumph of a daughter starting a foundation for foster youth, Struggle Jennings illustrates a powerful transformation from a man in a cell to a father fueling his children's success.

How to Overcome Parental Guilt After Prison

It is common to feel you could always be better, but the real measure of success is the stability you build after the storm. Struggle Jennings discusses the necessity of self-forgiveness and the relentless drive required to regain custody and provide a life where your children can finally feel "free."

Breaking the Cycle of Generational Trauma

Children often carry the heavy burdens of their parents' pasts, sometimes choosing to take on extra responsibility to protect the family. By observing how his daughter handles her senior year and her "Foster in the Future" foundation, Struggle highlights how children of incarcerated parents can emerge from "trap houses" to become straight-A students and community leaders.

The Power of Being a "Warrior" Parent

Transformation isn't a single moment; it is a years-long process of fighting with your back against the wall. This episode explores the "warrior inside" that allows families to move from homelessness and foster care to a life of faith, work ethic, and academic achievement at institutions like Wofford.


Links & Networking


Disclaimer: The TURTZED Podcast reflects the opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. Content is for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare provider for advice tailored to your individual needs. For the full disclaimer, visit our website.

  • 00:00 – The surrender at the breaking point
  • 00:10 – Why humans hide their greatest struggles
  • 02:00 – Using mistakes as a motivation for greatness
  • 05:06 – Why your past should refine, not define you
  • 06:10 – Straddling the tracks: Blue-collar roots vs. the Jennings legacy
  • 08:34 – Learning resilience from the hope of a child
  • 10:15 – When the family becomes the victim of the crime
  • 13:12 – The "Macaroni and Cheese" phone call from jail
  • 16:20 – The terrifying reality of looking in the mirror
  • 18:15 – Processing the truth about a father’s passing
  • 21:35 – Filming a music video behind prison bars
  • 27:15 – Why Waylon Jennings would respect the "Country Rap" hustle
  • 35:22 – Watching a daughter turn trauma into a foundation
  • 40:06 – The ten-year milestone of freedom
  • 46:00 – Telling Child Services: "Be hard on me"
  • 51:15 – From the projects to the castle: Speaking it into existence
  • 58:00 – The parable of the farmer and the weeds
]]> Wed, 25 Feb 2026 04:30:00 -0500 https://www.turtzed.com/podcast 59:31 Could you look at your children today and see the "warrior" that carried them through your darkest moments? For those who have faced the justice system, the hardest battle isn't the one behind bars—it’s the uphill climb to regain custody, rebuild trust, and prove you can be the father your children deserve.

In this raw and deeply personal conversation, Struggle Jennings opens up about the emotional weight of being his own "worst critic" while raising children who have seen it all. From the trauma of losing a mother to drug overdose to the triumph of a daughter starting a foundation for foster youth, Struggle Jennings illustrates a powerful transformation from a man in a cell to a father fueling his children's success.

How to Overcome Parental Guilt After Prison

It is common to feel you could always be better, but the real measure of success is the stability you build after the storm. Struggle Jennings discusses the necessity of self-forgiveness and the relentless drive required to regain custody and provide a life where your children can finally feel "free."

Breaking the Cycle of Generational Trauma

Children often carry the heavy burdens of their parents' pasts, sometimes choosing to take on extra responsibility to protect the family. By observing how his daughter handles her senior year and her "Foster in the Future" foundation, Struggle highlights how children of incarcerated parents can emerge from "trap houses" to become straight-A students and community leaders.

The Power of Being a "Warrior" Parent

Transformation isn't a single moment; it is a years-long process of fighting with your back against the wall. This episode explores the "warrior inside" that allows families to move from homelessness and foster care to a life of faith, work ethic, and academic achievement at institutions like Wofford.


Links & Networking


Disclaimer: The TURTZED Podcast reflects the opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. Content is for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare provider for advice tailored to your individual needs. For the full disclaimer, visit our website.

  • 00:00 – The surrender at the breaking point
  • 00:10 – Why humans hide their greatest struggles
  • 02:00 – Using mistakes as a motivation for greatness
  • 05:06 – Why your past should refine, not define you
  • 06:10 – Straddling the tracks: Blue-collar roots vs. the Jennings legacy
  • 08:34 – Learning resilience from the hope of a child
  • 10:15 – When the family becomes the victim of the crime
  • 13:12 – The "Macaroni and Cheese" phone call from jail
  • 16:20 – The terrifying reality of looking in the mirror
  • 18:15 – Processing the truth about a father’s passing
  • 21:35 – Filming a music video behind prison bars
  • 27:15 – Why Waylon Jennings would respect the "Country Rap" hustle
  • 35:22 – Watching a daughter turn trauma into a foundation
  • 40:06 – The ten-year milestone of freedom
  • 46:00 – Telling Child Services: "Be hard on me"
  • 51:15 – From the projects to the castle: Speaking it into existence
  • 58:00 – The parable of the farmer and the weeds
]]> Could you look at your children today and see the "warrior" that carried them through your darkest moments? For those who have faced the justice system, the hardest battle isn't the one behind bars—it’s the uphill climb to regain custody, rebuild trust, and prove you can be the father your children deserve.

In this raw and deeply personal conversation, Struggle Jennings opens up about the emotional weight of being his own "worst critic" while raising children who have seen it all. From the trauma of losing a mother to drug overdose to the triumph of a daughter starting a foundation for foster youth, Struggle Jennings illustrates a powerful transformation from a man in a cell to a father fueling his children's success.

How to Overcome Parental Guilt After Prison

It is common to feel you could always be better, but the real measure of success is the stability you build after the storm. Struggle Jennings discusses the necessity of self-forgiveness and the relentless drive required to regain custody and provide a life where your children can finally feel "free."

Breaking the Cycle of Generational Trauma

Children often carry the heavy burdens of their parents' pasts, sometimes choosing to take on extra responsibility to protect the family. By observing how his daughter handles her senior year and her "Foster in the Future" foundation, Struggle highlights how children of incarcerated parents can emerge from "trap houses" to become straight-A students and community leaders.

The Power of Being a "Warrior" Parent

Transformation isn't a single moment; it is a years-long process of fighting with your back against the wall. This episode explores the "warrior inside" that allows families to move from homelessness and foster care to a life of faith, work ethic, and academic achievement at institutions like Wofford.


Links & Networking


Disclaimer: The TURTZED Podcast reflects the opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. Content is for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare provider for advice tailored to your individual needs. For the full disclaimer, visit our website.

  • 00:00 – The surrender at the breaking point
  • 00:10 – Why humans hide their greatest struggles
  • 02:00 – Using mistakes as a motivation for greatness
  • 05:06 – Why your past should refine, not define you
  • 06:10 – Straddling the tracks: Blue-collar roots vs. the Jennings legacy
  • 08:34 – Learning resilience from the hope of a child
  • 10:15 – When the family becomes the victim of the crime
  • 13:12 – The "Macaroni and Cheese" phone call from jail
  • 16:20 – The terrifying reality of looking in the mirror
  • 18:15 – Processing the truth about a father’s passing
  • 21:35 – Filming a music video behind prison bars
  • 27:15 – Why Waylon Jennings would respect the "Country Rap" hustle
  • 35:22 – Watching a daughter turn trauma into a foundation
  • 40:06 – The ten-year milestone of freedom
  • 46:00 – Telling Child Services: "Be hard on me"
  • 51:15 – From the projects to the castle: Speaking it into existence
  • 58:00 – The parable of the farmer and the weeds
]]> false full 57 <![CDATA[Darren Hobbs: Overcoming Addiction and Finding Purpose | Ep. 56]]> How do you find the strength to stop digging when you’ve already hit rock bottom and burned every bridge behind you? Facing 12 to 20 years on drug charges, Darren Hobbs found himself in a jail cell, completely alone, and realized that his survival depended on a radical, honest transformation.

In this raw and deeply moving episode, Darren Hobbs shares his journey from "chameleon syndrome" and a teenage Vicodin prescription to becoming a leader in the intervention space. Listeners will learn how to shift their focus from selfish problems to gratitude, the importance of "burning the boats" to ensure recovery, and how to stop negotiating with addiction to finally find a life worth living. 

How to Stop Negotiating with Addiction

True change only begins when you stop making deals with yourself and your circumstances. Darren discusses the "magical moment" of realizing he was truly alone and the power of a prayer that asked for internal change rather than an escape from external consequences.

The Power of Focus in Recovery

What you focus on becomes your reality. Darren explains how shifting from an anxious, self-centered mindset to one rooted in daily gratitude and helping others can physically and emotionally transform your trajectory.

Why "Burning the Boats" is Necessary for Growth

To move forward, you must remove the possibility of retreat. Inspired by a friend’s advice, Darren explores the concept of taking decisive action and leaving no route to escape back into old, destructive habits.


Links & Networking

Disclaimer: The TURTZED Podcast reflects the opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. Content is for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare provider for advice tailored to your individual needs. For the full disclaimer, visit our website.

  • 00:00 – The privilege of being honest with yourself
  • 01:03 – Why a "train wreck" life is a recovery honor
  • 02:12 – The smart guy’s advice for someone in a hole
  • 04:50 – A "Sanford and Son" version of the third step prayer
  • 07:01 – The first day of school and the " Dominican" discipline
  • 10:44 – Why being "Mama’s little angel" wasn't enough
  • 11:23 – The "magic prescription" that made his teeth whiter
  • 15:37 – The Arkansas ID and the man named "Zeus"
  • 18:52 – The exotic confidence of a "middleman" drug dealer
  • 21:55 – A stadium cup, a wheelchair, and a win streak ended
  • 23:56 – The desperate plea: "Mom, please make it stop"
  • 29:03 – Hearing the words: "You’re dead to me"
  • 32:21 – The mathematical error that God provided
  • 38:37 – Why being the "poop picker upper" was a gift
  • 43:51 – The relief of being "too chubby" for the wrong attention
  • 48:01 – Why hope is a better drug than cocaine
  • 50:25 – The friend’s command to "burn the motherf***ing boats"
]]> Wed, 18 Feb 2026 04:30:00 -0500 https://www.turtzed.com/podcast 56:25 How do you find the strength to stop digging when you’ve already hit rock bottom and burned every bridge behind you? Facing 12 to 20 years on drug charges, Darren Hobbs found himself in a jail cell, completely alone, and realized that his survival depended on a radical, honest transformation.

In this raw and deeply moving episode, Darren Hobbs shares his journey from "chameleon syndrome" and a teenage Vicodin prescription to becoming a leader in the intervention space. Listeners will learn how to shift their focus from selfish problems to gratitude, the importance of "burning the boats" to ensure recovery, and how to stop negotiating with addiction to finally find a life worth living. 

How to Stop Negotiating with Addiction

True change only begins when you stop making deals with yourself and your circumstances. Darren discusses the "magical moment" of realizing he was truly alone and the power of a prayer that asked for internal change rather than an escape from external consequences.

The Power of Focus in Recovery

What you focus on becomes your reality. Darren explains how shifting from an anxious, self-centered mindset to one rooted in daily gratitude and helping others can physically and emotionally transform your trajectory.

Why "Burning the Boats" is Necessary for Growth

To move forward, you must remove the possibility of retreat. Inspired by a friend’s advice, Darren explores the concept of taking decisive action and leaving no route to escape back into old, destructive habits.


Links & Networking

Disclaimer: The TURTZED Podcast reflects the opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. Content is for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare provider for advice tailored to your individual needs. For the full disclaimer, visit our website.

  • 00:00 – The privilege of being honest with yourself
  • 01:03 – Why a "train wreck" life is a recovery honor
  • 02:12 – The smart guy’s advice for someone in a hole
  • 04:50 – A "Sanford and Son" version of the third step prayer
  • 07:01 – The first day of school and the " Dominican" discipline
  • 10:44 – Why being "Mama’s little angel" wasn't enough
  • 11:23 – The "magic prescription" that made his teeth whiter
  • 15:37 – The Arkansas ID and the man named "Zeus"
  • 18:52 – The exotic confidence of a "middleman" drug dealer
  • 21:55 – A stadium cup, a wheelchair, and a win streak ended
  • 23:56 – The desperate plea: "Mom, please make it stop"
  • 29:03 – Hearing the words: "You’re dead to me"
  • 32:21 – The mathematical error that God provided
  • 38:37 – Why being the "poop picker upper" was a gift
  • 43:51 – The relief of being "too chubby" for the wrong attention
  • 48:01 – Why hope is a better drug than cocaine
  • 50:25 – The friend’s command to "burn the motherf***ing boats"
]]> How do you find the strength to stop digging when you’ve already hit rock bottom and burned every bridge behind you? Facing 12 to 20 years on drug charges, Darren Hobbs found himself in a jail cell, completely alone, and realized that his survival depended on a radical, honest transformation.

In this raw and deeply moving episode, Darren Hobbs shares his journey from "chameleon syndrome" and a teenage Vicodin prescription to becoming a leader in the intervention space. Listeners will learn how to shift their focus from selfish problems to gratitude, the importance of "burning the boats" to ensure recovery, and how to stop negotiating with addiction to finally find a life worth living. 

How to Stop Negotiating with Addiction

True change only begins when you stop making deals with yourself and your circumstances. Darren discusses the "magical moment" of realizing he was truly alone and the power of a prayer that asked for internal change rather than an escape from external consequences.

The Power of Focus in Recovery

What you focus on becomes your reality. Darren explains how shifting from an anxious, self-centered mindset to one rooted in daily gratitude and helping others can physically and emotionally transform your trajectory.

Why "Burning the Boats" is Necessary for Growth

To move forward, you must remove the possibility of retreat. Inspired by a friend’s advice, Darren explores the concept of taking decisive action and leaving no route to escape back into old, destructive habits.


Links & Networking

Disclaimer: The TURTZED Podcast reflects the opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. Content is for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare provider for advice tailored to your individual needs. For the full disclaimer, visit our website.

  • 00:00 – The privilege of being honest with yourself
  • 01:03 – Why a "train wreck" life is a recovery honor
  • 02:12 – The smart guy’s advice for someone in a hole
  • 04:50 – A "Sanford and Son" version of the third step prayer
  • 07:01 – The first day of school and the " Dominican" discipline
  • 10:44 – Why being "Mama’s little angel" wasn't enough
  • 11:23 – The "magic prescription" that made his teeth whiter
  • 15:37 – The Arkansas ID and the man named "Zeus"
  • 18:52 – The exotic confidence of a "middleman" drug dealer
  • 21:55 – A stadium cup, a wheelchair, and a win streak ended
  • 23:56 – The desperate plea: "Mom, please make it stop"
  • 29:03 – Hearing the words: "You’re dead to me"
  • 32:21 – The mathematical error that God provided
  • 38:37 – Why being the "poop picker upper" was a gift
  • 43:51 – The relief of being "too chubby" for the wrong attention
  • 48:01 – Why hope is a better drug than cocaine
  • 50:25 – The friend’s command to "burn the motherf***ing boats"
]]> false full 56 <![CDATA[James Boucher: Healing From Childhood Trauma and Shame | Ep. 55]]> How do you find the courage to step into the light when your past is defined by secrecy and a "hidden" life? In this powerful conversation, we explore the heavy burden of carrying shame and the transformative moment when taking back control means finally being seen. 

James Boucher joins Charles to share his raw journey from living in the shadows of childhood sexual trauma and alcoholism to finding liberation through radical honesty. James discusses the pivotal moment he decided to blast through a blackmailer's threats by sharing his own story, proving that our greatest vulnerabilities can become our most profound connections.

How to Overcome the Shame of Childhood Trauma

James describes how living "two separate lives" for decades created a cycle of secrecy that only began to heal when he finally spoke his truth out loud in therapy. Breaking the silence is the first step in reclaiming a sense of self that was lost to past experiences.

Reclaiming Control After a Breach of Privacy

When faced with a secret recording and the threat of exposure, James chose to "take back control" by exposing the situation himself. This radical act of transparency turned a negative, predatory situation into a platform for healing and authenticity.

The Power of Finding an Authentic Community

Stepping out of one’s comfort zone to find people with shared backgrounds—such as other content creators or survivors—can provide a "sense of community" that erases the fear of judgment. Being truly seen by others allows the physical and emotional weight of shame to finally lift.


Links & Networking

Disclaimer: The TURTZED Podcast reflects the opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. Content is for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare provider for advice tailored to your individual needs. For the full disclaimer, visit our website.

  • 00:00 – The Unexpected Answer in Life's Difficult Moments
  • 01:01 – A Lifetime of "Censoring" the Self
  • 01:35 – The Silent Impact of Childhood Trauma
  • 01:55 – The Secret Recording That Changed Everything
  • 02:15 – Why Going Public was the Only Choice
  • 03:34 – Turning a Negative into a Public Benefit
  • 05:08 – The "Two Separate Lives" Phenomenon
  • 07:34 – A Surprise Community in Puerto Vallarta
  • 09:28 – The Physical Weight of Being Seen
  • 11:12 – Living Free from Small-Town Expectations
  • 13:00 – Why Telling the Story Once Changes the Dynamic
  • 15:32 – The "No More Skeletons" Content Strategy
  • 17:49 – Reaching the Ten-Year Sobriety Milestone
  • 19:37 – The Six-Year-Old in the Bedroom Exercise
  • 22:20 – The Work Event Compliment That Triggered a Breakdown
  • 24:32 – The Invisible Struggle in the Background


]]> Wed, 11 Feb 2026 04:30:00 -0500 https://www.turtzed.com/podcast 29:56 How do you find the courage to step into the light when your past is defined by secrecy and a "hidden" life? In this powerful conversation, we explore the heavy burden of carrying shame and the transformative moment when taking back control means finally being seen. 

James Boucher joins Charles to share his raw journey from living in the shadows of childhood sexual trauma and alcoholism to finding liberation through radical honesty. James discusses the pivotal moment he decided to blast through a blackmailer's threats by sharing his own story, proving that our greatest vulnerabilities can become our most profound connections.

How to Overcome the Shame of Childhood Trauma

James describes how living "two separate lives" for decades created a cycle of secrecy that only began to heal when he finally spoke his truth out loud in therapy. Breaking the silence is the first step in reclaiming a sense of self that was lost to past experiences.

Reclaiming Control After a Breach of Privacy

When faced with a secret recording and the threat of exposure, James chose to "take back control" by exposing the situation himself. This radical act of transparency turned a negative, predatory situation into a platform for healing and authenticity.

The Power of Finding an Authentic Community

Stepping out of one’s comfort zone to find people with shared backgrounds—such as other content creators or survivors—can provide a "sense of community" that erases the fear of judgment. Being truly seen by others allows the physical and emotional weight of shame to finally lift.


Links & Networking

Disclaimer: The TURTZED Podcast reflects the opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. Content is for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare provider for advice tailored to your individual needs. For the full disclaimer, visit our website.

  • 00:00 – The Unexpected Answer in Life's Difficult Moments
  • 01:01 – A Lifetime of "Censoring" the Self
  • 01:35 – The Silent Impact of Childhood Trauma
  • 01:55 – The Secret Recording That Changed Everything
  • 02:15 – Why Going Public was the Only Choice
  • 03:34 – Turning a Negative into a Public Benefit
  • 05:08 – The "Two Separate Lives" Phenomenon
  • 07:34 – A Surprise Community in Puerto Vallarta
  • 09:28 – The Physical Weight of Being Seen
  • 11:12 – Living Free from Small-Town Expectations
  • 13:00 – Why Telling the Story Once Changes the Dynamic
  • 15:32 – The "No More Skeletons" Content Strategy
  • 17:49 – Reaching the Ten-Year Sobriety Milestone
  • 19:37 – The Six-Year-Old in the Bedroom Exercise
  • 22:20 – The Work Event Compliment That Triggered a Breakdown
  • 24:32 – The Invisible Struggle in the Background


]]> How do you find the courage to step into the light when your past is defined by secrecy and a "hidden" life? In this powerful conversation, we explore the heavy burden of carrying shame and the transformative moment when taking back control means finally being seen. 

James Boucher joins Charles to share his raw journey from living in the shadows of childhood sexual trauma and alcoholism to finding liberation through radical honesty. James discusses the pivotal moment he decided to blast through a blackmailer's threats by sharing his own story, proving that our greatest vulnerabilities can become our most profound connections.

How to Overcome the Shame of Childhood Trauma

James describes how living "two separate lives" for decades created a cycle of secrecy that only began to heal when he finally spoke his truth out loud in therapy. Breaking the silence is the first step in reclaiming a sense of self that was lost to past experiences.

Reclaiming Control After a Breach of Privacy

When faced with a secret recording and the threat of exposure, James chose to "take back control" by exposing the situation himself. This radical act of transparency turned a negative, predatory situation into a platform for healing and authenticity.

The Power of Finding an Authentic Community

Stepping out of one’s comfort zone to find people with shared backgrounds—such as other content creators or survivors—can provide a "sense of community" that erases the fear of judgment. Being truly seen by others allows the physical and emotional weight of shame to finally lift.


Links & Networking

Disclaimer: The TURTZED Podcast reflects the opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. Content is for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare provider for advice tailored to your individual needs. For the full disclaimer, visit our website.

  • 00:00 – The Unexpected Answer in Life's Difficult Moments
  • 01:01 – A Lifetime of "Censoring" the Self
  • 01:35 – The Silent Impact of Childhood Trauma
  • 01:55 – The Secret Recording That Changed Everything
  • 02:15 – Why Going Public was the Only Choice
  • 03:34 – Turning a Negative into a Public Benefit
  • 05:08 – The "Two Separate Lives" Phenomenon
  • 07:34 – A Surprise Community in Puerto Vallarta
  • 09:28 – The Physical Weight of Being Seen
  • 11:12 – Living Free from Small-Town Expectations
  • 13:00 – Why Telling the Story Once Changes the Dynamic
  • 15:32 – The "No More Skeletons" Content Strategy
  • 17:49 – Reaching the Ten-Year Sobriety Milestone
  • 19:37 – The Six-Year-Old in the Bedroom Exercise
  • 22:20 – The Work Event Compliment That Triggered a Breakdown
  • 24:32 – The Invisible Struggle in the Background


]]> true full 55 <![CDATA[Ricki Friedman: Stopping Adderall After 28 Years & Finding Yourself | Ep. 54]]> What happens to your soul when you’ve been chemically "regulated" since the age of seven? Coming off Adderall isn't just about surviving the physical withdrawal; it is a high-stakes reclamation of the self that requires a total rewrite of what you consider "normal."

In this raw and deeply personal conversation, Ricki Friedman shares her journey of stopping a 28-year prescription of stimulants to find a version of herself she never knew existed. She and Charles dive into the biological reality of dopamine deficiency, the link between complex PTSD and concentration, and why true success requires honoring your natural rhythm rather than forcing a medicated societal norm. 

How to Manage ADHD Without Adderall

Ricki explains that the struggle to focus is often less about concentration and more about a dopamine and regulation problem. By honoring natural rhythms—like taking 20-minute walks for morning dopamine or riding "momentum waves" to write content—you can learn to work with your brain instead of forcing it into a societal norm.

The Difference Between Intuition and Fear

When your nervous system is dysregulated by stimulants, it is nearly impossible to hear your own gut instincts. Ricki breaks down how to distinguish the two: intuition is a calm, persistent "no" or "do this," while fear is a loud, chaotic list of excuses designed to keep you in your comfort zone.

Reclaiming Personality After Long-Term Medication

One of the most profound changes after stopping stimulants is the return of a "diluted" personality. Ricki describes moving from a "dark," judgmental, and hyper-focused state into becoming a fun, vibrant, and grounded human being who can finally form deep, authentic connections with others


Links & Networking


Disclaimer: The TURTZED Podcast reflects the opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. Content is for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare provider for advice tailored to your individual needs. For the full disclaimer, visit our website.


  • 00:00 – The trio of connections: Self, Success, and Brand
  • 02:22 – Being prescribed stimulants at seven years old
  • 04:13 – The "Three-Week Sleep" and the reality of cold turkey
  • 06:01 – Why life gets "infinitely worse" before it gets better
  • 08:14 – Rewriting the story of what is "normal"
  • 10:17 – Honoring your natural rhythm vs. the corporate machine
  • 12:06 – The realization that changed everything: "It’s like meth"
  • 15:34 – Why stimulants dysregulate the nervous system they claim to fix
  • 18:05 – The grief of a childhood without access to your own body
  • 21:05 – The difference between concentration and dopamine issues
  • 25:54 – The top two life-transforming decisions Ricki ever made
  • 30:07 – Losing (and finding) your personality on autopilot
  • 35:06 – Transitioning from "Dark Ricky" to "Light Ricky"
  • 41:59 – The 4-step system for authentic dopamine
  • 45:35 – The "Expansive Decision" trap
  • 50:44 – Why the medication is no longer serving its purpose
]]> Wed, 04 Feb 2026 04:30:00 -0500 https://www.turtzed.com/podcast 54:20 What happens to your soul when you’ve been chemically "regulated" since the age of seven? Coming off Adderall isn't just about surviving the physical withdrawal; it is a high-stakes reclamation of the self that requires a total rewrite of what you consider "normal."

In this raw and deeply personal conversation, Ricki Friedman shares her journey of stopping a 28-year prescription of stimulants to find a version of herself she never knew existed. She and Charles dive into the biological reality of dopamine deficiency, the link between complex PTSD and concentration, and why true success requires honoring your natural rhythm rather than forcing a medicated societal norm. 

How to Manage ADHD Without Adderall

Ricki explains that the struggle to focus is often less about concentration and more about a dopamine and regulation problem. By honoring natural rhythms—like taking 20-minute walks for morning dopamine or riding "momentum waves" to write content—you can learn to work with your brain instead of forcing it into a societal norm.

The Difference Between Intuition and Fear

When your nervous system is dysregulated by stimulants, it is nearly impossible to hear your own gut instincts. Ricki breaks down how to distinguish the two: intuition is a calm, persistent "no" or "do this," while fear is a loud, chaotic list of excuses designed to keep you in your comfort zone.

Reclaiming Personality After Long-Term Medication

One of the most profound changes after stopping stimulants is the return of a "diluted" personality. Ricki describes moving from a "dark," judgmental, and hyper-focused state into becoming a fun, vibrant, and grounded human being who can finally form deep, authentic connections with others


Links & Networking


Disclaimer: The TURTZED Podcast reflects the opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. Content is for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare provider for advice tailored to your individual needs. For the full disclaimer, visit our website.


  • 00:00 – The trio of connections: Self, Success, and Brand
  • 02:22 – Being prescribed stimulants at seven years old
  • 04:13 – The "Three-Week Sleep" and the reality of cold turkey
  • 06:01 – Why life gets "infinitely worse" before it gets better
  • 08:14 – Rewriting the story of what is "normal"
  • 10:17 – Honoring your natural rhythm vs. the corporate machine
  • 12:06 – The realization that changed everything: "It’s like meth"
  • 15:34 – Why stimulants dysregulate the nervous system they claim to fix
  • 18:05 – The grief of a childhood without access to your own body
  • 21:05 – The difference between concentration and dopamine issues
  • 25:54 – The top two life-transforming decisions Ricki ever made
  • 30:07 – Losing (and finding) your personality on autopilot
  • 35:06 – Transitioning from "Dark Ricky" to "Light Ricky"
  • 41:59 – The 4-step system for authentic dopamine
  • 45:35 – The "Expansive Decision" trap
  • 50:44 – Why the medication is no longer serving its purpose
]]> What happens to your soul when you’ve been chemically "regulated" since the age of seven? Coming off Adderall isn't just about surviving the physical withdrawal; it is a high-stakes reclamation of the self that requires a total rewrite of what you consider "normal."

In this raw and deeply personal conversation, Ricki Friedman shares her journey of stopping a 28-year prescription of stimulants to find a version of herself she never knew existed. She and Charles dive into the biological reality of dopamine deficiency, the link between complex PTSD and concentration, and why true success requires honoring your natural rhythm rather than forcing a medicated societal norm. 

How to Manage ADHD Without Adderall

Ricki explains that the struggle to focus is often less about concentration and more about a dopamine and regulation problem. By honoring natural rhythms—like taking 20-minute walks for morning dopamine or riding "momentum waves" to write content—you can learn to work with your brain instead of forcing it into a societal norm.

The Difference Between Intuition and Fear

When your nervous system is dysregulated by stimulants, it is nearly impossible to hear your own gut instincts. Ricki breaks down how to distinguish the two: intuition is a calm, persistent "no" or "do this," while fear is a loud, chaotic list of excuses designed to keep you in your comfort zone.

Reclaiming Personality After Long-Term Medication

One of the most profound changes after stopping stimulants is the return of a "diluted" personality. Ricki describes moving from a "dark," judgmental, and hyper-focused state into becoming a fun, vibrant, and grounded human being who can finally form deep, authentic connections with others


Links & Networking


Disclaimer: The TURTZED Podcast reflects the opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. Content is for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare provider for advice tailored to your individual needs. For the full disclaimer, visit our website.


  • 00:00 – The trio of connections: Self, Success, and Brand
  • 02:22 – Being prescribed stimulants at seven years old
  • 04:13 – The "Three-Week Sleep" and the reality of cold turkey
  • 06:01 – Why life gets "infinitely worse" before it gets better
  • 08:14 – Rewriting the story of what is "normal"
  • 10:17 – Honoring your natural rhythm vs. the corporate machine
  • 12:06 – The realization that changed everything: "It’s like meth"
  • 15:34 – Why stimulants dysregulate the nervous system they claim to fix
  • 18:05 – The grief of a childhood without access to your own body
  • 21:05 – The difference between concentration and dopamine issues
  • 25:54 – The top two life-transforming decisions Ricki ever made
  • 30:07 – Losing (and finding) your personality on autopilot
  • 35:06 – Transitioning from "Dark Ricky" to "Light Ricky"
  • 41:59 – The 4-step system for authentic dopamine
  • 45:35 – The "Expansive Decision" trap
  • 50:44 – Why the medication is no longer serving its purpose
]]> false full 54 <![CDATA[Sonny Von Cleveland: Healing from Trauma and Finding Purpose | Ep. 53]]> Can you find the strength to forgive the unforgivable, especially when the person who hurt you never said sorry? Healing from trauma and finding purpose isn't about forgetting the past; it’s about reclaiming your internal freedom so your history no longer dictates your future.

In this moving episode, Sonny Von Cleveland shares his profound journey from serving 18 years in prison to becoming a beacon of hope for others. After surviving decades of systemic abuse and solitary confinement, Sonny Von Cleveland reveals the exact mindset shifts required to transform raw suffering into a lifelong mission of kindness and advocacy.

How to Define Strength After Trauma

Strength is not just about surviving another day of abuse; it is the conscious choice to ensure your yesterday does not dominate your today. It is the courage to admit you are human and to stop holding yourself accountable for mistakes that were never your fault to begin with.

Why Forgiveness is for You (Not Them)

Forgiveness is a tool for personal liberation rather than a gift to the offender. By releasing the need for a "why" or a justification from those who violated you, you break the emotional shackles of resentment and reclaim your peace.

How to Turn Suffering into Purpose

Suffering ceases to be suffering the moment it is given a meaningful mission. By using your most painful experiences to help someone else—whether through speaking, writing, or simply being present—you create a legacy that ensures your pain was not in vain.


Links & Networking


Disclaimer: The TURTZED Podcast reflects the opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. Content is for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare provider for advice tailored to your individual needs. For the full disclaimer, visit our website.

  • 00:00 – The "Hey White Boy" catalyst
  • 02:08 – Why your mission must be your legacy
  • 04:36 – The survival trap: Why surviving isn't enough
  • 06:06 – The one-hour rule for a successful life
  • 08:50 – Five years in solitary: The birth of compassion
  • 11:25 – Turning a loss into a lifelong lesson
  • 15:11 – The physical cost of holding toxic anger
  • 17:57 – The secret to closure without an apology
  • 18:57 – The screwdriver incident and the weight of shame
  • 22:48 – Forgiveness vs. Understanding: The healing divide
  • 28:57 – Reclaiming freedom through the art of redemption
  • 32:37 – Why your worth is never tied to your paycheck
  • 33:53 – The extra lunch tray that changed everything
  • 36:48 – The "Baby Philosophy" for achieving any goal
  • 41:23 – The danger of "Comfortable Pain"
  • 44:16 – Why we fear speaking our truth
  • 48:33 – Why comparing your trauma is self-sabotage


]]> Wed, 28 Jan 2026 04:30:00 -0500 https://www.turtzed.com/podcast 51:20 Can you find the strength to forgive the unforgivable, especially when the person who hurt you never said sorry? Healing from trauma and finding purpose isn't about forgetting the past; it’s about reclaiming your internal freedom so your history no longer dictates your future.

In this moving episode, Sonny Von Cleveland shares his profound journey from serving 18 years in prison to becoming a beacon of hope for others. After surviving decades of systemic abuse and solitary confinement, Sonny Von Cleveland reveals the exact mindset shifts required to transform raw suffering into a lifelong mission of kindness and advocacy.

How to Define Strength After Trauma

Strength is not just about surviving another day of abuse; it is the conscious choice to ensure your yesterday does not dominate your today. It is the courage to admit you are human and to stop holding yourself accountable for mistakes that were never your fault to begin with.

Why Forgiveness is for You (Not Them)

Forgiveness is a tool for personal liberation rather than a gift to the offender. By releasing the need for a "why" or a justification from those who violated you, you break the emotional shackles of resentment and reclaim your peace.

How to Turn Suffering into Purpose

Suffering ceases to be suffering the moment it is given a meaningful mission. By using your most painful experiences to help someone else—whether through speaking, writing, or simply being present—you create a legacy that ensures your pain was not in vain.


Links & Networking


Disclaimer: The TURTZED Podcast reflects the opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. Content is for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare provider for advice tailored to your individual needs. For the full disclaimer, visit our website.

  • 00:00 – The "Hey White Boy" catalyst
  • 02:08 – Why your mission must be your legacy
  • 04:36 – The survival trap: Why surviving isn't enough
  • 06:06 – The one-hour rule for a successful life
  • 08:50 – Five years in solitary: The birth of compassion
  • 11:25 – Turning a loss into a lifelong lesson
  • 15:11 – The physical cost of holding toxic anger
  • 17:57 – The secret to closure without an apology
  • 18:57 – The screwdriver incident and the weight of shame
  • 22:48 – Forgiveness vs. Understanding: The healing divide
  • 28:57 – Reclaiming freedom through the art of redemption
  • 32:37 – Why your worth is never tied to your paycheck
  • 33:53 – The extra lunch tray that changed everything
  • 36:48 – The "Baby Philosophy" for achieving any goal
  • 41:23 – The danger of "Comfortable Pain"
  • 44:16 – Why we fear speaking our truth
  • 48:33 – Why comparing your trauma is self-sabotage


]]> Can you find the strength to forgive the unforgivable, especially when the person who hurt you never said sorry? Healing from trauma and finding purpose isn't about forgetting the past; it’s about reclaiming your internal freedom so your history no longer dictates your future.

In this moving episode, Sonny Von Cleveland shares his profound journey from serving 18 years in prison to becoming a beacon of hope for others. After surviving decades of systemic abuse and solitary confinement, Sonny Von Cleveland reveals the exact mindset shifts required to transform raw suffering into a lifelong mission of kindness and advocacy.

How to Define Strength After Trauma

Strength is not just about surviving another day of abuse; it is the conscious choice to ensure your yesterday does not dominate your today. It is the courage to admit you are human and to stop holding yourself accountable for mistakes that were never your fault to begin with.

Why Forgiveness is for You (Not Them)

Forgiveness is a tool for personal liberation rather than a gift to the offender. By releasing the need for a "why" or a justification from those who violated you, you break the emotional shackles of resentment and reclaim your peace.

How to Turn Suffering into Purpose

Suffering ceases to be suffering the moment it is given a meaningful mission. By using your most painful experiences to help someone else—whether through speaking, writing, or simply being present—you create a legacy that ensures your pain was not in vain.


Links & Networking


Disclaimer: The TURTZED Podcast reflects the opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. Content is for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare provider for advice tailored to your individual needs. For the full disclaimer, visit our website.

  • 00:00 – The "Hey White Boy" catalyst
  • 02:08 – Why your mission must be your legacy
  • 04:36 – The survival trap: Why surviving isn't enough
  • 06:06 – The one-hour rule for a successful life
  • 08:50 – Five years in solitary: The birth of compassion
  • 11:25 – Turning a loss into a lifelong lesson
  • 15:11 – The physical cost of holding toxic anger
  • 17:57 – The secret to closure without an apology
  • 18:57 – The screwdriver incident and the weight of shame
  • 22:48 – Forgiveness vs. Understanding: The healing divide
  • 28:57 – Reclaiming freedom through the art of redemption
  • 32:37 – Why your worth is never tied to your paycheck
  • 33:53 – The extra lunch tray that changed everything
  • 36:48 – The "Baby Philosophy" for achieving any goal
  • 41:23 – The danger of "Comfortable Pain"
  • 44:16 – Why we fear speaking our truth
  • 48:33 – Why comparing your trauma is self-sabotage


]]> false full 53 <![CDATA[Christina Rice: How to Heal Your Body with Energy Work | Ep. 52 ]]> How do you heal when doctors say there are no answers left? How to heal your body with energy work is more than just a spiritual concept—it is a mechanical reconnection of your body's internal circuitry that can shift your physical, emotional, and spiritual health.

In this episode, Christina Rice, an intuitive energy healer and author, shares her journey from being on her "deathbed" with chronic illness to mastering the frequency of Ahai. She breaks down the "piping system" of our energy centers and provides a roadmap for listeners to move from a state of "disease" to one of deep, authentic wellness.

How to Identify Stuck Energy in the Body

Physical symptoms, from thyroid issues to chronic shoulder knots, are often the result of "energetic calcification" where unexpressed emotions or truths become stuck in a specific chakra. By understanding the theme of the pain—such as the throat chakra's link to communication—you can begin to clear the blockage at its source.

The Connection Between Chronic Illness and Authenticity

Chronic illness can serve as a "wakeup call" that forces an individual to shed their ego and embrace their most authentic self. Christina explains how being "hardheaded" or stubborn often leads to extreme physical experiences that finally push us to follow our hearts.

Why the Universe Rewards Bravery

Healing requires the courage to be vulnerable and to claim your unique "superpowers," even when it scares others. Taking the brave step to express who you truly are—whether in your career or personal life—triggers the support of a bigger force that aligns with your soul's intention.


Links & Networking

Disclaimer: The TURTZED Podcast reflects the opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. Content is for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare provider for advice tailored to your individual needs. For the full disclaimer, visit our website.

  • 00:00 – The power of holding diametrically opposed beliefs.
  • 05:40 – What is the "Ahai" 7D frequency and how does it heal?
  • 06:40 – Seeing the body as a "piping system" of energy circuits.
  • 10:44 – Why children are naturally magical—and what turns it off.
  • 15:42 – The "ego deaths" required to become your authentic self.
  • 17:33 – Why the most stubborn people get hit with the loudest wake-up calls.
  • 20:30 – Why "Shadow Work" might be leading you down the wrong rabbit hole.
  • 23:44 – The energetic link between thyroid issues and suppressed truth.
  • 27:00 – How "past life" emotions are stored in the sacral chakra.
  • 31:30 – The reason your back pain is connected to a lack of support.
  • 35:19 – How your body sends "look at me" messages through pain.
  • 40:13 – The "Energy Blob" theory: Why you chose a human experience.
  • 49:17 – Why you haven't "tried everything" until you've tried energy work.
  • 52:09 – The one mantra the Universe always rewards.
  • 56:51 – The "Fear of Being Seen" and why it holds us back from our gifts.


]]> Wed, 21 Jan 2026 04:30:00 -0500 https://www.turtzed.com/podcast 1:00:21 How do you heal when doctors say there are no answers left? How to heal your body with energy work is more than just a spiritual concept—it is a mechanical reconnection of your body's internal circuitry that can shift your physical, emotional, and spiritual health.

In this episode, Christina Rice, an intuitive energy healer and author, shares her journey from being on her "deathbed" with chronic illness to mastering the frequency of Ahai. She breaks down the "piping system" of our energy centers and provides a roadmap for listeners to move from a state of "disease" to one of deep, authentic wellness.

How to Identify Stuck Energy in the Body

Physical symptoms, from thyroid issues to chronic shoulder knots, are often the result of "energetic calcification" where unexpressed emotions or truths become stuck in a specific chakra. By understanding the theme of the pain—such as the throat chakra's link to communication—you can begin to clear the blockage at its source.

The Connection Between Chronic Illness and Authenticity

Chronic illness can serve as a "wakeup call" that forces an individual to shed their ego and embrace their most authentic self. Christina explains how being "hardheaded" or stubborn often leads to extreme physical experiences that finally push us to follow our hearts.

Why the Universe Rewards Bravery

Healing requires the courage to be vulnerable and to claim your unique "superpowers," even when it scares others. Taking the brave step to express who you truly are—whether in your career or personal life—triggers the support of a bigger force that aligns with your soul's intention.


Links & Networking

Disclaimer: The TURTZED Podcast reflects the opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. Content is for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare provider for advice tailored to your individual needs. For the full disclaimer, visit our website.

  • 00:00 – The power of holding diametrically opposed beliefs.
  • 05:40 – What is the "Ahai" 7D frequency and how does it heal?
  • 06:40 – Seeing the body as a "piping system" of energy circuits.
  • 10:44 – Why children are naturally magical—and what turns it off.
  • 15:42 – The "ego deaths" required to become your authentic self.
  • 17:33 – Why the most stubborn people get hit with the loudest wake-up calls.
  • 20:30 – Why "Shadow Work" might be leading you down the wrong rabbit hole.
  • 23:44 – The energetic link between thyroid issues and suppressed truth.
  • 27:00 – How "past life" emotions are stored in the sacral chakra.
  • 31:30 – The reason your back pain is connected to a lack of support.
  • 35:19 – How your body sends "look at me" messages through pain.
  • 40:13 – The "Energy Blob" theory: Why you chose a human experience.
  • 49:17 – Why you haven't "tried everything" until you've tried energy work.
  • 52:09 – The one mantra the Universe always rewards.
  • 56:51 – The "Fear of Being Seen" and why it holds us back from our gifts.


]]> How do you heal when doctors say there are no answers left? How to heal your body with energy work is more than just a spiritual concept—it is a mechanical reconnection of your body's internal circuitry that can shift your physical, emotional, and spiritual health.

In this episode, Christina Rice, an intuitive energy healer and author, shares her journey from being on her "deathbed" with chronic illness to mastering the frequency of Ahai. She breaks down the "piping system" of our energy centers and provides a roadmap for listeners to move from a state of "disease" to one of deep, authentic wellness.

How to Identify Stuck Energy in the Body

Physical symptoms, from thyroid issues to chronic shoulder knots, are often the result of "energetic calcification" where unexpressed emotions or truths become stuck in a specific chakra. By understanding the theme of the pain—such as the throat chakra's link to communication—you can begin to clear the blockage at its source.

The Connection Between Chronic Illness and Authenticity

Chronic illness can serve as a "wakeup call" that forces an individual to shed their ego and embrace their most authentic self. Christina explains how being "hardheaded" or stubborn often leads to extreme physical experiences that finally push us to follow our hearts.

Why the Universe Rewards Bravery

Healing requires the courage to be vulnerable and to claim your unique "superpowers," even when it scares others. Taking the brave step to express who you truly are—whether in your career or personal life—triggers the support of a bigger force that aligns with your soul's intention.


Links & Networking

Disclaimer: The TURTZED Podcast reflects the opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. Content is for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare provider for advice tailored to your individual needs. For the full disclaimer, visit our website.

  • 00:00 – The power of holding diametrically opposed beliefs.
  • 05:40 – What is the "Ahai" 7D frequency and how does it heal?
  • 06:40 – Seeing the body as a "piping system" of energy circuits.
  • 10:44 – Why children are naturally magical—and what turns it off.
  • 15:42 – The "ego deaths" required to become your authentic self.
  • 17:33 – Why the most stubborn people get hit with the loudest wake-up calls.
  • 20:30 – Why "Shadow Work" might be leading you down the wrong rabbit hole.
  • 23:44 – The energetic link between thyroid issues and suppressed truth.
  • 27:00 – How "past life" emotions are stored in the sacral chakra.
  • 31:30 – The reason your back pain is connected to a lack of support.
  • 35:19 – How your body sends "look at me" messages through pain.
  • 40:13 – The "Energy Blob" theory: Why you chose a human experience.
  • 49:17 – Why you haven't "tried everything" until you've tried energy work.
  • 52:09 – The one mantra the Universe always rewards.
  • 56:51 – The "Fear of Being Seen" and why it holds us back from our gifts.


]]> false full 52 <![CDATA[Marie Ahern: How to Practice Mindfulness for Concentration | Ep. 51]]> How many seconds can you actually stay present before your mind takes a "mental vacation" to the past or future? Learning how to practice mindfulness for concentration is more than just sitting still; it is the act of bringing your physical avatar and your wandering mind into the same room at the exact same time.

In this episode, Marie Ahern shares her transition from twenty years in the yoga industry to becoming a high-impact life coach. She breaks down the "superpower" of clarity that comes from intentional presence and introduces a tactical, open-eye concentration practice designed to help you stop "swimming on the surface" and finally dive deep into your reality.

Why You Can’t Stay Present

Your mind is naturally built to escape reality through "Maya," a state of illusion where you ruminate on the past or obsess over the future. Understanding that mindfulness is not a continuous state, but a series of pockets you gather throughout the day, removes the pressure to be perfect.

How to Practice the Concentration Test

The first step to improving focus is setting a timer and observing objects in an enclosed room with your eyes open. Most people find their concentration breaks between 20 and 40 seconds; catching the exact moment a thought "kicks you out" is the key to building your mental muscle.

The Impact of the 4-Minute Mark

Once you can maintain pure concentration for four minutes, you begin to see life with a new kind of "underwater" clarity. This practice improves relationships and decision-making because you learn to operate from a place of grounded truth rather than reactionary chaos.


Links & Networking

Disclaimer: The TURTZED Podcast reflects the opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. Content is for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare provider for advice tailored to your individual needs. For the full disclaimer, visit our website.


  • 00:00 – The core meaning of living a mindful life
  • 01:21 – Introducing a coach who turns yoga into life lessons
  • 02:05 – Why your yoga teacher might actually be a great life coach
  • 03:47 – The "Avatar" concept: where is your mind right now?
  • 04:35 – Understanding "Maya" and the state of illusion
  • 05:44 – Why the human brain takes "mental vacations"
  • 07:10 – The concentration test that 99% of people fail
  • 09:43 – Why the length of your focus equals the depth of your reality
  • 11:25 – The "Underwater Kingdom" effect of deep mindfulness
  • 12:54 – Why practicing concentration makes you want to clean your house
  • 14:52 – Taming the "Drunken Monkey" in your head
  • 16:50 – The "Frankenstein" method of learning information
  • 18:30 – A professor’s advice on how to eat an elephant
  • 21:00 – The truth about virtual versus in-person connection
  • 23:22 – Seeing the beauty inside the "Perfect Storm"
  • 26:37 – Why working with a coach for too long is a "hindrance"


]]> Wed, 14 Jan 2026 04:36:00 -0500 https://www.turtzed.com/podcast 28:03 How many seconds can you actually stay present before your mind takes a "mental vacation" to the past or future? Learning how to practice mindfulness for concentration is more than just sitting still; it is the act of bringing your physical avatar and your wandering mind into the same room at the exact same time.

In this episode, Marie Ahern shares her transition from twenty years in the yoga industry to becoming a high-impact life coach. She breaks down the "superpower" of clarity that comes from intentional presence and introduces a tactical, open-eye concentration practice designed to help you stop "swimming on the surface" and finally dive deep into your reality.

Why You Can’t Stay Present

Your mind is naturally built to escape reality through "Maya," a state of illusion where you ruminate on the past or obsess over the future. Understanding that mindfulness is not a continuous state, but a series of pockets you gather throughout the day, removes the pressure to be perfect.

How to Practice the Concentration Test

The first step to improving focus is setting a timer and observing objects in an enclosed room with your eyes open. Most people find their concentration breaks between 20 and 40 seconds; catching the exact moment a thought "kicks you out" is the key to building your mental muscle.

The Impact of the 4-Minute Mark

Once you can maintain pure concentration for four minutes, you begin to see life with a new kind of "underwater" clarity. This practice improves relationships and decision-making because you learn to operate from a place of grounded truth rather than reactionary chaos.


Links & Networking

Disclaimer: The TURTZED Podcast reflects the opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. Content is for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare provider for advice tailored to your individual needs. For the full disclaimer, visit our website.


  • 00:00 – The core meaning of living a mindful life
  • 01:21 – Introducing a coach who turns yoga into life lessons
  • 02:05 – Why your yoga teacher might actually be a great life coach
  • 03:47 – The "Avatar" concept: where is your mind right now?
  • 04:35 – Understanding "Maya" and the state of illusion
  • 05:44 – Why the human brain takes "mental vacations"
  • 07:10 – The concentration test that 99% of people fail
  • 09:43 – Why the length of your focus equals the depth of your reality
  • 11:25 – The "Underwater Kingdom" effect of deep mindfulness
  • 12:54 – Why practicing concentration makes you want to clean your house
  • 14:52 – Taming the "Drunken Monkey" in your head
  • 16:50 – The "Frankenstein" method of learning information
  • 18:30 – A professor’s advice on how to eat an elephant
  • 21:00 – The truth about virtual versus in-person connection
  • 23:22 – Seeing the beauty inside the "Perfect Storm"
  • 26:37 – Why working with a coach for too long is a "hindrance"


]]> How many seconds can you actually stay present before your mind takes a "mental vacation" to the past or future? Learning how to practice mindfulness for concentration is more than just sitting still; it is the act of bringing your physical avatar and your wandering mind into the same room at the exact same time.

In this episode, Marie Ahern shares her transition from twenty years in the yoga industry to becoming a high-impact life coach. She breaks down the "superpower" of clarity that comes from intentional presence and introduces a tactical, open-eye concentration practice designed to help you stop "swimming on the surface" and finally dive deep into your reality.

Why You Can’t Stay Present

Your mind is naturally built to escape reality through "Maya," a state of illusion where you ruminate on the past or obsess over the future. Understanding that mindfulness is not a continuous state, but a series of pockets you gather throughout the day, removes the pressure to be perfect.

How to Practice the Concentration Test

The first step to improving focus is setting a timer and observing objects in an enclosed room with your eyes open. Most people find their concentration breaks between 20 and 40 seconds; catching the exact moment a thought "kicks you out" is the key to building your mental muscle.

The Impact of the 4-Minute Mark

Once you can maintain pure concentration for four minutes, you begin to see life with a new kind of "underwater" clarity. This practice improves relationships and decision-making because you learn to operate from a place of grounded truth rather than reactionary chaos.


Links & Networking

Disclaimer: The TURTZED Podcast reflects the opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. Content is for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare provider for advice tailored to your individual needs. For the full disclaimer, visit our website.


  • 00:00 – The core meaning of living a mindful life
  • 01:21 – Introducing a coach who turns yoga into life lessons
  • 02:05 – Why your yoga teacher might actually be a great life coach
  • 03:47 – The "Avatar" concept: where is your mind right now?
  • 04:35 – Understanding "Maya" and the state of illusion
  • 05:44 – Why the human brain takes "mental vacations"
  • 07:10 – The concentration test that 99% of people fail
  • 09:43 – Why the length of your focus equals the depth of your reality
  • 11:25 – The "Underwater Kingdom" effect of deep mindfulness
  • 12:54 – Why practicing concentration makes you want to clean your house
  • 14:52 – Taming the "Drunken Monkey" in your head
  • 16:50 – The "Frankenstein" method of learning information
  • 18:30 – A professor’s advice on how to eat an elephant
  • 21:00 – The truth about virtual versus in-person connection
  • 23:22 – Seeing the beauty inside the "Perfect Storm"
  • 26:37 – Why working with a coach for too long is a "hindrance"


]]> false full 51 <![CDATA[Sarkie Ampim: How to Find Purpose After Hitting Rock Bottom | Ep. 50]]> How do you choose to rise when you are sitting alone in your room, feeling unseen in your pain, and wondering how to find purpose after hitting rock bottom? When the life you knew crumbles—through the loss of a parent, a devastating heartbreak, or the realization that your support system isn't what you thought—the only way out is through a radical shift in perspective.

In this deeply moving episode, Sarkie Ampim shares his raw journey from the "zombie mode" of depression to becoming a voice of hope for millions on TikTok. You will learn how to navigate the complexities of cultural expectations, the power of leaning on faith, and why the "destination" you're chasing is actually found within the daily discipline of the journey itself. 

How to Find Purpose After Hitting Rock Bottom

Purpose is often forged in the moments where you feel most isolated; it requires focusing on what you can control and using your story as a medium for healing. Sarkie Ampim explains that hitting rock bottom forces a reliance on faith and internal strength that wouldn't be discovered otherwise.

Navigating Male Vulnerability in Different Cultures

In many traditions, vulnerability is seen as a weakness, yet choosing to be "brave enough to be different" is the catalyst for genuine connection. Breaking the cycle of "zombie mode" starts with the decision that the old version of yourself no longer serves your future.

The Secret to Overcoming Fear and Doubt

When friends or family project their own insecurities onto your dreams, the most powerful response is to "be deaf" to the noise and focus on your intuition. Success isn't just a number on a screen; it's the discipline to keep going even on the days you have to use eyedrops to hide the tears.


Links & Networking

Disclaimer: The TURTZED Podcast reflects the opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. Content is for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare provider for advice tailored to your individual needs. For the full disclaimer, visit our website.

  • 00:00 – The truth about hitting rock bottom
  • 02:05 – The "string of moments" that changed everything
  • 03:59 – Why no one was checking in during the pain
  • 06:40 – The TikTok video that sparked a movement
  • 09:15 – What happens when the male dominant figure is gone
  • 10:15 – The "unspoken" love in African traditions
  • 11:45 – Staring at a corpse and finding a new realization
  • 13:30 – Why God puts us in painful positions
  • 15:42 – The suicide message that revealed a "hidden power"
  • 18:40 – Why your intuition is like a feather
  • 20:30 – The secret to being gentle with your own mind
  • 23:05 – Using eyedrops to hide the tears before recording
  • 27:00 – Walking through NYC to build a business from scratch
  • 35:10 – The Frog in the Well: A lesson on selective deafness
  • 44:10 – The birthday shower moment that led to a "line in the sand"
  • 47:15 – Why the secret to life is having no fear


]]> Wed, 17 Dec 2025 04:30:00 -0500 https://www.turtzed.com/podcast 48:24 How do you choose to rise when you are sitting alone in your room, feeling unseen in your pain, and wondering how to find purpose after hitting rock bottom? When the life you knew crumbles—through the loss of a parent, a devastating heartbreak, or the realization that your support system isn't what you thought—the only way out is through a radical shift in perspective.

In this deeply moving episode, Sarkie Ampim shares his raw journey from the "zombie mode" of depression to becoming a voice of hope for millions on TikTok. You will learn how to navigate the complexities of cultural expectations, the power of leaning on faith, and why the "destination" you're chasing is actually found within the daily discipline of the journey itself. 

How to Find Purpose After Hitting Rock Bottom

Purpose is often forged in the moments where you feel most isolated; it requires focusing on what you can control and using your story as a medium for healing. Sarkie Ampim explains that hitting rock bottom forces a reliance on faith and internal strength that wouldn't be discovered otherwise.

Navigating Male Vulnerability in Different Cultures

In many traditions, vulnerability is seen as a weakness, yet choosing to be "brave enough to be different" is the catalyst for genuine connection. Breaking the cycle of "zombie mode" starts with the decision that the old version of yourself no longer serves your future.

The Secret to Overcoming Fear and Doubt

When friends or family project their own insecurities onto your dreams, the most powerful response is to "be deaf" to the noise and focus on your intuition. Success isn't just a number on a screen; it's the discipline to keep going even on the days you have to use eyedrops to hide the tears.


Links & Networking

Disclaimer: The TURTZED Podcast reflects the opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. Content is for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare provider for advice tailored to your individual needs. For the full disclaimer, visit our website.

  • 00:00 – The truth about hitting rock bottom
  • 02:05 – The "string of moments" that changed everything
  • 03:59 – Why no one was checking in during the pain
  • 06:40 – The TikTok video that sparked a movement
  • 09:15 – What happens when the male dominant figure is gone
  • 10:15 – The "unspoken" love in African traditions
  • 11:45 – Staring at a corpse and finding a new realization
  • 13:30 – Why God puts us in painful positions
  • 15:42 – The suicide message that revealed a "hidden power"
  • 18:40 – Why your intuition is like a feather
  • 20:30 – The secret to being gentle with your own mind
  • 23:05 – Using eyedrops to hide the tears before recording
  • 27:00 – Walking through NYC to build a business from scratch
  • 35:10 – The Frog in the Well: A lesson on selective deafness
  • 44:10 – The birthday shower moment that led to a "line in the sand"
  • 47:15 – Why the secret to life is having no fear


]]> How do you choose to rise when you are sitting alone in your room, feeling unseen in your pain, and wondering how to find purpose after hitting rock bottom? When the life you knew crumbles—through the loss of a parent, a devastating heartbreak, or the realization that your support system isn't what you thought—the only way out is through a radical shift in perspective.

In this deeply moving episode, Sarkie Ampim shares his raw journey from the "zombie mode" of depression to becoming a voice of hope for millions on TikTok. You will learn how to navigate the complexities of cultural expectations, the power of leaning on faith, and why the "destination" you're chasing is actually found within the daily discipline of the journey itself. 

How to Find Purpose After Hitting Rock Bottom

Purpose is often forged in the moments where you feel most isolated; it requires focusing on what you can control and using your story as a medium for healing. Sarkie Ampim explains that hitting rock bottom forces a reliance on faith and internal strength that wouldn't be discovered otherwise.

Navigating Male Vulnerability in Different Cultures

In many traditions, vulnerability is seen as a weakness, yet choosing to be "brave enough to be different" is the catalyst for genuine connection. Breaking the cycle of "zombie mode" starts with the decision that the old version of yourself no longer serves your future.

The Secret to Overcoming Fear and Doubt

When friends or family project their own insecurities onto your dreams, the most powerful response is to "be deaf" to the noise and focus on your intuition. Success isn't just a number on a screen; it's the discipline to keep going even on the days you have to use eyedrops to hide the tears.


Links & Networking

Disclaimer: The TURTZED Podcast reflects the opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. Content is for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare provider for advice tailored to your individual needs. For the full disclaimer, visit our website.

  • 00:00 – The truth about hitting rock bottom
  • 02:05 – The "string of moments" that changed everything
  • 03:59 – Why no one was checking in during the pain
  • 06:40 – The TikTok video that sparked a movement
  • 09:15 – What happens when the male dominant figure is gone
  • 10:15 – The "unspoken" love in African traditions
  • 11:45 – Staring at a corpse and finding a new realization
  • 13:30 – Why God puts us in painful positions
  • 15:42 – The suicide message that revealed a "hidden power"
  • 18:40 – Why your intuition is like a feather
  • 20:30 – The secret to being gentle with your own mind
  • 23:05 – Using eyedrops to hide the tears before recording
  • 27:00 – Walking through NYC to build a business from scratch
  • 35:10 – The Frog in the Well: A lesson on selective deafness
  • 44:10 – The birthday shower moment that led to a "line in the sand"
  • 47:15 – Why the secret to life is having no fear


]]> false full 50 <![CDATA[Noah Osborne: Navigating Seasonal Friendships in Your 20s | Ep. 49]]> Are you holding on to a connection that has already let go of you? The realization that a friendship is no longer mutual is a unique kind of heartbreak, especially when you’ve poured your entire heart into a bond that now feels like a one-way street.

In this episode, Noah Osborne joins Charles Turtz to peel back the layers on why friendships shift, the "seasonal" nature of relationships in your 20s, and how to navigate the "ego" that keeps us from having the hard conversations we actually need. Noah Osborne shares his raw journey through marriage, divorce at 22, and the "answered prayer" of losing friends he thought would be there forever.

Why Friendships Become Seasonal in Your 20s

The transition from 21 to 27 often highlights that many people are in your life to shape you for a specific season rather than for a lifetime. Recognizing that a friendship has served its purpose allows you to release the pressure of unmet expectations and move forward with gratitude instead of resentment.

How to Communicate Friendship Expectations

Miscommunication and unstated expectations are often the root cause of relationships dissolving. By identifying your "love language"—whether it’s quality time or intentional follow-up—and communicating those needs clearly, you can determine if a friendship is worth the extra effort or if it’s naturally drifting into an "outer ring".

Overcoming the Victim Mentality in Relationships

It is easy to fall into a cycle of feeling like you are the only one who cares, but this perspective is often clouded by past trauma or family dynamics. Taking responsibility for your own "ego" and projectable wounds allows you to see that a friend’s lack of reaching out might be due to their own heavy season rather than a lack of love for you.


Links & Networking

Disclaimer: The TURTZED Podcast reflects the opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. Content is for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare provider for advice tailored to your individual needs. For the full disclaimer, visit our website.

  • 00:00 – The "I regret saying that" vulnerability hangover
  • 02:38 – The video that exposed the truth about mutual effort
  • 03:01 – Why your 20s feel like a friendship "time warp"
  • 04:12 – The Bullseye Theory: Moving people between circles
  • 05:17 – What happens to your circle when you divorce at 22?
  • 06:05 – Dealing with "success jealousy" in old friendships
  • 08:34 – Why "Quality Time" is the most dangerous love language
  • 10:04 – The apology that changed nothing
  • 12:50 – Identifying the "behind the scenes" struggle of distant friends
  • 15:59 – Is it your ego or is the friendship actually over?
  • 19:30 – The "Quarterly Hangout" and the fear of disappearing
  • 24:23 – Returning home to find your friends "frozen" in time
  • 27:43 – The difference between being "friendly" and being a "friend"
  • 31:13 – Knowing who can actually handle your "trauma dumping"
  • 32:41 – The "Big Assumption" mistake that derailed the conversation
  • 36:03 – How a spouse can actually save a friendship
  • 42:03 – The "Dangerous Prayer" that removed people from Noah’s life
  • 50:41 – The mask of "keeping it all together" for too long


]]> Wed, 10 Dec 2025 04:30:00 -0500 https://www.turtzed.com/podcast 55:56 Are you holding on to a connection that has already let go of you? The realization that a friendship is no longer mutual is a unique kind of heartbreak, especially when you’ve poured your entire heart into a bond that now feels like a one-way street.

In this episode, Noah Osborne joins Charles Turtz to peel back the layers on why friendships shift, the "seasonal" nature of relationships in your 20s, and how to navigate the "ego" that keeps us from having the hard conversations we actually need. Noah Osborne shares his raw journey through marriage, divorce at 22, and the "answered prayer" of losing friends he thought would be there forever.

Why Friendships Become Seasonal in Your 20s

The transition from 21 to 27 often highlights that many people are in your life to shape you for a specific season rather than for a lifetime. Recognizing that a friendship has served its purpose allows you to release the pressure of unmet expectations and move forward with gratitude instead of resentment.

How to Communicate Friendship Expectations

Miscommunication and unstated expectations are often the root cause of relationships dissolving. By identifying your "love language"—whether it’s quality time or intentional follow-up—and communicating those needs clearly, you can determine if a friendship is worth the extra effort or if it’s naturally drifting into an "outer ring".

Overcoming the Victim Mentality in Relationships

It is easy to fall into a cycle of feeling like you are the only one who cares, but this perspective is often clouded by past trauma or family dynamics. Taking responsibility for your own "ego" and projectable wounds allows you to see that a friend’s lack of reaching out might be due to their own heavy season rather than a lack of love for you.


Links & Networking

Disclaimer: The TURTZED Podcast reflects the opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. Content is for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare provider for advice tailored to your individual needs. For the full disclaimer, visit our website.

  • 00:00 – The "I regret saying that" vulnerability hangover
  • 02:38 – The video that exposed the truth about mutual effort
  • 03:01 – Why your 20s feel like a friendship "time warp"
  • 04:12 – The Bullseye Theory: Moving people between circles
  • 05:17 – What happens to your circle when you divorce at 22?
  • 06:05 – Dealing with "success jealousy" in old friendships
  • 08:34 – Why "Quality Time" is the most dangerous love language
  • 10:04 – The apology that changed nothing
  • 12:50 – Identifying the "behind the scenes" struggle of distant friends
  • 15:59 – Is it your ego or is the friendship actually over?
  • 19:30 – The "Quarterly Hangout" and the fear of disappearing
  • 24:23 – Returning home to find your friends "frozen" in time
  • 27:43 – The difference between being "friendly" and being a "friend"
  • 31:13 – Knowing who can actually handle your "trauma dumping"
  • 32:41 – The "Big Assumption" mistake that derailed the conversation
  • 36:03 – How a spouse can actually save a friendship
  • 42:03 – The "Dangerous Prayer" that removed people from Noah’s life
  • 50:41 – The mask of "keeping it all together" for too long


]]> Are you holding on to a connection that has already let go of you? The realization that a friendship is no longer mutual is a unique kind of heartbreak, especially when you’ve poured your entire heart into a bond that now feels like a one-way street.

In this episode, Noah Osborne joins Charles Turtz to peel back the layers on why friendships shift, the "seasonal" nature of relationships in your 20s, and how to navigate the "ego" that keeps us from having the hard conversations we actually need. Noah Osborne shares his raw journey through marriage, divorce at 22, and the "answered prayer" of losing friends he thought would be there forever.

Why Friendships Become Seasonal in Your 20s

The transition from 21 to 27 often highlights that many people are in your life to shape you for a specific season rather than for a lifetime. Recognizing that a friendship has served its purpose allows you to release the pressure of unmet expectations and move forward with gratitude instead of resentment.

How to Communicate Friendship Expectations

Miscommunication and unstated expectations are often the root cause of relationships dissolving. By identifying your "love language"—whether it’s quality time or intentional follow-up—and communicating those needs clearly, you can determine if a friendship is worth the extra effort or if it’s naturally drifting into an "outer ring".

Overcoming the Victim Mentality in Relationships

It is easy to fall into a cycle of feeling like you are the only one who cares, but this perspective is often clouded by past trauma or family dynamics. Taking responsibility for your own "ego" and projectable wounds allows you to see that a friend’s lack of reaching out might be due to their own heavy season rather than a lack of love for you.


Links & Networking

Disclaimer: The TURTZED Podcast reflects the opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. Content is for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare provider for advice tailored to your individual needs. For the full disclaimer, visit our website.

  • 00:00 – The "I regret saying that" vulnerability hangover
  • 02:38 – The video that exposed the truth about mutual effort
  • 03:01 – Why your 20s feel like a friendship "time warp"
  • 04:12 – The Bullseye Theory: Moving people between circles
  • 05:17 – What happens to your circle when you divorce at 22?
  • 06:05 – Dealing with "success jealousy" in old friendships
  • 08:34 – Why "Quality Time" is the most dangerous love language
  • 10:04 – The apology that changed nothing
  • 12:50 – Identifying the "behind the scenes" struggle of distant friends
  • 15:59 – Is it your ego or is the friendship actually over?
  • 19:30 – The "Quarterly Hangout" and the fear of disappearing
  • 24:23 – Returning home to find your friends "frozen" in time
  • 27:43 – The difference between being "friendly" and being a "friend"
  • 31:13 – Knowing who can actually handle your "trauma dumping"
  • 32:41 – The "Big Assumption" mistake that derailed the conversation
  • 36:03 – How a spouse can actually save a friendship
  • 42:03 – The "Dangerous Prayer" that removed people from Noah’s life
  • 50:41 – The mask of "keeping it all together" for too long


]]> false full 49 <![CDATA[Vincent Barbieri: What is CPTSD from Narcissistic Abuse? | Ep. 48]]> Do you ever feel like an unnecessarily large reaction to a small situation is sabotaging your life, or that you've been "eroded" by relationships rather than hit by a single event? What is CPTSD from Narcissistic Abuse if not the slow, water-like erosion of your sense of self until you no longer recognize your own needs?

In this raw and clinical deep dive, therapist and Ph.D. researcher Vincent Barbieri joins Charles Turtz to unpack the complexities of complex trauma, the "false positive" nature of rejection sensitivity, and the liberation that comes from grieving the parts of yourself you were taught to suppress. Vincent Barbieri explains how narcissistic environments mold us into "straight trees in crooked forests," and how to finally stop looking for external validation and start trusting your own internal radar.

How to Identify CPTSD vs. PTSD

While PTSD is often triggered by a single "dynamite" event like war, CPTSD is the "water erosion" caused by long-term, unhealthy environments where your sense of self is the thing that is traumatized. It manifests as a distorted idea of how to maintain relationships based on childhood survival tactics.

Why Am I So Sensitive to Rejection?

Rejection sensitivity is a psychological construct where your brain becomes hyper-accurate at recognizing rejection but also overestimates it in neutral situations. This often stems from a childhood where expressing a need led to emotional withdrawal from a caregiver, teaching you to suppress yourself to keep others close.

The Role of Anger in Validating Reality

Anger is often a "radar" telling you that a boundary is being crossed; when you are told to suppress it, you are turning off the guiding principle that helps you detect mistreatment. In the context of narcissistic abuse, anger can act as a tool to counteract the doubt sowed by a partner or parent who distorts your reality.


Links & Networking

Disclaimer: The TURTZED Podcast reflects the opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. Content is for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare provider for advice tailored to your individual needs. For the full disclaimer, visit our website.


  • 00:00 – The "Pause" That Defines True Vulnerability
  • 00:24 – Why You Suppress Needs to Keep People Close
  • 02:58 – The "Water Erosion" vs. "Dynamite" Trauma Model
  • 04:32 – How Infancy Shapes Your Adult Sense of Self
  • 05:48 – The Single Thought That Triggers CPTSD
  • 08:42 – Why CPTSD Often Stays Hidden Until Adulthood
  • 11:35 – Rejection Sensitivity: A Diagnostic "Spoiler Alert"
  • 13:05 – The "False Positive" Reality of Reading Faces
  • 15:18 – Fear of Negative Evaluation vs. Visceral Rejection
  • 23:39 – What Inside Out Got Right About Anger
  • 30:57 – The Antidote to Resisting Your Own Reality
  • 34:15 – Why Self-Acceptance is "Heavy Lifting" for Gay Men
  • 41:53 – How Narcissistic Abuse Distorts Your Daily Truth
  • 45:10 – The Habit of "Packing Bags" Before You're Rejected
  • 50:51 – The Ocean Gate CEO and the Danger of Self-Delusion
  • 56:30 – Unlearning Modeled Behavior from Toxic Environments
  • 58:26 – Why You Can't Feel Safe Until You Feel Unsafe
  • 1:00:52 – Grieving the Child Who Went Unmet


]]> Wed, 03 Dec 2025 16:00:00 -0500 https://www.turtzed.com/podcast 1:10:40 Do you ever feel like an unnecessarily large reaction to a small situation is sabotaging your life, or that you've been "eroded" by relationships rather than hit by a single event? What is CPTSD from Narcissistic Abuse if not the slow, water-like erosion of your sense of self until you no longer recognize your own needs?

In this raw and clinical deep dive, therapist and Ph.D. researcher Vincent Barbieri joins Charles Turtz to unpack the complexities of complex trauma, the "false positive" nature of rejection sensitivity, and the liberation that comes from grieving the parts of yourself you were taught to suppress. Vincent Barbieri explains how narcissistic environments mold us into "straight trees in crooked forests," and how to finally stop looking for external validation and start trusting your own internal radar.

How to Identify CPTSD vs. PTSD

While PTSD is often triggered by a single "dynamite" event like war, CPTSD is the "water erosion" caused by long-term, unhealthy environments where your sense of self is the thing that is traumatized. It manifests as a distorted idea of how to maintain relationships based on childhood survival tactics.

Why Am I So Sensitive to Rejection?

Rejection sensitivity is a psychological construct where your brain becomes hyper-accurate at recognizing rejection but also overestimates it in neutral situations. This often stems from a childhood where expressing a need led to emotional withdrawal from a caregiver, teaching you to suppress yourself to keep others close.

The Role of Anger in Validating Reality

Anger is often a "radar" telling you that a boundary is being crossed; when you are told to suppress it, you are turning off the guiding principle that helps you detect mistreatment. In the context of narcissistic abuse, anger can act as a tool to counteract the doubt sowed by a partner or parent who distorts your reality.


Links & Networking

Disclaimer: The TURTZED Podcast reflects the opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. Content is for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare provider for advice tailored to your individual needs. For the full disclaimer, visit our website.


  • 00:00 – The "Pause" That Defines True Vulnerability
  • 00:24 – Why You Suppress Needs to Keep People Close
  • 02:58 – The "Water Erosion" vs. "Dynamite" Trauma Model
  • 04:32 – How Infancy Shapes Your Adult Sense of Self
  • 05:48 – The Single Thought That Triggers CPTSD
  • 08:42 – Why CPTSD Often Stays Hidden Until Adulthood
  • 11:35 – Rejection Sensitivity: A Diagnostic "Spoiler Alert"
  • 13:05 – The "False Positive" Reality of Reading Faces
  • 15:18 – Fear of Negative Evaluation vs. Visceral Rejection
  • 23:39 – What Inside Out Got Right About Anger
  • 30:57 – The Antidote to Resisting Your Own Reality
  • 34:15 – Why Self-Acceptance is "Heavy Lifting" for Gay Men
  • 41:53 – How Narcissistic Abuse Distorts Your Daily Truth
  • 45:10 – The Habit of "Packing Bags" Before You're Rejected
  • 50:51 – The Ocean Gate CEO and the Danger of Self-Delusion
  • 56:30 – Unlearning Modeled Behavior from Toxic Environments
  • 58:26 – Why You Can't Feel Safe Until You Feel Unsafe
  • 1:00:52 – Grieving the Child Who Went Unmet


]]> Do you ever feel like an unnecessarily large reaction to a small situation is sabotaging your life, or that you've been "eroded" by relationships rather than hit by a single event? What is CPTSD from Narcissistic Abuse if not the slow, water-like erosion of your sense of self until you no longer recognize your own needs?

In this raw and clinical deep dive, therapist and Ph.D. researcher Vincent Barbieri joins Charles Turtz to unpack the complexities of complex trauma, the "false positive" nature of rejection sensitivity, and the liberation that comes from grieving the parts of yourself you were taught to suppress. Vincent Barbieri explains how narcissistic environments mold us into "straight trees in crooked forests," and how to finally stop looking for external validation and start trusting your own internal radar.

How to Identify CPTSD vs. PTSD

While PTSD is often triggered by a single "dynamite" event like war, CPTSD is the "water erosion" caused by long-term, unhealthy environments where your sense of self is the thing that is traumatized. It manifests as a distorted idea of how to maintain relationships based on childhood survival tactics.

Why Am I So Sensitive to Rejection?

Rejection sensitivity is a psychological construct where your brain becomes hyper-accurate at recognizing rejection but also overestimates it in neutral situations. This often stems from a childhood where expressing a need led to emotional withdrawal from a caregiver, teaching you to suppress yourself to keep others close.

The Role of Anger in Validating Reality

Anger is often a "radar" telling you that a boundary is being crossed; when you are told to suppress it, you are turning off the guiding principle that helps you detect mistreatment. In the context of narcissistic abuse, anger can act as a tool to counteract the doubt sowed by a partner or parent who distorts your reality.


Links & Networking

Disclaimer: The TURTZED Podcast reflects the opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. Content is for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare provider for advice tailored to your individual needs. For the full disclaimer, visit our website.


  • 00:00 – The "Pause" That Defines True Vulnerability
  • 00:24 – Why You Suppress Needs to Keep People Close
  • 02:58 – The "Water Erosion" vs. "Dynamite" Trauma Model
  • 04:32 – How Infancy Shapes Your Adult Sense of Self
  • 05:48 – The Single Thought That Triggers CPTSD
  • 08:42 – Why CPTSD Often Stays Hidden Until Adulthood
  • 11:35 – Rejection Sensitivity: A Diagnostic "Spoiler Alert"
  • 13:05 – The "False Positive" Reality of Reading Faces
  • 15:18 – Fear of Negative Evaluation vs. Visceral Rejection
  • 23:39 – What Inside Out Got Right About Anger
  • 30:57 – The Antidote to Resisting Your Own Reality
  • 34:15 – Why Self-Acceptance is "Heavy Lifting" for Gay Men
  • 41:53 – How Narcissistic Abuse Distorts Your Daily Truth
  • 45:10 – The Habit of "Packing Bags" Before You're Rejected
  • 50:51 – The Ocean Gate CEO and the Danger of Self-Delusion
  • 56:30 – Unlearning Modeled Behavior from Toxic Environments
  • 58:26 – Why You Can't Feel Safe Until You Feel Unsafe
  • 1:00:52 – Grieving the Child Who Went Unmet


]]> false full 48 <![CDATA[Kayvon Kay: How to Survive an Ego Death as an Entrepreneur | Ep. 47]]> What happens when your eight-figure business, your health, and your relationships all hit a breaking point at the exact same time? For many, this is the end, but for those willing to lean into the discomfort, it is the beginning of a profound transformation. Understanding how to survive an ego death as an entrepreneur isn't just about professional recovery; it’s about stripping away the protective barriers that have kept you safe—and stuck—for decades.

In this raw and deeply personal episode, Kayvon Kay shares his journey from managing 140 employees and an eight-figure empire to a total internal collapse at age 40. He discusses the "special education" labels that fueled a 20-year drive to prove the world wrong and how he eventually learned that true success isn't found in a $300 million yacht, but in the freedom to be present with his family. Listeners will walk away with a new framework for self-trust and a tactical approach to auditing the "ego" that may be sabotaging their own growth.

How to Identify the Signs of an Impending Ego Death

An ego death often manifests as a total misalignment between external success and internal misery, such as losing mentors, health, or family connections despite high revenue. It requires taking full responsibility for your results rather than remaining in a state of victimhood.

Why Entrepreneurs Hire People to "Save" Them

Many leaders fall into the trap of hiring employees who need saving as a way to validate their own worthiness or hope they will be saved in return. Breaking this cycle involves realizing your worth is not external and learning to lead from a place of wholeness rather than scarcity.

How to Use the "Mirror Method" in Sales and Leadership

The Mirror Method prioritizes the "mirror within"—getting your head right—before attempting to build authentic relationships or mastering the skill of the game. It shifts the focus from "selling" people to supporting them in becoming better versions of themselves.


Links & Networking

Disclaimer: The TURTZED Podcast reflects the opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. Content is for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare provider for advice tailored to your individual needs. For the full disclaimer, visit our website.

  • 00:00 – The Day I Had to Die
  • 01:45 – The Eight-Figure Business Mirage
  • 03:07 – Why the Universe Gives You a Wake-up Call
  • 04:41 – The "Saving Others" Recipe for Disaster
  • 07:23 – Why You're Just "Blowing in the Wind"
  • 08:48 – The First Ring of the Rock in the Water
  • 10:43 – The Barrier Protecting You from Winning
  • 12:44 – The Grade-School Labels That Shaped a Life
  • 14:13 – The Heart of a Misunderstood "Bad Kid"
  • 15:48 – Proving Everyone Wrong vs. Proving Yourself Right
  • 17:57 – The Stranger Who Started Crying
  • 20:32 – The Truth About Tony Robbins and "Ass Slapping"
  • 22:41 – What a Real Warrior Does with Their Wounds
  • 26:38 – The Drowning Man and the Three Lifeboats
  • 33:31 – Kobe Bryant’s 4 AM Lobby Secret
  • 35:20 – Why You Can’t Outsell Your Identity
  • 41:50 – The Difference Between Freedom and a $300M Yacht
  • 43:27 – The Neighbors' Grass and the Fence Trap


]]> Wed, 19 Nov 2025 04:00:00 -0500 https://www.turtzed.com/podcast 49:04 What happens when your eight-figure business, your health, and your relationships all hit a breaking point at the exact same time? For many, this is the end, but for those willing to lean into the discomfort, it is the beginning of a profound transformation. Understanding how to survive an ego death as an entrepreneur isn't just about professional recovery; it’s about stripping away the protective barriers that have kept you safe—and stuck—for decades.

In this raw and deeply personal episode, Kayvon Kay shares his journey from managing 140 employees and an eight-figure empire to a total internal collapse at age 40. He discusses the "special education" labels that fueled a 20-year drive to prove the world wrong and how he eventually learned that true success isn't found in a $300 million yacht, but in the freedom to be present with his family. Listeners will walk away with a new framework for self-trust and a tactical approach to auditing the "ego" that may be sabotaging their own growth.

How to Identify the Signs of an Impending Ego Death

An ego death often manifests as a total misalignment between external success and internal misery, such as losing mentors, health, or family connections despite high revenue. It requires taking full responsibility for your results rather than remaining in a state of victimhood.

Why Entrepreneurs Hire People to "Save" Them

Many leaders fall into the trap of hiring employees who need saving as a way to validate their own worthiness or hope they will be saved in return. Breaking this cycle involves realizing your worth is not external and learning to lead from a place of wholeness rather than scarcity.

How to Use the "Mirror Method" in Sales and Leadership

The Mirror Method prioritizes the "mirror within"—getting your head right—before attempting to build authentic relationships or mastering the skill of the game. It shifts the focus from "selling" people to supporting them in becoming better versions of themselves.


Links & Networking

Disclaimer: The TURTZED Podcast reflects the opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. Content is for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare provider for advice tailored to your individual needs. For the full disclaimer, visit our website.

  • 00:00 – The Day I Had to Die
  • 01:45 – The Eight-Figure Business Mirage
  • 03:07 – Why the Universe Gives You a Wake-up Call
  • 04:41 – The "Saving Others" Recipe for Disaster
  • 07:23 – Why You're Just "Blowing in the Wind"
  • 08:48 – The First Ring of the Rock in the Water
  • 10:43 – The Barrier Protecting You from Winning
  • 12:44 – The Grade-School Labels That Shaped a Life
  • 14:13 – The Heart of a Misunderstood "Bad Kid"
  • 15:48 – Proving Everyone Wrong vs. Proving Yourself Right
  • 17:57 – The Stranger Who Started Crying
  • 20:32 – The Truth About Tony Robbins and "Ass Slapping"
  • 22:41 – What a Real Warrior Does with Their Wounds
  • 26:38 – The Drowning Man and the Three Lifeboats
  • 33:31 – Kobe Bryant’s 4 AM Lobby Secret
  • 35:20 – Why You Can’t Outsell Your Identity
  • 41:50 – The Difference Between Freedom and a $300M Yacht
  • 43:27 – The Neighbors' Grass and the Fence Trap


]]> What happens when your eight-figure business, your health, and your relationships all hit a breaking point at the exact same time? For many, this is the end, but for those willing to lean into the discomfort, it is the beginning of a profound transformation. Understanding how to survive an ego death as an entrepreneur isn't just about professional recovery; it’s about stripping away the protective barriers that have kept you safe—and stuck—for decades.

In this raw and deeply personal episode, Kayvon Kay shares his journey from managing 140 employees and an eight-figure empire to a total internal collapse at age 40. He discusses the "special education" labels that fueled a 20-year drive to prove the world wrong and how he eventually learned that true success isn't found in a $300 million yacht, but in the freedom to be present with his family. Listeners will walk away with a new framework for self-trust and a tactical approach to auditing the "ego" that may be sabotaging their own growth.

How to Identify the Signs of an Impending Ego Death

An ego death often manifests as a total misalignment between external success and internal misery, such as losing mentors, health, or family connections despite high revenue. It requires taking full responsibility for your results rather than remaining in a state of victimhood.

Why Entrepreneurs Hire People to "Save" Them

Many leaders fall into the trap of hiring employees who need saving as a way to validate their own worthiness or hope they will be saved in return. Breaking this cycle involves realizing your worth is not external and learning to lead from a place of wholeness rather than scarcity.

How to Use the "Mirror Method" in Sales and Leadership

The Mirror Method prioritizes the "mirror within"—getting your head right—before attempting to build authentic relationships or mastering the skill of the game. It shifts the focus from "selling" people to supporting them in becoming better versions of themselves.


Links & Networking

Disclaimer: The TURTZED Podcast reflects the opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. Content is for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare provider for advice tailored to your individual needs. For the full disclaimer, visit our website.

  • 00:00 – The Day I Had to Die
  • 01:45 – The Eight-Figure Business Mirage
  • 03:07 – Why the Universe Gives You a Wake-up Call
  • 04:41 – The "Saving Others" Recipe for Disaster
  • 07:23 – Why You're Just "Blowing in the Wind"
  • 08:48 – The First Ring of the Rock in the Water
  • 10:43 – The Barrier Protecting You from Winning
  • 12:44 – The Grade-School Labels That Shaped a Life
  • 14:13 – The Heart of a Misunderstood "Bad Kid"
  • 15:48 – Proving Everyone Wrong vs. Proving Yourself Right
  • 17:57 – The Stranger Who Started Crying
  • 20:32 – The Truth About Tony Robbins and "Ass Slapping"
  • 22:41 – What a Real Warrior Does with Their Wounds
  • 26:38 – The Drowning Man and the Three Lifeboats
  • 33:31 – Kobe Bryant’s 4 AM Lobby Secret
  • 35:20 – Why You Can’t Outsell Your Identity
  • 41:50 – The Difference Between Freedom and a $300M Yacht
  • 43:27 – The Neighbors' Grass and the Fence Trap


]]> false full 47 <![CDATA[Keith Crossley: Healing the "Not Enough" Wound and Breaking Toxic Cycles | Ep. 46]]> Are you exhausted from constantly giving to people who never give back? The feeling of being "not enough" is a core wound that often drives us into one-sided friendships and toxic romantic cycles where we ignore red flags just to avoid being alone.

In this deep dive, Keith Crossley, author and founder of Anxiety Detox Training, breaks down the "relationship in a box" framework to help you stop being disappointed by others' limitations. Whether you are dealing with the aftermath of an affair or trying to break a generational cycle of anger, Keith provides the roadmap to move from suffering to transcendence.

How to Identify a One-Sided Friendship

If you stop being the one to always reach out or initiate plans, you reveal the harsh truth about the friendship's balance. This "litmus test" allows you to stop over-giving to "takers" and creates space for genuine, reciprocal connections.

Why We Attract Toxic Relationships

Until you heal the original core wound of feeling unworthy of love, you will unconsciously attract partners who confirm your greatest fears. We often do "mental gymnastics" to justify staying in a relationship that our intuition is screaming at us to leave.

The Secret to Breaking Karma and Cycles

Breaking your "karma" involves identifying the mechanical stages of your subconscious cycles—like lashing out in anger to avoid vulnerability. By intervening at earlier stages of these patterns, you can eventually extinguish behaviors that no longer serve you.


Links & Networking

Disclaimer: The TURTZED Podcast reflects the opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. Content is for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare provider for advice tailored to your individual needs. For the full disclaimer, visit our website.


  • 00:00 – The "Heavy Topics" Warning
  • 01:03 – Why Betrayal Rivals the Pain of Losing a Child
  • 02:49 – The "Pause Test" for One-Sided Friendships
  • 03:55 – The Harsh Reality of Stopping the Giving
  • 06:05 – The Bullseye Strategy for Healthy Circles
  • 07:46 – Why Everyone Shares the "Not Enough" Fear
  • 08:13 – Relationship in a Box: Managing Expectations
  • 10:59 – Why We Ignore Red Flags to Our Own Peril
  • 13:40 – The Psychology of "Mental Gymnastics" in Love
  • 14:47 – How the Ego Protects You from Being Abandoned
  • 18:36 – Mapping the 6-Stage Cycle of Self-Sabotage
  • 21:06 – What it Really Means to "Break Your Karma"
  • 25:41 – The Secret Link Between Anger and Control
  • 31:24 – The Two Paths to Wholeness (Only One Works)
  • 36:28 – Why the Truth is the Only Path to Liberation
  • 42:33 – Guilt vs. Shame: How We Attach Mistakes to Identity
  • 50:07 – The Power of Transcending Human Suffering
  • 51:24 – The Worst Experience That Became the Best Lesson


]]> Wed, 12 Nov 2025 04:00:00 -0500 https://www.turtzed.com/podcast 57:11 Are you exhausted from constantly giving to people who never give back? The feeling of being "not enough" is a core wound that often drives us into one-sided friendships and toxic romantic cycles where we ignore red flags just to avoid being alone.

In this deep dive, Keith Crossley, author and founder of Anxiety Detox Training, breaks down the "relationship in a box" framework to help you stop being disappointed by others' limitations. Whether you are dealing with the aftermath of an affair or trying to break a generational cycle of anger, Keith provides the roadmap to move from suffering to transcendence.

How to Identify a One-Sided Friendship

If you stop being the one to always reach out or initiate plans, you reveal the harsh truth about the friendship's balance. This "litmus test" allows you to stop over-giving to "takers" and creates space for genuine, reciprocal connections.

Why We Attract Toxic Relationships

Until you heal the original core wound of feeling unworthy of love, you will unconsciously attract partners who confirm your greatest fears. We often do "mental gymnastics" to justify staying in a relationship that our intuition is screaming at us to leave.

The Secret to Breaking Karma and Cycles

Breaking your "karma" involves identifying the mechanical stages of your subconscious cycles—like lashing out in anger to avoid vulnerability. By intervening at earlier stages of these patterns, you can eventually extinguish behaviors that no longer serve you.


Links & Networking

Disclaimer: The TURTZED Podcast reflects the opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. Content is for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare provider for advice tailored to your individual needs. For the full disclaimer, visit our website.


  • 00:00 – The "Heavy Topics" Warning
  • 01:03 – Why Betrayal Rivals the Pain of Losing a Child
  • 02:49 – The "Pause Test" for One-Sided Friendships
  • 03:55 – The Harsh Reality of Stopping the Giving
  • 06:05 – The Bullseye Strategy for Healthy Circles
  • 07:46 – Why Everyone Shares the "Not Enough" Fear
  • 08:13 – Relationship in a Box: Managing Expectations
  • 10:59 – Why We Ignore Red Flags to Our Own Peril
  • 13:40 – The Psychology of "Mental Gymnastics" in Love
  • 14:47 – How the Ego Protects You from Being Abandoned
  • 18:36 – Mapping the 6-Stage Cycle of Self-Sabotage
  • 21:06 – What it Really Means to "Break Your Karma"
  • 25:41 – The Secret Link Between Anger and Control
  • 31:24 – The Two Paths to Wholeness (Only One Works)
  • 36:28 – Why the Truth is the Only Path to Liberation
  • 42:33 – Guilt vs. Shame: How We Attach Mistakes to Identity
  • 50:07 – The Power of Transcending Human Suffering
  • 51:24 – The Worst Experience That Became the Best Lesson


]]> Are you exhausted from constantly giving to people who never give back? The feeling of being "not enough" is a core wound that often drives us into one-sided friendships and toxic romantic cycles where we ignore red flags just to avoid being alone.

In this deep dive, Keith Crossley, author and founder of Anxiety Detox Training, breaks down the "relationship in a box" framework to help you stop being disappointed by others' limitations. Whether you are dealing with the aftermath of an affair or trying to break a generational cycle of anger, Keith provides the roadmap to move from suffering to transcendence.

How to Identify a One-Sided Friendship

If you stop being the one to always reach out or initiate plans, you reveal the harsh truth about the friendship's balance. This "litmus test" allows you to stop over-giving to "takers" and creates space for genuine, reciprocal connections.

Why We Attract Toxic Relationships

Until you heal the original core wound of feeling unworthy of love, you will unconsciously attract partners who confirm your greatest fears. We often do "mental gymnastics" to justify staying in a relationship that our intuition is screaming at us to leave.

The Secret to Breaking Karma and Cycles

Breaking your "karma" involves identifying the mechanical stages of your subconscious cycles—like lashing out in anger to avoid vulnerability. By intervening at earlier stages of these patterns, you can eventually extinguish behaviors that no longer serve you.


Links & Networking

Disclaimer: The TURTZED Podcast reflects the opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. Content is for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare provider for advice tailored to your individual needs. For the full disclaimer, visit our website.


  • 00:00 – The "Heavy Topics" Warning
  • 01:03 – Why Betrayal Rivals the Pain of Losing a Child
  • 02:49 – The "Pause Test" for One-Sided Friendships
  • 03:55 – The Harsh Reality of Stopping the Giving
  • 06:05 – The Bullseye Strategy for Healthy Circles
  • 07:46 – Why Everyone Shares the "Not Enough" Fear
  • 08:13 – Relationship in a Box: Managing Expectations
  • 10:59 – Why We Ignore Red Flags to Our Own Peril
  • 13:40 – The Psychology of "Mental Gymnastics" in Love
  • 14:47 – How the Ego Protects You from Being Abandoned
  • 18:36 – Mapping the 6-Stage Cycle of Self-Sabotage
  • 21:06 – What it Really Means to "Break Your Karma"
  • 25:41 – The Secret Link Between Anger and Control
  • 31:24 – The Two Paths to Wholeness (Only One Works)
  • 36:28 – Why the Truth is the Only Path to Liberation
  • 42:33 – Guilt vs. Shame: How We Attach Mistakes to Identity
  • 50:07 – The Power of Transcending Human Suffering
  • 51:24 – The Worst Experience That Became the Best Lesson


]]> false full 46 <![CDATA[James Wallis: Overcoming Gay Shame & The Path to Authenticity | Ep. 45]]> Have you ever wondered if your life would be easier if you could just take a pill to be "normal," or is the weight of gay shame holding you back from your most authentic life? In a world that often demands we perform for validation, facing the mirror—and the trauma we’ve carried since the school playground—is the scariest yet most liberating thing we can do.

In this episode, James Wallis, the creator behind the viral "Hey Gay Boy" series, joins Charles Turtz to dive deep into the psychology of the queer experience. From the nuances of internalised homophobia to the "nutritious" side of content creation, James shares how he transformed weaponized words into a source of strength and why healing the inner child is the ultimate act of resilience.

How to Heal from Gay Shame

James discusses how his journey through therapy allowed him to unpack the "riddling shame" of growing up in the closet. He explains that acknowledging these universal truths—like the fear of rejection and childhood bullying—is the first step toward building a sense of self that isn't dependent on external validation.

Understanding the "Straight Pill" Theory

The conversation explores the controversial thought experiment of whether one would choose to be straight if given the chance. James and Charles navigate the gray area of being a proud gay man while factually acknowledging the "straight privilege" that makes life’s path less resistant.

How to Build Healthy Narcissism

Not all self-focus is toxic; James breaks down the concept of "healthy narcissism" and the difference between seeking hollow validation through "thirst traps" versus genuine self-care. He shares how to recognize when the "wounded child" is running the show and how to provide the safety that child never had.


Links & Networking

Disclaimer: The TURTZED Podcast reflects the opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. Content is for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare provider for advice tailored to your individual needs. For the full disclaimer, visit our website.

  • 00:00 – The "Highgate Boy" Origin Story
  • 01:13 – Why Therapy is the Ultimate Marketing Strategy
  • 02:46 – Weaponizing Words into Strength
  • 04:38 – The Fear of Being Met with "Gay Backlash"
  • 05:35 – Why Instagram is Scarier Than TikTok
  • 08:35 – The Secret Legacy of Every Video
  • 10:22 – The Trap of Parasocial Relationships
  • 14:19 – The Truth About "Performative" Authenticity
  • 18:34 – The Controversial "Straight Pill" Debate
  • 21:26 – Are We Ever Truly Free of Shame?
  • 26:40 – Sugar Cakes vs. Nutritious Content
  • 31:49 – The "TikTok Couple" Illusion
  • 34:05 – The Dark Side of Having a 3% Body Fat
  • 38:30 – Why Everyone Needs "Healthy Narcissism"
  • 46:49 – The Hypervigilant Wiring of Gay Men
  • 54:34 – When the Wounded Child Runs the Show


]]> Wed, 05 Nov 2025 04:00:00 -0500 https://www.turtzed.com/podcast 1:02:30 Have you ever wondered if your life would be easier if you could just take a pill to be "normal," or is the weight of gay shame holding you back from your most authentic life? In a world that often demands we perform for validation, facing the mirror—and the trauma we’ve carried since the school playground—is the scariest yet most liberating thing we can do.

In this episode, James Wallis, the creator behind the viral "Hey Gay Boy" series, joins Charles Turtz to dive deep into the psychology of the queer experience. From the nuances of internalised homophobia to the "nutritious" side of content creation, James shares how he transformed weaponized words into a source of strength and why healing the inner child is the ultimate act of resilience.

How to Heal from Gay Shame

James discusses how his journey through therapy allowed him to unpack the "riddling shame" of growing up in the closet. He explains that acknowledging these universal truths—like the fear of rejection and childhood bullying—is the first step toward building a sense of self that isn't dependent on external validation.

Understanding the "Straight Pill" Theory

The conversation explores the controversial thought experiment of whether one would choose to be straight if given the chance. James and Charles navigate the gray area of being a proud gay man while factually acknowledging the "straight privilege" that makes life’s path less resistant.

How to Build Healthy Narcissism

Not all self-focus is toxic; James breaks down the concept of "healthy narcissism" and the difference between seeking hollow validation through "thirst traps" versus genuine self-care. He shares how to recognize when the "wounded child" is running the show and how to provide the safety that child never had.


Links & Networking

Disclaimer: The TURTZED Podcast reflects the opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. Content is for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare provider for advice tailored to your individual needs. For the full disclaimer, visit our website.

  • 00:00 – The "Highgate Boy" Origin Story
  • 01:13 – Why Therapy is the Ultimate Marketing Strategy
  • 02:46 – Weaponizing Words into Strength
  • 04:38 – The Fear of Being Met with "Gay Backlash"
  • 05:35 – Why Instagram is Scarier Than TikTok
  • 08:35 – The Secret Legacy of Every Video
  • 10:22 – The Trap of Parasocial Relationships
  • 14:19 – The Truth About "Performative" Authenticity
  • 18:34 – The Controversial "Straight Pill" Debate
  • 21:26 – Are We Ever Truly Free of Shame?
  • 26:40 – Sugar Cakes vs. Nutritious Content
  • 31:49 – The "TikTok Couple" Illusion
  • 34:05 – The Dark Side of Having a 3% Body Fat
  • 38:30 – Why Everyone Needs "Healthy Narcissism"
  • 46:49 – The Hypervigilant Wiring of Gay Men
  • 54:34 – When the Wounded Child Runs the Show


]]> Have you ever wondered if your life would be easier if you could just take a pill to be "normal," or is the weight of gay shame holding you back from your most authentic life? In a world that often demands we perform for validation, facing the mirror—and the trauma we’ve carried since the school playground—is the scariest yet most liberating thing we can do.

In this episode, James Wallis, the creator behind the viral "Hey Gay Boy" series, joins Charles Turtz to dive deep into the psychology of the queer experience. From the nuances of internalised homophobia to the "nutritious" side of content creation, James shares how he transformed weaponized words into a source of strength and why healing the inner child is the ultimate act of resilience.

How to Heal from Gay Shame

James discusses how his journey through therapy allowed him to unpack the "riddling shame" of growing up in the closet. He explains that acknowledging these universal truths—like the fear of rejection and childhood bullying—is the first step toward building a sense of self that isn't dependent on external validation.

Understanding the "Straight Pill" Theory

The conversation explores the controversial thought experiment of whether one would choose to be straight if given the chance. James and Charles navigate the gray area of being a proud gay man while factually acknowledging the "straight privilege" that makes life’s path less resistant.

How to Build Healthy Narcissism

Not all self-focus is toxic; James breaks down the concept of "healthy narcissism" and the difference between seeking hollow validation through "thirst traps" versus genuine self-care. He shares how to recognize when the "wounded child" is running the show and how to provide the safety that child never had.


Links & Networking

Disclaimer: The TURTZED Podcast reflects the opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. Content is for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare provider for advice tailored to your individual needs. For the full disclaimer, visit our website.

  • 00:00 – The "Highgate Boy" Origin Story
  • 01:13 – Why Therapy is the Ultimate Marketing Strategy
  • 02:46 – Weaponizing Words into Strength
  • 04:38 – The Fear of Being Met with "Gay Backlash"
  • 05:35 – Why Instagram is Scarier Than TikTok
  • 08:35 – The Secret Legacy of Every Video
  • 10:22 – The Trap of Parasocial Relationships
  • 14:19 – The Truth About "Performative" Authenticity
  • 18:34 – The Controversial "Straight Pill" Debate
  • 21:26 – Are We Ever Truly Free of Shame?
  • 26:40 – Sugar Cakes vs. Nutritious Content
  • 31:49 – The "TikTok Couple" Illusion
  • 34:05 – The Dark Side of Having a 3% Body Fat
  • 38:30 – Why Everyone Needs "Healthy Narcissism"
  • 46:49 – The Hypervigilant Wiring of Gay Men
  • 54:34 – When the Wounded Child Runs the Show


]]> false full 45 <![CDATA[How to Overcome Your Inner Critic and Show Up Authentically | Ep. 44]]> How can you learn to show up authentically when your own inner critic is the loudest voice in the room? In this deeply personal episode, we explore the paralyzing weight of self-judgment and the physical toll of trying to maintain a "perfect" image while building a business and a brand.

Charles Turtz shares his raw journey through a "radical reset," moving from the safety of helping others in sales to the vulnerability of sharing his own story. You will learn how to identify the small comforts that allow you to take big risks, the reality of living with complex PTSD, and how to treat your brain like a muscle to build the courage you need for a career change or personal transformation.

How to Silence Your Inner Critic 

Stop letting the fear of being "made fun of" prevent you from sharing your message; recognize that the harshest judgment usually comes from within rather than your audience.

Strategies for Pushing Outside Your Comfort Zone 

Identify small, "safe versions" of the things you are afraid to do—like choosing the side of the table where you feel most comfortable—to create the momentum needed for major life changes.

The Secret to Authentic Personal Branding 

True connection is found when you stop hiding behind a "version" of yourself and start showing up as the person you are, even when it feels fragile or unpolished.


Links & Networking

Disclaimer: The TURTZED Podcast reflects the opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. Content is for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare provider for advice tailored to your individual needs. For the full disclaimer, visit our website.


  • 00:00 – The "Elephant" on the chest
  • 00:41 – Why we judge words before they are spoken
  • 01:11 – The perfectionism trap and the inner monologue
  • 01:53 – Moving past the "victim" point of view
  • 02:25 – The secret to why he sits on the left side
  • 03:18 – Using comfort to push outside the comfort zone
  • 03:54 – The birthday "mile marker" for success
  • 04:11 – The one thing he couldn't admit he wanted to change
  • 04:34 – A year of building: From CRMs to Coaching
  • 04:59 – Why every day felt "fragile" during the build
  • 05:26 – Ripping the Band-Aid vs. the radical reset
  • 06:16 – Working up from minimum wage to the podcast
  • 06:46 – Pushing past the limit for external acceptance
  • 07:40 – Managing intrusive thoughts and C-PTSD
  • 08:12 – The "Stake in the Ground" strategy
  • 09:04 – Why we are actually afraid of accomplishment
  • 09:38 – Your brain is a bicep: Flexing the fear muscle


]]> Wed, 29 Oct 2025 09:47:00 -0400 https://www.turtzed.com/podcast 11:25 How can you learn to show up authentically when your own inner critic is the loudest voice in the room? In this deeply personal episode, we explore the paralyzing weight of self-judgment and the physical toll of trying to maintain a "perfect" image while building a business and a brand.

Charles Turtz shares his raw journey through a "radical reset," moving from the safety of helping others in sales to the vulnerability of sharing his own story. You will learn how to identify the small comforts that allow you to take big risks, the reality of living with complex PTSD, and how to treat your brain like a muscle to build the courage you need for a career change or personal transformation.

How to Silence Your Inner Critic 

Stop letting the fear of being "made fun of" prevent you from sharing your message; recognize that the harshest judgment usually comes from within rather than your audience.

Strategies for Pushing Outside Your Comfort Zone 

Identify small, "safe versions" of the things you are afraid to do—like choosing the side of the table where you feel most comfortable—to create the momentum needed for major life changes.

The Secret to Authentic Personal Branding 

True connection is found when you stop hiding behind a "version" of yourself and start showing up as the person you are, even when it feels fragile or unpolished.


Links & Networking

Disclaimer: The TURTZED Podcast reflects the opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. Content is for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare provider for advice tailored to your individual needs. For the full disclaimer, visit our website.


  • 00:00 – The "Elephant" on the chest
  • 00:41 – Why we judge words before they are spoken
  • 01:11 – The perfectionism trap and the inner monologue
  • 01:53 – Moving past the "victim" point of view
  • 02:25 – The secret to why he sits on the left side
  • 03:18 – Using comfort to push outside the comfort zone
  • 03:54 – The birthday "mile marker" for success
  • 04:11 – The one thing he couldn't admit he wanted to change
  • 04:34 – A year of building: From CRMs to Coaching
  • 04:59 – Why every day felt "fragile" during the build
  • 05:26 – Ripping the Band-Aid vs. the radical reset
  • 06:16 – Working up from minimum wage to the podcast
  • 06:46 – Pushing past the limit for external acceptance
  • 07:40 – Managing intrusive thoughts and C-PTSD
  • 08:12 – The "Stake in the Ground" strategy
  • 09:04 – Why we are actually afraid of accomplishment
  • 09:38 – Your brain is a bicep: Flexing the fear muscle


]]> How can you learn to show up authentically when your own inner critic is the loudest voice in the room? In this deeply personal episode, we explore the paralyzing weight of self-judgment and the physical toll of trying to maintain a "perfect" image while building a business and a brand.

Charles Turtz shares his raw journey through a "radical reset," moving from the safety of helping others in sales to the vulnerability of sharing his own story. You will learn how to identify the small comforts that allow you to take big risks, the reality of living with complex PTSD, and how to treat your brain like a muscle to build the courage you need for a career change or personal transformation.

How to Silence Your Inner Critic 

Stop letting the fear of being "made fun of" prevent you from sharing your message; recognize that the harshest judgment usually comes from within rather than your audience.

Strategies for Pushing Outside Your Comfort Zone 

Identify small, "safe versions" of the things you are afraid to do—like choosing the side of the table where you feel most comfortable—to create the momentum needed for major life changes.

The Secret to Authentic Personal Branding 

True connection is found when you stop hiding behind a "version" of yourself and start showing up as the person you are, even when it feels fragile or unpolished.


Links & Networking

Disclaimer: The TURTZED Podcast reflects the opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. Content is for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare provider for advice tailored to your individual needs. For the full disclaimer, visit our website.


  • 00:00 – The "Elephant" on the chest
  • 00:41 – Why we judge words before they are spoken
  • 01:11 – The perfectionism trap and the inner monologue
  • 01:53 – Moving past the "victim" point of view
  • 02:25 – The secret to why he sits on the left side
  • 03:18 – Using comfort to push outside the comfort zone
  • 03:54 – The birthday "mile marker" for success
  • 04:11 – The one thing he couldn't admit he wanted to change
  • 04:34 – A year of building: From CRMs to Coaching
  • 04:59 – Why every day felt "fragile" during the build
  • 05:26 – Ripping the Band-Aid vs. the radical reset
  • 06:16 – Working up from minimum wage to the podcast
  • 06:46 – Pushing past the limit for external acceptance
  • 07:40 – Managing intrusive thoughts and C-PTSD
  • 08:12 – The "Stake in the Ground" strategy
  • 09:04 – Why we are actually afraid of accomplishment
  • 09:38 – Your brain is a bicep: Flexing the fear muscle


]]> false full 44 <![CDATA[Daniel Erichsen: How to Stop Sleep Anxiety and Insomnia | Ep. 43]]> Are you caught in a self-perpetuating cycle where the harder you try to rest, the more wide-awake you feel? How to stop sleep anxiety and insomnia isn't about finding the perfect supplement or temperature; it’s about fundamentally shifting your relationship with wakefulness from a perceived threat to a state of peace. When we view being awake at night as a danger, our brains slam on a psychological "brake" called hyper-arousal, ensuring we stay alert to fight a "threat" that doesn't actually exist.

In this episode, Daniel Erichsen, founder of The Sleep Coach School, breaks down the counterintuitive truth that peaceful sleep must be effortless. He guides listeners through a transition from the panic of "sleep efforts"—like rigid hygiene and isolation—to a place of radical acceptance. You will learn why your "sleep drive" is a biological constant and how the "Gas and Brake" model can help you stop over-analyzing your nights so you can start living your days again.

Understanding the "Gas and Brake" Sleep Model

Sleep is governed by two factors: sleep drive (the gas) and hyper-arousal (the brake). While being awake naturally builds your "hunger" for sleep, anxiety acts as a brake that prevents the car from moving, regardless of how much gas you have.

Why "Sleep Efforts" Actually Prevent Rest

Common habits like taking melatonin, avoiding caffeine, or going to bed early are often "sleep efforts" that signal to the brain that sleep is a problem to be solved. Because peaceful sleep is inherently effortless, these attempts at control paradoxically keep the brain in a state of high alert.

The Truth About Sleep Disruption vs. Insomnia

Medical conditions like sleep apnea or external noises are sleep "disruptors," but they are not the root of insomnia. Insomnia is specifically the ongoing struggle rooted in the fear of not sleeping, which transforms a simple wakeful moment into a day-and-night psychological battle.


Links & Networking

Disclaimer: The TURTZED Podcast reflects the opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. Content is for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare provider for advice tailored to your individual needs. For the full disclaimer, visit our website.

  • 00:00 – The "Heavy Topics" Warning
  • 01:22 – Why a Surgeon’s Son Chose Sleep Medicine
  • 03:47 – Training in the Bronx and the Path to Expertise
  • 05:25 – The Frustrating Limit of Mainstream CBT-I
  • 08:12 – What Really Happens During a Sleep Apnea Event
  • 09:34 – The Flaw in the Medical Definition of Chronic Insomnia
  • 10:53 – Why Your Brain Sees "Wakefulness" as a Grizzly Bear
  • 13:11 – The Hidden Connection Between CPTSD and REM Cycles
  • 15:04 – Sleep Disruption vs. Insomnia: The Crucial Differentiator
  • 18:28 – Why Melatonin Might Be Fueling Your Fear
  • 21:07 – Escaping "AWS": The Fog of Sleep Confusion
  • 22:11 – The "Gas and Brake" Model Explained
  • 29:53 – The Secret Shared by People Who Sleep Effortlessly
  • 33:11 – When Letting Go Becomes Another "Safety Behavior"
  • 37:50 – The Rhetorical Question That Stops Clock-Watching
  • 43:17 – The Cost of Isolating Yourself to "Save" Your Sleep
  • 48:24 – Why Sleep Recovery is Actually a Spiritual Journey


]]> Wed, 29 Oct 2025 04:30:00 -0400 https://www.turtzed.com/podcast 54:18 Are you caught in a self-perpetuating cycle where the harder you try to rest, the more wide-awake you feel? How to stop sleep anxiety and insomnia isn't about finding the perfect supplement or temperature; it’s about fundamentally shifting your relationship with wakefulness from a perceived threat to a state of peace. When we view being awake at night as a danger, our brains slam on a psychological "brake" called hyper-arousal, ensuring we stay alert to fight a "threat" that doesn't actually exist.

In this episode, Daniel Erichsen, founder of The Sleep Coach School, breaks down the counterintuitive truth that peaceful sleep must be effortless. He guides listeners through a transition from the panic of "sleep efforts"—like rigid hygiene and isolation—to a place of radical acceptance. You will learn why your "sleep drive" is a biological constant and how the "Gas and Brake" model can help you stop over-analyzing your nights so you can start living your days again.

Understanding the "Gas and Brake" Sleep Model

Sleep is governed by two factors: sleep drive (the gas) and hyper-arousal (the brake). While being awake naturally builds your "hunger" for sleep, anxiety acts as a brake that prevents the car from moving, regardless of how much gas you have.

Why "Sleep Efforts" Actually Prevent Rest

Common habits like taking melatonin, avoiding caffeine, or going to bed early are often "sleep efforts" that signal to the brain that sleep is a problem to be solved. Because peaceful sleep is inherently effortless, these attempts at control paradoxically keep the brain in a state of high alert.

The Truth About Sleep Disruption vs. Insomnia

Medical conditions like sleep apnea or external noises are sleep "disruptors," but they are not the root of insomnia. Insomnia is specifically the ongoing struggle rooted in the fear of not sleeping, which transforms a simple wakeful moment into a day-and-night psychological battle.


Links & Networking

Disclaimer: The TURTZED Podcast reflects the opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. Content is for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare provider for advice tailored to your individual needs. For the full disclaimer, visit our website.

  • 00:00 – The "Heavy Topics" Warning
  • 01:22 – Why a Surgeon’s Son Chose Sleep Medicine
  • 03:47 – Training in the Bronx and the Path to Expertise
  • 05:25 – The Frustrating Limit of Mainstream CBT-I
  • 08:12 – What Really Happens During a Sleep Apnea Event
  • 09:34 – The Flaw in the Medical Definition of Chronic Insomnia
  • 10:53 – Why Your Brain Sees "Wakefulness" as a Grizzly Bear
  • 13:11 – The Hidden Connection Between CPTSD and REM Cycles
  • 15:04 – Sleep Disruption vs. Insomnia: The Crucial Differentiator
  • 18:28 – Why Melatonin Might Be Fueling Your Fear
  • 21:07 – Escaping "AWS": The Fog of Sleep Confusion
  • 22:11 – The "Gas and Brake" Model Explained
  • 29:53 – The Secret Shared by People Who Sleep Effortlessly
  • 33:11 – When Letting Go Becomes Another "Safety Behavior"
  • 37:50 – The Rhetorical Question That Stops Clock-Watching
  • 43:17 – The Cost of Isolating Yourself to "Save" Your Sleep
  • 48:24 – Why Sleep Recovery is Actually a Spiritual Journey


]]> Are you caught in a self-perpetuating cycle where the harder you try to rest, the more wide-awake you feel? How to stop sleep anxiety and insomnia isn't about finding the perfect supplement or temperature; it’s about fundamentally shifting your relationship with wakefulness from a perceived threat to a state of peace. When we view being awake at night as a danger, our brains slam on a psychological "brake" called hyper-arousal, ensuring we stay alert to fight a "threat" that doesn't actually exist.

In this episode, Daniel Erichsen, founder of The Sleep Coach School, breaks down the counterintuitive truth that peaceful sleep must be effortless. He guides listeners through a transition from the panic of "sleep efforts"—like rigid hygiene and isolation—to a place of radical acceptance. You will learn why your "sleep drive" is a biological constant and how the "Gas and Brake" model can help you stop over-analyzing your nights so you can start living your days again.

Understanding the "Gas and Brake" Sleep Model

Sleep is governed by two factors: sleep drive (the gas) and hyper-arousal (the brake). While being awake naturally builds your "hunger" for sleep, anxiety acts as a brake that prevents the car from moving, regardless of how much gas you have.

Why "Sleep Efforts" Actually Prevent Rest

Common habits like taking melatonin, avoiding caffeine, or going to bed early are often "sleep efforts" that signal to the brain that sleep is a problem to be solved. Because peaceful sleep is inherently effortless, these attempts at control paradoxically keep the brain in a state of high alert.

The Truth About Sleep Disruption vs. Insomnia

Medical conditions like sleep apnea or external noises are sleep "disruptors," but they are not the root of insomnia. Insomnia is specifically the ongoing struggle rooted in the fear of not sleeping, which transforms a simple wakeful moment into a day-and-night psychological battle.


Links & Networking

Disclaimer: The TURTZED Podcast reflects the opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. Content is for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare provider for advice tailored to your individual needs. For the full disclaimer, visit our website.

  • 00:00 – The "Heavy Topics" Warning
  • 01:22 – Why a Surgeon’s Son Chose Sleep Medicine
  • 03:47 – Training in the Bronx and the Path to Expertise
  • 05:25 – The Frustrating Limit of Mainstream CBT-I
  • 08:12 – What Really Happens During a Sleep Apnea Event
  • 09:34 – The Flaw in the Medical Definition of Chronic Insomnia
  • 10:53 – Why Your Brain Sees "Wakefulness" as a Grizzly Bear
  • 13:11 – The Hidden Connection Between CPTSD and REM Cycles
  • 15:04 – Sleep Disruption vs. Insomnia: The Crucial Differentiator
  • 18:28 – Why Melatonin Might Be Fueling Your Fear
  • 21:07 – Escaping "AWS": The Fog of Sleep Confusion
  • 22:11 – The "Gas and Brake" Model Explained
  • 29:53 – The Secret Shared by People Who Sleep Effortlessly
  • 33:11 – When Letting Go Becomes Another "Safety Behavior"
  • 37:50 – The Rhetorical Question That Stops Clock-Watching
  • 43:17 – The Cost of Isolating Yourself to "Save" Your Sleep
  • 48:24 – Why Sleep Recovery is Actually a Spiritual Journey


]]> false full 43 <![CDATA[Bradley Rausch: How to Build a Personal Brand | Ep. 42]]> Are you hiding your true expertise behind a fear of the camera or the exhaustion of "renegotiating" your goals every morning? How to build a personal brand isn't about expensive lighting or perfect scripts; it’s about the raw, authentic mission to dismantle the beliefs that hold your clients back. 

In this episode, Bradley Rausch shares his transition from a high-ticket closer in a profit-obsessed corporate environment to a client-success specialist who prioritizes value over scale. He introduces his proprietary "CRAFFT" framework, designed to help founders and coaches move from "time debt" into actionable leadership by simplifying the content creation process. 

How to Find Your Profitable Content Niche

Instead of asking who you want to inspire, Bradley suggests asking "who do you want to piss off?" Identifying the industry beliefs you want to dismantle creates a visceral emotional response that fuels authentic, high-impact content.

Transitioning from Sales to Brand Building

Success in the coaching space requires moving beyond transactional sales into storytelling that resonates with your ideal client's journey. Authentic brand building is about proving you can fulfill promises and provide more value than the competition.

Why Punishing Yourself Stalls Your Progress

When you miss a milestone, the instinct is often to "punish" yourself with double work, but this only leads to further suffering. Reclaiming ownership of your actions means accepting the short-term discomfort of the task while refusing to engage in unnecessary emotional guilt.


Links & Networking

Disclaimer: The TURTZED Podcast reflects the opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. Content is for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare provider for advice tailored to your individual needs. For the full disclaimer, visit our website.


  • 00:00 – The Duality of Business and Personal Identity
  • 01:10 – Why a Top-Tier "High Ticket Closer" Walked Away
  • 02:36 – Shifting Obsession from Profits to Client Success
  • 03:46 – The "Piss Off" Strategy for Finding Your Niche
  • 05:47 – Redefining Viral Success Through Engagement Depth
  • 07:43 – Building Brand Structure for Authentic Coaches
  • 08:44 – The "Makeup and Lighting" Myth Debunked
  • 11:15 – The "CRAFFT" Framework: Making the Hard Simple
  • 12:18 – The Secret Dream of Hosting with Kelly Ripa
  • 15:16 – Stop Negotiating with Your Subconscious Self
  • 19:15 – Acting with Curiosity vs. Destructive Criticism
  • 20:58 – Solving the "One-Take Person" Recording Struggle
  • 25:00 – Pain is Required, but Suffering is Optional
  • 28:54 – Turning Small Wins into Massive Emotional Momentum
  • 32:39 – Escaping a Codependent Past to Build a Future
  • 39:18 – A New Definition of Giving Yourself Grace


]]> Wed, 15 Oct 2025 04:30:00 -0400 https://www.turtzed.com/podcast 47:54 Are you hiding your true expertise behind a fear of the camera or the exhaustion of "renegotiating" your goals every morning? How to build a personal brand isn't about expensive lighting or perfect scripts; it’s about the raw, authentic mission to dismantle the beliefs that hold your clients back. 

In this episode, Bradley Rausch shares his transition from a high-ticket closer in a profit-obsessed corporate environment to a client-success specialist who prioritizes value over scale. He introduces his proprietary "CRAFFT" framework, designed to help founders and coaches move from "time debt" into actionable leadership by simplifying the content creation process. 

How to Find Your Profitable Content Niche

Instead of asking who you want to inspire, Bradley suggests asking "who do you want to piss off?" Identifying the industry beliefs you want to dismantle creates a visceral emotional response that fuels authentic, high-impact content.

Transitioning from Sales to Brand Building

Success in the coaching space requires moving beyond transactional sales into storytelling that resonates with your ideal client's journey. Authentic brand building is about proving you can fulfill promises and provide more value than the competition.

Why Punishing Yourself Stalls Your Progress

When you miss a milestone, the instinct is often to "punish" yourself with double work, but this only leads to further suffering. Reclaiming ownership of your actions means accepting the short-term discomfort of the task while refusing to engage in unnecessary emotional guilt.


Links & Networking

Disclaimer: The TURTZED Podcast reflects the opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. Content is for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare provider for advice tailored to your individual needs. For the full disclaimer, visit our website.


  • 00:00 – The Duality of Business and Personal Identity
  • 01:10 – Why a Top-Tier "High Ticket Closer" Walked Away
  • 02:36 – Shifting Obsession from Profits to Client Success
  • 03:46 – The "Piss Off" Strategy for Finding Your Niche
  • 05:47 – Redefining Viral Success Through Engagement Depth
  • 07:43 – Building Brand Structure for Authentic Coaches
  • 08:44 – The "Makeup and Lighting" Myth Debunked
  • 11:15 – The "CRAFFT" Framework: Making the Hard Simple
  • 12:18 – The Secret Dream of Hosting with Kelly Ripa
  • 15:16 – Stop Negotiating with Your Subconscious Self
  • 19:15 – Acting with Curiosity vs. Destructive Criticism
  • 20:58 – Solving the "One-Take Person" Recording Struggle
  • 25:00 – Pain is Required, but Suffering is Optional
  • 28:54 – Turning Small Wins into Massive Emotional Momentum
  • 32:39 – Escaping a Codependent Past to Build a Future
  • 39:18 – A New Definition of Giving Yourself Grace


]]> Are you hiding your true expertise behind a fear of the camera or the exhaustion of "renegotiating" your goals every morning? How to build a personal brand isn't about expensive lighting or perfect scripts; it’s about the raw, authentic mission to dismantle the beliefs that hold your clients back. 

In this episode, Bradley Rausch shares his transition from a high-ticket closer in a profit-obsessed corporate environment to a client-success specialist who prioritizes value over scale. He introduces his proprietary "CRAFFT" framework, designed to help founders and coaches move from "time debt" into actionable leadership by simplifying the content creation process. 

How to Find Your Profitable Content Niche

Instead of asking who you want to inspire, Bradley suggests asking "who do you want to piss off?" Identifying the industry beliefs you want to dismantle creates a visceral emotional response that fuels authentic, high-impact content.

Transitioning from Sales to Brand Building

Success in the coaching space requires moving beyond transactional sales into storytelling that resonates with your ideal client's journey. Authentic brand building is about proving you can fulfill promises and provide more value than the competition.

Why Punishing Yourself Stalls Your Progress

When you miss a milestone, the instinct is often to "punish" yourself with double work, but this only leads to further suffering. Reclaiming ownership of your actions means accepting the short-term discomfort of the task while refusing to engage in unnecessary emotional guilt.


Links & Networking

Disclaimer: The TURTZED Podcast reflects the opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. Content is for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare provider for advice tailored to your individual needs. For the full disclaimer, visit our website.


  • 00:00 – The Duality of Business and Personal Identity
  • 01:10 – Why a Top-Tier "High Ticket Closer" Walked Away
  • 02:36 – Shifting Obsession from Profits to Client Success
  • 03:46 – The "Piss Off" Strategy for Finding Your Niche
  • 05:47 – Redefining Viral Success Through Engagement Depth
  • 07:43 – Building Brand Structure for Authentic Coaches
  • 08:44 – The "Makeup and Lighting" Myth Debunked
  • 11:15 – The "CRAFFT" Framework: Making the Hard Simple
  • 12:18 – The Secret Dream of Hosting with Kelly Ripa
  • 15:16 – Stop Negotiating with Your Subconscious Self
  • 19:15 – Acting with Curiosity vs. Destructive Criticism
  • 20:58 – Solving the "One-Take Person" Recording Struggle
  • 25:00 – Pain is Required, but Suffering is Optional
  • 28:54 – Turning Small Wins into Massive Emotional Momentum
  • 32:39 – Escaping a Codependent Past to Build a Future
  • 39:18 – A New Definition of Giving Yourself Grace


]]> false full 42 <![CDATA[Jamison Lange: Authentic Content Creation for Beginners | Ep. 41]]> Is the pressure to "go viral" actually killing your creativity? Most creators start with a passion for their niche, only to find themselves trapped in a "cookie-cutter" cycle of chasing the algorithm and losing their own voice in the process.

In this episode, Jamison Lange joins Charles Turtz to peel back the curtain on the "loneliest job in the world" and why building a slow, authentic connection with your audience is far more valuable than a million empty views. Lange shares his raw transition from making content for the algorithm to finding the courage to show up as his true self, imperfections and all.

How to Overcome the Fear of Creative Rejection

Many aspiring creators never post because they are "deathly afraid" of being seen and then rejected by the world. Success comes from shifting the focus away from everyone else's expectations and learning to be happy with the content you produce for yourself first.

Why Virality Can Be a Negative Growth Metric

Going viral early can "pigeonhole" a creator into one specific type of content, making it nearly impossible to pivot later without losing the audience. Building slowly from the bottom allows you the flexibility to share different parts of your personality authentically as you grow.

The Importance of "Third Spaces" and Community

Modern entrepreneurs often feel isolated because the workplace has become the only source of social interaction. Reclaiming "third spaces" and finding peers who are willing to respectfully challenge your ideas is essential for both mental health and professional growth.


Links & Networking

Disclaimer: The TURTZED Podcast reflects the opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. Content is for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare provider for advice tailored to your individual needs. For the full disclaimer, visit our website.


  • 00:00 – The "Heavy Topics" Warning
  • 00:41 – Why Eye Patches are the Ultimate Flight Routine
  • 01:25 – Bracing for the Parental Critique
  • 02:25 – The Manipulation of "Gift Giving"
  • 05:07 – The Link Between Consumption and Creativity
  • 07:10 – Why Kardashian Content is a "Safe Place"
  • 10:03 – Is Your Phone Actually a Slot Machine?
  • 11:37 – The Dark Side of Social Media Awareness
  • 12:07 – Why Creating is the Loneliest Job on Earth
  • 13:17 – Playing the "Algorithm Game" vs. Being Happy
  • 19:11 – The Feedback That Changed Everything
  • 24:16 – The Difference Between Being Capable and Willing
  • 26:46 – The "Same Shit, Different Day" Creator Fear
  • 35:41 – Why People Unfollow You for Posting Your Dog
  • 42:48 – Why You Don't Need to Be Friends with Coworkers
  • 49:13 – The Commitment to "Doing it All Myself"
  • 55:55 – The Moment "Being Heard" Felt Like Love


]]> Wed, 08 Oct 2025 04:07:00 -0400 https://www.turtzed.com/podcast 1:01:59 Is the pressure to "go viral" actually killing your creativity? Most creators start with a passion for their niche, only to find themselves trapped in a "cookie-cutter" cycle of chasing the algorithm and losing their own voice in the process.

In this episode, Jamison Lange joins Charles Turtz to peel back the curtain on the "loneliest job in the world" and why building a slow, authentic connection with your audience is far more valuable than a million empty views. Lange shares his raw transition from making content for the algorithm to finding the courage to show up as his true self, imperfections and all.

How to Overcome the Fear of Creative Rejection

Many aspiring creators never post because they are "deathly afraid" of being seen and then rejected by the world. Success comes from shifting the focus away from everyone else's expectations and learning to be happy with the content you produce for yourself first.

Why Virality Can Be a Negative Growth Metric

Going viral early can "pigeonhole" a creator into one specific type of content, making it nearly impossible to pivot later without losing the audience. Building slowly from the bottom allows you the flexibility to share different parts of your personality authentically as you grow.

The Importance of "Third Spaces" and Community

Modern entrepreneurs often feel isolated because the workplace has become the only source of social interaction. Reclaiming "third spaces" and finding peers who are willing to respectfully challenge your ideas is essential for both mental health and professional growth.


Links & Networking

Disclaimer: The TURTZED Podcast reflects the opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. Content is for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare provider for advice tailored to your individual needs. For the full disclaimer, visit our website.


  • 00:00 – The "Heavy Topics" Warning
  • 00:41 – Why Eye Patches are the Ultimate Flight Routine
  • 01:25 – Bracing for the Parental Critique
  • 02:25 – The Manipulation of "Gift Giving"
  • 05:07 – The Link Between Consumption and Creativity
  • 07:10 – Why Kardashian Content is a "Safe Place"
  • 10:03 – Is Your Phone Actually a Slot Machine?
  • 11:37 – The Dark Side of Social Media Awareness
  • 12:07 – Why Creating is the Loneliest Job on Earth
  • 13:17 – Playing the "Algorithm Game" vs. Being Happy
  • 19:11 – The Feedback That Changed Everything
  • 24:16 – The Difference Between Being Capable and Willing
  • 26:46 – The "Same Shit, Different Day" Creator Fear
  • 35:41 – Why People Unfollow You for Posting Your Dog
  • 42:48 – Why You Don't Need to Be Friends with Coworkers
  • 49:13 – The Commitment to "Doing it All Myself"
  • 55:55 – The Moment "Being Heard" Felt Like Love


]]> Is the pressure to "go viral" actually killing your creativity? Most creators start with a passion for their niche, only to find themselves trapped in a "cookie-cutter" cycle of chasing the algorithm and losing their own voice in the process.

In this episode, Jamison Lange joins Charles Turtz to peel back the curtain on the "loneliest job in the world" and why building a slow, authentic connection with your audience is far more valuable than a million empty views. Lange shares his raw transition from making content for the algorithm to finding the courage to show up as his true self, imperfections and all.

How to Overcome the Fear of Creative Rejection

Many aspiring creators never post because they are "deathly afraid" of being seen and then rejected by the world. Success comes from shifting the focus away from everyone else's expectations and learning to be happy with the content you produce for yourself first.

Why Virality Can Be a Negative Growth Metric

Going viral early can "pigeonhole" a creator into one specific type of content, making it nearly impossible to pivot later without losing the audience. Building slowly from the bottom allows you the flexibility to share different parts of your personality authentically as you grow.

The Importance of "Third Spaces" and Community

Modern entrepreneurs often feel isolated because the workplace has become the only source of social interaction. Reclaiming "third spaces" and finding peers who are willing to respectfully challenge your ideas is essential for both mental health and professional growth.


Links & Networking

Disclaimer: The TURTZED Podcast reflects the opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. Content is for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare provider for advice tailored to your individual needs. For the full disclaimer, visit our website.


  • 00:00 – The "Heavy Topics" Warning
  • 00:41 – Why Eye Patches are the Ultimate Flight Routine
  • 01:25 – Bracing for the Parental Critique
  • 02:25 – The Manipulation of "Gift Giving"
  • 05:07 – The Link Between Consumption and Creativity
  • 07:10 – Why Kardashian Content is a "Safe Place"
  • 10:03 – Is Your Phone Actually a Slot Machine?
  • 11:37 – The Dark Side of Social Media Awareness
  • 12:07 – Why Creating is the Loneliest Job on Earth
  • 13:17 – Playing the "Algorithm Game" vs. Being Happy
  • 19:11 – The Feedback That Changed Everything
  • 24:16 – The Difference Between Being Capable and Willing
  • 26:46 – The "Same Shit, Different Day" Creator Fear
  • 35:41 – Why People Unfollow You for Posting Your Dog
  • 42:48 – Why You Don't Need to Be Friends with Coworkers
  • 49:13 – The Commitment to "Doing it All Myself"
  • 55:55 – The Moment "Being Heard" Felt Like Love


]]> false full 41 <![CDATA[Ashton Applewhite: How to Overcome Ageism and Embrace Aging | Ep. 40]]> Why do we treat getting older like a disease instead of a natural, powerful human process? We live in a youth-centric culture where "old" is used as an insult, yet every single one of us is aging from the moment we are born. It’s time to stop fearing the mirror and start questioning the unconscious biases that tarnish our entire lives.

In this episode, author and activist Ashton Applewhite breaks down the internal and external manifestations of ageism and why our fears of late life are often far more negative than the reality. From the "U-shaped happiness curve" to the concept of "chrono-normativity," Ashton Applewhite provides a radical manifesto for living authentically at any age and explains how we can all start acting like ancestors to bridge the generational divide.

Understanding the U-Shaped Happiness Curve

While society portrays aging as a downward slide, data shows that most people are actually happiest in childhood and later life. The "trough" of happiness typically occurs in the mid-fifties, but as we age into our 70s and 80s, we often gain emotional equanimity and a better ability to live in the moment.

How to Identify Unconscious Age Bias

Ageism occurs any time we make an assumption about a person—too old for a job or too young for respect—based on their perceived age. Because we are bombarded with messages that young is good and old is bad, these biases often become internal, causing us to feel apprehensive about our future selves.

The Truth About the Generational Divide

The media often exploits conflict between generations for clickbait, but there is zero scientific evidence of a true generational divide. Workers of all ages typically want the same things: respect, flexibility, and opportunities to grow, regardless of whether they are 22 or 62.


Links & Networking

Disclaimer: The TURTZED Podcast reflects the opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. Content is for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare provider for advice tailored to your individual needs. For the full disclaimer, visit our website.

  • 00:00 – The "Heavy Topics" Warning
  • 00:38 – Why This Author Rocks
  • 01:12 – The FaceTime Grandfather: Never Stop Living
  • 01:39 – Defining the "Ism" You Can't Escape
  • 02:24 – Assumptions Based on the "Velvet Rope"
  • 03:49 – Changing Your Name to Get Respect
  • 05:02 – The Trough of the Happiness Curve
  • 08:17 – Why Do Grown-Ups Just Sit in Chairs?
  • 13:17 – The Punishing Idea of "Chrono Normativity"
  • 16:22 – A New Roadmap for the 100-Year Life
  • 19:12 – The Economic Value of "Invisible" Care
  • 24:29 – Why Generational Labels are "Preposterous Clickbait"
  • 31:42 – The Gandhi Strategy for Personal Change
  • 35:05 – What it Means to "Act Like an Ancestor"
  • 41:43 – Debunking the "Sexless Senior" Myth
  • 48:35 – The Only Way to "Fail" at Aging
  • 52:40 – Tying Your Shoes as a Success Metric


]]> Wed, 01 Oct 2025 05:37:00 -0400 https://www.turtzed.com/podcast 54:56 Why do we treat getting older like a disease instead of a natural, powerful human process? We live in a youth-centric culture where "old" is used as an insult, yet every single one of us is aging from the moment we are born. It’s time to stop fearing the mirror and start questioning the unconscious biases that tarnish our entire lives.

In this episode, author and activist Ashton Applewhite breaks down the internal and external manifestations of ageism and why our fears of late life are often far more negative than the reality. From the "U-shaped happiness curve" to the concept of "chrono-normativity," Ashton Applewhite provides a radical manifesto for living authentically at any age and explains how we can all start acting like ancestors to bridge the generational divide.

Understanding the U-Shaped Happiness Curve

While society portrays aging as a downward slide, data shows that most people are actually happiest in childhood and later life. The "trough" of happiness typically occurs in the mid-fifties, but as we age into our 70s and 80s, we often gain emotional equanimity and a better ability to live in the moment.

How to Identify Unconscious Age Bias

Ageism occurs any time we make an assumption about a person—too old for a job or too young for respect—based on their perceived age. Because we are bombarded with messages that young is good and old is bad, these biases often become internal, causing us to feel apprehensive about our future selves.

The Truth About the Generational Divide

The media often exploits conflict between generations for clickbait, but there is zero scientific evidence of a true generational divide. Workers of all ages typically want the same things: respect, flexibility, and opportunities to grow, regardless of whether they are 22 or 62.


Links & Networking

Disclaimer: The TURTZED Podcast reflects the opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. Content is for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare provider for advice tailored to your individual needs. For the full disclaimer, visit our website.

  • 00:00 – The "Heavy Topics" Warning
  • 00:38 – Why This Author Rocks
  • 01:12 – The FaceTime Grandfather: Never Stop Living
  • 01:39 – Defining the "Ism" You Can't Escape
  • 02:24 – Assumptions Based on the "Velvet Rope"
  • 03:49 – Changing Your Name to Get Respect
  • 05:02 – The Trough of the Happiness Curve
  • 08:17 – Why Do Grown-Ups Just Sit in Chairs?
  • 13:17 – The Punishing Idea of "Chrono Normativity"
  • 16:22 – A New Roadmap for the 100-Year Life
  • 19:12 – The Economic Value of "Invisible" Care
  • 24:29 – Why Generational Labels are "Preposterous Clickbait"
  • 31:42 – The Gandhi Strategy for Personal Change
  • 35:05 – What it Means to "Act Like an Ancestor"
  • 41:43 – Debunking the "Sexless Senior" Myth
  • 48:35 – The Only Way to "Fail" at Aging
  • 52:40 – Tying Your Shoes as a Success Metric


]]> Why do we treat getting older like a disease instead of a natural, powerful human process? We live in a youth-centric culture where "old" is used as an insult, yet every single one of us is aging from the moment we are born. It’s time to stop fearing the mirror and start questioning the unconscious biases that tarnish our entire lives.

In this episode, author and activist Ashton Applewhite breaks down the internal and external manifestations of ageism and why our fears of late life are often far more negative than the reality. From the "U-shaped happiness curve" to the concept of "chrono-normativity," Ashton Applewhite provides a radical manifesto for living authentically at any age and explains how we can all start acting like ancestors to bridge the generational divide.

Understanding the U-Shaped Happiness Curve

While society portrays aging as a downward slide, data shows that most people are actually happiest in childhood and later life. The "trough" of happiness typically occurs in the mid-fifties, but as we age into our 70s and 80s, we often gain emotional equanimity and a better ability to live in the moment.

How to Identify Unconscious Age Bias

Ageism occurs any time we make an assumption about a person—too old for a job or too young for respect—based on their perceived age. Because we are bombarded with messages that young is good and old is bad, these biases often become internal, causing us to feel apprehensive about our future selves.

The Truth About the Generational Divide

The media often exploits conflict between generations for clickbait, but there is zero scientific evidence of a true generational divide. Workers of all ages typically want the same things: respect, flexibility, and opportunities to grow, regardless of whether they are 22 or 62.


Links & Networking

Disclaimer: The TURTZED Podcast reflects the opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. Content is for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare provider for advice tailored to your individual needs. For the full disclaimer, visit our website.

  • 00:00 – The "Heavy Topics" Warning
  • 00:38 – Why This Author Rocks
  • 01:12 – The FaceTime Grandfather: Never Stop Living
  • 01:39 – Defining the "Ism" You Can't Escape
  • 02:24 – Assumptions Based on the "Velvet Rope"
  • 03:49 – Changing Your Name to Get Respect
  • 05:02 – The Trough of the Happiness Curve
  • 08:17 – Why Do Grown-Ups Just Sit in Chairs?
  • 13:17 – The Punishing Idea of "Chrono Normativity"
  • 16:22 – A New Roadmap for the 100-Year Life
  • 19:12 – The Economic Value of "Invisible" Care
  • 24:29 – Why Generational Labels are "Preposterous Clickbait"
  • 31:42 – The Gandhi Strategy for Personal Change
  • 35:05 – What it Means to "Act Like an Ancestor"
  • 41:43 – Debunking the "Sexless Senior" Myth
  • 48:35 – The Only Way to "Fail" at Aging
  • 52:40 – Tying Your Shoes as a Success Metric


]]> false full 40 <![CDATA[Kelsey Whittaker: Turning Tragedy into a Purpose-Driven Career | Ep. 39]]> How do you find the courage to rebuild your life when the unimaginable happens? Integrating a holistic approach to grief and wellness isn't just about "getting over" a loss; it's about honoring a legacy by choosing to live a more vibrant, intentional life.

In this episode, Kelsey Whittaker shares her powerful transition from a 13-year corporate marketing career to becoming a dedicated health coach following the tragic loss of her brother. Kelsey Whittaker explains her unique methodology of using small, sustainable habits to address chronic pain, inflammation, and hormonal balance, helping clients move from feeling "off" to feeling empowered in their own bodies.

How to Use a Holistic Approach to Grief and Wellness

Grief is not just an emotional experience; it manifests physically in the body through stress and inflammation. By focusing on root-cause healing and small lifestyle shifts, you can regain a sense of purpose and forward motion even during the darkest seasons of life.

Strategies to Manage Chronic Pain and Inflammation

Many people struggle with "generic" health advice that fails to address their specific physical needs. Personalized health plans that focus on blood sugar management and anti-inflammatory habits can significantly reduce physical pain and stabilize mood swings.

The Power of Small Habits Over Perfection

Consistency is often destroyed by an "all or nothing" mentality that leads to burnout. True transformation happens when you give yourself grace for the "pizza and cake" moments while maintaining a strong foundation of daily habits that set you up for long-term longevity.


Links & Networking

Disclaimer: The TURTZED Podcast reflects the opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. Content is for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare provider for advice tailored to your individual needs. For the full disclaimer, visit our website.


  • 00:00 – A new era of the podcast begins
  • 01:19 – Witnessing the aging process from the marketing department
  • 02:07 – The burnout point and the search for alignment
  • 02:30 – 1,500 people and a question of legacy
  • 04:18 – The "Million Dollar" question and the truth about health
  • 05:12 – Can we prevent unnecessary grief through habits?
  • 07:37 – Why her business is named "Lionheart"
  • 08:34 – The specific signs that you need a health coach
  • 09:40 – Lowering inflammation and the power of turning down the lights
  • 10:45 – Diagnostic testing and finding the root cause
  • 12:17 – Lessons from a grandfather’s battle with Type 2 Diabetes
  • 14:19 – The "Pizza and Birthday Cake" rule for flexibility
  • 15:30 – Why being "regimented" can actually hurt your progress
  • 17:11 – Working yourself out of a job: The goal of empowerment
  • 19:21 – A vision of grandkids and the motivation to stay mobile
  • 20:24 – Proverbs 30:30 and the courage to be a lion
  • 22:26 – Charles shares a rare story of a "lucid nightmare"
  • 26:34 – The 30:30 timestamp coincidence that gave everyone chills 


]]> Wed, 24 Sep 2025 04:56:00 -0400 https://www.turtzed.com/podcast 30:53 How do you find the courage to rebuild your life when the unimaginable happens? Integrating a holistic approach to grief and wellness isn't just about "getting over" a loss; it's about honoring a legacy by choosing to live a more vibrant, intentional life.

In this episode, Kelsey Whittaker shares her powerful transition from a 13-year corporate marketing career to becoming a dedicated health coach following the tragic loss of her brother. Kelsey Whittaker explains her unique methodology of using small, sustainable habits to address chronic pain, inflammation, and hormonal balance, helping clients move from feeling "off" to feeling empowered in their own bodies.

How to Use a Holistic Approach to Grief and Wellness

Grief is not just an emotional experience; it manifests physically in the body through stress and inflammation. By focusing on root-cause healing and small lifestyle shifts, you can regain a sense of purpose and forward motion even during the darkest seasons of life.

Strategies to Manage Chronic Pain and Inflammation

Many people struggle with "generic" health advice that fails to address their specific physical needs. Personalized health plans that focus on blood sugar management and anti-inflammatory habits can significantly reduce physical pain and stabilize mood swings.

The Power of Small Habits Over Perfection

Consistency is often destroyed by an "all or nothing" mentality that leads to burnout. True transformation happens when you give yourself grace for the "pizza and cake" moments while maintaining a strong foundation of daily habits that set you up for long-term longevity.


Links & Networking

Disclaimer: The TURTZED Podcast reflects the opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. Content is for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare provider for advice tailored to your individual needs. For the full disclaimer, visit our website.


  • 00:00 – A new era of the podcast begins
  • 01:19 – Witnessing the aging process from the marketing department
  • 02:07 – The burnout point and the search for alignment
  • 02:30 – 1,500 people and a question of legacy
  • 04:18 – The "Million Dollar" question and the truth about health
  • 05:12 – Can we prevent unnecessary grief through habits?
  • 07:37 – Why her business is named "Lionheart"
  • 08:34 – The specific signs that you need a health coach
  • 09:40 – Lowering inflammation and the power of turning down the lights
  • 10:45 – Diagnostic testing and finding the root cause
  • 12:17 – Lessons from a grandfather’s battle with Type 2 Diabetes
  • 14:19 – The "Pizza and Birthday Cake" rule for flexibility
  • 15:30 – Why being "regimented" can actually hurt your progress
  • 17:11 – Working yourself out of a job: The goal of empowerment
  • 19:21 – A vision of grandkids and the motivation to stay mobile
  • 20:24 – Proverbs 30:30 and the courage to be a lion
  • 22:26 – Charles shares a rare story of a "lucid nightmare"
  • 26:34 – The 30:30 timestamp coincidence that gave everyone chills 


]]> How do you find the courage to rebuild your life when the unimaginable happens? Integrating a holistic approach to grief and wellness isn't just about "getting over" a loss; it's about honoring a legacy by choosing to live a more vibrant, intentional life.

In this episode, Kelsey Whittaker shares her powerful transition from a 13-year corporate marketing career to becoming a dedicated health coach following the tragic loss of her brother. Kelsey Whittaker explains her unique methodology of using small, sustainable habits to address chronic pain, inflammation, and hormonal balance, helping clients move from feeling "off" to feeling empowered in their own bodies.

How to Use a Holistic Approach to Grief and Wellness

Grief is not just an emotional experience; it manifests physically in the body through stress and inflammation. By focusing on root-cause healing and small lifestyle shifts, you can regain a sense of purpose and forward motion even during the darkest seasons of life.

Strategies to Manage Chronic Pain and Inflammation

Many people struggle with "generic" health advice that fails to address their specific physical needs. Personalized health plans that focus on blood sugar management and anti-inflammatory habits can significantly reduce physical pain and stabilize mood swings.

The Power of Small Habits Over Perfection

Consistency is often destroyed by an "all or nothing" mentality that leads to burnout. True transformation happens when you give yourself grace for the "pizza and cake" moments while maintaining a strong foundation of daily habits that set you up for long-term longevity.


Links & Networking

Disclaimer: The TURTZED Podcast reflects the opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. Content is for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare provider for advice tailored to your individual needs. For the full disclaimer, visit our website.


  • 00:00 – A new era of the podcast begins
  • 01:19 – Witnessing the aging process from the marketing department
  • 02:07 – The burnout point and the search for alignment
  • 02:30 – 1,500 people and a question of legacy
  • 04:18 – The "Million Dollar" question and the truth about health
  • 05:12 – Can we prevent unnecessary grief through habits?
  • 07:37 – Why her business is named "Lionheart"
  • 08:34 – The specific signs that you need a health coach
  • 09:40 – Lowering inflammation and the power of turning down the lights
  • 10:45 – Diagnostic testing and finding the root cause
  • 12:17 – Lessons from a grandfather’s battle with Type 2 Diabetes
  • 14:19 – The "Pizza and Birthday Cake" rule for flexibility
  • 15:30 – Why being "regimented" can actually hurt your progress
  • 17:11 – Working yourself out of a job: The goal of empowerment
  • 19:21 – A vision of grandkids and the motivation to stay mobile
  • 20:24 – Proverbs 30:30 and the courage to be a lion
  • 22:26 – Charles shares a rare story of a "lucid nightmare"
  • 26:34 – The 30:30 timestamp coincidence that gave everyone chills 


]]> false full 39 <![CDATA[Patrick Custer: Navigating Religious Trauma and Addiction Recovery | Ep. 38]]> Are you living in a prison of "black-and-white" expectations, or are you brave enough to embrace the gray? Navigating religious trauma and addiction recovery requires more than just stopping a substance; it requires untangling the deeply rooted fear and shame that dictate how we see ourselves and the world.

In this episode, Patrick Custer, host of the Rooted Recovery Stories podcast, joins Charles Turtz to share his journey from a rigid, charismatic religious upbringing to finding an authentic spirituality that saved his life. Patrick dives deep into how the "spotlight" he was once told to dim became his greatest tool for connection and why his identity as a gay man was the catalyst for his true spiritual awakening. 

How to Heal from Religious Trauma and Fear

Patrick discusses growing up in a high-control religious environment where "test and evaluate" was considered an evil influence, leading to a life driven by a capital-letter "FEAR." Healing begins by taking those internal "pedestals" down and giving yourself permission to not have all the answers.

Transitioning from Black-and-White Thinking to the Gray

The greatest struggle in life is often rooted in the illusion of control and the fear of the unknown. Patrick explains how "black-and-white" presentation—especially regarding alcohol and morality—sets people up for failure, whereas true reality and harm reduction exist in the gray area.

Finding a Spiritual Solution That Actually Works

For those who struggle with traditional religion, Patrick shares the simplicity of "shelving" old concepts to find a higher power that doesn't require absolute certainty. He details how surrendering the need for control allows for a more profound connection to oneself and the world.


Links & Networking

Disclaimer: The TURTZED Podcast reflects the opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. Content is for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare provider for advice tailored to your individual needs. For the full disclaimer, visit our website.


  • 00:00 – The heavy topics disclaimer
  • 01:15 – The hidden reason why some people crave attention
  • 03:26 – Religion vs. Spirituality: The great divide
  • 04:49 – The "A through Z" trap of religious rules
  • 06:03 – Why challenging your faith was labeled "evil"
  • 07:49 – Inside the world of "slain in the spirit" Pentecostalism
  • 09:16 – The "perfect kid" who almost died from addiction
  • 10:44 – Why he had to "shelf" God to save his life
  • 12:15 – The permission to start over and rewrite the stone
  • 14:04 – Is it okay to feel far from God?
  • 16:22 – The diabetic metaphor for life-saving change
  • 18:58 – Why "absolute" parenting backfires
  • 24:50 – Does God need to exist for prayer to work?
  • 33:22 – The "Four Garages" fantasy that masked the truth
  • 40:18 – Isolation: The silent destroyer of quality of life
  • 47:45 – A life-changing message to a younger Patrick
  • 51:56 – The Starfish Story: Why the "one" always matters
  • 55:22 – Why perfection is the ultimate enemy of happiness


]]> Wed, 17 Sep 2025 04:30:00 -0400 https://www.turtzed.com/podcast 57:58 Are you living in a prison of "black-and-white" expectations, or are you brave enough to embrace the gray? Navigating religious trauma and addiction recovery requires more than just stopping a substance; it requires untangling the deeply rooted fear and shame that dictate how we see ourselves and the world.

In this episode, Patrick Custer, host of the Rooted Recovery Stories podcast, joins Charles Turtz to share his journey from a rigid, charismatic religious upbringing to finding an authentic spirituality that saved his life. Patrick dives deep into how the "spotlight" he was once told to dim became his greatest tool for connection and why his identity as a gay man was the catalyst for his true spiritual awakening. 

How to Heal from Religious Trauma and Fear

Patrick discusses growing up in a high-control religious environment where "test and evaluate" was considered an evil influence, leading to a life driven by a capital-letter "FEAR." Healing begins by taking those internal "pedestals" down and giving yourself permission to not have all the answers.

Transitioning from Black-and-White Thinking to the Gray

The greatest struggle in life is often rooted in the illusion of control and the fear of the unknown. Patrick explains how "black-and-white" presentation—especially regarding alcohol and morality—sets people up for failure, whereas true reality and harm reduction exist in the gray area.

Finding a Spiritual Solution That Actually Works

For those who struggle with traditional religion, Patrick shares the simplicity of "shelving" old concepts to find a higher power that doesn't require absolute certainty. He details how surrendering the need for control allows for a more profound connection to oneself and the world.


Links & Networking

Disclaimer: The TURTZED Podcast reflects the opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. Content is for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare provider for advice tailored to your individual needs. For the full disclaimer, visit our website.


  • 00:00 – The heavy topics disclaimer
  • 01:15 – The hidden reason why some people crave attention
  • 03:26 – Religion vs. Spirituality: The great divide
  • 04:49 – The "A through Z" trap of religious rules
  • 06:03 – Why challenging your faith was labeled "evil"
  • 07:49 – Inside the world of "slain in the spirit" Pentecostalism
  • 09:16 – The "perfect kid" who almost died from addiction
  • 10:44 – Why he had to "shelf" God to save his life
  • 12:15 – The permission to start over and rewrite the stone
  • 14:04 – Is it okay to feel far from God?
  • 16:22 – The diabetic metaphor for life-saving change
  • 18:58 – Why "absolute" parenting backfires
  • 24:50 – Does God need to exist for prayer to work?
  • 33:22 – The "Four Garages" fantasy that masked the truth
  • 40:18 – Isolation: The silent destroyer of quality of life
  • 47:45 – A life-changing message to a younger Patrick
  • 51:56 – The Starfish Story: Why the "one" always matters
  • 55:22 – Why perfection is the ultimate enemy of happiness


]]> Are you living in a prison of "black-and-white" expectations, or are you brave enough to embrace the gray? Navigating religious trauma and addiction recovery requires more than just stopping a substance; it requires untangling the deeply rooted fear and shame that dictate how we see ourselves and the world.

In this episode, Patrick Custer, host of the Rooted Recovery Stories podcast, joins Charles Turtz to share his journey from a rigid, charismatic religious upbringing to finding an authentic spirituality that saved his life. Patrick dives deep into how the "spotlight" he was once told to dim became his greatest tool for connection and why his identity as a gay man was the catalyst for his true spiritual awakening. 

How to Heal from Religious Trauma and Fear

Patrick discusses growing up in a high-control religious environment where "test and evaluate" was considered an evil influence, leading to a life driven by a capital-letter "FEAR." Healing begins by taking those internal "pedestals" down and giving yourself permission to not have all the answers.

Transitioning from Black-and-White Thinking to the Gray

The greatest struggle in life is often rooted in the illusion of control and the fear of the unknown. Patrick explains how "black-and-white" presentation—especially regarding alcohol and morality—sets people up for failure, whereas true reality and harm reduction exist in the gray area.

Finding a Spiritual Solution That Actually Works

For those who struggle with traditional religion, Patrick shares the simplicity of "shelving" old concepts to find a higher power that doesn't require absolute certainty. He details how surrendering the need for control allows for a more profound connection to oneself and the world.


Links & Networking

Disclaimer: The TURTZED Podcast reflects the opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. Content is for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare provider for advice tailored to your individual needs. For the full disclaimer, visit our website.


  • 00:00 – The heavy topics disclaimer
  • 01:15 – The hidden reason why some people crave attention
  • 03:26 – Religion vs. Spirituality: The great divide
  • 04:49 – The "A through Z" trap of religious rules
  • 06:03 – Why challenging your faith was labeled "evil"
  • 07:49 – Inside the world of "slain in the spirit" Pentecostalism
  • 09:16 – The "perfect kid" who almost died from addiction
  • 10:44 – Why he had to "shelf" God to save his life
  • 12:15 – The permission to start over and rewrite the stone
  • 14:04 – Is it okay to feel far from God?
  • 16:22 – The diabetic metaphor for life-saving change
  • 18:58 – Why "absolute" parenting backfires
  • 24:50 – Does God need to exist for prayer to work?
  • 33:22 – The "Four Garages" fantasy that masked the truth
  • 40:18 – Isolation: The silent destroyer of quality of life
  • 47:45 – A life-changing message to a younger Patrick
  • 51:56 – The Starfish Story: Why the "one" always matters
  • 55:22 – Why perfection is the ultimate enemy of happiness


]]> true full 38 <![CDATA[Candice Lazar: Breathwork Techniques for Daily Stress & Energy | Ep. 37]]> What if the most powerful tool for changing your mental state wasn't a pill or a therapist, but the very thing you're doing right now without thinking? Breathwork techniques for daily stress are often misunderstood as just "relaxing," but they are actually a manual override for your entire nervous system.

In this episode, breathwork coach Candice Lazar shares her journey from a high-stakes marketing career to discovering the transformative power of intentional breathing after a health crisis abroad. She breaks down how listeners can move from being "breathed by life" to taking total sovereignty over their energy, focus, and recovery through simple, science-backed shifts.


How to Increase Energy Without Caffeine

Candice explains that "up-regulating" breaths involve faster, more forceful exhales—similar to "panting like a dog with your mouth shut"—to provide an immediate boost during the afternoon slump.

Using Your Body to Control Your Mind

While many believe the mind dictates the body's state, Candice reveals it is actually the opposite; you can use the physical act of breathing to dictate what happens in your mind.

Breathwork as a "Bandaid" for Anxiety

Instead of needing a 30-minute meditation session, Candice teaches how to use breathwork as a "Bandaid" in stressful moments like heavy traffic or before big meetings to keep your "heart from getting infected" by stress.

The "Perfect Breath" for Longevity

Discover the specific pattern of a five-second inhale and a five-second exhale that serves as the foundation for a balanced, healthy nervous system.


Links & Networking

Disclaimer: The TURTZED Podcast reflects the opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. Content is for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare provider for advice tailored to your individual needs. For the full disclaimer, visit our website.

  • 00:00 – The "Hidden" Warning: What to Expect in This Episode
  • 00:50 – The Mid-Flight Crisis: Getting Fired and Falling Sick
  • 02:27 – Why Traditional Meditation Fails for Most People
  • 03:28 – The Remote Control for Your Mind
  • 04:57 – Grounding Techniques Without the Grass
  • 05:35 – Reclaiming Sovereignty Over Your Nervous System
  • 06:56 – The Secret to Breathing for High-Energy Calls
  • 08:33 – Replacing Your Afternoon Coffee with Breath
  • 11:23 – Using Breathwork as an "Emotional Band-Aid"
  • 12:07 – Finding Zen in Miami’s Obscene Traffic
  • 14:09 – The "Perfect Breath" Protocol
  • 16:25 – The Dazzling Atrium and the Power of Hidden Desires
  • 18:46 – Building a Global Business Without the Corporate Empire
  • 20:51 – Why Culture Dictates if You Let Someone in Traffic
  • 23:34 – The Question That Froze Charles in His Tracks
  • 25:55 – The True Goal of Coaching: Making People Stop and Think


]]> Wed, 10 Sep 2025 04:30:00 -0400 https://www.turtzed.com/podcast 28:26 What if the most powerful tool for changing your mental state wasn't a pill or a therapist, but the very thing you're doing right now without thinking? Breathwork techniques for daily stress are often misunderstood as just "relaxing," but they are actually a manual override for your entire nervous system.

In this episode, breathwork coach Candice Lazar shares her journey from a high-stakes marketing career to discovering the transformative power of intentional breathing after a health crisis abroad. She breaks down how listeners can move from being "breathed by life" to taking total sovereignty over their energy, focus, and recovery through simple, science-backed shifts.


How to Increase Energy Without Caffeine

Candice explains that "up-regulating" breaths involve faster, more forceful exhales—similar to "panting like a dog with your mouth shut"—to provide an immediate boost during the afternoon slump.

Using Your Body to Control Your Mind

While many believe the mind dictates the body's state, Candice reveals it is actually the opposite; you can use the physical act of breathing to dictate what happens in your mind.

Breathwork as a "Bandaid" for Anxiety

Instead of needing a 30-minute meditation session, Candice teaches how to use breathwork as a "Bandaid" in stressful moments like heavy traffic or before big meetings to keep your "heart from getting infected" by stress.

The "Perfect Breath" for Longevity

Discover the specific pattern of a five-second inhale and a five-second exhale that serves as the foundation for a balanced, healthy nervous system.


Links & Networking

Disclaimer: The TURTZED Podcast reflects the opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. Content is for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare provider for advice tailored to your individual needs. For the full disclaimer, visit our website.

  • 00:00 – The "Hidden" Warning: What to Expect in This Episode
  • 00:50 – The Mid-Flight Crisis: Getting Fired and Falling Sick
  • 02:27 – Why Traditional Meditation Fails for Most People
  • 03:28 – The Remote Control for Your Mind
  • 04:57 – Grounding Techniques Without the Grass
  • 05:35 – Reclaiming Sovereignty Over Your Nervous System
  • 06:56 – The Secret to Breathing for High-Energy Calls
  • 08:33 – Replacing Your Afternoon Coffee with Breath
  • 11:23 – Using Breathwork as an "Emotional Band-Aid"
  • 12:07 – Finding Zen in Miami’s Obscene Traffic
  • 14:09 – The "Perfect Breath" Protocol
  • 16:25 – The Dazzling Atrium and the Power of Hidden Desires
  • 18:46 – Building a Global Business Without the Corporate Empire
  • 20:51 – Why Culture Dictates if You Let Someone in Traffic
  • 23:34 – The Question That Froze Charles in His Tracks
  • 25:55 – The True Goal of Coaching: Making People Stop and Think


]]> What if the most powerful tool for changing your mental state wasn't a pill or a therapist, but the very thing you're doing right now without thinking? Breathwork techniques for daily stress are often misunderstood as just "relaxing," but they are actually a manual override for your entire nervous system.

In this episode, breathwork coach Candice Lazar shares her journey from a high-stakes marketing career to discovering the transformative power of intentional breathing after a health crisis abroad. She breaks down how listeners can move from being "breathed by life" to taking total sovereignty over their energy, focus, and recovery through simple, science-backed shifts.


How to Increase Energy Without Caffeine

Candice explains that "up-regulating" breaths involve faster, more forceful exhales—similar to "panting like a dog with your mouth shut"—to provide an immediate boost during the afternoon slump.

Using Your Body to Control Your Mind

While many believe the mind dictates the body's state, Candice reveals it is actually the opposite; you can use the physical act of breathing to dictate what happens in your mind.

Breathwork as a "Bandaid" for Anxiety

Instead of needing a 30-minute meditation session, Candice teaches how to use breathwork as a "Bandaid" in stressful moments like heavy traffic or before big meetings to keep your "heart from getting infected" by stress.

The "Perfect Breath" for Longevity

Discover the specific pattern of a five-second inhale and a five-second exhale that serves as the foundation for a balanced, healthy nervous system.


Links & Networking

Disclaimer: The TURTZED Podcast reflects the opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. Content is for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare provider for advice tailored to your individual needs. For the full disclaimer, visit our website.

  • 00:00 – The "Hidden" Warning: What to Expect in This Episode
  • 00:50 – The Mid-Flight Crisis: Getting Fired and Falling Sick
  • 02:27 – Why Traditional Meditation Fails for Most People
  • 03:28 – The Remote Control for Your Mind
  • 04:57 – Grounding Techniques Without the Grass
  • 05:35 – Reclaiming Sovereignty Over Your Nervous System
  • 06:56 – The Secret to Breathing for High-Energy Calls
  • 08:33 – Replacing Your Afternoon Coffee with Breath
  • 11:23 – Using Breathwork as an "Emotional Band-Aid"
  • 12:07 – Finding Zen in Miami’s Obscene Traffic
  • 14:09 – The "Perfect Breath" Protocol
  • 16:25 – The Dazzling Atrium and the Power of Hidden Desires
  • 18:46 – Building a Global Business Without the Corporate Empire
  • 20:51 – Why Culture Dictates if You Let Someone in Traffic
  • 23:34 – The Question That Froze Charles in His Tracks
  • 25:55 – The True Goal of Coaching: Making People Stop and Think


]]> false full 37 <![CDATA[Jack Ciapciak: Grief and Loss of a Partner at a Young Age | Ep. 36 ]]> How do you survive when the future you mapped out disappears in an instant? Grief and loss of a partner at a young age is a "out of order" tragedy that leaves many feeling isolated in a world that expects them to "move on" after a year. When Jack’s fiancé passed away, he had to choose between being defined by the death or being defined by his response to it.

In this moving episode, Jack Ciapciak shares the raw reality of navigating life after losing his partner, Jack. From the "year of firsts" to the surprising difficulty of the second year, Jack explains the transformation from being in total shock to growing around his grief. He discusses how leaning into authenticity on TikTok and looking for "signs" like cherries helped him rebuild a life centered on self-worth and connection.

How to Navigate the "Year of Firsts" After Loss 

The first year of grief is often a blur of survival and shock while getting through milestones like birthdays and anniversaries. Jack discusses why hitting the one-year mark doesn't magically "fix" the pain and why the second year can actually be more difficult as the shock wears off.

Finding Connection Through Signs from Loved Ones 

Can we ask for signs from those we've lost? Jack shares his personal experience with asking for "cherries" as a sign of his partner's presence and how being open to these moments provides a necessary second to breathe and feel comforted.

The Role of Authenticity in the Healing Journey 

Sharing your story isn't just about "venting"; it’s about building a community that makes you feel less alone. Jack explores how posting his inner thoughts online broke the "phone-to-phone barrier" and created real-world support at a memorial bench in New York City.


Links & Networking

Disclaimer: The TURTZED Podcast reflects the opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. Content is for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare provider for advice tailored to your individual needs. For the full disclaimer, visit our website.


  • 00:00 – The "blind date" that was destined by fate.
  • 03:28 – The "No Games" rule that created instant safety.
  • 05:20 – Why "opposites attract" was the secret to their balance.
  • 07:45 – Choosing a defining response to a tragic moment.
  • 10:45 – The "One Year Myth" and why the second year is harder.
  • 13:10 – Leaning on a twin sister through parallel grief.
  • 15:15 – The "Gift of Grief" and a new perspective on work.
  • 17:50 – Why telling your story to strangers can be safer than family.
  • 20:50 – The bench plaque and a quote from an unlikely movie.
  • 23:40 – What happens when 10 million views become real-life encounters.
  • 26:10 – How a writer channels loss into a hit CBS cop show.
  • 32:30 – Asking for signs: The mysterious story of the cherries.
  • 36:30 – The "Minion" grudge and finding laughter in the small things.
  • 40:50 – The greatest gift a partner can leave behind: Self-love.
  • 44:00 – The "Trauma Dump" hurdle in the modern dating world.
  • 47:00 – The simple advice that keeps the healing process moving.


]]> Wed, 30 Apr 2025 04:30:00 -0400 https://www.turtzed.com/podcast 53:27 How do you survive when the future you mapped out disappears in an instant? Grief and loss of a partner at a young age is a "out of order" tragedy that leaves many feeling isolated in a world that expects them to "move on" after a year. When Jack’s fiancé passed away, he had to choose between being defined by the death or being defined by his response to it.

In this moving episode, Jack Ciapciak shares the raw reality of navigating life after losing his partner, Jack. From the "year of firsts" to the surprising difficulty of the second year, Jack explains the transformation from being in total shock to growing around his grief. He discusses how leaning into authenticity on TikTok and looking for "signs" like cherries helped him rebuild a life centered on self-worth and connection.

How to Navigate the "Year of Firsts" After Loss 

The first year of grief is often a blur of survival and shock while getting through milestones like birthdays and anniversaries. Jack discusses why hitting the one-year mark doesn't magically "fix" the pain and why the second year can actually be more difficult as the shock wears off.

Finding Connection Through Signs from Loved Ones 

Can we ask for signs from those we've lost? Jack shares his personal experience with asking for "cherries" as a sign of his partner's presence and how being open to these moments provides a necessary second to breathe and feel comforted.

The Role of Authenticity in the Healing Journey 

Sharing your story isn't just about "venting"; it’s about building a community that makes you feel less alone. Jack explores how posting his inner thoughts online broke the "phone-to-phone barrier" and created real-world support at a memorial bench in New York City.


Links & Networking

Disclaimer: The TURTZED Podcast reflects the opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. Content is for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare provider for advice tailored to your individual needs. For the full disclaimer, visit our website.


  • 00:00 – The "blind date" that was destined by fate.
  • 03:28 – The "No Games" rule that created instant safety.
  • 05:20 – Why "opposites attract" was the secret to their balance.
  • 07:45 – Choosing a defining response to a tragic moment.
  • 10:45 – The "One Year Myth" and why the second year is harder.
  • 13:10 – Leaning on a twin sister through parallel grief.
  • 15:15 – The "Gift of Grief" and a new perspective on work.
  • 17:50 – Why telling your story to strangers can be safer than family.
  • 20:50 – The bench plaque and a quote from an unlikely movie.
  • 23:40 – What happens when 10 million views become real-life encounters.
  • 26:10 – How a writer channels loss into a hit CBS cop show.
  • 32:30 – Asking for signs: The mysterious story of the cherries.
  • 36:30 – The "Minion" grudge and finding laughter in the small things.
  • 40:50 – The greatest gift a partner can leave behind: Self-love.
  • 44:00 – The "Trauma Dump" hurdle in the modern dating world.
  • 47:00 – The simple advice that keeps the healing process moving.


]]> How do you survive when the future you mapped out disappears in an instant? Grief and loss of a partner at a young age is a "out of order" tragedy that leaves many feeling isolated in a world that expects them to "move on" after a year. When Jack’s fiancé passed away, he had to choose between being defined by the death or being defined by his response to it.

In this moving episode, Jack Ciapciak shares the raw reality of navigating life after losing his partner, Jack. From the "year of firsts" to the surprising difficulty of the second year, Jack explains the transformation from being in total shock to growing around his grief. He discusses how leaning into authenticity on TikTok and looking for "signs" like cherries helped him rebuild a life centered on self-worth and connection.

How to Navigate the "Year of Firsts" After Loss 

The first year of grief is often a blur of survival and shock while getting through milestones like birthdays and anniversaries. Jack discusses why hitting the one-year mark doesn't magically "fix" the pain and why the second year can actually be more difficult as the shock wears off.

Finding Connection Through Signs from Loved Ones 

Can we ask for signs from those we've lost? Jack shares his personal experience with asking for "cherries" as a sign of his partner's presence and how being open to these moments provides a necessary second to breathe and feel comforted.

The Role of Authenticity in the Healing Journey 

Sharing your story isn't just about "venting"; it’s about building a community that makes you feel less alone. Jack explores how posting his inner thoughts online broke the "phone-to-phone barrier" and created real-world support at a memorial bench in New York City.


Links & Networking

Disclaimer: The TURTZED Podcast reflects the opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. Content is for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare provider for advice tailored to your individual needs. For the full disclaimer, visit our website.


  • 00:00 – The "blind date" that was destined by fate.
  • 03:28 – The "No Games" rule that created instant safety.
  • 05:20 – Why "opposites attract" was the secret to their balance.
  • 07:45 – Choosing a defining response to a tragic moment.
  • 10:45 – The "One Year Myth" and why the second year is harder.
  • 13:10 – Leaning on a twin sister through parallel grief.
  • 15:15 – The "Gift of Grief" and a new perspective on work.
  • 17:50 – Why telling your story to strangers can be safer than family.
  • 20:50 – The bench plaque and a quote from an unlikely movie.
  • 23:40 – What happens when 10 million views become real-life encounters.
  • 26:10 – How a writer channels loss into a hit CBS cop show.
  • 32:30 – Asking for signs: The mysterious story of the cherries.
  • 36:30 – The "Minion" grudge and finding laughter in the small things.
  • 40:50 – The greatest gift a partner can leave behind: Self-love.
  • 44:00 – The "Trauma Dump" hurdle in the modern dating world.
  • 47:00 – The simple advice that keeps the healing process moving.


]]> true full 36 <![CDATA[Jamison Lange: Authenticity & Destigmatizing Men’s Beauty & Skincare | Ep. 35]]> Why are men still choosing to hide behind "7-in-1" body wash when a simple Men's Skincare and Makeup Routine for Beginners could be the key to their confidence? For too long, the fear of being seen as "feminine" has kept men from presenting their best selves to the world.

In this episode, Jamison Lange joins Charles to peel back the curtain on his journey from a low-paid financial analyst to a viral content creator with over 200,000 followers. Jamison Lange shares how he risked his "alpha male" image to embrace his passion for beauty, offering a roadmap for any man looking to explore self-care unapologetically.

How to Start a Men's Skincare Routine

Begin with the basics of presentation, focusing on clearing the skin and covering imperfections like under-eye bags without needing a "full glam" setup. It is about wanting to look good and feel good, rather than adhering to rigid gender roles.

Why Men Should Wear Makeup

The stigma surrounding men's makeup is often rooted in outdated correlations between beauty products and sexuality. Destigmatizing these tools allows men to pull back the "veil" on their authentic selves and experiment with products that enhance their confidence.

TikTok Content Strategy for Creators

Success on social media requires high volume, quality, and the "60-second rule"—if you have an idea, record it immediately before the passion fades. Authenticity is the ultimate currency; audiences can tell when a video is over-produced versus when it is a genuine "get ready with me" moment.

 

Links & Networking

Disclaimer: The TURTZED Podcast reflects the opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. Content is for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare provider for advice tailored to your individual needs. For the full disclaimer, visit our website.

  • 00:00 – The "Lost" Episode and the Technology Curse
  • 01:14 – From Car Washes to Financial Analyst
  • 03:00 – The Viral Video That Started with "Looking Ugly"
  • 05:46 – The Humbling Reality of 15,000 Followers
  • 06:36 – The "Followers Equals Money" Myth
  • 08:10 – Why Men Fear the "Feminine" Label
  • 10:53 – The "No-Makeup Makeup" Philosophy
  • 13:30 – Taking Dad for a Pedicure: A Generational Shift
  • 16:30 – How to Fix Your Audio with One Phone Setting
  • 21:37 – The 60-Second Rule to Kill Procrastination
  • 25:24 – The Complex of "Real-Time" Authenticity
  • 30:30 – Dealing with "Sad Carol" and Comment Section Hate
  • 37:54 – Why "Social Norms Suck" is the Ultimate Mission
  • 41:15 – Why Top Creators Might Actually Be Miserable
  • 43:00 – The Breaking Point: Starting Over at Age 35
  • 49:00 – The $800 Investment That Changed Everything
  • 53:31 – The One Question Every Entrepreneur Should Ask Themselves


]]> Wed, 16 Apr 2025 04:30:00 -0400 https://www.turtzed.com/podcast 58:36 Why are men still choosing to hide behind "7-in-1" body wash when a simple Men's Skincare and Makeup Routine for Beginners could be the key to their confidence? For too long, the fear of being seen as "feminine" has kept men from presenting their best selves to the world.

In this episode, Jamison Lange joins Charles to peel back the curtain on his journey from a low-paid financial analyst to a viral content creator with over 200,000 followers. Jamison Lange shares how he risked his "alpha male" image to embrace his passion for beauty, offering a roadmap for any man looking to explore self-care unapologetically.

How to Start a Men's Skincare Routine

Begin with the basics of presentation, focusing on clearing the skin and covering imperfections like under-eye bags without needing a "full glam" setup. It is about wanting to look good and feel good, rather than adhering to rigid gender roles.

Why Men Should Wear Makeup

The stigma surrounding men's makeup is often rooted in outdated correlations between beauty products and sexuality. Destigmatizing these tools allows men to pull back the "veil" on their authentic selves and experiment with products that enhance their confidence.

TikTok Content Strategy for Creators

Success on social media requires high volume, quality, and the "60-second rule"—if you have an idea, record it immediately before the passion fades. Authenticity is the ultimate currency; audiences can tell when a video is over-produced versus when it is a genuine "get ready with me" moment.

 

Links & Networking

Disclaimer: The TURTZED Podcast reflects the opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. Content is for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare provider for advice tailored to your individual needs. For the full disclaimer, visit our website.

  • 00:00 – The "Lost" Episode and the Technology Curse
  • 01:14 – From Car Washes to Financial Analyst
  • 03:00 – The Viral Video That Started with "Looking Ugly"
  • 05:46 – The Humbling Reality of 15,000 Followers
  • 06:36 – The "Followers Equals Money" Myth
  • 08:10 – Why Men Fear the "Feminine" Label
  • 10:53 – The "No-Makeup Makeup" Philosophy
  • 13:30 – Taking Dad for a Pedicure: A Generational Shift
  • 16:30 – How to Fix Your Audio with One Phone Setting
  • 21:37 – The 60-Second Rule to Kill Procrastination
  • 25:24 – The Complex of "Real-Time" Authenticity
  • 30:30 – Dealing with "Sad Carol" and Comment Section Hate
  • 37:54 – Why "Social Norms Suck" is the Ultimate Mission
  • 41:15 – Why Top Creators Might Actually Be Miserable
  • 43:00 – The Breaking Point: Starting Over at Age 35
  • 49:00 – The $800 Investment That Changed Everything
  • 53:31 – The One Question Every Entrepreneur Should Ask Themselves


]]> Why are men still choosing to hide behind "7-in-1" body wash when a simple Men's Skincare and Makeup Routine for Beginners could be the key to their confidence? For too long, the fear of being seen as "feminine" has kept men from presenting their best selves to the world.

In this episode, Jamison Lange joins Charles to peel back the curtain on his journey from a low-paid financial analyst to a viral content creator with over 200,000 followers. Jamison Lange shares how he risked his "alpha male" image to embrace his passion for beauty, offering a roadmap for any man looking to explore self-care unapologetically.

How to Start a Men's Skincare Routine

Begin with the basics of presentation, focusing on clearing the skin and covering imperfections like under-eye bags without needing a "full glam" setup. It is about wanting to look good and feel good, rather than adhering to rigid gender roles.

Why Men Should Wear Makeup

The stigma surrounding men's makeup is often rooted in outdated correlations between beauty products and sexuality. Destigmatizing these tools allows men to pull back the "veil" on their authentic selves and experiment with products that enhance their confidence.

TikTok Content Strategy for Creators

Success on social media requires high volume, quality, and the "60-second rule"—if you have an idea, record it immediately before the passion fades. Authenticity is the ultimate currency; audiences can tell when a video is over-produced versus when it is a genuine "get ready with me" moment.

 

Links & Networking

Disclaimer: The TURTZED Podcast reflects the opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. Content is for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare provider for advice tailored to your individual needs. For the full disclaimer, visit our website.

  • 00:00 – The "Lost" Episode and the Technology Curse
  • 01:14 – From Car Washes to Financial Analyst
  • 03:00 – The Viral Video That Started with "Looking Ugly"
  • 05:46 – The Humbling Reality of 15,000 Followers
  • 06:36 – The "Followers Equals Money" Myth
  • 08:10 – Why Men Fear the "Feminine" Label
  • 10:53 – The "No-Makeup Makeup" Philosophy
  • 13:30 – Taking Dad for a Pedicure: A Generational Shift
  • 16:30 – How to Fix Your Audio with One Phone Setting
  • 21:37 – The 60-Second Rule to Kill Procrastination
  • 25:24 – The Complex of "Real-Time" Authenticity
  • 30:30 – Dealing with "Sad Carol" and Comment Section Hate
  • 37:54 – Why "Social Norms Suck" is the Ultimate Mission
  • 41:15 – Why Top Creators Might Actually Be Miserable
  • 43:00 – The Breaking Point: Starting Over at Age 35
  • 49:00 – The $800 Investment That Changed Everything
  • 53:31 – The One Question Every Entrepreneur Should Ask Themselves


]]> true full 35 <![CDATA[Dani Fancher: Living with Chronic Migraine Stories & Visual Aura | Ep. 34]]> What do you do when the lights start flashing in your vision and the world goes dark while you’re stuck behind the wheel of a car? Living with chronic migraine stories often start with a moment of pure terror, but for some, that moment transforms into a decade-long battle for wellness and visibility in a world that often dismisses "just a headache."

In this episode, Dani Fancher opens up about her journey from a terrifying first aura at age 16 to living with a constant, unrelenting migraine since 2013. She shares the raw reality of "stripping away" her identity as an athlete and hard worker to rebuild a life centered on radical transparency, advocacy on Capitol Hill, and the power of finding a community that truly "gets it."


Understanding Migraine Visual Aura Symptoms

Beyond just head pain, a migraine can manifest as complex visual disturbances, brain fog, and even physical numbness that mimics other neurological conditions. Dani Fancher describes the "aura" as a total loss of the field of vision, which can be as debilitating as the pain itself.

How Barometric Pressure Affects Migraines

Weather shifts are more than a conversation starter; for those with chronic illness, a 10-degree temperature drop or a storm front can trigger a severe attack. Dani explains why she avoids checking the weather and the extreme lengths she took—including moving to Costa Rica—to find a consistent environment.

Strategies for Chronic Illness Advocacy

Navigating the healthcare system requires a "packing list" mentality for doctor visits and a willingness to speak up to legislators. Dani discusses her work with "Headache on the Hill" to ensure the next generation of students and workers with migraine disorders are legally protected.


Links & Networking

Disclaimer: The TURTZED Podcast reflects the opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. Content is for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare provider for advice tailored to your individual needs. For the full disclaimer, visit our website.


  • 02:06 – The day the world went dark at age sixteen
  • 04:11 – The "impossible" reality of four migraines per day
  • 06:03 – Why we fail to communicate invisible pain
  • 08:02 – The bizarre symptom involving numbness and feet
  • 10:04 – Why your ER visit needs a "vacation" packing list
  • 12:11 – Reclaiming identity after illness strips it away
  • 15:54 – The moment she realized she wasn't the "only one"
  • 18:00 – Dealing with the "helpful" things people say that hurt
  • 21:58 – Writing a memoir during the hours sleep wouldn't come
  • 25:52 – Why the migraine community is "too quiet"
  • 27:24 – The "Water and Botox" trap of unsolicited advice
  • 29:39 – Why she wears rain boots when it isn’t raining
  • 33:49 – The "defeat" of leaving a career for a cabin on the beach
  • 37:58 – Why a "Type A" person still needs a to-do list for rest
  • 41:45 – Taking the fight for migraine rights to Capitol Hill
  • 45:41 – The most important thing to do when someone says they're in pain


]]> Wed, 26 Mar 2025 04:30:00 -0400 https://www.turtzed.com/podcast 50:24 What do you do when the lights start flashing in your vision and the world goes dark while you’re stuck behind the wheel of a car? Living with chronic migraine stories often start with a moment of pure terror, but for some, that moment transforms into a decade-long battle for wellness and visibility in a world that often dismisses "just a headache."

In this episode, Dani Fancher opens up about her journey from a terrifying first aura at age 16 to living with a constant, unrelenting migraine since 2013. She shares the raw reality of "stripping away" her identity as an athlete and hard worker to rebuild a life centered on radical transparency, advocacy on Capitol Hill, and the power of finding a community that truly "gets it."


Understanding Migraine Visual Aura Symptoms

Beyond just head pain, a migraine can manifest as complex visual disturbances, brain fog, and even physical numbness that mimics other neurological conditions. Dani Fancher describes the "aura" as a total loss of the field of vision, which can be as debilitating as the pain itself.

How Barometric Pressure Affects Migraines

Weather shifts are more than a conversation starter; for those with chronic illness, a 10-degree temperature drop or a storm front can trigger a severe attack. Dani explains why she avoids checking the weather and the extreme lengths she took—including moving to Costa Rica—to find a consistent environment.

Strategies for Chronic Illness Advocacy

Navigating the healthcare system requires a "packing list" mentality for doctor visits and a willingness to speak up to legislators. Dani discusses her work with "Headache on the Hill" to ensure the next generation of students and workers with migraine disorders are legally protected.


Links & Networking

Disclaimer: The TURTZED Podcast reflects the opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. Content is for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare provider for advice tailored to your individual needs. For the full disclaimer, visit our website.


  • 02:06 – The day the world went dark at age sixteen
  • 04:11 – The "impossible" reality of four migraines per day
  • 06:03 – Why we fail to communicate invisible pain
  • 08:02 – The bizarre symptom involving numbness and feet
  • 10:04 – Why your ER visit needs a "vacation" packing list
  • 12:11 – Reclaiming identity after illness strips it away
  • 15:54 – The moment she realized she wasn't the "only one"
  • 18:00 – Dealing with the "helpful" things people say that hurt
  • 21:58 – Writing a memoir during the hours sleep wouldn't come
  • 25:52 – Why the migraine community is "too quiet"
  • 27:24 – The "Water and Botox" trap of unsolicited advice
  • 29:39 – Why she wears rain boots when it isn’t raining
  • 33:49 – The "defeat" of leaving a career for a cabin on the beach
  • 37:58 – Why a "Type A" person still needs a to-do list for rest
  • 41:45 – Taking the fight for migraine rights to Capitol Hill
  • 45:41 – The most important thing to do when someone says they're in pain


]]> What do you do when the lights start flashing in your vision and the world goes dark while you’re stuck behind the wheel of a car? Living with chronic migraine stories often start with a moment of pure terror, but for some, that moment transforms into a decade-long battle for wellness and visibility in a world that often dismisses "just a headache."

In this episode, Dani Fancher opens up about her journey from a terrifying first aura at age 16 to living with a constant, unrelenting migraine since 2013. She shares the raw reality of "stripping away" her identity as an athlete and hard worker to rebuild a life centered on radical transparency, advocacy on Capitol Hill, and the power of finding a community that truly "gets it."


Understanding Migraine Visual Aura Symptoms

Beyond just head pain, a migraine can manifest as complex visual disturbances, brain fog, and even physical numbness that mimics other neurological conditions. Dani Fancher describes the "aura" as a total loss of the field of vision, which can be as debilitating as the pain itself.

How Barometric Pressure Affects Migraines

Weather shifts are more than a conversation starter; for those with chronic illness, a 10-degree temperature drop or a storm front can trigger a severe attack. Dani explains why she avoids checking the weather and the extreme lengths she took—including moving to Costa Rica—to find a consistent environment.

Strategies for Chronic Illness Advocacy

Navigating the healthcare system requires a "packing list" mentality for doctor visits and a willingness to speak up to legislators. Dani discusses her work with "Headache on the Hill" to ensure the next generation of students and workers with migraine disorders are legally protected.


Links & Networking

Disclaimer: The TURTZED Podcast reflects the opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. Content is for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare provider for advice tailored to your individual needs. For the full disclaimer, visit our website.


  • 02:06 – The day the world went dark at age sixteen
  • 04:11 – The "impossible" reality of four migraines per day
  • 06:03 – Why we fail to communicate invisible pain
  • 08:02 – The bizarre symptom involving numbness and feet
  • 10:04 – Why your ER visit needs a "vacation" packing list
  • 12:11 – Reclaiming identity after illness strips it away
  • 15:54 – The moment she realized she wasn't the "only one"
  • 18:00 – Dealing with the "helpful" things people say that hurt
  • 21:58 – Writing a memoir during the hours sleep wouldn't come
  • 25:52 – Why the migraine community is "too quiet"
  • 27:24 – The "Water and Botox" trap of unsolicited advice
  • 29:39 – Why she wears rain boots when it isn’t raining
  • 33:49 – The "defeat" of leaving a career for a cabin on the beach
  • 37:58 – Why a "Type A" person still needs a to-do list for rest
  • 41:45 – Taking the fight for migraine rights to Capitol Hill
  • 45:41 – The most important thing to do when someone says they're in pain


]]> true full 34 <![CDATA[Brian Spitulnik: What is Internal Family Systems (IFS) Therapy? | Ep. 33]]> What is Internal Family Systems therapy, and how can identifying the different "parts" of your psyche finally release the grip of lifelong shame? Most of us feel like a single person, but we are actually a complex system of protective and wounded parts that often work against our current goals.

In this vulnerable and immersive episode, therapist Brian Spitulnik joins Charles to pull back the curtain on the therapeutic process. Moving from his career as a Broadway dancer into clinical social work, Brian Spitulnik demonstrates how the Internal Family Systems (IFS) modality helps individuals navigate past trauma by treating their internal voices with compassion rather than resistance. 


How to Identify Your Emotional Triggers

Learn the step-by-step process of noticing physiological shifts, such as holding your breath or tensing muscles, to identify when a "protective part" has taken over your system. By recognizing these cues in the moment, you can move from reactive survival to conscious, constructive responses.

Why the Therapist-Patient Relationship Matters Most

Research consistently shows that the bond between the client and the therapist is the single most effective predictor of successful healing. Discover why feeling "seen" and "understood" is more vital than the specific type of therapy you choose.

Understanding the Internal Family Systems (IFS) Model

IFS views the mind as a collection of "parts"—like the characters in the movie Inside Out—that each have a specific job to protect you. True healing begins when you access your "Self" to lead these parts with curiosity and empathy rather than judgment.


Links & Networking

Disclaimer: The TURTZED Podcast reflects the opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. Content is for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare provider for advice tailored to your individual needs. For the full disclaimer, visit our website.


  • 00:00 – The "Inappropriate" Pivot from Broadway to Therapy
  • 03:00 – Facing the Epidemic: Why Gay Men Over 40 Are at Risk
  • 05:40 – The "Shelf Life" Reality of Professional Dancers
  • 09:15 – The Secret Shorthand: Why Representation in Therapy Saves Time
  • 12:57 – When Your Therapist Reaches Their Knowledge Limit
  • 14:58 – The Dating Game: Finding the "Relationship" That Heals
  • 19:13 – Inside Out in Real Life: Visualizing Your Internal Parts
  • 22:33 – The "Oxygen Mask" Myth: Why You Can’t Help Others Until You Heal
  • 25:36 – The Art of the Healthy Goodbye
  • 28:37 – Why You Automatically Hold Your Breath When Stressed
  • 34:02 – The Tingle of Anger: Identifying Physical Trauma Responses
  • 37:36 – The "Do-Over" Technique: Using Neuroplasticity to Rewrite the Past
  • 44:42 – Why Little Charlie Needed a Hug, Not a Fight
  • 50:18 – The Backhanded Compliment That Haunted a Career
  • 56:52 – Protecting "Fragile" Self-Love in the Next Chapter


]]> Wed, 12 Mar 2025 04:30:00 -0400 https://www.turtzed.com/podcast 59:46 What is Internal Family Systems therapy, and how can identifying the different "parts" of your psyche finally release the grip of lifelong shame? Most of us feel like a single person, but we are actually a complex system of protective and wounded parts that often work against our current goals.

In this vulnerable and immersive episode, therapist Brian Spitulnik joins Charles to pull back the curtain on the therapeutic process. Moving from his career as a Broadway dancer into clinical social work, Brian Spitulnik demonstrates how the Internal Family Systems (IFS) modality helps individuals navigate past trauma by treating their internal voices with compassion rather than resistance. 


How to Identify Your Emotional Triggers

Learn the step-by-step process of noticing physiological shifts, such as holding your breath or tensing muscles, to identify when a "protective part" has taken over your system. By recognizing these cues in the moment, you can move from reactive survival to conscious, constructive responses.

Why the Therapist-Patient Relationship Matters Most

Research consistently shows that the bond between the client and the therapist is the single most effective predictor of successful healing. Discover why feeling "seen" and "understood" is more vital than the specific type of therapy you choose.

Understanding the Internal Family Systems (IFS) Model

IFS views the mind as a collection of "parts"—like the characters in the movie Inside Out—that each have a specific job to protect you. True healing begins when you access your "Self" to lead these parts with curiosity and empathy rather than judgment.


Links & Networking

Disclaimer: The TURTZED Podcast reflects the opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. Content is for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare provider for advice tailored to your individual needs. For the full disclaimer, visit our website.


  • 00:00 – The "Inappropriate" Pivot from Broadway to Therapy
  • 03:00 – Facing the Epidemic: Why Gay Men Over 40 Are at Risk
  • 05:40 – The "Shelf Life" Reality of Professional Dancers
  • 09:15 – The Secret Shorthand: Why Representation in Therapy Saves Time
  • 12:57 – When Your Therapist Reaches Their Knowledge Limit
  • 14:58 – The Dating Game: Finding the "Relationship" That Heals
  • 19:13 – Inside Out in Real Life: Visualizing Your Internal Parts
  • 22:33 – The "Oxygen Mask" Myth: Why You Can’t Help Others Until You Heal
  • 25:36 – The Art of the Healthy Goodbye
  • 28:37 – Why You Automatically Hold Your Breath When Stressed
  • 34:02 – The Tingle of Anger: Identifying Physical Trauma Responses
  • 37:36 – The "Do-Over" Technique: Using Neuroplasticity to Rewrite the Past
  • 44:42 – Why Little Charlie Needed a Hug, Not a Fight
  • 50:18 – The Backhanded Compliment That Haunted a Career
  • 56:52 – Protecting "Fragile" Self-Love in the Next Chapter


]]> What is Internal Family Systems therapy, and how can identifying the different "parts" of your psyche finally release the grip of lifelong shame? Most of us feel like a single person, but we are actually a complex system of protective and wounded parts that often work against our current goals.

In this vulnerable and immersive episode, therapist Brian Spitulnik joins Charles to pull back the curtain on the therapeutic process. Moving from his career as a Broadway dancer into clinical social work, Brian Spitulnik demonstrates how the Internal Family Systems (IFS) modality helps individuals navigate past trauma by treating their internal voices with compassion rather than resistance. 


How to Identify Your Emotional Triggers

Learn the step-by-step process of noticing physiological shifts, such as holding your breath or tensing muscles, to identify when a "protective part" has taken over your system. By recognizing these cues in the moment, you can move from reactive survival to conscious, constructive responses.

Why the Therapist-Patient Relationship Matters Most

Research consistently shows that the bond between the client and the therapist is the single most effective predictor of successful healing. Discover why feeling "seen" and "understood" is more vital than the specific type of therapy you choose.

Understanding the Internal Family Systems (IFS) Model

IFS views the mind as a collection of "parts"—like the characters in the movie Inside Out—that each have a specific job to protect you. True healing begins when you access your "Self" to lead these parts with curiosity and empathy rather than judgment.


Links & Networking

Disclaimer: The TURTZED Podcast reflects the opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. Content is for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare provider for advice tailored to your individual needs. For the full disclaimer, visit our website.


  • 00:00 – The "Inappropriate" Pivot from Broadway to Therapy
  • 03:00 – Facing the Epidemic: Why Gay Men Over 40 Are at Risk
  • 05:40 – The "Shelf Life" Reality of Professional Dancers
  • 09:15 – The Secret Shorthand: Why Representation in Therapy Saves Time
  • 12:57 – When Your Therapist Reaches Their Knowledge Limit
  • 14:58 – The Dating Game: Finding the "Relationship" That Heals
  • 19:13 – Inside Out in Real Life: Visualizing Your Internal Parts
  • 22:33 – The "Oxygen Mask" Myth: Why You Can’t Help Others Until You Heal
  • 25:36 – The Art of the Healthy Goodbye
  • 28:37 – Why You Automatically Hold Your Breath When Stressed
  • 34:02 – The Tingle of Anger: Identifying Physical Trauma Responses
  • 37:36 – The "Do-Over" Technique: Using Neuroplasticity to Rewrite the Past
  • 44:42 – Why Little Charlie Needed a Hug, Not a Fight
  • 50:18 – The Backhanded Compliment That Haunted a Career
  • 56:52 – Protecting "Fragile" Self-Love in the Next Chapter


]]> true full 33 <![CDATA[Coaching vs. Therapy: How to Finally Move Forward | Ep. 32]]> Have you ever reached a point in therapy where you understood your past perfectly, but still had no idea how to build your future? We often get stuck "looking backward" at our traumas, failing to realize that the intuition to change is already living inside us—we just haven't learned how to listen to it yet.

In this solo episode, Charles Turtz breaks down his transformative journey through the MindBodyGreen coaching program and how it shifted his perspective from "fixing" people to empowering them. He shares the specific tools—from the 4-7-8 breathing technique to the power of the "uncomfortable pause"—that helped him transition from a successful but unfulfilled sales career into building an authentic brand and coaching practice.

How to Differentiate Coaching vs. Therapy

Therapy often focuses on the present and the past to understand reactions and traumas, while coaching is a forward-looking process centered on actionable steps and future goals. Combining the two can be incredibly powerful for those ready to stop analyzing and start doing.

Why "The Pause" is Your Best Management Tool

Mastering the "uncomfortable pause" allows space for others to explore their own thoughts and reveal what isn't being said. By reflecting a person’s tone and emotions back to them rather than jumping in with advice, you allow them to reach their own powerful breakthroughs.

Breaking the "Fixer" Trauma Response

Many high-achievers fall into the trap of trying to solve everyone else's problems as a way to feel useful. True growth happens when you stop providing the answers and start helping people trust their own gut intuition to make their own decisions.


Links & Networking

Disclaimer: The TURTZED Podcast reflects the opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. Content is for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare provider for advice tailored to your individual needs. For the full disclaimer, visit our website.

  • 00:01 – The disclaimer you need to hear before we dive in
  • 00:30 – The stinging question: "How can you help others if you can't help yourself?"
  • 01:20 – Why management was just a "mini-experiment" for what was coming
  • 02:20 – The "forward-looking" lens that separates coaching from your past
  • 03:20 – When your therapist goes on sabbatical: A blessing in disguise?
  • 04:30 – The 80/20 rule of learning that changed everything
  • 05:40 – Why you should be terrified of the "silent pause" in conversation
  • 06:40 – The hidden messages in someone's tone that you're missing
  • 07:40 – A "long, convoluted story" about a favorite color and the truth it hid
  • 08:50 – The 4-7-8 breathing trick for instant anxiety relief
  • 10:00 – Why your notebook might be the one thing holding you back
  • 11:15 – The "gut feeling" you've been ignoring for way too long
  • 12:30 – Is your "fixer" personality actually a trauma response?
  • 13:30 – The paycheck trap: When success doesn't equal fulfillment
  • 14:40 – What "Turts" actually means for your brand story
  • 15:50 – Why failing is the most important work you'll ever do


]]> Wed, 26 Feb 2025 04:30:00 -0500 https://www.turtzed.com/podcast 18:59 Have you ever reached a point in therapy where you understood your past perfectly, but still had no idea how to build your future? We often get stuck "looking backward" at our traumas, failing to realize that the intuition to change is already living inside us—we just haven't learned how to listen to it yet.

In this solo episode, Charles Turtz breaks down his transformative journey through the MindBodyGreen coaching program and how it shifted his perspective from "fixing" people to empowering them. He shares the specific tools—from the 4-7-8 breathing technique to the power of the "uncomfortable pause"—that helped him transition from a successful but unfulfilled sales career into building an authentic brand and coaching practice.

How to Differentiate Coaching vs. Therapy

Therapy often focuses on the present and the past to understand reactions and traumas, while coaching is a forward-looking process centered on actionable steps and future goals. Combining the two can be incredibly powerful for those ready to stop analyzing and start doing.

Why "The Pause" is Your Best Management Tool

Mastering the "uncomfortable pause" allows space for others to explore their own thoughts and reveal what isn't being said. By reflecting a person’s tone and emotions back to them rather than jumping in with advice, you allow them to reach their own powerful breakthroughs.

Breaking the "Fixer" Trauma Response

Many high-achievers fall into the trap of trying to solve everyone else's problems as a way to feel useful. True growth happens when you stop providing the answers and start helping people trust their own gut intuition to make their own decisions.


Links & Networking

Disclaimer: The TURTZED Podcast reflects the opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. Content is for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare provider for advice tailored to your individual needs. For the full disclaimer, visit our website.

  • 00:01 – The disclaimer you need to hear before we dive in
  • 00:30 – The stinging question: "How can you help others if you can't help yourself?"
  • 01:20 – Why management was just a "mini-experiment" for what was coming
  • 02:20 – The "forward-looking" lens that separates coaching from your past
  • 03:20 – When your therapist goes on sabbatical: A blessing in disguise?
  • 04:30 – The 80/20 rule of learning that changed everything
  • 05:40 – Why you should be terrified of the "silent pause" in conversation
  • 06:40 – The hidden messages in someone's tone that you're missing
  • 07:40 – A "long, convoluted story" about a favorite color and the truth it hid
  • 08:50 – The 4-7-8 breathing trick for instant anxiety relief
  • 10:00 – Why your notebook might be the one thing holding you back
  • 11:15 – The "gut feeling" you've been ignoring for way too long
  • 12:30 – Is your "fixer" personality actually a trauma response?
  • 13:30 – The paycheck trap: When success doesn't equal fulfillment
  • 14:40 – What "Turts" actually means for your brand story
  • 15:50 – Why failing is the most important work you'll ever do


]]> Have you ever reached a point in therapy where you understood your past perfectly, but still had no idea how to build your future? We often get stuck "looking backward" at our traumas, failing to realize that the intuition to change is already living inside us—we just haven't learned how to listen to it yet.

In this solo episode, Charles Turtz breaks down his transformative journey through the MindBodyGreen coaching program and how it shifted his perspective from "fixing" people to empowering them. He shares the specific tools—from the 4-7-8 breathing technique to the power of the "uncomfortable pause"—that helped him transition from a successful but unfulfilled sales career into building an authentic brand and coaching practice.

How to Differentiate Coaching vs. Therapy

Therapy often focuses on the present and the past to understand reactions and traumas, while coaching is a forward-looking process centered on actionable steps and future goals. Combining the two can be incredibly powerful for those ready to stop analyzing and start doing.

Why "The Pause" is Your Best Management Tool

Mastering the "uncomfortable pause" allows space for others to explore their own thoughts and reveal what isn't being said. By reflecting a person’s tone and emotions back to them rather than jumping in with advice, you allow them to reach their own powerful breakthroughs.

Breaking the "Fixer" Trauma Response

Many high-achievers fall into the trap of trying to solve everyone else's problems as a way to feel useful. True growth happens when you stop providing the answers and start helping people trust their own gut intuition to make their own decisions.


Links & Networking

Disclaimer: The TURTZED Podcast reflects the opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. Content is for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare provider for advice tailored to your individual needs. For the full disclaimer, visit our website.

  • 00:01 – The disclaimer you need to hear before we dive in
  • 00:30 – The stinging question: "How can you help others if you can't help yourself?"
  • 01:20 – Why management was just a "mini-experiment" for what was coming
  • 02:20 – The "forward-looking" lens that separates coaching from your past
  • 03:20 – When your therapist goes on sabbatical: A blessing in disguise?
  • 04:30 – The 80/20 rule of learning that changed everything
  • 05:40 – Why you should be terrified of the "silent pause" in conversation
  • 06:40 – The hidden messages in someone's tone that you're missing
  • 07:40 – A "long, convoluted story" about a favorite color and the truth it hid
  • 08:50 – The 4-7-8 breathing trick for instant anxiety relief
  • 10:00 – Why your notebook might be the one thing holding you back
  • 11:15 – The "gut feeling" you've been ignoring for way too long
  • 12:30 – Is your "fixer" personality actually a trauma response?
  • 13:30 – The paycheck trap: When success doesn't equal fulfillment
  • 14:40 – What "Turts" actually means for your brand story
  • 15:50 – Why failing is the most important work you'll ever do


]]> false full 32 <![CDATA[Jake Eldridge: Life After Sports & Finding Identity After Football | Ep. 31]]> What happens when the "ticket to college" you’ve spent a decade punching suddenly expires? For many athletes, Life After Sports: Finding Your Identity After Football isn't just a transition—it’s a total reinvention of the soul.

In this episode, Jake Eldridge joins Charles to discuss the heavy weight of living out someone else's passion and the relief of finally letting it go. From his roots in a Texas bakery to the high-stakes pressure of long-snapping at Rutgers, Jake Eldridge opens up about the resentment of the "athlete" label, the courage required to come out to a football team, and how he traded the "bro" persona for a life of authentic, "chaotic" joy on social media.


How to Navigate an Identity Crisis After Sports

Jake shares the emotional fallout of medically retiring and the difficult realization that he was often playing for others' expectations rather than his own passion.

Coming Out in the World of College Athletics

Discover why Jake planned to come out while still on the field and the powerful "juxtaposition" post that finally allowed him to bridge his past as a football player with his future as an out-and-proud creator.

The Power of Authentic Social Media Storytelling

Learn why "chaotic" content and raw livestreams are often more effective than perfectly polished videos for building a genuine, reciprocal community.


Links & Networking

Disclaimer: The TURTZED Podcast reflects the opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. Content is for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare provider for advice tailored to your individual needs. For the full disclaimer, visit our website.

  • 00:00 – The "Double Life" Disclaimer
  • 00:57 – The Bakery That Built a Secret Passion
  • 02:18 – Was It My Passion or Theirs?
  • 03:30 – The "Ticket to College" Trap
  • 04:04 – The Text That Changed the Parent-Child Dynamic
  • 05:15 – Working a Full-Time Job at 18 Years Old
  • 06:14 – Using Therapy to Forgive Your Parents
  • 07:45 – The Gap Between Being Heard and Being Seen
  • 09:18 – The Regret of the "Trapped" Athlete
  • 10:30 – The Juxtaposition of the Football Uniform
  • 12:59 – Unexpected Advice from a D1 Head Coach
  • 15:10 – Why "Chaos" is the New Identity
  • 18:50 – The "Tipsy Tea" Secret to Authenticity
  • 24:46 – The "Teddy Bear" Behind the Tough Exterior
  • 28:33 – Why Live-Streaming is the New Journaling
  • 31:35 – When Strangers Become Your FaceTime Family
  • 35:00 – Why You Should Never Dim Your Light


]]> Wed, 12 Feb 2025 04:33:00 -0500 https://www.turtzed.com/podcast 42:16 What happens when the "ticket to college" you’ve spent a decade punching suddenly expires? For many athletes, Life After Sports: Finding Your Identity After Football isn't just a transition—it’s a total reinvention of the soul.

In this episode, Jake Eldridge joins Charles to discuss the heavy weight of living out someone else's passion and the relief of finally letting it go. From his roots in a Texas bakery to the high-stakes pressure of long-snapping at Rutgers, Jake Eldridge opens up about the resentment of the "athlete" label, the courage required to come out to a football team, and how he traded the "bro" persona for a life of authentic, "chaotic" joy on social media.


How to Navigate an Identity Crisis After Sports

Jake shares the emotional fallout of medically retiring and the difficult realization that he was often playing for others' expectations rather than his own passion.

Coming Out in the World of College Athletics

Discover why Jake planned to come out while still on the field and the powerful "juxtaposition" post that finally allowed him to bridge his past as a football player with his future as an out-and-proud creator.

The Power of Authentic Social Media Storytelling

Learn why "chaotic" content and raw livestreams are often more effective than perfectly polished videos for building a genuine, reciprocal community.


Links & Networking

Disclaimer: The TURTZED Podcast reflects the opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. Content is for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare provider for advice tailored to your individual needs. For the full disclaimer, visit our website.

  • 00:00 – The "Double Life" Disclaimer
  • 00:57 – The Bakery That Built a Secret Passion
  • 02:18 – Was It My Passion or Theirs?
  • 03:30 – The "Ticket to College" Trap
  • 04:04 – The Text That Changed the Parent-Child Dynamic
  • 05:15 – Working a Full-Time Job at 18 Years Old
  • 06:14 – Using Therapy to Forgive Your Parents
  • 07:45 – The Gap Between Being Heard and Being Seen
  • 09:18 – The Regret of the "Trapped" Athlete
  • 10:30 – The Juxtaposition of the Football Uniform
  • 12:59 – Unexpected Advice from a D1 Head Coach
  • 15:10 – Why "Chaos" is the New Identity
  • 18:50 – The "Tipsy Tea" Secret to Authenticity
  • 24:46 – The "Teddy Bear" Behind the Tough Exterior
  • 28:33 – Why Live-Streaming is the New Journaling
  • 31:35 – When Strangers Become Your FaceTime Family
  • 35:00 – Why You Should Never Dim Your Light


]]> What happens when the "ticket to college" you’ve spent a decade punching suddenly expires? For many athletes, Life After Sports: Finding Your Identity After Football isn't just a transition—it’s a total reinvention of the soul.

In this episode, Jake Eldridge joins Charles to discuss the heavy weight of living out someone else's passion and the relief of finally letting it go. From his roots in a Texas bakery to the high-stakes pressure of long-snapping at Rutgers, Jake Eldridge opens up about the resentment of the "athlete" label, the courage required to come out to a football team, and how he traded the "bro" persona for a life of authentic, "chaotic" joy on social media.


How to Navigate an Identity Crisis After Sports

Jake shares the emotional fallout of medically retiring and the difficult realization that he was often playing for others' expectations rather than his own passion.

Coming Out in the World of College Athletics

Discover why Jake planned to come out while still on the field and the powerful "juxtaposition" post that finally allowed him to bridge his past as a football player with his future as an out-and-proud creator.

The Power of Authentic Social Media Storytelling

Learn why "chaotic" content and raw livestreams are often more effective than perfectly polished videos for building a genuine, reciprocal community.


Links & Networking

Disclaimer: The TURTZED Podcast reflects the opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. Content is for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare provider for advice tailored to your individual needs. For the full disclaimer, visit our website.

  • 00:00 – The "Double Life" Disclaimer
  • 00:57 – The Bakery That Built a Secret Passion
  • 02:18 – Was It My Passion or Theirs?
  • 03:30 – The "Ticket to College" Trap
  • 04:04 – The Text That Changed the Parent-Child Dynamic
  • 05:15 – Working a Full-Time Job at 18 Years Old
  • 06:14 – Using Therapy to Forgive Your Parents
  • 07:45 – The Gap Between Being Heard and Being Seen
  • 09:18 – The Regret of the "Trapped" Athlete
  • 10:30 – The Juxtaposition of the Football Uniform
  • 12:59 – Unexpected Advice from a D1 Head Coach
  • 15:10 – Why "Chaos" is the New Identity
  • 18:50 – The "Tipsy Tea" Secret to Authenticity
  • 24:46 – The "Teddy Bear" Behind the Tough Exterior
  • 28:33 – Why Live-Streaming is the New Journaling
  • 31:35 – When Strangers Become Your FaceTime Family
  • 35:00 – Why You Should Never Dim Your Light


]]> true full 31 <![CDATA[John Hill: Coping with Dementia through Humor | Ep. 30]]> Can laughing at the "impossible" actually save your sanity when a loved one starts to fade? Coping with dementia through humor isn't about being disrespectful; it’s a radical tool for survival when the person you’ve known your whole life begins to inhabit a reality you don't recognize. From accidental "affairs" with Hollywood actresses to the heartbreaking moment a parent forgets your name, the shift from child to caregiver happens overnight, demanding a level of emotional regulation that feels almost impossible to master.

In this episode, John Hill shares the raw and surprisingly funny journey of navigating his father's rapid cognitive decline. John Hill opens up about how his own journey through addiction recovery provided the "perfect timing" to show up for his family, the necessity of hiring professional "bad cops," and why leaning into a loved one's fantasy world is often the kindest thing you can do.


How to Use Humor as a Dementia Coping Mechanism 

Instead of correcting a loved one’s confusion, which often leads to frustration and disorientation, leaning into their reality with laughter can preserve the emotional connection. Finding the "funny" in the absurd moments—like a high-stakes catfish scam—allows families to process trauma without being completely consumed by it.

Why You Need Professional Help for Dementia Care 

Trying to manage 24/7 care alone is a recipe for failure and resentment. Hiring an objective third party, such as a case manager or specially trained hospice staff, provides a necessary "liaison" who can handle difficult medical or safety decisions while you focus on being a supportive family member.

The Link Between Personal Recovery and Caregiving 

Navigating a family health crisis requires the same "one day at a time" mentality used in addiction recovery. Practicing radical acceptance and emotional regulation allows caregivers to stay present and of service rather than escaping through self-pity or old, unhealthy habits.


Links & Networking

Disclaimer: The TURTZED Podcast reflects the opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. Content is for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare provider for advice tailored to your individual needs. For the full disclaimer, visit our website. 

  • 00:00 – The "Anne Hathaway" Delusion
  • 01:47 – When Money Starts Disappearing
  • 03:34 – The Sweetness of the Early Signs
  • 05:50 – The Race for an Official Diagnosis
  • 06:30 – The "Gatsby" Party in the Hospital
  • 08:15 – Becoming "Mitch": Living in a Stolen Identity
  • 09:49 – When the Parent-Child Script Flips
  • 11:00 – Hiring a "Bad Cop" Liaison
  • 13:53 – The Moment the Reality Becomes Permanent
  • 17:44 – Why Paranoia is a Natural Response
  • 21:27 – The Existential Trip of Mid-Life Caregiving
  • 22:38 – Why Recovery and Dementia Clashed Perfectly
  • 33:52 – Choosing Laughter Over relapsing
  • 37:19 – The Final Lesson of the "Oxygen Mask"
  • 42:26 – Escaping a Grandma’s Love Confession
  • 48:01 – The Secret to Finding Your Future


]]> Wed, 29 Jan 2025 04:30:00 -0500 https://www.turtzed.com/podcast 52:33 Can laughing at the "impossible" actually save your sanity when a loved one starts to fade? Coping with dementia through humor isn't about being disrespectful; it’s a radical tool for survival when the person you’ve known your whole life begins to inhabit a reality you don't recognize. From accidental "affairs" with Hollywood actresses to the heartbreaking moment a parent forgets your name, the shift from child to caregiver happens overnight, demanding a level of emotional regulation that feels almost impossible to master.

In this episode, John Hill shares the raw and surprisingly funny journey of navigating his father's rapid cognitive decline. John Hill opens up about how his own journey through addiction recovery provided the "perfect timing" to show up for his family, the necessity of hiring professional "bad cops," and why leaning into a loved one's fantasy world is often the kindest thing you can do.


How to Use Humor as a Dementia Coping Mechanism 

Instead of correcting a loved one’s confusion, which often leads to frustration and disorientation, leaning into their reality with laughter can preserve the emotional connection. Finding the "funny" in the absurd moments—like a high-stakes catfish scam—allows families to process trauma without being completely consumed by it.

Why You Need Professional Help for Dementia Care 

Trying to manage 24/7 care alone is a recipe for failure and resentment. Hiring an objective third party, such as a case manager or specially trained hospice staff, provides a necessary "liaison" who can handle difficult medical or safety decisions while you focus on being a supportive family member.

The Link Between Personal Recovery and Caregiving 

Navigating a family health crisis requires the same "one day at a time" mentality used in addiction recovery. Practicing radical acceptance and emotional regulation allows caregivers to stay present and of service rather than escaping through self-pity or old, unhealthy habits.


Links & Networking

Disclaimer: The TURTZED Podcast reflects the opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. Content is for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare provider for advice tailored to your individual needs. For the full disclaimer, visit our website. 

  • 00:00 – The "Anne Hathaway" Delusion
  • 01:47 – When Money Starts Disappearing
  • 03:34 – The Sweetness of the Early Signs
  • 05:50 – The Race for an Official Diagnosis
  • 06:30 – The "Gatsby" Party in the Hospital
  • 08:15 – Becoming "Mitch": Living in a Stolen Identity
  • 09:49 – When the Parent-Child Script Flips
  • 11:00 – Hiring a "Bad Cop" Liaison
  • 13:53 – The Moment the Reality Becomes Permanent
  • 17:44 – Why Paranoia is a Natural Response
  • 21:27 – The Existential Trip of Mid-Life Caregiving
  • 22:38 – Why Recovery and Dementia Clashed Perfectly
  • 33:52 – Choosing Laughter Over relapsing
  • 37:19 – The Final Lesson of the "Oxygen Mask"
  • 42:26 – Escaping a Grandma’s Love Confession
  • 48:01 – The Secret to Finding Your Future


]]> Can laughing at the "impossible" actually save your sanity when a loved one starts to fade? Coping with dementia through humor isn't about being disrespectful; it’s a radical tool for survival when the person you’ve known your whole life begins to inhabit a reality you don't recognize. From accidental "affairs" with Hollywood actresses to the heartbreaking moment a parent forgets your name, the shift from child to caregiver happens overnight, demanding a level of emotional regulation that feels almost impossible to master.

In this episode, John Hill shares the raw and surprisingly funny journey of navigating his father's rapid cognitive decline. John Hill opens up about how his own journey through addiction recovery provided the "perfect timing" to show up for his family, the necessity of hiring professional "bad cops," and why leaning into a loved one's fantasy world is often the kindest thing you can do.


How to Use Humor as a Dementia Coping Mechanism 

Instead of correcting a loved one’s confusion, which often leads to frustration and disorientation, leaning into their reality with laughter can preserve the emotional connection. Finding the "funny" in the absurd moments—like a high-stakes catfish scam—allows families to process trauma without being completely consumed by it.

Why You Need Professional Help for Dementia Care 

Trying to manage 24/7 care alone is a recipe for failure and resentment. Hiring an objective third party, such as a case manager or specially trained hospice staff, provides a necessary "liaison" who can handle difficult medical or safety decisions while you focus on being a supportive family member.

The Link Between Personal Recovery and Caregiving 

Navigating a family health crisis requires the same "one day at a time" mentality used in addiction recovery. Practicing radical acceptance and emotional regulation allows caregivers to stay present and of service rather than escaping through self-pity or old, unhealthy habits.


Links & Networking

Disclaimer: The TURTZED Podcast reflects the opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. Content is for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare provider for advice tailored to your individual needs. For the full disclaimer, visit our website. 

  • 00:00 – The "Anne Hathaway" Delusion
  • 01:47 – When Money Starts Disappearing
  • 03:34 – The Sweetness of the Early Signs
  • 05:50 – The Race for an Official Diagnosis
  • 06:30 – The "Gatsby" Party in the Hospital
  • 08:15 – Becoming "Mitch": Living in a Stolen Identity
  • 09:49 – When the Parent-Child Script Flips
  • 11:00 – Hiring a "Bad Cop" Liaison
  • 13:53 – The Moment the Reality Becomes Permanent
  • 17:44 – Why Paranoia is a Natural Response
  • 21:27 – The Existential Trip of Mid-Life Caregiving
  • 22:38 – Why Recovery and Dementia Clashed Perfectly
  • 33:52 – Choosing Laughter Over relapsing
  • 37:19 – The Final Lesson of the "Oxygen Mask"
  • 42:26 – Escaping a Grandma’s Love Confession
  • 48:01 – The Secret to Finding Your Future


]]> true full 30 <![CDATA[Ricky Liorti: How to Heal from Heartbreak through Journaling | Ep. 29]]> How do you survive when every pillar of your life begins to crumble at once?. Most of us are taught to "tough it out," but true strength is found in the willingness to be seen—crying on a bathroom floor—and then choosing to write your way back to life.

In this episode, Ricky Liorti joins us to share how he channeled devastating emotional pain into his book, Heartbreak Love. From resisting his therapist's advice to journaling for over a decade, Ricky discusses the radical transformation that occurs when you stop "bottling things up" and start prioritizing self-love. You’ll learn how to navigate the "dating game" without losing your sense of self and why your "enoughness" is never tied to someone else's inability to see it.


How to Heal from Heartbreak through Journaling

Journaling isn't about writing a "Dear Diary" entry; it's about jotting down raw emotions and themes that help you identify what truly matters. By committing to writing regularly, you can channel pain into poetry or purpose, eventually helping others navigate their own grief.

Why Therapy is Life-Changing for Men

Breaking the "too manly for therapy" stigma is essential for emotional health. Successful people use therapy or coaching for routine "alignment checkups," ensuring their mental "pillars" are stable before a crisis occurs.

The Strategy for a "Last First Date"

To find a real connection, stop settling for "coffee dates" and show up as your most authentic, high-energy self. Setting a high bar for the first experience helps weed out those who aren't a match and creates a space for a 1% soulmate connection.


Links & Networking

Disclaimer: The TURTZED Podcast reflects the opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. Content is for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare provider for advice tailored to your individual needs. For the full disclaimer, visit our website. 


  • 00:00 – The "One Take" goal and recording in New York
  • 02:24 – Why journaling isn't just for "Dear Diary" moments
  • 03:51 – The devastating heartbreak that sparked a poetry book
  • 05:28 – The universal struggle of finding "your person"
  • 06:44 – Why "manly" men are often the most hesitant to seek help
  • 08:32 – The "Pillar Theory" of life and what happens when they collapse
  • 10:50 – The awkward reality of your very first therapy session
  • 13:02 – Why you might need to "date" your therapist to find a match
  • 15:48 – Perfectionism vs. being the best version of yourself
  • 18:22 – The word that defines Ricky’s life: Perseverance
  • 20:30 – Why "Nobody F*cking Cares" is the most liberating advice
  • 23:36 – Trusting your track record over your worries
  • 27:32 – The airplane oxygen mask rule for self-love
  • 31:18 – Turning 100 miles an hour into a life mission
  • 37:34 – Why Ricky refuses to go on "coffee dates"
  • 41:38 – The "1% Risk": Why you should never settle for a partner
]]> Wed, 15 Jan 2025 04:30:00 -0500 https://www.turtzed.com/podcast 46:35 How do you survive when every pillar of your life begins to crumble at once?. Most of us are taught to "tough it out," but true strength is found in the willingness to be seen—crying on a bathroom floor—and then choosing to write your way back to life.

In this episode, Ricky Liorti joins us to share how he channeled devastating emotional pain into his book, Heartbreak Love. From resisting his therapist's advice to journaling for over a decade, Ricky discusses the radical transformation that occurs when you stop "bottling things up" and start prioritizing self-love. You’ll learn how to navigate the "dating game" without losing your sense of self and why your "enoughness" is never tied to someone else's inability to see it.


How to Heal from Heartbreak through Journaling

Journaling isn't about writing a "Dear Diary" entry; it's about jotting down raw emotions and themes that help you identify what truly matters. By committing to writing regularly, you can channel pain into poetry or purpose, eventually helping others navigate their own grief.

Why Therapy is Life-Changing for Men

Breaking the "too manly for therapy" stigma is essential for emotional health. Successful people use therapy or coaching for routine "alignment checkups," ensuring their mental "pillars" are stable before a crisis occurs.

The Strategy for a "Last First Date"

To find a real connection, stop settling for "coffee dates" and show up as your most authentic, high-energy self. Setting a high bar for the first experience helps weed out those who aren't a match and creates a space for a 1% soulmate connection.


Links & Networking

Disclaimer: The TURTZED Podcast reflects the opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. Content is for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare provider for advice tailored to your individual needs. For the full disclaimer, visit our website. 


  • 00:00 – The "One Take" goal and recording in New York
  • 02:24 – Why journaling isn't just for "Dear Diary" moments
  • 03:51 – The devastating heartbreak that sparked a poetry book
  • 05:28 – The universal struggle of finding "your person"
  • 06:44 – Why "manly" men are often the most hesitant to seek help
  • 08:32 – The "Pillar Theory" of life and what happens when they collapse
  • 10:50 – The awkward reality of your very first therapy session
  • 13:02 – Why you might need to "date" your therapist to find a match
  • 15:48 – Perfectionism vs. being the best version of yourself
  • 18:22 – The word that defines Ricky’s life: Perseverance
  • 20:30 – Why "Nobody F*cking Cares" is the most liberating advice
  • 23:36 – Trusting your track record over your worries
  • 27:32 – The airplane oxygen mask rule for self-love
  • 31:18 – Turning 100 miles an hour into a life mission
  • 37:34 – Why Ricky refuses to go on "coffee dates"
  • 41:38 – The "1% Risk": Why you should never settle for a partner
]]> How do you survive when every pillar of your life begins to crumble at once?. Most of us are taught to "tough it out," but true strength is found in the willingness to be seen—crying on a bathroom floor—and then choosing to write your way back to life.

In this episode, Ricky Liorti joins us to share how he channeled devastating emotional pain into his book, Heartbreak Love. From resisting his therapist's advice to journaling for over a decade, Ricky discusses the radical transformation that occurs when you stop "bottling things up" and start prioritizing self-love. You’ll learn how to navigate the "dating game" without losing your sense of self and why your "enoughness" is never tied to someone else's inability to see it.


How to Heal from Heartbreak through Journaling

Journaling isn't about writing a "Dear Diary" entry; it's about jotting down raw emotions and themes that help you identify what truly matters. By committing to writing regularly, you can channel pain into poetry or purpose, eventually helping others navigate their own grief.

Why Therapy is Life-Changing for Men

Breaking the "too manly for therapy" stigma is essential for emotional health. Successful people use therapy or coaching for routine "alignment checkups," ensuring their mental "pillars" are stable before a crisis occurs.

The Strategy for a "Last First Date"

To find a real connection, stop settling for "coffee dates" and show up as your most authentic, high-energy self. Setting a high bar for the first experience helps weed out those who aren't a match and creates a space for a 1% soulmate connection.


Links & Networking

Disclaimer: The TURTZED Podcast reflects the opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. Content is for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare provider for advice tailored to your individual needs. For the full disclaimer, visit our website. 


  • 00:00 – The "One Take" goal and recording in New York
  • 02:24 – Why journaling isn't just for "Dear Diary" moments
  • 03:51 – The devastating heartbreak that sparked a poetry book
  • 05:28 – The universal struggle of finding "your person"
  • 06:44 – Why "manly" men are often the most hesitant to seek help
  • 08:32 – The "Pillar Theory" of life and what happens when they collapse
  • 10:50 – The awkward reality of your very first therapy session
  • 13:02 – Why you might need to "date" your therapist to find a match
  • 15:48 – Perfectionism vs. being the best version of yourself
  • 18:22 – The word that defines Ricky’s life: Perseverance
  • 20:30 – Why "Nobody F*cking Cares" is the most liberating advice
  • 23:36 – Trusting your track record over your worries
  • 27:32 – The airplane oxygen mask rule for self-love
  • 31:18 – Turning 100 miles an hour into a life mission
  • 37:34 – Why Ricky refuses to go on "coffee dates"
  • 41:38 – The "1% Risk": Why you should never settle for a partner
]]> true full 29 <![CDATA[Authentic Self-Discovery After Trauma | Ep. 28]]> What happens when the picture-perfect life you’ve painted in your head finally shatters, leaving you face-down on a shower floor? For many of us, the hardest part of the journey isn’t the trauma itself, but the agonizing process of unlearning the "clone" we created just to stay safe.

In this raw, foundational episode, Charles Turtz strips away the scripted versions of his story to reveal the gritty reality of surviving narcissistic abuse and the heavy weight of being "the other one". From the high-stakes world of corporate sales to the vulnerability of a legal name change, Charles Turtz illustrates the exact moment business success stops being enough to fill a personal void.


How to Break the Cycle of Inauthenticity

Living as a version of yourself that others find "acceptable" is a slow-motion trauma that silences your true voice. True alignment only begins when you stop treating your authenticity like a transaction and start owning your flaws and "fuck ups" as part of your power.

Identifying the "Shadow" of Parental Expectations

Many children of narcissistic parents become experts at reading tone and body language to avoid "misfired" emotions. Recognizing that these survival instincts were gifts for your past—but may be anchors for your future—is the first step toward autonomy.

Reclaiming Identity Through Radical Change

A name is more than just letters; it is a representation of the lineage you choose to carry or the shadow you choose to leave behind. Taking control of your own identity, even through something as complicated as a legal name change, can be the most empowering "mile marker" on the road to self-love.


Links & Networking

Disclaimer: The TURTZED Podcast reflects the opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. Content is for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare provider for advice tailored to your individual needs. For the full disclaimer, visit our website.


  • 00:00 – The "Perfection" Trap: Why the first script had to go
  • 02:49 – The Shower Floor: A 2021 turnaround moment
  • 06:00 – Psychological Thrillers: When family isn't a fairy tale
  • 12:00 – The "Business Charlie" Addiction: Using work to hide
  • 15:10 – Defining Trauma: Why your pain is valid
  • 19:52 – Redefining Valentine's Day: A 70-year love story with yourself
  • 24:42 – The Birthday Blunder: When your "real job" isn't enough
  • 29:31 – The Name Change: Stepping out of the shadow
  • 34:21 – The Father's Fury: Choosing happiness over approval
  • 40:20 – "The Other One": Living in a sibling's athletic shadow
  • 45:07 – The High School Hallway: The cost of being different
  • 54:38 – The Emperor's New Clothes: Calling out the family dysfunction
  • 01:04:18 – The Lucid Dream: A life-or-death message
  • 01:09:02 – The "Business Press Release" Coming Out Email
  • 01:13:24 – The 7:00 AM Call: A mother's secret fear
  • 01:18:09 – The Street Corner: Fighting for control of the mind


]]> Wed, 18 Dec 2024 17:36:00 -0500 https://www.turtzed.com/podcast 1:22:08 What happens when the picture-perfect life you’ve painted in your head finally shatters, leaving you face-down on a shower floor? For many of us, the hardest part of the journey isn’t the trauma itself, but the agonizing process of unlearning the "clone" we created just to stay safe.

In this raw, foundational episode, Charles Turtz strips away the scripted versions of his story to reveal the gritty reality of surviving narcissistic abuse and the heavy weight of being "the other one". From the high-stakes world of corporate sales to the vulnerability of a legal name change, Charles Turtz illustrates the exact moment business success stops being enough to fill a personal void.


How to Break the Cycle of Inauthenticity

Living as a version of yourself that others find "acceptable" is a slow-motion trauma that silences your true voice. True alignment only begins when you stop treating your authenticity like a transaction and start owning your flaws and "fuck ups" as part of your power.

Identifying the "Shadow" of Parental Expectations

Many children of narcissistic parents become experts at reading tone and body language to avoid "misfired" emotions. Recognizing that these survival instincts were gifts for your past—but may be anchors for your future—is the first step toward autonomy.

Reclaiming Identity Through Radical Change

A name is more than just letters; it is a representation of the lineage you choose to carry or the shadow you choose to leave behind. Taking control of your own identity, even through something as complicated as a legal name change, can be the most empowering "mile marker" on the road to self-love.


Links & Networking

Disclaimer: The TURTZED Podcast reflects the opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. Content is for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare provider for advice tailored to your individual needs. For the full disclaimer, visit our website.


  • 00:00 – The "Perfection" Trap: Why the first script had to go
  • 02:49 – The Shower Floor: A 2021 turnaround moment
  • 06:00 – Psychological Thrillers: When family isn't a fairy tale
  • 12:00 – The "Business Charlie" Addiction: Using work to hide
  • 15:10 – Defining Trauma: Why your pain is valid
  • 19:52 – Redefining Valentine's Day: A 70-year love story with yourself
  • 24:42 – The Birthday Blunder: When your "real job" isn't enough
  • 29:31 – The Name Change: Stepping out of the shadow
  • 34:21 – The Father's Fury: Choosing happiness over approval
  • 40:20 – "The Other One": Living in a sibling's athletic shadow
  • 45:07 – The High School Hallway: The cost of being different
  • 54:38 – The Emperor's New Clothes: Calling out the family dysfunction
  • 01:04:18 – The Lucid Dream: A life-or-death message
  • 01:09:02 – The "Business Press Release" Coming Out Email
  • 01:13:24 – The 7:00 AM Call: A mother's secret fear
  • 01:18:09 – The Street Corner: Fighting for control of the mind


]]> What happens when the picture-perfect life you’ve painted in your head finally shatters, leaving you face-down on a shower floor? For many of us, the hardest part of the journey isn’t the trauma itself, but the agonizing process of unlearning the "clone" we created just to stay safe.

In this raw, foundational episode, Charles Turtz strips away the scripted versions of his story to reveal the gritty reality of surviving narcissistic abuse and the heavy weight of being "the other one". From the high-stakes world of corporate sales to the vulnerability of a legal name change, Charles Turtz illustrates the exact moment business success stops being enough to fill a personal void.


How to Break the Cycle of Inauthenticity

Living as a version of yourself that others find "acceptable" is a slow-motion trauma that silences your true voice. True alignment only begins when you stop treating your authenticity like a transaction and start owning your flaws and "fuck ups" as part of your power.

Identifying the "Shadow" of Parental Expectations

Many children of narcissistic parents become experts at reading tone and body language to avoid "misfired" emotions. Recognizing that these survival instincts were gifts for your past—but may be anchors for your future—is the first step toward autonomy.

Reclaiming Identity Through Radical Change

A name is more than just letters; it is a representation of the lineage you choose to carry or the shadow you choose to leave behind. Taking control of your own identity, even through something as complicated as a legal name change, can be the most empowering "mile marker" on the road to self-love.


Links & Networking

Disclaimer: The TURTZED Podcast reflects the opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. Content is for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare provider for advice tailored to your individual needs. For the full disclaimer, visit our website.


  • 00:00 – The "Perfection" Trap: Why the first script had to go
  • 02:49 – The Shower Floor: A 2021 turnaround moment
  • 06:00 – Psychological Thrillers: When family isn't a fairy tale
  • 12:00 – The "Business Charlie" Addiction: Using work to hide
  • 15:10 – Defining Trauma: Why your pain is valid
  • 19:52 – Redefining Valentine's Day: A 70-year love story with yourself
  • 24:42 – The Birthday Blunder: When your "real job" isn't enough
  • 29:31 – The Name Change: Stepping out of the shadow
  • 34:21 – The Father's Fury: Choosing happiness over approval
  • 40:20 – "The Other One": Living in a sibling's athletic shadow
  • 45:07 – The High School Hallway: The cost of being different
  • 54:38 – The Emperor's New Clothes: Calling out the family dysfunction
  • 01:04:18 – The Lucid Dream: A life-or-death message
  • 01:09:02 – The "Business Press Release" Coming Out Email
  • 01:13:24 – The 7:00 AM Call: A mother's secret fear
  • 01:18:09 – The Street Corner: Fighting for control of the mind


]]> true full 28 <![CDATA[Nia Renee: Healing From Narcissistic Abuse & Learning to Trust Again | Ep. 27]]> How do you learn to trust your own body when it has been conditioned to survive in a war zone? When you are drowning in gaslighting and "flying monkeys," the hardest person to find isn't a new partner—it’s yourself.

In this powerful episode, Nia Renee, founder of How to Love a Battered Woman, shares her raw journey through narcissistic abuse and the grueling work of recovery. From surviving six brain surgeries to unpacking the "mother wound" through EMDR, Nia provides a masterclass in shifting from a people-pleasing survivor to the intentional "prize" of her own life.


How to Identify Narcissistic Abuse Patterns

Nia discusses how abusers move the goalposts to keep victims in a state of constant inadequacy and how to recognize when a partner is using your past trauma against you.

How to Use Intentional Dating to Build Healthy Relationships

Learn the "Intentional Dating" framework, which involves setting non-negotiable deal breakers—like violent communication—and trusting your physical "aura" when meeting someone new.

How to Reprogram Your Brain After Trauma

Nia explains the power of "The Battered Heart Commandments" and using repetitive affirmations to force the brain to believe in its own worthiness of safety and love. 


Links & Networking

Disclaimer: The TURTZED Podcast reflects the opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. Content is for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare provider for advice tailored to your individual needs. For the full disclaimer, visit our website.

  • 00:00 – The Heavy Reality of Narcissistic Abuse
  • 02:44 – The Moment I Realized I Was Teaching My Abuser How to Love Me
  • 04:30 – Why Lived Experience is the Ultimate Teacher
  • 07:13 – How Journaling Can Literally Save Your Life
  • 08:30 – The Power of Having a "Business Partner" for Your Heart
  • 10:45 – Why Abusers Constantly Move the Goalposts
  • 14:27 – Reprocessing the Past with EMDR Therapy
  • 17:00 – The Truth About Dating After Brain Surgery
  • 20:30 – Why I Went on a Six-Month "Sex Cleanse"
  • 23:28 – The Secret to Finding the Love You Genuinely Deserve
  • 28:10 – Coaching vs. Therapy: Which One Do You Need?
  • 35:12 – The Dangerous Myth of "Hurt People Hurt People"
  • 38:20 – Fight, Flight, Freeze, or Fawn: Which is Your Response?
  • 44:24 – Why You Must Trust Your Aura Over Their Words
  • 48:20 – The "Bob the Builder" Trap in Toxic Relationships
  • 53:05 – Realizing You Are the Light at the End of the Tunnel


]]> Wed, 11 Dec 2024 04:30:00 -0500 https://www.turtzed.com/podcast 1:04:34 How do you learn to trust your own body when it has been conditioned to survive in a war zone? When you are drowning in gaslighting and "flying monkeys," the hardest person to find isn't a new partner—it’s yourself.

In this powerful episode, Nia Renee, founder of How to Love a Battered Woman, shares her raw journey through narcissistic abuse and the grueling work of recovery. From surviving six brain surgeries to unpacking the "mother wound" through EMDR, Nia provides a masterclass in shifting from a people-pleasing survivor to the intentional "prize" of her own life.


How to Identify Narcissistic Abuse Patterns

Nia discusses how abusers move the goalposts to keep victims in a state of constant inadequacy and how to recognize when a partner is using your past trauma against you.

How to Use Intentional Dating to Build Healthy Relationships

Learn the "Intentional Dating" framework, which involves setting non-negotiable deal breakers—like violent communication—and trusting your physical "aura" when meeting someone new.

How to Reprogram Your Brain After Trauma

Nia explains the power of "The Battered Heart Commandments" and using repetitive affirmations to force the brain to believe in its own worthiness of safety and love. 


Links & Networking

Disclaimer: The TURTZED Podcast reflects the opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. Content is for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare provider for advice tailored to your individual needs. For the full disclaimer, visit our website.

  • 00:00 – The Heavy Reality of Narcissistic Abuse
  • 02:44 – The Moment I Realized I Was Teaching My Abuser How to Love Me
  • 04:30 – Why Lived Experience is the Ultimate Teacher
  • 07:13 – How Journaling Can Literally Save Your Life
  • 08:30 – The Power of Having a "Business Partner" for Your Heart
  • 10:45 – Why Abusers Constantly Move the Goalposts
  • 14:27 – Reprocessing the Past with EMDR Therapy
  • 17:00 – The Truth About Dating After Brain Surgery
  • 20:30 – Why I Went on a Six-Month "Sex Cleanse"
  • 23:28 – The Secret to Finding the Love You Genuinely Deserve
  • 28:10 – Coaching vs. Therapy: Which One Do You Need?
  • 35:12 – The Dangerous Myth of "Hurt People Hurt People"
  • 38:20 – Fight, Flight, Freeze, or Fawn: Which is Your Response?
  • 44:24 – Why You Must Trust Your Aura Over Their Words
  • 48:20 – The "Bob the Builder" Trap in Toxic Relationships
  • 53:05 – Realizing You Are the Light at the End of the Tunnel


]]> How do you learn to trust your own body when it has been conditioned to survive in a war zone? When you are drowning in gaslighting and "flying monkeys," the hardest person to find isn't a new partner—it’s yourself.

In this powerful episode, Nia Renee, founder of How to Love a Battered Woman, shares her raw journey through narcissistic abuse and the grueling work of recovery. From surviving six brain surgeries to unpacking the "mother wound" through EMDR, Nia provides a masterclass in shifting from a people-pleasing survivor to the intentional "prize" of her own life.


How to Identify Narcissistic Abuse Patterns

Nia discusses how abusers move the goalposts to keep victims in a state of constant inadequacy and how to recognize when a partner is using your past trauma against you.

How to Use Intentional Dating to Build Healthy Relationships

Learn the "Intentional Dating" framework, which involves setting non-negotiable deal breakers—like violent communication—and trusting your physical "aura" when meeting someone new.

How to Reprogram Your Brain After Trauma

Nia explains the power of "The Battered Heart Commandments" and using repetitive affirmations to force the brain to believe in its own worthiness of safety and love. 


Links & Networking

Disclaimer: The TURTZED Podcast reflects the opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. Content is for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare provider for advice tailored to your individual needs. For the full disclaimer, visit our website.

  • 00:00 – The Heavy Reality of Narcissistic Abuse
  • 02:44 – The Moment I Realized I Was Teaching My Abuser How to Love Me
  • 04:30 – Why Lived Experience is the Ultimate Teacher
  • 07:13 – How Journaling Can Literally Save Your Life
  • 08:30 – The Power of Having a "Business Partner" for Your Heart
  • 10:45 – Why Abusers Constantly Move the Goalposts
  • 14:27 – Reprocessing the Past with EMDR Therapy
  • 17:00 – The Truth About Dating After Brain Surgery
  • 20:30 – Why I Went on a Six-Month "Sex Cleanse"
  • 23:28 – The Secret to Finding the Love You Genuinely Deserve
  • 28:10 – Coaching vs. Therapy: Which One Do You Need?
  • 35:12 – The Dangerous Myth of "Hurt People Hurt People"
  • 38:20 – Fight, Flight, Freeze, or Fawn: Which is Your Response?
  • 44:24 – Why You Must Trust Your Aura Over Their Words
  • 48:20 – The "Bob the Builder" Trap in Toxic Relationships
  • 53:05 – Realizing You Are the Light at the End of the Tunnel


]]> true full 27 <![CDATA[Taylor McGrath: Surrogacy Journey & Overcoming Online Hate | Ep. 26]]> Is the dream of becoming a father possible when the world tells you it isn't? For many men in the LGBTQ+ community, the surrogacy journey for fathers feels like an impossible mountain of legal hurdles, emotional "gut punches," and financial stress. But as we discover today, the path to parenthood is as much about healing your own inner child as it is about bringing a new one into the world.

In this raw and deeply moving episode, Taylor McGrath shares his transformation from a young boy struggling with dyslexia and low self-worth to a man confidently awaiting the birth of his son. Taylor pulls back the curtain on the grueling "matchmaking" process of surrogacy, the terrifying moment their only embryo was at risk, and the viral "ice cream sundae" story that redefined his understanding of unconditional love.

How Does the Surrogacy Process Actually Work?

The journey is a marathon involving egg donor selection, fertilization via ICSI, PGT-A chromosomal testing, and a complex matchmaking process with a surrogate. Taylor explains the reality of "dating" potential surrogates over Zoom and the intensive medical and psychiatric vetting required for all parties involved.

Managing Medical Scares During IVF and Surrogacy

Pregnancy via surrogacy comes with unique anxieties, such as subchorionic hematomas which can cause terrifying bleeding episodes. Taylor discusses navigating these "ups and downs" through faith and the strength of a partnership, emphasizing the importance of staying resilient when things don't go according to plan.

Healing Childhood Trauma Through Partnership

A partner's radical empathy can "rename" traumatic memories, such as Taylor’s experience with childhood dyslexia and a sense of unworthiness. By recreating a painful childhood event—the ice cream sundae party—his husband provided a new memory of empowerment and worthiness.


Links & Networking

Disclaimer: The TURTZED Podcast reflects the opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. Content is for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare provider for advice tailored to your individual needs. For the full disclaimer, visit our website.


  • 00:01 – The weight of the topics we touch on
  • 00:58 – Why Taylor chose vulnerability over silence on TikTok
  • 02:25 – The "therapeutic" way Taylor handles internet hate
  • 04:20 – The first date conversation that changed everything
  • 05:13 – A mysterious Hinge message from a familiar artist
  • 06:50 – The beach moment where the "mask" stayed off
  • 07:45 – Breaking free from a past of manipulation and lies
  • 10:23 – How TikTok restored Taylor’s faith in humanity
  • 13:00 – The "gut punch" of the single embryo email
  • 14:45 – The awkward "first date" with a potential surrogate
  • 17:23 – The moment everything they hoped for became real
  • 19:26 – A terrifying 3 a.m. call and an emergency room scare
  • 23:55 – Preparing for a cross-border birth in Canada
  • 28:49 – The ice cream sundae story that will break your heart
  • 31:36 – A wedding night surprise that renamed a childhood trauma
  • 38:25 – The five-word advice that ensures you will prosper
  • 40:36 – What Taylor would say to his 14-year-old self
]]> Wed, 04 Dec 2024 08:42:00 -0500 https://www.turtzed.com/podcast 44:32 Is the dream of becoming a father possible when the world tells you it isn't? For many men in the LGBTQ+ community, the surrogacy journey for fathers feels like an impossible mountain of legal hurdles, emotional "gut punches," and financial stress. But as we discover today, the path to parenthood is as much about healing your own inner child as it is about bringing a new one into the world.

In this raw and deeply moving episode, Taylor McGrath shares his transformation from a young boy struggling with dyslexia and low self-worth to a man confidently awaiting the birth of his son. Taylor pulls back the curtain on the grueling "matchmaking" process of surrogacy, the terrifying moment their only embryo was at risk, and the viral "ice cream sundae" story that redefined his understanding of unconditional love.

How Does the Surrogacy Process Actually Work?

The journey is a marathon involving egg donor selection, fertilization via ICSI, PGT-A chromosomal testing, and a complex matchmaking process with a surrogate. Taylor explains the reality of "dating" potential surrogates over Zoom and the intensive medical and psychiatric vetting required for all parties involved.

Managing Medical Scares During IVF and Surrogacy

Pregnancy via surrogacy comes with unique anxieties, such as subchorionic hematomas which can cause terrifying bleeding episodes. Taylor discusses navigating these "ups and downs" through faith and the strength of a partnership, emphasizing the importance of staying resilient when things don't go according to plan.

Healing Childhood Trauma Through Partnership

A partner's radical empathy can "rename" traumatic memories, such as Taylor’s experience with childhood dyslexia and a sense of unworthiness. By recreating a painful childhood event—the ice cream sundae party—his husband provided a new memory of empowerment and worthiness.


Links & Networking

Disclaimer: The TURTZED Podcast reflects the opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. Content is for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare provider for advice tailored to your individual needs. For the full disclaimer, visit our website.


  • 00:01 – The weight of the topics we touch on
  • 00:58 – Why Taylor chose vulnerability over silence on TikTok
  • 02:25 – The "therapeutic" way Taylor handles internet hate
  • 04:20 – The first date conversation that changed everything
  • 05:13 – A mysterious Hinge message from a familiar artist
  • 06:50 – The beach moment where the "mask" stayed off
  • 07:45 – Breaking free from a past of manipulation and lies
  • 10:23 – How TikTok restored Taylor’s faith in humanity
  • 13:00 – The "gut punch" of the single embryo email
  • 14:45 – The awkward "first date" with a potential surrogate
  • 17:23 – The moment everything they hoped for became real
  • 19:26 – A terrifying 3 a.m. call and an emergency room scare
  • 23:55 – Preparing for a cross-border birth in Canada
  • 28:49 – The ice cream sundae story that will break your heart
  • 31:36 – A wedding night surprise that renamed a childhood trauma
  • 38:25 – The five-word advice that ensures you will prosper
  • 40:36 – What Taylor would say to his 14-year-old self
]]> Is the dream of becoming a father possible when the world tells you it isn't? For many men in the LGBTQ+ community, the surrogacy journey for fathers feels like an impossible mountain of legal hurdles, emotional "gut punches," and financial stress. But as we discover today, the path to parenthood is as much about healing your own inner child as it is about bringing a new one into the world.

In this raw and deeply moving episode, Taylor McGrath shares his transformation from a young boy struggling with dyslexia and low self-worth to a man confidently awaiting the birth of his son. Taylor pulls back the curtain on the grueling "matchmaking" process of surrogacy, the terrifying moment their only embryo was at risk, and the viral "ice cream sundae" story that redefined his understanding of unconditional love.

How Does the Surrogacy Process Actually Work?

The journey is a marathon involving egg donor selection, fertilization via ICSI, PGT-A chromosomal testing, and a complex matchmaking process with a surrogate. Taylor explains the reality of "dating" potential surrogates over Zoom and the intensive medical and psychiatric vetting required for all parties involved.

Managing Medical Scares During IVF and Surrogacy

Pregnancy via surrogacy comes with unique anxieties, such as subchorionic hematomas which can cause terrifying bleeding episodes. Taylor discusses navigating these "ups and downs" through faith and the strength of a partnership, emphasizing the importance of staying resilient when things don't go according to plan.

Healing Childhood Trauma Through Partnership

A partner's radical empathy can "rename" traumatic memories, such as Taylor’s experience with childhood dyslexia and a sense of unworthiness. By recreating a painful childhood event—the ice cream sundae party—his husband provided a new memory of empowerment and worthiness.


Links & Networking

Disclaimer: The TURTZED Podcast reflects the opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. Content is for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare provider for advice tailored to your individual needs. For the full disclaimer, visit our website.


  • 00:01 – The weight of the topics we touch on
  • 00:58 – Why Taylor chose vulnerability over silence on TikTok
  • 02:25 – The "therapeutic" way Taylor handles internet hate
  • 04:20 – The first date conversation that changed everything
  • 05:13 – A mysterious Hinge message from a familiar artist
  • 06:50 – The beach moment where the "mask" stayed off
  • 07:45 – Breaking free from a past of manipulation and lies
  • 10:23 – How TikTok restored Taylor’s faith in humanity
  • 13:00 – The "gut punch" of the single embryo email
  • 14:45 – The awkward "first date" with a potential surrogate
  • 17:23 – The moment everything they hoped for became real
  • 19:26 – A terrifying 3 a.m. call and an emergency room scare
  • 23:55 – Preparing for a cross-border birth in Canada
  • 28:49 – The ice cream sundae story that will break your heart
  • 31:36 – A wedding night surprise that renamed a childhood trauma
  • 38:25 – The five-word advice that ensures you will prosper
  • 40:36 – What Taylor would say to his 14-year-old self
]]> true full 26 <![CDATA[Overcoming Childhood Trauma & Finding Self-Worth | Ep. 25]]> How do you stop the "inner monologue" of childhood trauma from sabotaging your adult success? Many of us spend years chasing professional milestones just to feel a sense of worthiness, only to find that the higher we climb, the deeper our personal struggles become. To truly move forward, we must learn to separate our identity from our achievements and address the emotional ingredients that shaped our story.

In this special "tables turned" episode, Charles Turtz sits down with former guest Mari to dive deep into his own journey of recovery. From the freedom found on the ski slopes to the life-changing mirror of group therapy, Charles Turtz shares how he navigated domestic abuse and trauma while building a career. Listeners will discover how to follow their emotions over their to-do lists and the specific tools needed to reduce the impact of past pain on their present life.

How to Heal from Childhood Trauma in Group Therapy

Group therapy provides a unique dynamic where helping others actually helps you confront your own suppressed emotions. It forces a shift away from "problem-solving" for others and back toward identifying your own feelings of anger, sadness, or numbness.

Why Self-Worth Should Not Depend on Career Success

Basing your value on business achievements creates a fragile identity that shatters the moment you encounter a professional setback. True confidence comes from recognizing your worth as an individual, separate from the metrics of your job or the growth of your company.

How to Manage Emotional Overwhelm as an Entrepreneur

When the path forward feels unclear, it is more effective to "unpack the emotion" than to force a productivity list. Trusting your gut and ensuring your emotional state is positive allows for greater freedom and clearer decision-making than pushing through burnout.


Links & Networking

Disclaimer: The TURTZED Podcast reflects the opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. Content is for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare provider for advice tailored to your individual needs. For the full disclaimer, visit our website.

  • 00:00 – The "Ideal Guest" mindset you aren't expecting
  • 00:30 – Why the mountain was the only place to feel free
  • 01:20 – The duality of the ski slopes and the beach
  • 02:05 – Creating a space for the "non-competitive" expert
  • 02:40 – The 10-year delay in listening to your gut
  • 03:15 – Why it's easier to fix others than yourself
  • 04:00 – The "No Concept" phase of emotional healing
  • 05:05 – The universal "inner monologue" of trauma survivors
  • 06:10 – What happens when society tells you what to want
  • 07:45 – Why "I'm sorry" is a learning tool for hosts
  • 08:30 – The "To-Do List" trap that compounds distress
  • 09:40 – When professional milestones make personal struggles deeper
  • 10:45 – The day your worth stops being a business metric
  • 12:00 – Why a trauma is just one "ingredient" in your life
  • 13:30 – The "Exponential Curve" of trauma recovery
]]> Wed, 13 Nov 2024 04:30:00 -0500 https://www.turtzed.com/podcast 14:55 How do you stop the "inner monologue" of childhood trauma from sabotaging your adult success? Many of us spend years chasing professional milestones just to feel a sense of worthiness, only to find that the higher we climb, the deeper our personal struggles become. To truly move forward, we must learn to separate our identity from our achievements and address the emotional ingredients that shaped our story.

In this special "tables turned" episode, Charles Turtz sits down with former guest Mari to dive deep into his own journey of recovery. From the freedom found on the ski slopes to the life-changing mirror of group therapy, Charles Turtz shares how he navigated domestic abuse and trauma while building a career. Listeners will discover how to follow their emotions over their to-do lists and the specific tools needed to reduce the impact of past pain on their present life.

How to Heal from Childhood Trauma in Group Therapy

Group therapy provides a unique dynamic where helping others actually helps you confront your own suppressed emotions. It forces a shift away from "problem-solving" for others and back toward identifying your own feelings of anger, sadness, or numbness.

Why Self-Worth Should Not Depend on Career Success

Basing your value on business achievements creates a fragile identity that shatters the moment you encounter a professional setback. True confidence comes from recognizing your worth as an individual, separate from the metrics of your job or the growth of your company.

How to Manage Emotional Overwhelm as an Entrepreneur

When the path forward feels unclear, it is more effective to "unpack the emotion" than to force a productivity list. Trusting your gut and ensuring your emotional state is positive allows for greater freedom and clearer decision-making than pushing through burnout.


Links & Networking

Disclaimer: The TURTZED Podcast reflects the opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. Content is for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare provider for advice tailored to your individual needs. For the full disclaimer, visit our website.

  • 00:00 – The "Ideal Guest" mindset you aren't expecting
  • 00:30 – Why the mountain was the only place to feel free
  • 01:20 – The duality of the ski slopes and the beach
  • 02:05 – Creating a space for the "non-competitive" expert
  • 02:40 – The 10-year delay in listening to your gut
  • 03:15 – Why it's easier to fix others than yourself
  • 04:00 – The "No Concept" phase of emotional healing
  • 05:05 – The universal "inner monologue" of trauma survivors
  • 06:10 – What happens when society tells you what to want
  • 07:45 – Why "I'm sorry" is a learning tool for hosts
  • 08:30 – The "To-Do List" trap that compounds distress
  • 09:40 – When professional milestones make personal struggles deeper
  • 10:45 – The day your worth stops being a business metric
  • 12:00 – Why a trauma is just one "ingredient" in your life
  • 13:30 – The "Exponential Curve" of trauma recovery
]]> How do you stop the "inner monologue" of childhood trauma from sabotaging your adult success? Many of us spend years chasing professional milestones just to feel a sense of worthiness, only to find that the higher we climb, the deeper our personal struggles become. To truly move forward, we must learn to separate our identity from our achievements and address the emotional ingredients that shaped our story.

In this special "tables turned" episode, Charles Turtz sits down with former guest Mari to dive deep into his own journey of recovery. From the freedom found on the ski slopes to the life-changing mirror of group therapy, Charles Turtz shares how he navigated domestic abuse and trauma while building a career. Listeners will discover how to follow their emotions over their to-do lists and the specific tools needed to reduce the impact of past pain on their present life.

How to Heal from Childhood Trauma in Group Therapy

Group therapy provides a unique dynamic where helping others actually helps you confront your own suppressed emotions. It forces a shift away from "problem-solving" for others and back toward identifying your own feelings of anger, sadness, or numbness.

Why Self-Worth Should Not Depend on Career Success

Basing your value on business achievements creates a fragile identity that shatters the moment you encounter a professional setback. True confidence comes from recognizing your worth as an individual, separate from the metrics of your job or the growth of your company.

How to Manage Emotional Overwhelm as an Entrepreneur

When the path forward feels unclear, it is more effective to "unpack the emotion" than to force a productivity list. Trusting your gut and ensuring your emotional state is positive allows for greater freedom and clearer decision-making than pushing through burnout.


Links & Networking

Disclaimer: The TURTZED Podcast reflects the opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. Content is for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare provider for advice tailored to your individual needs. For the full disclaimer, visit our website.

  • 00:00 – The "Ideal Guest" mindset you aren't expecting
  • 00:30 – Why the mountain was the only place to feel free
  • 01:20 – The duality of the ski slopes and the beach
  • 02:05 – Creating a space for the "non-competitive" expert
  • 02:40 – The 10-year delay in listening to your gut
  • 03:15 – Why it's easier to fix others than yourself
  • 04:00 – The "No Concept" phase of emotional healing
  • 05:05 – The universal "inner monologue" of trauma survivors
  • 06:10 – What happens when society tells you what to want
  • 07:45 – Why "I'm sorry" is a learning tool for hosts
  • 08:30 – The "To-Do List" trap that compounds distress
  • 09:40 – When professional milestones make personal struggles deeper
  • 10:45 – The day your worth stops being a business metric
  • 12:00 – Why a trauma is just one "ingredient" in your life
  • 13:30 – The "Exponential Curve" of trauma recovery
]]> true full 25 <![CDATA[Monica Davis: Love is Blind Breakup & Standing on Business | Ep. 24]]> How do you stay calm when you find the person you’re about to marry is leading a double life? This episode dives deep into the Monica Love is Blind DC breakup interview, uncovering the raw reality of discovering infidelity just days before walking down the aisle.

Monica Davis joins Charles Turtz to share her transformative journey from a "people pleaser" who gave 90% in relationships to a woman who stands firmly in her self-worth. She reveals the therapy-backed mindset that allowed her to confront betrayal with logic rather than rage and why she’s finally prioritizing her own peace.

How to Set Boundaries After Infidelity

Monica explains that her "sturdy" reaction to betrayal was the result of four years of consistent therapy. Instead of falling into a cycle of "back and forth" texting, she learned to draw a hard line in the sand, prioritizing her own mental health over fixing a broken partner.

Identifying Financial Red Flags in Dating

While the "pods" environment filters for emotional connection, Monica highlights how it can mask critical life factors like financial stability. She discusses the importance of asking "uncomfortable" questions about money before committing to a life together and why she refused to let an ex-partner leave without settling their debts.

Why Self-Love is Better Than a Fairytale

Moving beyond the "Disney" version of romance, Monica discusses how true confidence comes from being comfortable in silence and solitude. She challenges the societal stigma of being single at 37, proving that a relationship should be a "bonus" to an already fulfilled life.


Links & Networking

Disclaimer: The TURTZED Podcast reflects the opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. Content is for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare provider for advice tailored to your individual needs. For the full disclaimer, visit our website.


  • 00:00 – The 70-question flight to the pods
  • 03:02 – Why "small talk" is a sales tactic, not a connection
  • 05:40 – The "flooding" trap in early dating
  • 07:10 – What a 10-hour date with a wall actually feels like
  • 10:24 – The 80/20 emotional labor imbalance
  • 12:20 – When "talking the talk" replaces "walking the walk"
  • 14:06 – Why cheating isn't always a green or red flag
  • 19:32 – The "Out of Body" reveal experience
  • 21:38 – Why "nervous laughter" hides the ick
  • 25:40 – The Venmo collection that went viral
  • 31:00 – Why the cast is "obsessed" with each other post-filming
  • 37:04 – The layers of being "blind" to finances
  • 43:28 – The secret "talking points" guide in the pods
  • 52:28 – Dealing with the "37 and Single" trolls
  • 58:03 – Why "Control" is the enemy of "Trust"

]]> Sun, 03 Nov 2024 17:59:00 -0500 https://www.turtzed.com/podcast 1:13:34 How do you stay calm when you find the person you’re about to marry is leading a double life? This episode dives deep into the Monica Love is Blind DC breakup interview, uncovering the raw reality of discovering infidelity just days before walking down the aisle.

Monica Davis joins Charles Turtz to share her transformative journey from a "people pleaser" who gave 90% in relationships to a woman who stands firmly in her self-worth. She reveals the therapy-backed mindset that allowed her to confront betrayal with logic rather than rage and why she’s finally prioritizing her own peace.

How to Set Boundaries After Infidelity

Monica explains that her "sturdy" reaction to betrayal was the result of four years of consistent therapy. Instead of falling into a cycle of "back and forth" texting, she learned to draw a hard line in the sand, prioritizing her own mental health over fixing a broken partner.

Identifying Financial Red Flags in Dating

While the "pods" environment filters for emotional connection, Monica highlights how it can mask critical life factors like financial stability. She discusses the importance of asking "uncomfortable" questions about money before committing to a life together and why she refused to let an ex-partner leave without settling their debts.

Why Self-Love is Better Than a Fairytale

Moving beyond the "Disney" version of romance, Monica discusses how true confidence comes from being comfortable in silence and solitude. She challenges the societal stigma of being single at 37, proving that a relationship should be a "bonus" to an already fulfilled life.


Links & Networking

Disclaimer: The TURTZED Podcast reflects the opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. Content is for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare provider for advice tailored to your individual needs. For the full disclaimer, visit our website.


  • 00:00 – The 70-question flight to the pods
  • 03:02 – Why "small talk" is a sales tactic, not a connection
  • 05:40 – The "flooding" trap in early dating
  • 07:10 – What a 10-hour date with a wall actually feels like
  • 10:24 – The 80/20 emotional labor imbalance
  • 12:20 – When "talking the talk" replaces "walking the walk"
  • 14:06 – Why cheating isn't always a green or red flag
  • 19:32 – The "Out of Body" reveal experience
  • 21:38 – Why "nervous laughter" hides the ick
  • 25:40 – The Venmo collection that went viral
  • 31:00 – Why the cast is "obsessed" with each other post-filming
  • 37:04 – The layers of being "blind" to finances
  • 43:28 – The secret "talking points" guide in the pods
  • 52:28 – Dealing with the "37 and Single" trolls
  • 58:03 – Why "Control" is the enemy of "Trust"

]]> How do you stay calm when you find the person you’re about to marry is leading a double life? This episode dives deep into the Monica Love is Blind DC breakup interview, uncovering the raw reality of discovering infidelity just days before walking down the aisle.

Monica Davis joins Charles Turtz to share her transformative journey from a "people pleaser" who gave 90% in relationships to a woman who stands firmly in her self-worth. She reveals the therapy-backed mindset that allowed her to confront betrayal with logic rather than rage and why she’s finally prioritizing her own peace.

How to Set Boundaries After Infidelity

Monica explains that her "sturdy" reaction to betrayal was the result of four years of consistent therapy. Instead of falling into a cycle of "back and forth" texting, she learned to draw a hard line in the sand, prioritizing her own mental health over fixing a broken partner.

Identifying Financial Red Flags in Dating

While the "pods" environment filters for emotional connection, Monica highlights how it can mask critical life factors like financial stability. She discusses the importance of asking "uncomfortable" questions about money before committing to a life together and why she refused to let an ex-partner leave without settling their debts.

Why Self-Love is Better Than a Fairytale

Moving beyond the "Disney" version of romance, Monica discusses how true confidence comes from being comfortable in silence and solitude. She challenges the societal stigma of being single at 37, proving that a relationship should be a "bonus" to an already fulfilled life.


Links & Networking

Disclaimer: The TURTZED Podcast reflects the opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. Content is for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare provider for advice tailored to your individual needs. For the full disclaimer, visit our website.


  • 00:00 – The 70-question flight to the pods
  • 03:02 – Why "small talk" is a sales tactic, not a connection
  • 05:40 – The "flooding" trap in early dating
  • 07:10 – What a 10-hour date with a wall actually feels like
  • 10:24 – The 80/20 emotional labor imbalance
  • 12:20 – When "talking the talk" replaces "walking the walk"
  • 14:06 – Why cheating isn't always a green or red flag
  • 19:32 – The "Out of Body" reveal experience
  • 21:38 – Why "nervous laughter" hides the ick
  • 25:40 – The Venmo collection that went viral
  • 31:00 – Why the cast is "obsessed" with each other post-filming
  • 37:04 – The layers of being "blind" to finances
  • 43:28 – The secret "talking points" guide in the pods
  • 52:28 – Dealing with the "37 and Single" trolls
  • 58:03 – Why "Control" is the enemy of "Trust"

]]> true full 24 <![CDATA[Mariana Diaz: How to Pivot Your Career After a Health Crisis | Ep. 23]]> How do you reinvent your entire identity when the body you’ve relied on for your craft suddenly fails you?. For those facing a sudden medical diagnosis, learning how to pivot your career after a health crisis isn't just a logistical challenge—it's a battle for self-worth.

In this episode, Mariana Diaz shares her raw journey from the high-stakes world of professional dance to the structured creativity of art direction and photography. After a life-altering kidney disease diagnosis at age 18, Mariana Diaz had to mourn her lifelong dream of dancing and find a new way to channel her "choreographer" spirit into building H-Gab Studios.


How to Navigate a Career Pivot Due to Illness

When physical limitations ended her dance career, Mariana realized that the principles of discipline and leadership she learned in the studio were transferable to any professional field. Pivoting requires mourning the old dream to make space for a version of yourself that can thrive in a new environment.

Balancing Immigrant Family Expectations with Personal Passion

As a first-generation American, Mariana felt the immense weight of her parents' sacrifices, leading her to live a "double life" to meet their high standards for school while pursuing her true love for the arts. Success often comes from turning that pressure into "street smarts" and a relentless hustle.

Building a Support System During Medical Trauma

The healing journey is deeply tied to the quality of support from loved ones; Mariana credits her family's "rallying" around her during dialysis and her transplant as the factor that prevented her from falling into a deeper depression.

 

Links & Networking

Disclaimer: The TURTZED Podcast reflects the opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. Content is for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare provider for advice tailored to your individual needs. For the full disclaimer, visit our website.

  • 00:01 – The heavy reality behind the curtain
  • 01:28 – The wedding photographer who sparked a vision
  • 02:46 – Why the hyperactive child was put in ballet
  • 03:39 – The "control freak" choreographer's secret
  • 04:55 – Realizing the shoot is just another dance
  • 06:40 – How high expectations built a professional
  • 09:24 – The "Master Cheater" of the charter school
  • 11:34 – Carrying the weight of a parent’s sacrifice
  • 14:32 – The burden of leading a double life
  • 16:36 – The day freedom and diagnosis collided
  • 18:02 – When the body says "no" to the dream
  • 21:21 – Losing self-worth in the early 2000s mirror
  • 25:08 – Why family support is the ultimate medicine
  • 29:08 – The "light at the end of the tunnel" surgery
  • 33:00 – Why no one is coming to save you
  • 34:39 – The matriarchy that built a boss
  • 36:54 – Why your dreams must evolve or die
  • 39:21 – The universe: happening to you or for you?
  • 41:46 – "If they want to, they will"

]]> Wed, 30 Oct 2024 08:30:00 -0400 https://www.turtzed.com/podcast 46:02 How do you reinvent your entire identity when the body you’ve relied on for your craft suddenly fails you?. For those facing a sudden medical diagnosis, learning how to pivot your career after a health crisis isn't just a logistical challenge—it's a battle for self-worth.

In this episode, Mariana Diaz shares her raw journey from the high-stakes world of professional dance to the structured creativity of art direction and photography. After a life-altering kidney disease diagnosis at age 18, Mariana Diaz had to mourn her lifelong dream of dancing and find a new way to channel her "choreographer" spirit into building H-Gab Studios.


How to Navigate a Career Pivot Due to Illness

When physical limitations ended her dance career, Mariana realized that the principles of discipline and leadership she learned in the studio were transferable to any professional field. Pivoting requires mourning the old dream to make space for a version of yourself that can thrive in a new environment.

Balancing Immigrant Family Expectations with Personal Passion

As a first-generation American, Mariana felt the immense weight of her parents' sacrifices, leading her to live a "double life" to meet their high standards for school while pursuing her true love for the arts. Success often comes from turning that pressure into "street smarts" and a relentless hustle.

Building a Support System During Medical Trauma

The healing journey is deeply tied to the quality of support from loved ones; Mariana credits her family's "rallying" around her during dialysis and her transplant as the factor that prevented her from falling into a deeper depression.

 

Links & Networking

Disclaimer: The TURTZED Podcast reflects the opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. Content is for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare provider for advice tailored to your individual needs. For the full disclaimer, visit our website.

  • 00:01 – The heavy reality behind the curtain
  • 01:28 – The wedding photographer who sparked a vision
  • 02:46 – Why the hyperactive child was put in ballet
  • 03:39 – The "control freak" choreographer's secret
  • 04:55 – Realizing the shoot is just another dance
  • 06:40 – How high expectations built a professional
  • 09:24 – The "Master Cheater" of the charter school
  • 11:34 – Carrying the weight of a parent’s sacrifice
  • 14:32 – The burden of leading a double life
  • 16:36 – The day freedom and diagnosis collided
  • 18:02 – When the body says "no" to the dream
  • 21:21 – Losing self-worth in the early 2000s mirror
  • 25:08 – Why family support is the ultimate medicine
  • 29:08 – The "light at the end of the tunnel" surgery
  • 33:00 – Why no one is coming to save you
  • 34:39 – The matriarchy that built a boss
  • 36:54 – Why your dreams must evolve or die
  • 39:21 – The universe: happening to you or for you?
  • 41:46 – "If they want to, they will"

]]> How do you reinvent your entire identity when the body you’ve relied on for your craft suddenly fails you?. For those facing a sudden medical diagnosis, learning how to pivot your career after a health crisis isn't just a logistical challenge—it's a battle for self-worth.

In this episode, Mariana Diaz shares her raw journey from the high-stakes world of professional dance to the structured creativity of art direction and photography. After a life-altering kidney disease diagnosis at age 18, Mariana Diaz had to mourn her lifelong dream of dancing and find a new way to channel her "choreographer" spirit into building H-Gab Studios.


How to Navigate a Career Pivot Due to Illness

When physical limitations ended her dance career, Mariana realized that the principles of discipline and leadership she learned in the studio were transferable to any professional field. Pivoting requires mourning the old dream to make space for a version of yourself that can thrive in a new environment.

Balancing Immigrant Family Expectations with Personal Passion

As a first-generation American, Mariana felt the immense weight of her parents' sacrifices, leading her to live a "double life" to meet their high standards for school while pursuing her true love for the arts. Success often comes from turning that pressure into "street smarts" and a relentless hustle.

Building a Support System During Medical Trauma

The healing journey is deeply tied to the quality of support from loved ones; Mariana credits her family's "rallying" around her during dialysis and her transplant as the factor that prevented her from falling into a deeper depression.

 

Links & Networking

Disclaimer: The TURTZED Podcast reflects the opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. Content is for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare provider for advice tailored to your individual needs. For the full disclaimer, visit our website.

  • 00:01 – The heavy reality behind the curtain
  • 01:28 – The wedding photographer who sparked a vision
  • 02:46 – Why the hyperactive child was put in ballet
  • 03:39 – The "control freak" choreographer's secret
  • 04:55 – Realizing the shoot is just another dance
  • 06:40 – How high expectations built a professional
  • 09:24 – The "Master Cheater" of the charter school
  • 11:34 – Carrying the weight of a parent’s sacrifice
  • 14:32 – The burden of leading a double life
  • 16:36 – The day freedom and diagnosis collided
  • 18:02 – When the body says "no" to the dream
  • 21:21 – Losing self-worth in the early 2000s mirror
  • 25:08 – Why family support is the ultimate medicine
  • 29:08 – The "light at the end of the tunnel" surgery
  • 33:00 – Why no one is coming to save you
  • 34:39 – The matriarchy that built a boss
  • 36:54 – Why your dreams must evolve or die
  • 39:21 – The universe: happening to you or for you?
  • 41:46 – "If they want to, they will"

]]> true full 23 <![CDATA[Zack Livingston: Surviving a Fentanyl Overdose & Finding Recovery After "The Off Switch" | Ep. 22]]> Can you truly learn how to get sober for someone else when you’ve reached a point where you no longer care if you live or die? For many, the "do it for yourself" narrative feels impossible when self-hatred has completely taken the wheel. After flatlining for five minutes from a fentanyl overdose, today's guest was forced to choose between a final cliff and a path he couldn't yet see.

In this raw and cinematic episode, Zack Livingston shares his journey from elite wildland firefighter to becoming the youngest interventionist on the hit show Intervention. He breaks down the "off switch" of dissociation, the weight of high-ranking military expectations, and the exact moment his father's compassion—not judgment—finally cracked his ego and saved his life.

The Myth of "Getting Sober for Yourself" First 

Zack challenges the common recovery trope that you must want sobriety for yourself to succeed. He explains why, when you are consumed by self-hatred, doing it for a partner or a parent is a valid and powerful "anchor point" to get you through the door.

How to Identify the "Dissociation Off Switch" 

Addiction often serves as a survival mechanism to blot out emotions that feel unmanageable. Zack describes the "robotic existence" of flicking the switch to off and the terrifying difficulty of trying to turn it back on once you’ve lost your sense of self.

How Parental Expectations Impact Adolescent Identity 

Even in "cool" and loving homes, the weight of high-achieving parents can create a perceived gap in self-worth. Zack discusses how comparing himself to his naval officer parents led him to find his first sense of "fitting in" through a glass of wine at age 10.


Links & Networking

Disclaimer: The TURTZED Podcast reflects the opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. Content is for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare provider for advice tailored to your individual needs. For the full disclaimer, visit our website. 


  • 00:00 – The "Fire Terminology" Introduction
  • 01:21 – Why Silence is the Addict's Best Friend
  • 04:10 – The Weight of Naval Officer Expectations
  • 08:16 – A Ten-Year-Old’s "Romantic" Glass of Wine
  • 10:45 – The First Arrest: A 14-Year-Old’s Fire Extinguisher Fight
  • 15:41 – Losing Yourself Twice: The 18 and 25 Milestone
  • 18:29 – Finding Solace in the Colorado Wildfire Academy
  • 20:52 – The DUI That Almost Froze Him to Death
  • 25:10 – The 5-Minute Flatline in Tennessee
  • 35:13 – The Phone Call: Telling Mom Her Son is Dead
  • 37:40 – A "Good Kidnapping" into Detox
  • 41:13 – The Pivotal Shift: When Recovery Becomes Sexy
  • 45:25 – Don’t Be Realistic: How to Stay Hopeful
  • 51:13 – Robbie’s Question: What Are You Actually Afraid Of?
  • 55:15 – Charles Turtz: Breaking the Groundhog Day Cycle
  • 58:12 – The Liberating Power of Group Therapy

]]> Wed, 23 Oct 2024 08:30:00 -0400 https://www.turtzed.com/podcast 1:01:36 Can you truly learn how to get sober for someone else when you’ve reached a point where you no longer care if you live or die? For many, the "do it for yourself" narrative feels impossible when self-hatred has completely taken the wheel. After flatlining for five minutes from a fentanyl overdose, today's guest was forced to choose between a final cliff and a path he couldn't yet see.

In this raw and cinematic episode, Zack Livingston shares his journey from elite wildland firefighter to becoming the youngest interventionist on the hit show Intervention. He breaks down the "off switch" of dissociation, the weight of high-ranking military expectations, and the exact moment his father's compassion—not judgment—finally cracked his ego and saved his life.

The Myth of "Getting Sober for Yourself" First 

Zack challenges the common recovery trope that you must want sobriety for yourself to succeed. He explains why, when you are consumed by self-hatred, doing it for a partner or a parent is a valid and powerful "anchor point" to get you through the door.

How to Identify the "Dissociation Off Switch" 

Addiction often serves as a survival mechanism to blot out emotions that feel unmanageable. Zack describes the "robotic existence" of flicking the switch to off and the terrifying difficulty of trying to turn it back on once you’ve lost your sense of self.

How Parental Expectations Impact Adolescent Identity 

Even in "cool" and loving homes, the weight of high-achieving parents can create a perceived gap in self-worth. Zack discusses how comparing himself to his naval officer parents led him to find his first sense of "fitting in" through a glass of wine at age 10.


Links & Networking

Disclaimer: The TURTZED Podcast reflects the opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. Content is for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare provider for advice tailored to your individual needs. For the full disclaimer, visit our website. 


  • 00:00 – The "Fire Terminology" Introduction
  • 01:21 – Why Silence is the Addict's Best Friend
  • 04:10 – The Weight of Naval Officer Expectations
  • 08:16 – A Ten-Year-Old’s "Romantic" Glass of Wine
  • 10:45 – The First Arrest: A 14-Year-Old’s Fire Extinguisher Fight
  • 15:41 – Losing Yourself Twice: The 18 and 25 Milestone
  • 18:29 – Finding Solace in the Colorado Wildfire Academy
  • 20:52 – The DUI That Almost Froze Him to Death
  • 25:10 – The 5-Minute Flatline in Tennessee
  • 35:13 – The Phone Call: Telling Mom Her Son is Dead
  • 37:40 – A "Good Kidnapping" into Detox
  • 41:13 – The Pivotal Shift: When Recovery Becomes Sexy
  • 45:25 – Don’t Be Realistic: How to Stay Hopeful
  • 51:13 – Robbie’s Question: What Are You Actually Afraid Of?
  • 55:15 – Charles Turtz: Breaking the Groundhog Day Cycle
  • 58:12 – The Liberating Power of Group Therapy

]]> Can you truly learn how to get sober for someone else when you’ve reached a point where you no longer care if you live or die? For many, the "do it for yourself" narrative feels impossible when self-hatred has completely taken the wheel. After flatlining for five minutes from a fentanyl overdose, today's guest was forced to choose between a final cliff and a path he couldn't yet see.

In this raw and cinematic episode, Zack Livingston shares his journey from elite wildland firefighter to becoming the youngest interventionist on the hit show Intervention. He breaks down the "off switch" of dissociation, the weight of high-ranking military expectations, and the exact moment his father's compassion—not judgment—finally cracked his ego and saved his life.

The Myth of "Getting Sober for Yourself" First 

Zack challenges the common recovery trope that you must want sobriety for yourself to succeed. He explains why, when you are consumed by self-hatred, doing it for a partner or a parent is a valid and powerful "anchor point" to get you through the door.

How to Identify the "Dissociation Off Switch" 

Addiction often serves as a survival mechanism to blot out emotions that feel unmanageable. Zack describes the "robotic existence" of flicking the switch to off and the terrifying difficulty of trying to turn it back on once you’ve lost your sense of self.

How Parental Expectations Impact Adolescent Identity 

Even in "cool" and loving homes, the weight of high-achieving parents can create a perceived gap in self-worth. Zack discusses how comparing himself to his naval officer parents led him to find his first sense of "fitting in" through a glass of wine at age 10.


Links & Networking

Disclaimer: The TURTZED Podcast reflects the opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. Content is for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare provider for advice tailored to your individual needs. For the full disclaimer, visit our website. 


  • 00:00 – The "Fire Terminology" Introduction
  • 01:21 – Why Silence is the Addict's Best Friend
  • 04:10 – The Weight of Naval Officer Expectations
  • 08:16 – A Ten-Year-Old’s "Romantic" Glass of Wine
  • 10:45 – The First Arrest: A 14-Year-Old’s Fire Extinguisher Fight
  • 15:41 – Losing Yourself Twice: The 18 and 25 Milestone
  • 18:29 – Finding Solace in the Colorado Wildfire Academy
  • 20:52 – The DUI That Almost Froze Him to Death
  • 25:10 – The 5-Minute Flatline in Tennessee
  • 35:13 – The Phone Call: Telling Mom Her Son is Dead
  • 37:40 – A "Good Kidnapping" into Detox
  • 41:13 – The Pivotal Shift: When Recovery Becomes Sexy
  • 45:25 – Don’t Be Realistic: How to Stay Hopeful
  • 51:13 – Robbie’s Question: What Are You Actually Afraid Of?
  • 55:15 – Charles Turtz: Breaking the Groundhog Day Cycle
  • 58:12 – The Liberating Power of Group Therapy

]]> true full 22 <![CDATA[Overcoming Perfectionism in Business & The 1% Rule | Ep. 21 ]]> How do you build a successful business when your own mind is your toughest critic? Overcoming perfectionism in business isn't just about better time management; it’s about a radical shift in how you view failure, mistakes, and the "messy" middle of the creative process.

In this milestone episode, Charles Turtz reflects on the one-year anniversary of his pivot from corporate operations to solo entrepreneurship. He shares the raw, behind-the-scenes reality of launching the TURTZ brand, revealing how the very act of storytelling became a form of therapeutic discovery that forced him to confront the "perfectionist trap" and learn the power of trusting experts. 

How to Beat the 99% Podcast Failure Rate

Most podcasts don't make it past their 20th episode, but reaching this milestone requires more than just good audio. It demands a commitment to showing up when there is no "tangible" proof of success and treating every technical hiccup as a necessary data point.

Why You Can’t Write Your Own "About Me"

There is a psychological block that often prevents founders from articulating their own value clearly. By trusting experts in copywriting, design, and photography, you can bring a more authentic version of yourself to life than you ever could by working solo.

The Cost of Investing in Yourself

Financial risk in a new business is often a proxy for self-belief. Choosing to invest in a multi-page website or high-end equipment is a pivotal moment where you stop treating your business as a hobby and start treating yourself as a professional product. 


Links & Networking

Disclaimer: The TURTZED Podcast reflects the opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. Content is for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare provider for advice tailored to your individual needs. For the full disclaimer, visit our website.

  • 00:01 – The 35th Birthday Pivot
  • 01:20 – Why 99% of Podcasts Fail
  • 02:54 – Proving You Can Figure It Out
  • 04:10 – The Secret Branding Partner
  • 05:40 – Writing Your Story Backwards
  • 06:50 – Sharing Secrets with Family for the First Time
  • 08:15 – Re-traumatization vs. Therapeutic Release
  • 09:30 – The GarageBand Learning Curve
  • 11:10 – The Psychological Block of the "About Me" Section
  • 12:45 – The "Muted Colors" Confrontation
  • 14:00 – The Website Cost Dilemma
  • 16:20 – Learning to Celebrate the Wins
  • 18:00 – Crying Before the Big Recording
  • 20:00 – The Guilt of Taking a Break
  • 21:30 – The Pain of a Missed Wednesday
  • 23:40 – Looking Back Without Regret
]]> Wed, 16 Oct 2024 08:30:00 -0400 https://www.turtzed.com/podcast 25:35 How do you build a successful business when your own mind is your toughest critic? Overcoming perfectionism in business isn't just about better time management; it’s about a radical shift in how you view failure, mistakes, and the "messy" middle of the creative process.

In this milestone episode, Charles Turtz reflects on the one-year anniversary of his pivot from corporate operations to solo entrepreneurship. He shares the raw, behind-the-scenes reality of launching the TURTZ brand, revealing how the very act of storytelling became a form of therapeutic discovery that forced him to confront the "perfectionist trap" and learn the power of trusting experts. 

How to Beat the 99% Podcast Failure Rate

Most podcasts don't make it past their 20th episode, but reaching this milestone requires more than just good audio. It demands a commitment to showing up when there is no "tangible" proof of success and treating every technical hiccup as a necessary data point.

Why You Can’t Write Your Own "About Me"

There is a psychological block that often prevents founders from articulating their own value clearly. By trusting experts in copywriting, design, and photography, you can bring a more authentic version of yourself to life than you ever could by working solo.

The Cost of Investing in Yourself

Financial risk in a new business is often a proxy for self-belief. Choosing to invest in a multi-page website or high-end equipment is a pivotal moment where you stop treating your business as a hobby and start treating yourself as a professional product. 


Links & Networking

Disclaimer: The TURTZED Podcast reflects the opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. Content is for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare provider for advice tailored to your individual needs. For the full disclaimer, visit our website.

  • 00:01 – The 35th Birthday Pivot
  • 01:20 – Why 99% of Podcasts Fail
  • 02:54 – Proving You Can Figure It Out
  • 04:10 – The Secret Branding Partner
  • 05:40 – Writing Your Story Backwards
  • 06:50 – Sharing Secrets with Family for the First Time
  • 08:15 – Re-traumatization vs. Therapeutic Release
  • 09:30 – The GarageBand Learning Curve
  • 11:10 – The Psychological Block of the "About Me" Section
  • 12:45 – The "Muted Colors" Confrontation
  • 14:00 – The Website Cost Dilemma
  • 16:20 – Learning to Celebrate the Wins
  • 18:00 – Crying Before the Big Recording
  • 20:00 – The Guilt of Taking a Break
  • 21:30 – The Pain of a Missed Wednesday
  • 23:40 – Looking Back Without Regret
]]> How do you build a successful business when your own mind is your toughest critic? Overcoming perfectionism in business isn't just about better time management; it’s about a radical shift in how you view failure, mistakes, and the "messy" middle of the creative process.

In this milestone episode, Charles Turtz reflects on the one-year anniversary of his pivot from corporate operations to solo entrepreneurship. He shares the raw, behind-the-scenes reality of launching the TURTZ brand, revealing how the very act of storytelling became a form of therapeutic discovery that forced him to confront the "perfectionist trap" and learn the power of trusting experts. 

How to Beat the 99% Podcast Failure Rate

Most podcasts don't make it past their 20th episode, but reaching this milestone requires more than just good audio. It demands a commitment to showing up when there is no "tangible" proof of success and treating every technical hiccup as a necessary data point.

Why You Can’t Write Your Own "About Me"

There is a psychological block that often prevents founders from articulating their own value clearly. By trusting experts in copywriting, design, and photography, you can bring a more authentic version of yourself to life than you ever could by working solo.

The Cost of Investing in Yourself

Financial risk in a new business is often a proxy for self-belief. Choosing to invest in a multi-page website or high-end equipment is a pivotal moment where you stop treating your business as a hobby and start treating yourself as a professional product. 


Links & Networking

Disclaimer: The TURTZED Podcast reflects the opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. Content is for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare provider for advice tailored to your individual needs. For the full disclaimer, visit our website.

  • 00:01 – The 35th Birthday Pivot
  • 01:20 – Why 99% of Podcasts Fail
  • 02:54 – Proving You Can Figure It Out
  • 04:10 – The Secret Branding Partner
  • 05:40 – Writing Your Story Backwards
  • 06:50 – Sharing Secrets with Family for the First Time
  • 08:15 – Re-traumatization vs. Therapeutic Release
  • 09:30 – The GarageBand Learning Curve
  • 11:10 – The Psychological Block of the "About Me" Section
  • 12:45 – The "Muted Colors" Confrontation
  • 14:00 – The Website Cost Dilemma
  • 16:20 – Learning to Celebrate the Wins
  • 18:00 – Crying Before the Big Recording
  • 20:00 – The Guilt of Taking a Break
  • 21:30 – The Pain of a Missed Wednesday
  • 23:40 – Looking Back Without Regret
]]> true full 21 <![CDATA[Braunwyn Burke: The Truth About Reality TV Sobriety | Ep. 20]]> How do you maintain a "white picket fence" life when your internal world is burning down? For many, the first step to healing is the hardest—saying the words out loud while the world is watching. In this episode, we explore the raw reality of the Bronwyn sobriety journey, moving past the curated squares of social media to the messy, beautiful work of true recovery.

Braunwyn Burke joins Charles to discuss her "unbelievable honesty" in the face of public scrutiny. From being "blackout drunk" on national television to navigating a devastating mental breakdown and financial ruin post-divorce, Braunwyn shares how she used EMDR and accountability to finally find peace at 47. Listeners will learn how to face their deepest fears of abandonment and why it is never too late to live an authentic life.

How to Use Public Accountability for Recovery

Braunwyn discusses how working with Captain Sandy and publicly admitting her alcoholism on camera acted as a pivotal "mirror" that made it impossible to keep lying to herself.

Understanding EMDR Therapy for Trauma

Braunwyn explains her experience with Eye Movement Desensitization and Reprocessing (EMDR), describing how it helped lower the "charge" of limiting beliefs from a nine to a zero.

Breaking the Cycle of Generational Trauma

Growing up in a "polite" Southern culture where mental health and addiction were never discussed, Braunwyn shares how she became a fierce advocate for her children's authenticity to ensure they didn't inherit her silence.


Links & Networking

Disclaimer: The TURTZED Podcast reflects the opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. Content is for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare provider for advice tailored to your individual needs. For the full disclaimer, visit our website.


  • 00:00 – The danger of the "fun" reality TV phone call
  • 02:15 – Why the "Housewife Sherpa" doesn't exist
  • 04:42 – Rewatching scenes you have no memory of filming
  • 06:30 – The "12 Days Sober" filming mistake1
  • 08:15 – Growing up as a Mississippi "Chameleon"
  • 10:40 – The "White Picket Fence" trap of the early 2000s
  • 13:50 – Moving fast and the "Secret Lives" of runaway families
  • 15:00 – The closet floor moment and the "God-shot" phone call
  • 18:30 – Captain Sandy’s blunt advice on public accountability
  • 20:15 – Taking back power in a garage confessional
  • 23:45 – The "Mama Bear" instinct vs. self-protection
  • 28:20 – The "Pink Cloud" and the ego-drug of fame
  • 31:40 – Discovering you were married to a stranger
  • 34:15 – Googling "How to know if you're having a psychotic break"
  • 37:50 – From a "Level 9" worthlessness to a "Level 0" peace
  • 41:30 – Why your best life is waiting at age 47
]]> Wed, 09 Oct 2024 08:18:00 -0400 https://www.turtzed.com/podcast 49:26 How do you maintain a "white picket fence" life when your internal world is burning down? For many, the first step to healing is the hardest—saying the words out loud while the world is watching. In this episode, we explore the raw reality of the Bronwyn sobriety journey, moving past the curated squares of social media to the messy, beautiful work of true recovery.

Braunwyn Burke joins Charles to discuss her "unbelievable honesty" in the face of public scrutiny. From being "blackout drunk" on national television to navigating a devastating mental breakdown and financial ruin post-divorce, Braunwyn shares how she used EMDR and accountability to finally find peace at 47. Listeners will learn how to face their deepest fears of abandonment and why it is never too late to live an authentic life.

How to Use Public Accountability for Recovery

Braunwyn discusses how working with Captain Sandy and publicly admitting her alcoholism on camera acted as a pivotal "mirror" that made it impossible to keep lying to herself.

Understanding EMDR Therapy for Trauma

Braunwyn explains her experience with Eye Movement Desensitization and Reprocessing (EMDR), describing how it helped lower the "charge" of limiting beliefs from a nine to a zero.

Breaking the Cycle of Generational Trauma

Growing up in a "polite" Southern culture where mental health and addiction were never discussed, Braunwyn shares how she became a fierce advocate for her children's authenticity to ensure they didn't inherit her silence.


Links & Networking

Disclaimer: The TURTZED Podcast reflects the opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. Content is for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare provider for advice tailored to your individual needs. For the full disclaimer, visit our website.


  • 00:00 – The danger of the "fun" reality TV phone call
  • 02:15 – Why the "Housewife Sherpa" doesn't exist
  • 04:42 – Rewatching scenes you have no memory of filming
  • 06:30 – The "12 Days Sober" filming mistake1
  • 08:15 – Growing up as a Mississippi "Chameleon"
  • 10:40 – The "White Picket Fence" trap of the early 2000s
  • 13:50 – Moving fast and the "Secret Lives" of runaway families
  • 15:00 – The closet floor moment and the "God-shot" phone call
  • 18:30 – Captain Sandy’s blunt advice on public accountability
  • 20:15 – Taking back power in a garage confessional
  • 23:45 – The "Mama Bear" instinct vs. self-protection
  • 28:20 – The "Pink Cloud" and the ego-drug of fame
  • 31:40 – Discovering you were married to a stranger
  • 34:15 – Googling "How to know if you're having a psychotic break"
  • 37:50 – From a "Level 9" worthlessness to a "Level 0" peace
  • 41:30 – Why your best life is waiting at age 47
]]> How do you maintain a "white picket fence" life when your internal world is burning down? For many, the first step to healing is the hardest—saying the words out loud while the world is watching. In this episode, we explore the raw reality of the Bronwyn sobriety journey, moving past the curated squares of social media to the messy, beautiful work of true recovery.

Braunwyn Burke joins Charles to discuss her "unbelievable honesty" in the face of public scrutiny. From being "blackout drunk" on national television to navigating a devastating mental breakdown and financial ruin post-divorce, Braunwyn shares how she used EMDR and accountability to finally find peace at 47. Listeners will learn how to face their deepest fears of abandonment and why it is never too late to live an authentic life.

How to Use Public Accountability for Recovery

Braunwyn discusses how working with Captain Sandy and publicly admitting her alcoholism on camera acted as a pivotal "mirror" that made it impossible to keep lying to herself.

Understanding EMDR Therapy for Trauma

Braunwyn explains her experience with Eye Movement Desensitization and Reprocessing (EMDR), describing how it helped lower the "charge" of limiting beliefs from a nine to a zero.

Breaking the Cycle of Generational Trauma

Growing up in a "polite" Southern culture where mental health and addiction were never discussed, Braunwyn shares how she became a fierce advocate for her children's authenticity to ensure they didn't inherit her silence.


Links & Networking

Disclaimer: The TURTZED Podcast reflects the opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. Content is for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare provider for advice tailored to your individual needs. For the full disclaimer, visit our website.


  • 00:00 – The danger of the "fun" reality TV phone call
  • 02:15 – Why the "Housewife Sherpa" doesn't exist
  • 04:42 – Rewatching scenes you have no memory of filming
  • 06:30 – The "12 Days Sober" filming mistake1
  • 08:15 – Growing up as a Mississippi "Chameleon"
  • 10:40 – The "White Picket Fence" trap of the early 2000s
  • 13:50 – Moving fast and the "Secret Lives" of runaway families
  • 15:00 – The closet floor moment and the "God-shot" phone call
  • 18:30 – Captain Sandy’s blunt advice on public accountability
  • 20:15 – Taking back power in a garage confessional
  • 23:45 – The "Mama Bear" instinct vs. self-protection
  • 28:20 – The "Pink Cloud" and the ego-drug of fame
  • 31:40 – Discovering you were married to a stranger
  • 34:15 – Googling "How to know if you're having a psychotic break"
  • 37:50 – From a "Level 9" worthlessness to a "Level 0" peace
  • 41:30 – Why your best life is waiting at age 47
]]> true full 20 <![CDATA[Maya Vander: Moving to Miami and Finding Strength After Trauma | Ep. 19]]> How do you find the strength to close a multi-million dollar real estate deal while privately processing the unthinkable pain of a stillbirth? Maya Vander opens up about the intersection of public life and private grief, proving that resilience isn't about the absence of tears, but the courage to keep moving forward one day at a time.

In this episode, Maya Vander reveals the unfiltered truth behind the cameras of Selling Sunset, from her early days as the brokerage's "first lady" to her decision to prioritize family in Miami. Listeners will learn how to maintain professional boundaries during personal crises, the importance of authenticity in a social-media-driven industry, and how Maya uses her platform to support other women navigating pregnancy loss.

How to Navigate Pregnancy Loss and Stillbirth

Maya discusses the profound difficulty of delivering a stillborn baby at nine months and the importance of taking life "one day at a time" to process such deep trauma. She emphasizes that everyone grieves differently and that finding a support system is vital for recovery.

The Real Truth Behind Selling Sunset Drama

While the show highlights luxury listings, Maya explains the shift from real estate empowerment to produced drama and why she often felt the need to act as a "peacekeeper". She shares the logistical challenges of filming while living in Miami and why some of her most authentic moments were often cut.

Maintaining Professional Excellence During Personal Trauma

Maya provides a masterclass on compartmentalization, describing how she continued to conduct client showings while going through a miscarriage. She advocates for keeping business and personal life separate to protect both the client’s interests and one's own mental health.


Links & Networking

Disclaimer: The TURTZED Podcast reflects the opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. Content is for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare provider for advice tailored to your individual needs. For the full disclaimer, visit our website.

  • 00:00 – The "Peacekeeper" returns to the office
  • 02:20 – Door knocking and the Facebook message that changed everything
  • 03:50 – The "Million Dollar Listing" pitch that never happened
  • 04:45 – Why people think being a TV agent is "easy"
  • 06:15 – The risk of choosing drama over reputation
  • 07:10 – Sharing a pregnancy loss with millions
  • 09:15 – The origin of Maya's "different" perspective on life
  • 11:30 – Driving to a showing while in the middle of a miscarriage
  • 13:50 – A book recommendation for the "one day at a time" journey
  • 16:56 – The fear of trying again for a third baby
  • 19:17 – The baby shower that became a "goodbye party"
  • 21:10 – What producers expect you to say for the camera
  • 22:50 – Addressing the "homophobic" labels from the Reunion
  • 24:07 – The real reason Maya’s scenes were being cut
  • 26:10 – Why you need one year of savings before starting real estate
  • 30:20 – The 17-year-old prophecy about Maya's fame
  • 34:48 – Somatic breathing: Finding where trauma is stored

]]> Wed, 25 Sep 2024 10:32:00 -0400 https://www.turtzed.com/podcast 38:23 How do you find the strength to close a multi-million dollar real estate deal while privately processing the unthinkable pain of a stillbirth? Maya Vander opens up about the intersection of public life and private grief, proving that resilience isn't about the absence of tears, but the courage to keep moving forward one day at a time.

In this episode, Maya Vander reveals the unfiltered truth behind the cameras of Selling Sunset, from her early days as the brokerage's "first lady" to her decision to prioritize family in Miami. Listeners will learn how to maintain professional boundaries during personal crises, the importance of authenticity in a social-media-driven industry, and how Maya uses her platform to support other women navigating pregnancy loss.

How to Navigate Pregnancy Loss and Stillbirth

Maya discusses the profound difficulty of delivering a stillborn baby at nine months and the importance of taking life "one day at a time" to process such deep trauma. She emphasizes that everyone grieves differently and that finding a support system is vital for recovery.

The Real Truth Behind Selling Sunset Drama

While the show highlights luxury listings, Maya explains the shift from real estate empowerment to produced drama and why she often felt the need to act as a "peacekeeper". She shares the logistical challenges of filming while living in Miami and why some of her most authentic moments were often cut.

Maintaining Professional Excellence During Personal Trauma

Maya provides a masterclass on compartmentalization, describing how she continued to conduct client showings while going through a miscarriage. She advocates for keeping business and personal life separate to protect both the client’s interests and one's own mental health.


Links & Networking

Disclaimer: The TURTZED Podcast reflects the opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. Content is for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare provider for advice tailored to your individual needs. For the full disclaimer, visit our website.

  • 00:00 – The "Peacekeeper" returns to the office
  • 02:20 – Door knocking and the Facebook message that changed everything
  • 03:50 – The "Million Dollar Listing" pitch that never happened
  • 04:45 – Why people think being a TV agent is "easy"
  • 06:15 – The risk of choosing drama over reputation
  • 07:10 – Sharing a pregnancy loss with millions
  • 09:15 – The origin of Maya's "different" perspective on life
  • 11:30 – Driving to a showing while in the middle of a miscarriage
  • 13:50 – A book recommendation for the "one day at a time" journey
  • 16:56 – The fear of trying again for a third baby
  • 19:17 – The baby shower that became a "goodbye party"
  • 21:10 – What producers expect you to say for the camera
  • 22:50 – Addressing the "homophobic" labels from the Reunion
  • 24:07 – The real reason Maya’s scenes were being cut
  • 26:10 – Why you need one year of savings before starting real estate
  • 30:20 – The 17-year-old prophecy about Maya's fame
  • 34:48 – Somatic breathing: Finding where trauma is stored

]]> How do you find the strength to close a multi-million dollar real estate deal while privately processing the unthinkable pain of a stillbirth? Maya Vander opens up about the intersection of public life and private grief, proving that resilience isn't about the absence of tears, but the courage to keep moving forward one day at a time.

In this episode, Maya Vander reveals the unfiltered truth behind the cameras of Selling Sunset, from her early days as the brokerage's "first lady" to her decision to prioritize family in Miami. Listeners will learn how to maintain professional boundaries during personal crises, the importance of authenticity in a social-media-driven industry, and how Maya uses her platform to support other women navigating pregnancy loss.

How to Navigate Pregnancy Loss and Stillbirth

Maya discusses the profound difficulty of delivering a stillborn baby at nine months and the importance of taking life "one day at a time" to process such deep trauma. She emphasizes that everyone grieves differently and that finding a support system is vital for recovery.

The Real Truth Behind Selling Sunset Drama

While the show highlights luxury listings, Maya explains the shift from real estate empowerment to produced drama and why she often felt the need to act as a "peacekeeper". She shares the logistical challenges of filming while living in Miami and why some of her most authentic moments were often cut.

Maintaining Professional Excellence During Personal Trauma

Maya provides a masterclass on compartmentalization, describing how she continued to conduct client showings while going through a miscarriage. She advocates for keeping business and personal life separate to protect both the client’s interests and one's own mental health.


Links & Networking

Disclaimer: The TURTZED Podcast reflects the opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. Content is for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare provider for advice tailored to your individual needs. For the full disclaimer, visit our website.

  • 00:00 – The "Peacekeeper" returns to the office
  • 02:20 – Door knocking and the Facebook message that changed everything
  • 03:50 – The "Million Dollar Listing" pitch that never happened
  • 04:45 – Why people think being a TV agent is "easy"
  • 06:15 – The risk of choosing drama over reputation
  • 07:10 – Sharing a pregnancy loss with millions
  • 09:15 – The origin of Maya's "different" perspective on life
  • 11:30 – Driving to a showing while in the middle of a miscarriage
  • 13:50 – A book recommendation for the "one day at a time" journey
  • 16:56 – The fear of trying again for a third baby
  • 19:17 – The baby shower that became a "goodbye party"
  • 21:10 – What producers expect you to say for the camera
  • 22:50 – Addressing the "homophobic" labels from the Reunion
  • 24:07 – The real reason Maya’s scenes were being cut
  • 26:10 – Why you need one year of savings before starting real estate
  • 30:20 – The 17-year-old prophecy about Maya's fame
  • 34:48 – Somatic breathing: Finding where trauma is stored

]]> false full 19 <![CDATA[Sven Erlandson: The Badass Counseling Method for Healing Childhood Trauma | Ep. 18]]> Are you tired of living out a version of yourself that was never actually yours to begin with? Most people are unaware that childhood messages are "infecting or outright driving" every major life decision they make today.

In this episode, Sven Erlandson breaks down his "soul counseling" approach to help you extract the voices that aren't yours so your authentic self can finally bubble to the surface. You’ll learn how to identify the "BS beliefs" that keep you trapped in a cycle of pain and how to finally reach the "f**k it point" where real transformation begins. 


How to Identify BS Beliefs From Childhood

The messages you received as a child—whether intentional or unintentional—often become the core beliefs driving your adult behaviors. By examining your personal history and identifying "red flags," such as the urge to defend a parent who terrified you, you can begin to pull on the threads of these false belief systems.

Why You Recreate Toxic Relationships

We are often drawn to what is familiar, even if it is not life-giving. Many people find themselves in a loop of replicating childhood dynamics in their adult relationships, subconsciously trying to "fix" the original trauma to get a different outcome.

The Power of the "F**k It Point"

Change rarely occurs until the pain of staying the same becomes worse than the fear of the unknown. Reaching this "f**k it point" provides a sudden, profound clarity and the courage to make decisions that you lacked just twenty-four hours prior.

Grieving the Parent You Never Had

Healing requires a brutal willingness to grieve the death of the notion that you will ever get your needs met by a specific person. By putting your loss into words and allowing the rage and tears to come, you liberate yourself from a lifetime of trying to win the approval of someone who chooses not to give it.


Links & Networking

Disclaimer: The TURTZED Podcast reflects the opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. Content is for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare provider for advice tailored to your individual needs. For the full disclaimer, visit our website.

  • 00:00 – The heavy reality of "Soul Counseling"
  • 01:29 – Why behavior modification never sticks long-term
  • 03:11 – The "beauty of the truth" underneath the band-aid
  • 05:29 – Falling in love with the person you were meant to be
  • 07:39 – The autobiography: what you don't write matters most
  • 09:52 – Why defending your parents is often a red flag
  • 14:35 – The "physician's photo" and the lie of ugliness
  • 19:01 – Why we settle for "bastardized versions of love"
  • 21:26 – Reaching the "Fuck It Point" of no return
  • 24:30 – Why yoga and gratitude won't solve core trauma
  • 27:12 – The child's desperate quest for "Confirmation of Worth"
  • 30:44 – The difference between "incapable" and "choosing not to"
  • 34:55 – Why "Celebration of Life" ceremonies can rob you of healing
  • 38:19 – Why children (and adults) want to be heard, not fixed
  • 42:32 – The "Two-Week Contract": Letting relationships die to live
  • 45:46 – Sven flips the script: Charles faces his own "Hatred"
  • 51:07 – Scouring the "burnt-in" grease of the soul

]]> Wed, 18 Sep 2024 08:30:00 -0400 https://www.turtzed.com/podcast 53:45 Are you tired of living out a version of yourself that was never actually yours to begin with? Most people are unaware that childhood messages are "infecting or outright driving" every major life decision they make today.

In this episode, Sven Erlandson breaks down his "soul counseling" approach to help you extract the voices that aren't yours so your authentic self can finally bubble to the surface. You’ll learn how to identify the "BS beliefs" that keep you trapped in a cycle of pain and how to finally reach the "f**k it point" where real transformation begins. 


How to Identify BS Beliefs From Childhood

The messages you received as a child—whether intentional or unintentional—often become the core beliefs driving your adult behaviors. By examining your personal history and identifying "red flags," such as the urge to defend a parent who terrified you, you can begin to pull on the threads of these false belief systems.

Why You Recreate Toxic Relationships

We are often drawn to what is familiar, even if it is not life-giving. Many people find themselves in a loop of replicating childhood dynamics in their adult relationships, subconsciously trying to "fix" the original trauma to get a different outcome.

The Power of the "F**k It Point"

Change rarely occurs until the pain of staying the same becomes worse than the fear of the unknown. Reaching this "f**k it point" provides a sudden, profound clarity and the courage to make decisions that you lacked just twenty-four hours prior.

Grieving the Parent You Never Had

Healing requires a brutal willingness to grieve the death of the notion that you will ever get your needs met by a specific person. By putting your loss into words and allowing the rage and tears to come, you liberate yourself from a lifetime of trying to win the approval of someone who chooses not to give it.


Links & Networking

Disclaimer: The TURTZED Podcast reflects the opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. Content is for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare provider for advice tailored to your individual needs. For the full disclaimer, visit our website.

  • 00:00 – The heavy reality of "Soul Counseling"
  • 01:29 – Why behavior modification never sticks long-term
  • 03:11 – The "beauty of the truth" underneath the band-aid
  • 05:29 – Falling in love with the person you were meant to be
  • 07:39 – The autobiography: what you don't write matters most
  • 09:52 – Why defending your parents is often a red flag
  • 14:35 – The "physician's photo" and the lie of ugliness
  • 19:01 – Why we settle for "bastardized versions of love"
  • 21:26 – Reaching the "Fuck It Point" of no return
  • 24:30 – Why yoga and gratitude won't solve core trauma
  • 27:12 – The child's desperate quest for "Confirmation of Worth"
  • 30:44 – The difference between "incapable" and "choosing not to"
  • 34:55 – Why "Celebration of Life" ceremonies can rob you of healing
  • 38:19 – Why children (and adults) want to be heard, not fixed
  • 42:32 – The "Two-Week Contract": Letting relationships die to live
  • 45:46 – Sven flips the script: Charles faces his own "Hatred"
  • 51:07 – Scouring the "burnt-in" grease of the soul

]]> Are you tired of living out a version of yourself that was never actually yours to begin with? Most people are unaware that childhood messages are "infecting or outright driving" every major life decision they make today.

In this episode, Sven Erlandson breaks down his "soul counseling" approach to help you extract the voices that aren't yours so your authentic self can finally bubble to the surface. You’ll learn how to identify the "BS beliefs" that keep you trapped in a cycle of pain and how to finally reach the "f**k it point" where real transformation begins. 


How to Identify BS Beliefs From Childhood

The messages you received as a child—whether intentional or unintentional—often become the core beliefs driving your adult behaviors. By examining your personal history and identifying "red flags," such as the urge to defend a parent who terrified you, you can begin to pull on the threads of these false belief systems.

Why You Recreate Toxic Relationships

We are often drawn to what is familiar, even if it is not life-giving. Many people find themselves in a loop of replicating childhood dynamics in their adult relationships, subconsciously trying to "fix" the original trauma to get a different outcome.

The Power of the "F**k It Point"

Change rarely occurs until the pain of staying the same becomes worse than the fear of the unknown. Reaching this "f**k it point" provides a sudden, profound clarity and the courage to make decisions that you lacked just twenty-four hours prior.

Grieving the Parent You Never Had

Healing requires a brutal willingness to grieve the death of the notion that you will ever get your needs met by a specific person. By putting your loss into words and allowing the rage and tears to come, you liberate yourself from a lifetime of trying to win the approval of someone who chooses not to give it.


Links & Networking

Disclaimer: The TURTZED Podcast reflects the opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. Content is for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare provider for advice tailored to your individual needs. For the full disclaimer, visit our website.

  • 00:00 – The heavy reality of "Soul Counseling"
  • 01:29 – Why behavior modification never sticks long-term
  • 03:11 – The "beauty of the truth" underneath the band-aid
  • 05:29 – Falling in love with the person you were meant to be
  • 07:39 – The autobiography: what you don't write matters most
  • 09:52 – Why defending your parents is often a red flag
  • 14:35 – The "physician's photo" and the lie of ugliness
  • 19:01 – Why we settle for "bastardized versions of love"
  • 21:26 – Reaching the "Fuck It Point" of no return
  • 24:30 – Why yoga and gratitude won't solve core trauma
  • 27:12 – The child's desperate quest for "Confirmation of Worth"
  • 30:44 – The difference between "incapable" and "choosing not to"
  • 34:55 – Why "Celebration of Life" ceremonies can rob you of healing
  • 38:19 – Why children (and adults) want to be heard, not fixed
  • 42:32 – The "Two-Week Contract": Letting relationships die to live
  • 45:46 – Sven flips the script: Charles faces his own "Hatred"
  • 51:07 – Scouring the "burnt-in" grease of the soul

]]> true full 18 <![CDATA[Overcoming Imposter Syndrome in Entrepreneurship | Ep. 17]]> How do you keep moving forward when you wake up every single day feeling like a total fraud? Overcoming imposter syndrome in entrepreneurship isn't about the absence of fear, but the willingness to stay present while your hands are shaking on the wheel.

In this special solo-style episode, Charles Turtz steps into the "hot seat" as his production team flips the script, asking the difficult questions he usually reserves for guests. Charles shares his raw transformation from a structured sales career to the unpredictable world of creative entrepreneurship, revealing how a pivotal childhood trauma involving a fire alarm led him to shut down for decades—and how he finally found the courage to speak his truth on camera. Listeners will learn how to reframe mistakes as growth, bridge the gap between technical planning and emotional execution, and use self-reflection to build a life of radical authenticity.


How to Reframe Imposter Syndrome as Learning

Instead of viewing "faking it" as a deficit, recognize that doing something new naturally triggers a sense of being an imposter. The breakthrough happens when you shift your focus from "perfection" to "vision," treating every mistake as a data point for your future growth rather than a personal failure.

Why Emotional Intelligence (EQ) Is the Key to Execution

While your IQ helps you build the plan and prep for the path ahead, it is your EQ that allows you to execute in the moment. Especially in high-stakes environments like interviews or sales, the ability to read body language and stay grounded in the present is what actually pushes a project over the finish line.

The Role of Reflection in Personal Success

Meaningful growth requires looking back at both your wins and your losses without diminishing either. By reflecting on why you reacted a certain way to a challenge or how you achieved a specific goal, you create a repeatable blueprint for success and ensure you don't carry the same "burdens" into your next venture.


Links & Networking

Disclaimer: The TURTZED Podcast reflects the opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. Content is for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare provider for advice tailored to your individual needs. For the full disclaimer, visit our website.

  • 00:00 – The "Hot Seat" commitment
  • 00:59 – Why I agreed to guest questions
  • 02:19 – The one question I was afraid to ask
  • 03:39 – The "What the f*** am I doing?" morning routine
  • 04:43 – Transitioning from sales structure to creative chaos
  • 05:18 – The "Faking it till you make it" reality
  • 06:15 – Why looking at a camera feels like a hurdle
  • 07:33 – The "Eggshell" origin of big-picture thinking
  • 09:15 – The "Backwards is Inauthentic" realization
  • 11:09 – Why you might be diminishing your own success
  • 12:30 – The dark places where reflection feels impossible
  • 13:35 – Knowing when you aren't ready for feedback
  • 14:03 – Why IQ is the plan but EQ is the execution
  • 15:55 – The "Point Blank" reason for this podcast
  • 16:54 – The 7-year-old and the fire alarm incident
  • 18:34 – A commitment to 110% authenticity

]]> Wed, 11 Sep 2024 08:30:00 -0400 https://www.turtzed.com/podcast 21:18 How do you keep moving forward when you wake up every single day feeling like a total fraud? Overcoming imposter syndrome in entrepreneurship isn't about the absence of fear, but the willingness to stay present while your hands are shaking on the wheel.

In this special solo-style episode, Charles Turtz steps into the "hot seat" as his production team flips the script, asking the difficult questions he usually reserves for guests. Charles shares his raw transformation from a structured sales career to the unpredictable world of creative entrepreneurship, revealing how a pivotal childhood trauma involving a fire alarm led him to shut down for decades—and how he finally found the courage to speak his truth on camera. Listeners will learn how to reframe mistakes as growth, bridge the gap between technical planning and emotional execution, and use self-reflection to build a life of radical authenticity.


How to Reframe Imposter Syndrome as Learning

Instead of viewing "faking it" as a deficit, recognize that doing something new naturally triggers a sense of being an imposter. The breakthrough happens when you shift your focus from "perfection" to "vision," treating every mistake as a data point for your future growth rather than a personal failure.

Why Emotional Intelligence (EQ) Is the Key to Execution

While your IQ helps you build the plan and prep for the path ahead, it is your EQ that allows you to execute in the moment. Especially in high-stakes environments like interviews or sales, the ability to read body language and stay grounded in the present is what actually pushes a project over the finish line.

The Role of Reflection in Personal Success

Meaningful growth requires looking back at both your wins and your losses without diminishing either. By reflecting on why you reacted a certain way to a challenge or how you achieved a specific goal, you create a repeatable blueprint for success and ensure you don't carry the same "burdens" into your next venture.


Links & Networking

Disclaimer: The TURTZED Podcast reflects the opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. Content is for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare provider for advice tailored to your individual needs. For the full disclaimer, visit our website.

  • 00:00 – The "Hot Seat" commitment
  • 00:59 – Why I agreed to guest questions
  • 02:19 – The one question I was afraid to ask
  • 03:39 – The "What the f*** am I doing?" morning routine
  • 04:43 – Transitioning from sales structure to creative chaos
  • 05:18 – The "Faking it till you make it" reality
  • 06:15 – Why looking at a camera feels like a hurdle
  • 07:33 – The "Eggshell" origin of big-picture thinking
  • 09:15 – The "Backwards is Inauthentic" realization
  • 11:09 – Why you might be diminishing your own success
  • 12:30 – The dark places where reflection feels impossible
  • 13:35 – Knowing when you aren't ready for feedback
  • 14:03 – Why IQ is the plan but EQ is the execution
  • 15:55 – The "Point Blank" reason for this podcast
  • 16:54 – The 7-year-old and the fire alarm incident
  • 18:34 – A commitment to 110% authenticity

]]> How do you keep moving forward when you wake up every single day feeling like a total fraud? Overcoming imposter syndrome in entrepreneurship isn't about the absence of fear, but the willingness to stay present while your hands are shaking on the wheel.

In this special solo-style episode, Charles Turtz steps into the "hot seat" as his production team flips the script, asking the difficult questions he usually reserves for guests. Charles shares his raw transformation from a structured sales career to the unpredictable world of creative entrepreneurship, revealing how a pivotal childhood trauma involving a fire alarm led him to shut down for decades—and how he finally found the courage to speak his truth on camera. Listeners will learn how to reframe mistakes as growth, bridge the gap between technical planning and emotional execution, and use self-reflection to build a life of radical authenticity.


How to Reframe Imposter Syndrome as Learning

Instead of viewing "faking it" as a deficit, recognize that doing something new naturally triggers a sense of being an imposter. The breakthrough happens when you shift your focus from "perfection" to "vision," treating every mistake as a data point for your future growth rather than a personal failure.

Why Emotional Intelligence (EQ) Is the Key to Execution

While your IQ helps you build the plan and prep for the path ahead, it is your EQ that allows you to execute in the moment. Especially in high-stakes environments like interviews or sales, the ability to read body language and stay grounded in the present is what actually pushes a project over the finish line.

The Role of Reflection in Personal Success

Meaningful growth requires looking back at both your wins and your losses without diminishing either. By reflecting on why you reacted a certain way to a challenge or how you achieved a specific goal, you create a repeatable blueprint for success and ensure you don't carry the same "burdens" into your next venture.


Links & Networking

Disclaimer: The TURTZED Podcast reflects the opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. Content is for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare provider for advice tailored to your individual needs. For the full disclaimer, visit our website.

  • 00:00 – The "Hot Seat" commitment
  • 00:59 – Why I agreed to guest questions
  • 02:19 – The one question I was afraid to ask
  • 03:39 – The "What the f*** am I doing?" morning routine
  • 04:43 – Transitioning from sales structure to creative chaos
  • 05:18 – The "Faking it till you make it" reality
  • 06:15 – Why looking at a camera feels like a hurdle
  • 07:33 – The "Eggshell" origin of big-picture thinking
  • 09:15 – The "Backwards is Inauthentic" realization
  • 11:09 – Why you might be diminishing your own success
  • 12:30 – The dark places where reflection feels impossible
  • 13:35 – Knowing when you aren't ready for feedback
  • 14:03 – Why IQ is the plan but EQ is the execution
  • 15:55 – The "Point Blank" reason for this podcast
  • 16:54 – The 7-year-old and the fire alarm incident
  • 18:34 – A commitment to 110% authenticity

]]> true full 17 <![CDATA[Taylor Armstrong: Domestic Abuse Recovery & The "Slow Burn" of Control | Ep. 16]]> How do you find the strength to leave when the world thinks you’re living a fairy tale? Taylor Armstrong’s domestic abuse journey is a harrowing yet ultimately triumphant look at the reality behind the "Golden Gates" of Beverly Hills. From her earliest memories of childhood violence to the "ghost" of herself captured on national television, Taylor pulls back the curtain on the silent epidemic of domestic violence that doesn't always leave a physical mark.

In this raw and deeply empathetic conversation, Taylor Armstrong shares the profound transformation from being a "shell of a person" to becoming a global advocate for survivors. Listeners will learn how to identify the subtle "boiling water" of emotional and financial control, the complexities of protecting children within toxic environments, and the undeniable proof that a vibrant "life after" is waiting on the other side of tragedy.

How to Identify the "Slow Burn" of Abuse

Abuse rarely starts with violence; it begins as a "slow burn" of incremental control where the victim doesn't realize the water is boiling until it's too late. Taylor explains how abusers use charisma and the "knight in shining armor" effect to isolate and dominate their partners.

Recognizing the Signs of Financial Control

Financial abuse is a powerful tool for isolation, often disguised as "taking care" of a partner to make them completely dependent. Even with access to luxury, the lack of cash and the use of credit cards as tracking devices can create a "black AmEx trap" that prevents escape.

Healing the Cycle of Generational Trauma

Growing up in a household with domestic violence can create deep-seated wounds that impact self-esteem and partner selection later in life. Taylor discusses the importance of breaking this cycle by finding internal validation rather than seeking to fill a void through codependent relationships.


Links & Networking

Disclaimer: The TURTZED Podcast reflects the opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. Content is for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare provider for advice tailored to your individual needs. For the full disclaimer, visit: https://www.turtzed.com/disclaimer

  • 00:00 – Introduction: The Grace and Vulnerability of Taylor Armstrong
  • 02:12 – A Child’s First Memory: Witnessing Violence at Five Years Old
  • 04:09 – Filling the Void: Seeking Validation and Early Codependency
  • 10:46 – The Bizarre Reappearance of Taylor’s Father at Graduation
  • 13:37 – Generational Trauma: The Link Between Childhood and Adulthood
  • 15:11 – The "Knight in Shining Armor" and the Trap of Perfection
  • 18:20 – The Wedding Day Realization: "This is a Huge Mistake"
  • 20:19 – The Boiling Frog: How Abuse Escalates Behind Closed Doors
  • 23:22 – It’s Still Abuse: Why It Doesn't Have to Be Physical to Hurt
  • 28:45 – A Five-Year-Old’s Wisdom: Why Kennedy Knew the Truth
  • 33:27 – The Black AmEx Trap: Surviving Financial Control
  • 35:29 – Catharsis in Vail: The Sobbing After Hitting "Send"
  • 43:36 – 110 Days on the Mountain: Reclaiming Autonomy Through Skiing
  • 50:33 – Stepping Out of the Darkness: Finding the Light After Tragedy
  • 57:58 – Turning the Tables: Taylor Asks Charlie About His Healing Journey
]]> Wed, 04 Sep 2024 08:30:00 -0400 https://www.turtzed.com/podcast 1:01:21 How do you find the strength to leave when the world thinks you’re living a fairy tale? Taylor Armstrong’s domestic abuse journey is a harrowing yet ultimately triumphant look at the reality behind the "Golden Gates" of Beverly Hills. From her earliest memories of childhood violence to the "ghost" of herself captured on national television, Taylor pulls back the curtain on the silent epidemic of domestic violence that doesn't always leave a physical mark.

In this raw and deeply empathetic conversation, Taylor Armstrong shares the profound transformation from being a "shell of a person" to becoming a global advocate for survivors. Listeners will learn how to identify the subtle "boiling water" of emotional and financial control, the complexities of protecting children within toxic environments, and the undeniable proof that a vibrant "life after" is waiting on the other side of tragedy.

How to Identify the "Slow Burn" of Abuse

Abuse rarely starts with violence; it begins as a "slow burn" of incremental control where the victim doesn't realize the water is boiling until it's too late. Taylor explains how abusers use charisma and the "knight in shining armor" effect to isolate and dominate their partners.

Recognizing the Signs of Financial Control

Financial abuse is a powerful tool for isolation, often disguised as "taking care" of a partner to make them completely dependent. Even with access to luxury, the lack of cash and the use of credit cards as tracking devices can create a "black AmEx trap" that prevents escape.

Healing the Cycle of Generational Trauma

Growing up in a household with domestic violence can create deep-seated wounds that impact self-esteem and partner selection later in life. Taylor discusses the importance of breaking this cycle by finding internal validation rather than seeking to fill a void through codependent relationships.


Links & Networking

Disclaimer: The TURTZED Podcast reflects the opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. Content is for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare provider for advice tailored to your individual needs. For the full disclaimer, visit: https://www.turtzed.com/disclaimer

  • 00:00 – Introduction: The Grace and Vulnerability of Taylor Armstrong
  • 02:12 – A Child’s First Memory: Witnessing Violence at Five Years Old
  • 04:09 – Filling the Void: Seeking Validation and Early Codependency
  • 10:46 – The Bizarre Reappearance of Taylor’s Father at Graduation
  • 13:37 – Generational Trauma: The Link Between Childhood and Adulthood
  • 15:11 – The "Knight in Shining Armor" and the Trap of Perfection
  • 18:20 – The Wedding Day Realization: "This is a Huge Mistake"
  • 20:19 – The Boiling Frog: How Abuse Escalates Behind Closed Doors
  • 23:22 – It’s Still Abuse: Why It Doesn't Have to Be Physical to Hurt
  • 28:45 – A Five-Year-Old’s Wisdom: Why Kennedy Knew the Truth
  • 33:27 – The Black AmEx Trap: Surviving Financial Control
  • 35:29 – Catharsis in Vail: The Sobbing After Hitting "Send"
  • 43:36 – 110 Days on the Mountain: Reclaiming Autonomy Through Skiing
  • 50:33 – Stepping Out of the Darkness: Finding the Light After Tragedy
  • 57:58 – Turning the Tables: Taylor Asks Charlie About His Healing Journey
]]> How do you find the strength to leave when the world thinks you’re living a fairy tale? Taylor Armstrong’s domestic abuse journey is a harrowing yet ultimately triumphant look at the reality behind the "Golden Gates" of Beverly Hills. From her earliest memories of childhood violence to the "ghost" of herself captured on national television, Taylor pulls back the curtain on the silent epidemic of domestic violence that doesn't always leave a physical mark.

In this raw and deeply empathetic conversation, Taylor Armstrong shares the profound transformation from being a "shell of a person" to becoming a global advocate for survivors. Listeners will learn how to identify the subtle "boiling water" of emotional and financial control, the complexities of protecting children within toxic environments, and the undeniable proof that a vibrant "life after" is waiting on the other side of tragedy.

How to Identify the "Slow Burn" of Abuse

Abuse rarely starts with violence; it begins as a "slow burn" of incremental control where the victim doesn't realize the water is boiling until it's too late. Taylor explains how abusers use charisma and the "knight in shining armor" effect to isolate and dominate their partners.

Recognizing the Signs of Financial Control

Financial abuse is a powerful tool for isolation, often disguised as "taking care" of a partner to make them completely dependent. Even with access to luxury, the lack of cash and the use of credit cards as tracking devices can create a "black AmEx trap" that prevents escape.

Healing the Cycle of Generational Trauma

Growing up in a household with domestic violence can create deep-seated wounds that impact self-esteem and partner selection later in life. Taylor discusses the importance of breaking this cycle by finding internal validation rather than seeking to fill a void through codependent relationships.


Links & Networking

Disclaimer: The TURTZED Podcast reflects the opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. Content is for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare provider for advice tailored to your individual needs. For the full disclaimer, visit: https://www.turtzed.com/disclaimer

  • 00:00 – Introduction: The Grace and Vulnerability of Taylor Armstrong
  • 02:12 – A Child’s First Memory: Witnessing Violence at Five Years Old
  • 04:09 – Filling the Void: Seeking Validation and Early Codependency
  • 10:46 – The Bizarre Reappearance of Taylor’s Father at Graduation
  • 13:37 – Generational Trauma: The Link Between Childhood and Adulthood
  • 15:11 – The "Knight in Shining Armor" and the Trap of Perfection
  • 18:20 – The Wedding Day Realization: "This is a Huge Mistake"
  • 20:19 – The Boiling Frog: How Abuse Escalates Behind Closed Doors
  • 23:22 – It’s Still Abuse: Why It Doesn't Have to Be Physical to Hurt
  • 28:45 – A Five-Year-Old’s Wisdom: Why Kennedy Knew the Truth
  • 33:27 – The Black AmEx Trap: Surviving Financial Control
  • 35:29 – Catharsis in Vail: The Sobbing After Hitting "Send"
  • 43:36 – 110 Days on the Mountain: Reclaiming Autonomy Through Skiing
  • 50:33 – Stepping Out of the Darkness: Finding the Light After Tragedy
  • 57:58 – Turning the Tables: Taylor Asks Charlie About His Healing Journey
]]> true full 16 <![CDATA[Katie Veneziale: Overcoming PCOS and Medical Gaslighting | Ep. 15]]> How many times have you been told by a professional that your symptoms were "just your weight," only to find out there was a missing puzzle piece all along? Self-advocacy in healthcare for women is not just a buzzword; it is a life-saving necessity in a system that often prioritizes rubrics over individual realities.

In this raw and transformative episode, Katie Veneziale returns to share her incredible journey of losing over 50% of her body weight after years of being dismissed by the medical community. Katie Veneziale reveals how she navigated the grueling process of weight loss surgery, the shock of a PCOS diagnosis, and the resilience required to find a doctor who finally said, "I’m going to help you."

How to Overcome Medical Gaslighting

If your doctor's advice feels like a "dead end," it's time to seek a second opinion. Katie shares how she transitioned from "not wanting to rock the boat" to becoming the "pain in the ass" patient who demands answers.

Understanding PCOS and Insulin Resistance

Weight loss isn't always about willpower; sometimes, it's about biology. Katie explains how Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome (PCOS) forced her body to store fuel as fat rather than burning it, creating a "weird puzzle" that standard dieting couldn't solve.

The Emotional Reality of Weight Loss Surgery

Surgery is a lifestyle shift, not a magic pill or a quick fix. Katie dives into the battery of psychological tests, insurance hurdles, and the emotional "unlearning" required to see yourself differently after losing nearly 200 pounds.

Navigating High-Risk Pregnancy After Surgery

What happens when you defy a 1% chance of conception? Katie discusses the "miracle" and the terror of getting pregnant just one year after surgery, managing gestational diabetes, and the anxiety of weight gain during a high-risk journey.


Links & Networking

Disclaimer: The TURTZED Podcast reflects the opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. Content is for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare provider for advice tailored to your individual needs. For the full disclaimer, visit our website.


  • 00:00 – The weight loss journey that defied a 1% chance
  • 01:22 – Why doctors told her "it's going to be a harder road"
  • 03:21 – The "weird puzzle" of doing everything right without results
  • 04:39 – The heartbreak of the first real "roadblock" to motherhood
  • 08:07 – Being "too healthy" for a diagnosis
  • 09:12 – When your body decides to "save it for later"
  • 11:37 – The hidden mental hurdles of weight loss surgery
  • 14:15 – Why standard therapy questions often miss the mark
  • 18:42 – The exhaustion of being "the weight patient" at every flu visit
  • 21:05 – The validation that finally made the decision for her
  • 22:19 – The phone call that changed her "impossible" reality
  • 25:38 – Why the weight came back after the miracle
  • 29:03 – The five words from a doctor that caused a total breakdown
  • 32:33 – The "missing puzzle piece" that led to a 190lb loss
  • 34:15 – Why you must be "the pain in the ass" patient
  • 41:24 – Charles's secret: The trauma response turned career fuel
]]> Wed, 28 Aug 2024 08:30:00 -0400 https://www.turtzed.com/podcast 44:58 How many times have you been told by a professional that your symptoms were "just your weight," only to find out there was a missing puzzle piece all along? Self-advocacy in healthcare for women is not just a buzzword; it is a life-saving necessity in a system that often prioritizes rubrics over individual realities.

In this raw and transformative episode, Katie Veneziale returns to share her incredible journey of losing over 50% of her body weight after years of being dismissed by the medical community. Katie Veneziale reveals how she navigated the grueling process of weight loss surgery, the shock of a PCOS diagnosis, and the resilience required to find a doctor who finally said, "I’m going to help you."

How to Overcome Medical Gaslighting

If your doctor's advice feels like a "dead end," it's time to seek a second opinion. Katie shares how she transitioned from "not wanting to rock the boat" to becoming the "pain in the ass" patient who demands answers.

Understanding PCOS and Insulin Resistance

Weight loss isn't always about willpower; sometimes, it's about biology. Katie explains how Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome (PCOS) forced her body to store fuel as fat rather than burning it, creating a "weird puzzle" that standard dieting couldn't solve.

The Emotional Reality of Weight Loss Surgery

Surgery is a lifestyle shift, not a magic pill or a quick fix. Katie dives into the battery of psychological tests, insurance hurdles, and the emotional "unlearning" required to see yourself differently after losing nearly 200 pounds.

Navigating High-Risk Pregnancy After Surgery

What happens when you defy a 1% chance of conception? Katie discusses the "miracle" and the terror of getting pregnant just one year after surgery, managing gestational diabetes, and the anxiety of weight gain during a high-risk journey.


Links & Networking

Disclaimer: The TURTZED Podcast reflects the opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. Content is for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare provider for advice tailored to your individual needs. For the full disclaimer, visit our website.


  • 00:00 – The weight loss journey that defied a 1% chance
  • 01:22 – Why doctors told her "it's going to be a harder road"
  • 03:21 – The "weird puzzle" of doing everything right without results
  • 04:39 – The heartbreak of the first real "roadblock" to motherhood
  • 08:07 – Being "too healthy" for a diagnosis
  • 09:12 – When your body decides to "save it for later"
  • 11:37 – The hidden mental hurdles of weight loss surgery
  • 14:15 – Why standard therapy questions often miss the mark
  • 18:42 – The exhaustion of being "the weight patient" at every flu visit
  • 21:05 – The validation that finally made the decision for her
  • 22:19 – The phone call that changed her "impossible" reality
  • 25:38 – Why the weight came back after the miracle
  • 29:03 – The five words from a doctor that caused a total breakdown
  • 32:33 – The "missing puzzle piece" that led to a 190lb loss
  • 34:15 – Why you must be "the pain in the ass" patient
  • 41:24 – Charles's secret: The trauma response turned career fuel
]]> How many times have you been told by a professional that your symptoms were "just your weight," only to find out there was a missing puzzle piece all along? Self-advocacy in healthcare for women is not just a buzzword; it is a life-saving necessity in a system that often prioritizes rubrics over individual realities.

In this raw and transformative episode, Katie Veneziale returns to share her incredible journey of losing over 50% of her body weight after years of being dismissed by the medical community. Katie Veneziale reveals how she navigated the grueling process of weight loss surgery, the shock of a PCOS diagnosis, and the resilience required to find a doctor who finally said, "I’m going to help you."

How to Overcome Medical Gaslighting

If your doctor's advice feels like a "dead end," it's time to seek a second opinion. Katie shares how she transitioned from "not wanting to rock the boat" to becoming the "pain in the ass" patient who demands answers.

Understanding PCOS and Insulin Resistance

Weight loss isn't always about willpower; sometimes, it's about biology. Katie explains how Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome (PCOS) forced her body to store fuel as fat rather than burning it, creating a "weird puzzle" that standard dieting couldn't solve.

The Emotional Reality of Weight Loss Surgery

Surgery is a lifestyle shift, not a magic pill or a quick fix. Katie dives into the battery of psychological tests, insurance hurdles, and the emotional "unlearning" required to see yourself differently after losing nearly 200 pounds.

Navigating High-Risk Pregnancy After Surgery

What happens when you defy a 1% chance of conception? Katie discusses the "miracle" and the terror of getting pregnant just one year after surgery, managing gestational diabetes, and the anxiety of weight gain during a high-risk journey.


Links & Networking

Disclaimer: The TURTZED Podcast reflects the opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. Content is for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare provider for advice tailored to your individual needs. For the full disclaimer, visit our website.


  • 00:00 – The weight loss journey that defied a 1% chance
  • 01:22 – Why doctors told her "it's going to be a harder road"
  • 03:21 – The "weird puzzle" of doing everything right without results
  • 04:39 – The heartbreak of the first real "roadblock" to motherhood
  • 08:07 – Being "too healthy" for a diagnosis
  • 09:12 – When your body decides to "save it for later"
  • 11:37 – The hidden mental hurdles of weight loss surgery
  • 14:15 – Why standard therapy questions often miss the mark
  • 18:42 – The exhaustion of being "the weight patient" at every flu visit
  • 21:05 – The validation that finally made the decision for her
  • 22:19 – The phone call that changed her "impossible" reality
  • 25:38 – Why the weight came back after the miracle
  • 29:03 – The five words from a doctor that caused a total breakdown
  • 32:33 – The "missing puzzle piece" that led to a 190lb loss
  • 34:15 – Why you must be "the pain in the ass" patient
  • 41:24 – Charles's secret: The trauma response turned career fuel
]]> true full 15 <![CDATA[Caly Bevier: The Truth Behind My America's Got Talent Story | Ep. 14]]> How do you find your voice when a doctor tells you that your life-threatening tumor is actually a pregnancy? The Caly Bevier America's Got Talent story isn’t just about a Golden Buzzer; it’s about a fifteen-year-old girl who had to fight for her life before she ever fought for a spot on the stage.

In this episode, Caly Bevier shares the raw details of her stage three ovarian cancer diagnosis and the "toxic positivity" she used to survive. She discusses the shift from singing other people's anthems to finding her own authentic sound through songwriting as a tool for therapy and trauma recovery.

How to Advocate for Yourself After a Medical Misdiagnosis

Caly describes the "sassy and judgmental" moment a pediatrician misidentified her stage three cancer as a pregnancy, emphasizing the importance of trusting your own body when you aren't being heard.

The Emotional Weight of Being a "Cancer Fighter"

Explore the pressure of living up to an "inspiring" public persona and why Caly eventually chose to embrace her darker emotions and "heart hurt" to find genuine peace.

Using Music as a Tool for Trauma Recovery

From My Chemical Romance to her own track "Tread Lightly," Caly explains how melodies allow her to process scenarios and emotions that she otherwise shuts off in daily life.


Links & Networking

Disclaimer: The TURTZED Podcast reflects the opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. Content is for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare provider for advice tailored to your individual needs. For the full disclaimer, visit our website.


  • 00:00 – The Tik Tok viral moment that sparked a reunion.
  • 02:47 – When "abs" turn out to be a protruding tumor.
  • 04:15 – The "sassy" doctor who insisted on a virgin birth.
  • 05:40 – Why the blood tests showed a six-month pregnancy.
  • 07:10 – The only thing a 15-year-old hears during a cancer diagnosis.
  • 08:59 – The My Chemical Romance song that became a lifeline.
  • 11:37 – The "Never Give Up" philosophy inherited from Dad.
  • 14:30 – What Simon Cowell said that changed everything.
  • 16:39 – Moving to LA in a 2002 yellow Bug.
  • 18:29 – "Butterfly Fly Away": A tearful goodbye to Ohio.
  • 20:21 – Breaking free from the "Inspiring Survivor" stereotype.
  • 24:33 – Why the algorithm is "Miss Sassy Pants."
  • 31:18 – Finding peace by "going under" the waves in Hawaii.
  • 36:49 – Living in the "End of Times": The weight of Jehovah's Witness trauma.
  • 43:59 – The high-stakes pain of an All-Star Cheerleading accident.
  • 47:47 – Why Taylor Swift's "Dear John" still triggers tears.

]]> Wed, 21 Aug 2024 08:30:00 -0400 https://www.turtzed.com/podcast 52:53 How do you find your voice when a doctor tells you that your life-threatening tumor is actually a pregnancy? The Caly Bevier America's Got Talent story isn’t just about a Golden Buzzer; it’s about a fifteen-year-old girl who had to fight for her life before she ever fought for a spot on the stage.

In this episode, Caly Bevier shares the raw details of her stage three ovarian cancer diagnosis and the "toxic positivity" she used to survive. She discusses the shift from singing other people's anthems to finding her own authentic sound through songwriting as a tool for therapy and trauma recovery.

How to Advocate for Yourself After a Medical Misdiagnosis

Caly describes the "sassy and judgmental" moment a pediatrician misidentified her stage three cancer as a pregnancy, emphasizing the importance of trusting your own body when you aren't being heard.

The Emotional Weight of Being a "Cancer Fighter"

Explore the pressure of living up to an "inspiring" public persona and why Caly eventually chose to embrace her darker emotions and "heart hurt" to find genuine peace.

Using Music as a Tool for Trauma Recovery

From My Chemical Romance to her own track "Tread Lightly," Caly explains how melodies allow her to process scenarios and emotions that she otherwise shuts off in daily life.


Links & Networking

Disclaimer: The TURTZED Podcast reflects the opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. Content is for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare provider for advice tailored to your individual needs. For the full disclaimer, visit our website.


  • 00:00 – The Tik Tok viral moment that sparked a reunion.
  • 02:47 – When "abs" turn out to be a protruding tumor.
  • 04:15 – The "sassy" doctor who insisted on a virgin birth.
  • 05:40 – Why the blood tests showed a six-month pregnancy.
  • 07:10 – The only thing a 15-year-old hears during a cancer diagnosis.
  • 08:59 – The My Chemical Romance song that became a lifeline.
  • 11:37 – The "Never Give Up" philosophy inherited from Dad.
  • 14:30 – What Simon Cowell said that changed everything.
  • 16:39 – Moving to LA in a 2002 yellow Bug.
  • 18:29 – "Butterfly Fly Away": A tearful goodbye to Ohio.
  • 20:21 – Breaking free from the "Inspiring Survivor" stereotype.
  • 24:33 – Why the algorithm is "Miss Sassy Pants."
  • 31:18 – Finding peace by "going under" the waves in Hawaii.
  • 36:49 – Living in the "End of Times": The weight of Jehovah's Witness trauma.
  • 43:59 – The high-stakes pain of an All-Star Cheerleading accident.
  • 47:47 – Why Taylor Swift's "Dear John" still triggers tears.

]]> How do you find your voice when a doctor tells you that your life-threatening tumor is actually a pregnancy? The Caly Bevier America's Got Talent story isn’t just about a Golden Buzzer; it’s about a fifteen-year-old girl who had to fight for her life before she ever fought for a spot on the stage.

In this episode, Caly Bevier shares the raw details of her stage three ovarian cancer diagnosis and the "toxic positivity" she used to survive. She discusses the shift from singing other people's anthems to finding her own authentic sound through songwriting as a tool for therapy and trauma recovery.

How to Advocate for Yourself After a Medical Misdiagnosis

Caly describes the "sassy and judgmental" moment a pediatrician misidentified her stage three cancer as a pregnancy, emphasizing the importance of trusting your own body when you aren't being heard.

The Emotional Weight of Being a "Cancer Fighter"

Explore the pressure of living up to an "inspiring" public persona and why Caly eventually chose to embrace her darker emotions and "heart hurt" to find genuine peace.

Using Music as a Tool for Trauma Recovery

From My Chemical Romance to her own track "Tread Lightly," Caly explains how melodies allow her to process scenarios and emotions that she otherwise shuts off in daily life.


Links & Networking

Disclaimer: The TURTZED Podcast reflects the opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. Content is for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare provider for advice tailored to your individual needs. For the full disclaimer, visit our website.


  • 00:00 – The Tik Tok viral moment that sparked a reunion.
  • 02:47 – When "abs" turn out to be a protruding tumor.
  • 04:15 – The "sassy" doctor who insisted on a virgin birth.
  • 05:40 – Why the blood tests showed a six-month pregnancy.
  • 07:10 – The only thing a 15-year-old hears during a cancer diagnosis.
  • 08:59 – The My Chemical Romance song that became a lifeline.
  • 11:37 – The "Never Give Up" philosophy inherited from Dad.
  • 14:30 – What Simon Cowell said that changed everything.
  • 16:39 – Moving to LA in a 2002 yellow Bug.
  • 18:29 – "Butterfly Fly Away": A tearful goodbye to Ohio.
  • 20:21 – Breaking free from the "Inspiring Survivor" stereotype.
  • 24:33 – Why the algorithm is "Miss Sassy Pants."
  • 31:18 – Finding peace by "going under" the waves in Hawaii.
  • 36:49 – Living in the "End of Times": The weight of Jehovah's Witness trauma.
  • 43:59 – The high-stakes pain of an All-Star Cheerleading accident.
  • 47:47 – Why Taylor Swift's "Dear John" still triggers tears.

]]> true full 14 <![CDATA[Casey Rieger: High Functioning Depression & The "Mask" of Success | Ep. 13]]> How do you keep showing up when your internal world feels like it’s flatlining? Living with high functioning depression often means balancing high-stakes professional goals with a private, ebbing flow of darkness that most people never see. In this episode, we dive into the "gray scale" of mental health and why the most "bubbly" people in the room are often the ones fighting the hardest battles in silence.

Join us as Casey Rieger shares her journey from high school heartbreak to working on The Tonight Show and the NBA, all while managing a baseline of depression. She opens up about the exhaustion of maintaining a "great first impression" and the transformative power of finally letting her inner circle see the "fragile" 5% she used to hide.

How to Identify High Functioning Depression

High functioning depression doesn't always look like staying in bed; it often manifests as a "flatline" feeling where even incredible life achievements feel hollow. Casey Rieger explains how she was able to thrive in high-pressure environments like the Olympics while simultaneously feeling a deep, persistent low.

Breaking the Cycle of Childhood Conflict Avoidance

When children grow up in environments where emotions are "swept under the rug," they often equate their own heavy feelings with shame. This episode explores how a lack of resolution in childhood can lead to "shutting down" during adult conflicts as a way to protect one's peace.

Why "No One Is Thinking About You" Is a Superpower

The fear of being judged often prohibits people from taking leaps of faith or being authentic on social media. Casey discusses how realizing that everyone is consumed by their own drama and insecurities provides the ultimate freedom to exist without a mask.


Links & Networking

Disclaimer: The TURTZED Podcast reflects the opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. Content is for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare provider for advice tailored to your individual needs. For the full disclaimer, visit our website.


  • 00:01 – The "Cherry on Top" Connection
  • 01:05 – Why Your Triggers Play Out in Group Therapy
  • 02:45 – The High School Breakup That Opened the Floodgates
  • 04:30 – The Hidden "Bloodstream" of Early Depression
  • 06:10 – Running Dry Cleaning for Jimmy Fallon While Feeling "Flatline"
  • 07:40 – The Danger of the "Great First Impression" Mask
  • 09:30 – Escaping Life Through Reddit and 3-Hour Naps
  • 11:45 – The Junior Year Transfer and the Easy Trap of Isolation
  • 14:15 – Why Work Environments Can Actually Be a Lifeline
  • 18:00 – The "Secret Sauce" of Deflecting Deep Conversations
  • 21:30 – What Happens When You Finally Drop the Sarcasm
  • 24:00 – The 5% Darkness That Makes You Feel Unlovable
  • 27:30 – Why "New Day" is Not a Resolution
  • 31:45 – The Difficulty of Explaining a "Heavy Place" to Outsiders
  • 36:00 – Reframing Childhood Trauma as a Trigger, Not a Life Sentence
  • 40:00 – The "Simulation" Strategy for Posting on Social Media
  • 43:30 – A Superpower for the Scared: Why No One is Thinking About You
]]> Wed, 14 Aug 2024 08:30:00 -0400 https://www.turtzed.com/podcast 00:47:53 How do you keep showing up when your internal world feels like it’s flatlining? Living with high functioning depression often means balancing high-stakes professional goals with a private, ebbing flow of darkness that most people never see. In this episode, we dive into the "gray scale" of mental health and why the most "bubbly" people in the room are often the ones fighting the hardest battles in silence.

Join us as Casey Rieger shares her journey from high school heartbreak to working on The Tonight Show and the NBA, all while managing a baseline of depression. She opens up about the exhaustion of maintaining a "great first impression" and the transformative power of finally letting her inner circle see the "fragile" 5% she used to hide.

How to Identify High Functioning Depression

High functioning depression doesn't always look like staying in bed; it often manifests as a "flatline" feeling where even incredible life achievements feel hollow. Casey Rieger explains how she was able to thrive in high-pressure environments like the Olympics while simultaneously feeling a deep, persistent low.

Breaking the Cycle of Childhood Conflict Avoidance

When children grow up in environments where emotions are "swept under the rug," they often equate their own heavy feelings with shame. This episode explores how a lack of resolution in childhood can lead to "shutting down" during adult conflicts as a way to protect one's peace.

Why "No One Is Thinking About You" Is a Superpower

The fear of being judged often prohibits people from taking leaps of faith or being authentic on social media. Casey discusses how realizing that everyone is consumed by their own drama and insecurities provides the ultimate freedom to exist without a mask.


Links & Networking

Disclaimer: The TURTZED Podcast reflects the opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. Content is for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare provider for advice tailored to your individual needs. For the full disclaimer, visit our website.


  • 00:01 – The "Cherry on Top" Connection
  • 01:05 – Why Your Triggers Play Out in Group Therapy
  • 02:45 – The High School Breakup That Opened the Floodgates
  • 04:30 – The Hidden "Bloodstream" of Early Depression
  • 06:10 – Running Dry Cleaning for Jimmy Fallon While Feeling "Flatline"
  • 07:40 – The Danger of the "Great First Impression" Mask
  • 09:30 – Escaping Life Through Reddit and 3-Hour Naps
  • 11:45 – The Junior Year Transfer and the Easy Trap of Isolation
  • 14:15 – Why Work Environments Can Actually Be a Lifeline
  • 18:00 – The "Secret Sauce" of Deflecting Deep Conversations
  • 21:30 – What Happens When You Finally Drop the Sarcasm
  • 24:00 – The 5% Darkness That Makes You Feel Unlovable
  • 27:30 – Why "New Day" is Not a Resolution
  • 31:45 – The Difficulty of Explaining a "Heavy Place" to Outsiders
  • 36:00 – Reframing Childhood Trauma as a Trigger, Not a Life Sentence
  • 40:00 – The "Simulation" Strategy for Posting on Social Media
  • 43:30 – A Superpower for the Scared: Why No One is Thinking About You
]]> How do you keep showing up when your internal world feels like it’s flatlining? Living with high functioning depression often means balancing high-stakes professional goals with a private, ebbing flow of darkness that most people never see. In this episode, we dive into the "gray scale" of mental health and why the most "bubbly" people in the room are often the ones fighting the hardest battles in silence.

Join us as Casey Rieger shares her journey from high school heartbreak to working on The Tonight Show and the NBA, all while managing a baseline of depression. She opens up about the exhaustion of maintaining a "great first impression" and the transformative power of finally letting her inner circle see the "fragile" 5% she used to hide.

How to Identify High Functioning Depression

High functioning depression doesn't always look like staying in bed; it often manifests as a "flatline" feeling where even incredible life achievements feel hollow. Casey Rieger explains how she was able to thrive in high-pressure environments like the Olympics while simultaneously feeling a deep, persistent low.

Breaking the Cycle of Childhood Conflict Avoidance

When children grow up in environments where emotions are "swept under the rug," they often equate their own heavy feelings with shame. This episode explores how a lack of resolution in childhood can lead to "shutting down" during adult conflicts as a way to protect one's peace.

Why "No One Is Thinking About You" Is a Superpower

The fear of being judged often prohibits people from taking leaps of faith or being authentic on social media. Casey discusses how realizing that everyone is consumed by their own drama and insecurities provides the ultimate freedom to exist without a mask.


Links & Networking

Disclaimer: The TURTZED Podcast reflects the opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. Content is for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare provider for advice tailored to your individual needs. For the full disclaimer, visit our website.


  • 00:01 – The "Cherry on Top" Connection
  • 01:05 – Why Your Triggers Play Out in Group Therapy
  • 02:45 – The High School Breakup That Opened the Floodgates
  • 04:30 – The Hidden "Bloodstream" of Early Depression
  • 06:10 – Running Dry Cleaning for Jimmy Fallon While Feeling "Flatline"
  • 07:40 – The Danger of the "Great First Impression" Mask
  • 09:30 – Escaping Life Through Reddit and 3-Hour Naps
  • 11:45 – The Junior Year Transfer and the Easy Trap of Isolation
  • 14:15 – Why Work Environments Can Actually Be a Lifeline
  • 18:00 – The "Secret Sauce" of Deflecting Deep Conversations
  • 21:30 – What Happens When You Finally Drop the Sarcasm
  • 24:00 – The 5% Darkness That Makes You Feel Unlovable
  • 27:30 – Why "New Day" is Not a Resolution
  • 31:45 – The Difficulty of Explaining a "Heavy Place" to Outsiders
  • 36:00 – Reframing Childhood Trauma as a Trigger, Not a Life Sentence
  • 40:00 – The "Simulation" Strategy for Posting on Social Media
  • 43:30 – A Superpower for the Scared: Why No One is Thinking About You
]]> true full 13 <![CDATA[Adam Bevier: Firefighter RuPaul’s Drag Race Makeover & Allyship | Ep. 12]]> How does an Ohio firefighter from a town of 900 people end up winning a Firefighter RuPaul’s Drag Race Makeover challenge? It wasn’t just for the thrill of the stage—it was a radical act of love designed to show his children that he is their ultimate ally. In an industry defined by "manly men," Adam stepped into the fire of public judgment to prove that being unapologetically yourself is the bravest thing you can do.

In this episode, Adam Bevier shares the raw, emotional story of his daughter's "Hometown Buffet" coming out and the friction caused by his strict religious upbringing as a Jehovah’s Witness. Adam illustrates a powerful transformation from a man processing a shift in his family’s future to a fierce advocate for unconditional love, showing listeners how to bridge the gap between traditional backgrounds and modern acceptance.

How to Support LGBTQ+ Children as a Traditional Father

Adam discusses the "processing time" needed when a child comes out and why it is vital for parents to ensure their initial shock isn't mistaken for disappointment.

Bridging the Gap Between Religion and Unconditional Love

Raised as a Jehovah's Witness, Adam explains the painful reality of "conditional love" within strict religious structures and why he chose to prioritize his children over dogma.

Starting Inclusive Conversations in Masculine Workspaces

Learn how Adam used his appearance as "Valerie Valentine" to break the ice at the fire station, replacing "macho" stereotypes with genuine dialogue about different perspectives.

 

Links & Networking


Disclaimer: The TURTZED Podcast reflects the opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. Content is for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare provider for advice tailored to your individual needs. For the full disclaimer, visit our website.


  • 00:00 – From the Firehouse to Valerie Valentine
  • 01:10 – Why a Straight Firefighter Applied for Drag Race
  • 01:40 – Supporting a Trans Son-in-Law and Pansexual Daughter
  • 02:40 – The Power of Being "Unapologetically You"
  • 04:00 – Rejecting Religious Teachings for "Love is Love"
  • 05:00 – The Hometown Buffet Coming Out Story
  • 05:40 – Why Adam Was "Farthest from Disappointed"
  • 08:30 – Walking into RuPaul's Workroom for the First Time
  • 09:30 – Challenging the "Macho" Firefighter Archetype
  • 11:30 – Becoming Vanessa Vanjie Mateo's "Fifth Child"
  • 14:30 – The Painful Truth About "The Tuck"
  • 18:00 – The Exhilaration of the Final Lip Sync
  • 19:10 – Living Life to Understand Someone Else’s Perspective
  • 21:10 – Getting Recognized at a California Ice Cream Shop
  • 23:40 – Religious Friction and Missing the Backyard Wedding
  • 29:10 – Watching Drag Race at the Fire Station
  • 32:40 – Why "This Too Shall Pass" is the Ultimate Mantra
]]> Wed, 07 Aug 2024 08:30:00 -0400 https://www.turtzed.com/podcast 33:51 How does an Ohio firefighter from a town of 900 people end up winning a Firefighter RuPaul’s Drag Race Makeover challenge? It wasn’t just for the thrill of the stage—it was a radical act of love designed to show his children that he is their ultimate ally. In an industry defined by "manly men," Adam stepped into the fire of public judgment to prove that being unapologetically yourself is the bravest thing you can do.

In this episode, Adam Bevier shares the raw, emotional story of his daughter's "Hometown Buffet" coming out and the friction caused by his strict religious upbringing as a Jehovah’s Witness. Adam illustrates a powerful transformation from a man processing a shift in his family’s future to a fierce advocate for unconditional love, showing listeners how to bridge the gap between traditional backgrounds and modern acceptance.

How to Support LGBTQ+ Children as a Traditional Father

Adam discusses the "processing time" needed when a child comes out and why it is vital for parents to ensure their initial shock isn't mistaken for disappointment.

Bridging the Gap Between Religion and Unconditional Love

Raised as a Jehovah's Witness, Adam explains the painful reality of "conditional love" within strict religious structures and why he chose to prioritize his children over dogma.

Starting Inclusive Conversations in Masculine Workspaces

Learn how Adam used his appearance as "Valerie Valentine" to break the ice at the fire station, replacing "macho" stereotypes with genuine dialogue about different perspectives.

 

Links & Networking


Disclaimer: The TURTZED Podcast reflects the opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. Content is for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare provider for advice tailored to your individual needs. For the full disclaimer, visit our website.


  • 00:00 – From the Firehouse to Valerie Valentine
  • 01:10 – Why a Straight Firefighter Applied for Drag Race
  • 01:40 – Supporting a Trans Son-in-Law and Pansexual Daughter
  • 02:40 – The Power of Being "Unapologetically You"
  • 04:00 – Rejecting Religious Teachings for "Love is Love"
  • 05:00 – The Hometown Buffet Coming Out Story
  • 05:40 – Why Adam Was "Farthest from Disappointed"
  • 08:30 – Walking into RuPaul's Workroom for the First Time
  • 09:30 – Challenging the "Macho" Firefighter Archetype
  • 11:30 – Becoming Vanessa Vanjie Mateo's "Fifth Child"
  • 14:30 – The Painful Truth About "The Tuck"
  • 18:00 – The Exhilaration of the Final Lip Sync
  • 19:10 – Living Life to Understand Someone Else’s Perspective
  • 21:10 – Getting Recognized at a California Ice Cream Shop
  • 23:40 – Religious Friction and Missing the Backyard Wedding
  • 29:10 – Watching Drag Race at the Fire Station
  • 32:40 – Why "This Too Shall Pass" is the Ultimate Mantra
]]> How does an Ohio firefighter from a town of 900 people end up winning a Firefighter RuPaul’s Drag Race Makeover challenge? It wasn’t just for the thrill of the stage—it was a radical act of love designed to show his children that he is their ultimate ally. In an industry defined by "manly men," Adam stepped into the fire of public judgment to prove that being unapologetically yourself is the bravest thing you can do.

In this episode, Adam Bevier shares the raw, emotional story of his daughter's "Hometown Buffet" coming out and the friction caused by his strict religious upbringing as a Jehovah’s Witness. Adam illustrates a powerful transformation from a man processing a shift in his family’s future to a fierce advocate for unconditional love, showing listeners how to bridge the gap between traditional backgrounds and modern acceptance.

How to Support LGBTQ+ Children as a Traditional Father

Adam discusses the "processing time" needed when a child comes out and why it is vital for parents to ensure their initial shock isn't mistaken for disappointment.

Bridging the Gap Between Religion and Unconditional Love

Raised as a Jehovah's Witness, Adam explains the painful reality of "conditional love" within strict religious structures and why he chose to prioritize his children over dogma.

Starting Inclusive Conversations in Masculine Workspaces

Learn how Adam used his appearance as "Valerie Valentine" to break the ice at the fire station, replacing "macho" stereotypes with genuine dialogue about different perspectives.

 

Links & Networking


Disclaimer: The TURTZED Podcast reflects the opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. Content is for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare provider for advice tailored to your individual needs. For the full disclaimer, visit our website.


  • 00:00 – From the Firehouse to Valerie Valentine
  • 01:10 – Why a Straight Firefighter Applied for Drag Race
  • 01:40 – Supporting a Trans Son-in-Law and Pansexual Daughter
  • 02:40 – The Power of Being "Unapologetically You"
  • 04:00 – Rejecting Religious Teachings for "Love is Love"
  • 05:00 – The Hometown Buffet Coming Out Story
  • 05:40 – Why Adam Was "Farthest from Disappointed"
  • 08:30 – Walking into RuPaul's Workroom for the First Time
  • 09:30 – Challenging the "Macho" Firefighter Archetype
  • 11:30 – Becoming Vanessa Vanjie Mateo's "Fifth Child"
  • 14:30 – The Painful Truth About "The Tuck"
  • 18:00 – The Exhilaration of the Final Lip Sync
  • 19:10 – Living Life to Understand Someone Else’s Perspective
  • 21:10 – Getting Recognized at a California Ice Cream Shop
  • 23:40 – Religious Friction and Missing the Backyard Wedding
  • 29:10 – Watching Drag Race at the Fire Station
  • 32:40 – Why "This Too Shall Pass" is the Ultimate Mantra
]]> false full 12 <![CDATA[Jennifer Armistead: Parenting a Child with Special Needs Story | Ep. 11]]> How do you keep fighting when doctors, schools, and even your own family tell you that your child is simply a "behavioral problem"? Parenting a child with special needs story is often a journey of isolation, but it is also one of radical intuition and fierce, unconditional love.

In this episode, Jennifer Armistead shares her raw 14-year journey from a traumatic birth and a neonatal brain bleed to finally receiving an autism diagnosis for her son, Connor. Jennifer illustrates the powerful transformation from a parent who felt ashamed and overwhelmed by "bad parenting" labels to a confident advocate who trusts her gut above all else.

Signs of Special Needs in Early Childhood

Jennifer discusses the specific behaviors she noticed early on, from repetitive play like building 80 paper lanterns to "lining up" toys, and the social isolation that often precedes a formal diagnosis.

How to Advocate for Your Child’s Medical Needs

From seeking out the best neurosurgeons in Atlanta to finding specialized play therapy, this conversation highlights why a mother’s intuition is the most powerful tool in a medical setting.

The Emotional Impact of an Autism Diagnosis

Jennifer describes the profound "relief" of receiving a label after 14 years, not because it changed her son, but because it validated her journey and provided a roadmap for his future.

Co-Parenting a Child with Different Needs

Learn how Jennifer and her ex-husband aligned their rules and support systems to create a unified front, ensuring their son has a consistent environment across two homes.


Links & Networking


Disclaimer: The TURTZED Podcast reflects the opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. Content is for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare provider for advice tailored to your individual needs. For the full disclaimer, visit our website.


  • 00:00 – The 14-year journey to an answer.
  • 02:35 – The shocking reality of a NAIT diagnosis at birth.
  • 03:45 – Pumping and dumping: The newborn medical gauntlet.
  • 05:53 – Why the "fierce lioness" wouldn't let anyone touch her son.
  • 07:45 – The social wall: When playdate invites stop coming.
  • 09:43 – 80 paper lanterns and the repetitive world of Connor.
  • 10:45 – The "bad parenting" trap and community judgment.
  • 12:40 – Meeting Barbara Dunbar: The moment the crying started.
  • 14:00 – Taking the child back: Standing up to family "advice."
  • 18:05 – "Find my eyes": The secret to calming a sensory meltdown.
  • 20:20 – The Delta flight to India that changed everything.
  • 24:00 – Unique gifts: How parenting lessons apply to the workplace.
  • 26:45 – The relief of the "A-word": Why the label finally mattered.
  • 29:30 – Co-parenting in the trenches after a divorce.
  • 32:04 – The tallest buildings: Connor’s future as an inventor.
  • 35:00 – "You'll always succeed": The wisdom of a father's prophecy.
]]> Wed, 31 Jul 2024 08:30:00 -0400 https://www.turtzed.com/podcast 36:12 How do you keep fighting when doctors, schools, and even your own family tell you that your child is simply a "behavioral problem"? Parenting a child with special needs story is often a journey of isolation, but it is also one of radical intuition and fierce, unconditional love.

In this episode, Jennifer Armistead shares her raw 14-year journey from a traumatic birth and a neonatal brain bleed to finally receiving an autism diagnosis for her son, Connor. Jennifer illustrates the powerful transformation from a parent who felt ashamed and overwhelmed by "bad parenting" labels to a confident advocate who trusts her gut above all else.

Signs of Special Needs in Early Childhood

Jennifer discusses the specific behaviors she noticed early on, from repetitive play like building 80 paper lanterns to "lining up" toys, and the social isolation that often precedes a formal diagnosis.

How to Advocate for Your Child’s Medical Needs

From seeking out the best neurosurgeons in Atlanta to finding specialized play therapy, this conversation highlights why a mother’s intuition is the most powerful tool in a medical setting.

The Emotional Impact of an Autism Diagnosis

Jennifer describes the profound "relief" of receiving a label after 14 years, not because it changed her son, but because it validated her journey and provided a roadmap for his future.

Co-Parenting a Child with Different Needs

Learn how Jennifer and her ex-husband aligned their rules and support systems to create a unified front, ensuring their son has a consistent environment across two homes.


Links & Networking


Disclaimer: The TURTZED Podcast reflects the opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. Content is for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare provider for advice tailored to your individual needs. For the full disclaimer, visit our website.


  • 00:00 – The 14-year journey to an answer.
  • 02:35 – The shocking reality of a NAIT diagnosis at birth.
  • 03:45 – Pumping and dumping: The newborn medical gauntlet.
  • 05:53 – Why the "fierce lioness" wouldn't let anyone touch her son.
  • 07:45 – The social wall: When playdate invites stop coming.
  • 09:43 – 80 paper lanterns and the repetitive world of Connor.
  • 10:45 – The "bad parenting" trap and community judgment.
  • 12:40 – Meeting Barbara Dunbar: The moment the crying started.
  • 14:00 – Taking the child back: Standing up to family "advice."
  • 18:05 – "Find my eyes": The secret to calming a sensory meltdown.
  • 20:20 – The Delta flight to India that changed everything.
  • 24:00 – Unique gifts: How parenting lessons apply to the workplace.
  • 26:45 – The relief of the "A-word": Why the label finally mattered.
  • 29:30 – Co-parenting in the trenches after a divorce.
  • 32:04 – The tallest buildings: Connor’s future as an inventor.
  • 35:00 – "You'll always succeed": The wisdom of a father's prophecy.
]]> How do you keep fighting when doctors, schools, and even your own family tell you that your child is simply a "behavioral problem"? Parenting a child with special needs story is often a journey of isolation, but it is also one of radical intuition and fierce, unconditional love.

In this episode, Jennifer Armistead shares her raw 14-year journey from a traumatic birth and a neonatal brain bleed to finally receiving an autism diagnosis for her son, Connor. Jennifer illustrates the powerful transformation from a parent who felt ashamed and overwhelmed by "bad parenting" labels to a confident advocate who trusts her gut above all else.

Signs of Special Needs in Early Childhood

Jennifer discusses the specific behaviors she noticed early on, from repetitive play like building 80 paper lanterns to "lining up" toys, and the social isolation that often precedes a formal diagnosis.

How to Advocate for Your Child’s Medical Needs

From seeking out the best neurosurgeons in Atlanta to finding specialized play therapy, this conversation highlights why a mother’s intuition is the most powerful tool in a medical setting.

The Emotional Impact of an Autism Diagnosis

Jennifer describes the profound "relief" of receiving a label after 14 years, not because it changed her son, but because it validated her journey and provided a roadmap for his future.

Co-Parenting a Child with Different Needs

Learn how Jennifer and her ex-husband aligned their rules and support systems to create a unified front, ensuring their son has a consistent environment across two homes.


Links & Networking


Disclaimer: The TURTZED Podcast reflects the opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. Content is for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare provider for advice tailored to your individual needs. For the full disclaimer, visit our website.


  • 00:00 – The 14-year journey to an answer.
  • 02:35 – The shocking reality of a NAIT diagnosis at birth.
  • 03:45 – Pumping and dumping: The newborn medical gauntlet.
  • 05:53 – Why the "fierce lioness" wouldn't let anyone touch her son.
  • 07:45 – The social wall: When playdate invites stop coming.
  • 09:43 – 80 paper lanterns and the repetitive world of Connor.
  • 10:45 – The "bad parenting" trap and community judgment.
  • 12:40 – Meeting Barbara Dunbar: The moment the crying started.
  • 14:00 – Taking the child back: Standing up to family "advice."
  • 18:05 – "Find my eyes": The secret to calming a sensory meltdown.
  • 20:20 – The Delta flight to India that changed everything.
  • 24:00 – Unique gifts: How parenting lessons apply to the workplace.
  • 26:45 – The relief of the "A-word": Why the label finally mattered.
  • 29:30 – Co-parenting in the trenches after a divorce.
  • 32:04 – The tallest buildings: Connor’s future as an inventor.
  • 35:00 – "You'll always succeed": The wisdom of a father's prophecy.
]]> false full 11 <![CDATA[Melissa Brown Smith: Healing From Grief Through Spiritual Connection | Ep. 10]]> Is it possible that the people we love never truly leave us? Healing from grief through spiritual connection is more than just a comforting thought—it is a tangible, physical, and emotional process that allows us to transition from the "emptiness" of loss to the "fullness" of continued love.

In this episode, Melissa Brown Smith, a former hospital chaplain and spiritual counselor, shares her profound journey from comforting the grieving at age five to embracing her gifts as a medium. Melissa explains how to navigate the "multi-layered" nature of suffering and why surrendering to a higher power can unlock a level of healing that goes far beyond traditional therapy.


How to Identify Signs from Deceased Loved Ones

Melissa explains that while physical bodies leave, souls do not, often communicating through "claires" such as dreams, specific smells like a grandmother's perfume, or finding meaningful coins. These are not mere coincidences but a specific language used by spirits to bring messages of comfort and perfect love.

Why Unprocessed Grief is Like Credit Card Debt

Grief can be avoided or put off, but it always remains and grows exponentially over time. Just like high-interest debt, the longer you wait to face the pain, the more multi-layered and "scary" the emotional burden becomes, eventually impacting your physical health and future relationships.

The Benefits of Spiritual Grief Counseling

Moving beyond standard bereavement, this approach combines traditional support with mediumship and energetic connection. By "holding space" and acting as a conduit for messages of forgiveness or pride from the other side, a counselor helps individuals release deep-seated guilt they didn't even realize they were carrying.


Links & Networking

Disclaimer: The TURTZED Podcast reflects the opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. Content is for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare provider for advice tailored to your individual needs. For the full disclaimer, visit our website.


  • 00:00 – The Multilayered Definition of Grief
  • 01:10 – Why Grief is a Physical and Emotional Experience
  • 02:25 – The Childhood Draw Toward Comforting the Grieving
  • 03:02 – A Life-Changing Encounter in the Hospital ICU
  • 04:10 – From Social Work to the Training of a Hospital Chaplain
  • 05:18 – Expanding the Catholic Faith into a Universal View of God
  • 07:47 – The Hidden Beauty Found in the Transition of Death
  • 09:34 – Why Our Loved Ones Are Never Truly "Gone"
  • 10:14 – How Spirits Use Signs and Symbols to Communicate
  • 13:16 – Comforting an 90-Year-Old Father as a 24-Year-Old Chaplain
  • 15:05 – Feeling the "Power" of a Divine Presence During Prayer
  • 16:23 – Navigating the Grief of Five Miscarriages
  • 18:16 – The Secret to Healing the "Credit Card Debt" of Emotion
  • 25:36 – Coming Out of the "Proverbial Medium Closet"
  • 29:30 – The Impossible Message: A Stranger’s Proof to Melissa’s Mom
  • 40:59 – Why You Must "Lay It Down" Before the Weight Breaks You
]]> Wed, 24 Jul 2024 08:30:00 -0400 https://www.turtzed.com/podcast 48:20 Is it possible that the people we love never truly leave us? Healing from grief through spiritual connection is more than just a comforting thought—it is a tangible, physical, and emotional process that allows us to transition from the "emptiness" of loss to the "fullness" of continued love.

In this episode, Melissa Brown Smith, a former hospital chaplain and spiritual counselor, shares her profound journey from comforting the grieving at age five to embracing her gifts as a medium. Melissa explains how to navigate the "multi-layered" nature of suffering and why surrendering to a higher power can unlock a level of healing that goes far beyond traditional therapy.


How to Identify Signs from Deceased Loved Ones

Melissa explains that while physical bodies leave, souls do not, often communicating through "claires" such as dreams, specific smells like a grandmother's perfume, or finding meaningful coins. These are not mere coincidences but a specific language used by spirits to bring messages of comfort and perfect love.

Why Unprocessed Grief is Like Credit Card Debt

Grief can be avoided or put off, but it always remains and grows exponentially over time. Just like high-interest debt, the longer you wait to face the pain, the more multi-layered and "scary" the emotional burden becomes, eventually impacting your physical health and future relationships.

The Benefits of Spiritual Grief Counseling

Moving beyond standard bereavement, this approach combines traditional support with mediumship and energetic connection. By "holding space" and acting as a conduit for messages of forgiveness or pride from the other side, a counselor helps individuals release deep-seated guilt they didn't even realize they were carrying.


Links & Networking

Disclaimer: The TURTZED Podcast reflects the opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. Content is for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare provider for advice tailored to your individual needs. For the full disclaimer, visit our website.


  • 00:00 – The Multilayered Definition of Grief
  • 01:10 – Why Grief is a Physical and Emotional Experience
  • 02:25 – The Childhood Draw Toward Comforting the Grieving
  • 03:02 – A Life-Changing Encounter in the Hospital ICU
  • 04:10 – From Social Work to the Training of a Hospital Chaplain
  • 05:18 – Expanding the Catholic Faith into a Universal View of God
  • 07:47 – The Hidden Beauty Found in the Transition of Death
  • 09:34 – Why Our Loved Ones Are Never Truly "Gone"
  • 10:14 – How Spirits Use Signs and Symbols to Communicate
  • 13:16 – Comforting an 90-Year-Old Father as a 24-Year-Old Chaplain
  • 15:05 – Feeling the "Power" of a Divine Presence During Prayer
  • 16:23 – Navigating the Grief of Five Miscarriages
  • 18:16 – The Secret to Healing the "Credit Card Debt" of Emotion
  • 25:36 – Coming Out of the "Proverbial Medium Closet"
  • 29:30 – The Impossible Message: A Stranger’s Proof to Melissa’s Mom
  • 40:59 – Why You Must "Lay It Down" Before the Weight Breaks You
]]> Is it possible that the people we love never truly leave us? Healing from grief through spiritual connection is more than just a comforting thought—it is a tangible, physical, and emotional process that allows us to transition from the "emptiness" of loss to the "fullness" of continued love.

In this episode, Melissa Brown Smith, a former hospital chaplain and spiritual counselor, shares her profound journey from comforting the grieving at age five to embracing her gifts as a medium. Melissa explains how to navigate the "multi-layered" nature of suffering and why surrendering to a higher power can unlock a level of healing that goes far beyond traditional therapy.


How to Identify Signs from Deceased Loved Ones

Melissa explains that while physical bodies leave, souls do not, often communicating through "claires" such as dreams, specific smells like a grandmother's perfume, or finding meaningful coins. These are not mere coincidences but a specific language used by spirits to bring messages of comfort and perfect love.

Why Unprocessed Grief is Like Credit Card Debt

Grief can be avoided or put off, but it always remains and grows exponentially over time. Just like high-interest debt, the longer you wait to face the pain, the more multi-layered and "scary" the emotional burden becomes, eventually impacting your physical health and future relationships.

The Benefits of Spiritual Grief Counseling

Moving beyond standard bereavement, this approach combines traditional support with mediumship and energetic connection. By "holding space" and acting as a conduit for messages of forgiveness or pride from the other side, a counselor helps individuals release deep-seated guilt they didn't even realize they were carrying.


Links & Networking

Disclaimer: The TURTZED Podcast reflects the opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. Content is for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare provider for advice tailored to your individual needs. For the full disclaimer, visit our website.


  • 00:00 – The Multilayered Definition of Grief
  • 01:10 – Why Grief is a Physical and Emotional Experience
  • 02:25 – The Childhood Draw Toward Comforting the Grieving
  • 03:02 – A Life-Changing Encounter in the Hospital ICU
  • 04:10 – From Social Work to the Training of a Hospital Chaplain
  • 05:18 – Expanding the Catholic Faith into a Universal View of God
  • 07:47 – The Hidden Beauty Found in the Transition of Death
  • 09:34 – Why Our Loved Ones Are Never Truly "Gone"
  • 10:14 – How Spirits Use Signs and Symbols to Communicate
  • 13:16 – Comforting an 90-Year-Old Father as a 24-Year-Old Chaplain
  • 15:05 – Feeling the "Power" of a Divine Presence During Prayer
  • 16:23 – Navigating the Grief of Five Miscarriages
  • 18:16 – The Secret to Healing the "Credit Card Debt" of Emotion
  • 25:36 – Coming Out of the "Proverbial Medium Closet"
  • 29:30 – The Impossible Message: A Stranger’s Proof to Melissa’s Mom
  • 40:59 – Why You Must "Lay It Down" Before the Weight Breaks You
]]> false full 10 <![CDATA[Katie Veneziale: How to Support a Friend with Mental Health Struggles | Ep. 9]]> How do you show up for someone when you can hear the pain in their voice, but don’t have the words to ask if they are okay? Supporting a friend with mental health struggles often requires moving past the fear of being "wrong" or "intrusive" to simply being present.

In this episode, Katie Veneziale joins Charles to discuss the evolution of their 20-year friendship, from their early days in college to navigating a painful period of silence. Katie Veneziale shares her raw experience with undiagnosed postpartum anxiety, the "fix-it" mentality that delayed her healing, and why the most important role you can play in someone else’s story is the one that offers a safe place to land. 


How to identify postpartum anxiety symptoms

Postpartum anxiety can often go undiagnosed because standard medical screenings focus heavily on depression and self-harm. Katie describes experiencing "worst-case scenario" loops and physical symptoms like a heavy chest, even when her child was perfectly safe.

When to ask a friend the hard questions

The fear of being wrong often stops us from asking a loved one if they are struggling. However, Katie reflects that even if a friend isn't ready to hear it, asking the question is a necessary act of love that provides a lifeline for the future.

How to reconnect after a long friendship break

Reconnecting doesn't always require a massive "hash it out" session or formal apologies if the foundation is built on mutual respect and love. Sometimes, the most powerful way to heal a rift is to pick up the phone and simply ask, "How are you?"

 

Links & Networking

Disclaimer: The TURTZED Podcast reflects the opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. Content is for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare provider for advice tailored to your individual needs. For the full disclaimer, visit our website.


  • 00:00 – The "Preppy Bro" first impression that was totally wrong.
  • 04:31 – The car ride "interrogation" and the moment Charles swooped in.
  • 07:27 – Why Charles stopped reaching out after Katie had her first child.
  • 09:08 – The "second wave" of fear: Who is showing up for the person struggling?
  • 11:05 – When friendship becomes a mirror of shared depression.
  • 12:23 – The "oxygen mask" realization and the failure of the "bubble."
  • 15:03 – Why Katie drove three hours to Albany based on a "feeling."
  • 17:54 – The "Cold Fish" vs. Stoic: Why we hide our vulnerabilities.
  • 21:17 – Would Katie have been "ready" to hear the truth five years ago?
  • 24:10 – The terrifying "security system" thoughts and postpartum loops.
  • 25:15 – Why the standard postpartum doctor questions didn't work for Katie.
  • 27:09 – Balancing a chemical imbalance with a second pregnancy.
  • 29:05 – Millennial parenting and the generational shift in "feelings."
  • 31:10 – The relief of a simple "Happy Birthday" text.
  • 35:51 – Choosing to be the "supporting character" in someone else's story.
]]> Wed, 15 May 2024 08:00:00 -0400 https://www.turtzed.com/podcast 41:27 How do you show up for someone when you can hear the pain in their voice, but don’t have the words to ask if they are okay? Supporting a friend with mental health struggles often requires moving past the fear of being "wrong" or "intrusive" to simply being present.

In this episode, Katie Veneziale joins Charles to discuss the evolution of their 20-year friendship, from their early days in college to navigating a painful period of silence. Katie Veneziale shares her raw experience with undiagnosed postpartum anxiety, the "fix-it" mentality that delayed her healing, and why the most important role you can play in someone else’s story is the one that offers a safe place to land. 


How to identify postpartum anxiety symptoms

Postpartum anxiety can often go undiagnosed because standard medical screenings focus heavily on depression and self-harm. Katie describes experiencing "worst-case scenario" loops and physical symptoms like a heavy chest, even when her child was perfectly safe.

When to ask a friend the hard questions

The fear of being wrong often stops us from asking a loved one if they are struggling. However, Katie reflects that even if a friend isn't ready to hear it, asking the question is a necessary act of love that provides a lifeline for the future.

How to reconnect after a long friendship break

Reconnecting doesn't always require a massive "hash it out" session or formal apologies if the foundation is built on mutual respect and love. Sometimes, the most powerful way to heal a rift is to pick up the phone and simply ask, "How are you?"

 

Links & Networking

Disclaimer: The TURTZED Podcast reflects the opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. Content is for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare provider for advice tailored to your individual needs. For the full disclaimer, visit our website.


  • 00:00 – The "Preppy Bro" first impression that was totally wrong.
  • 04:31 – The car ride "interrogation" and the moment Charles swooped in.
  • 07:27 – Why Charles stopped reaching out after Katie had her first child.
  • 09:08 – The "second wave" of fear: Who is showing up for the person struggling?
  • 11:05 – When friendship becomes a mirror of shared depression.
  • 12:23 – The "oxygen mask" realization and the failure of the "bubble."
  • 15:03 – Why Katie drove three hours to Albany based on a "feeling."
  • 17:54 – The "Cold Fish" vs. Stoic: Why we hide our vulnerabilities.
  • 21:17 – Would Katie have been "ready" to hear the truth five years ago?
  • 24:10 – The terrifying "security system" thoughts and postpartum loops.
  • 25:15 – Why the standard postpartum doctor questions didn't work for Katie.
  • 27:09 – Balancing a chemical imbalance with a second pregnancy.
  • 29:05 – Millennial parenting and the generational shift in "feelings."
  • 31:10 – The relief of a simple "Happy Birthday" text.
  • 35:51 – Choosing to be the "supporting character" in someone else's story.
]]> How do you show up for someone when you can hear the pain in their voice, but don’t have the words to ask if they are okay? Supporting a friend with mental health struggles often requires moving past the fear of being "wrong" or "intrusive" to simply being present.

In this episode, Katie Veneziale joins Charles to discuss the evolution of their 20-year friendship, from their early days in college to navigating a painful period of silence. Katie Veneziale shares her raw experience with undiagnosed postpartum anxiety, the "fix-it" mentality that delayed her healing, and why the most important role you can play in someone else’s story is the one that offers a safe place to land. 


How to identify postpartum anxiety symptoms

Postpartum anxiety can often go undiagnosed because standard medical screenings focus heavily on depression and self-harm. Katie describes experiencing "worst-case scenario" loops and physical symptoms like a heavy chest, even when her child was perfectly safe.

When to ask a friend the hard questions

The fear of being wrong often stops us from asking a loved one if they are struggling. However, Katie reflects that even if a friend isn't ready to hear it, asking the question is a necessary act of love that provides a lifeline for the future.

How to reconnect after a long friendship break

Reconnecting doesn't always require a massive "hash it out" session or formal apologies if the foundation is built on mutual respect and love. Sometimes, the most powerful way to heal a rift is to pick up the phone and simply ask, "How are you?"

 

Links & Networking

Disclaimer: The TURTZED Podcast reflects the opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. Content is for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare provider for advice tailored to your individual needs. For the full disclaimer, visit our website.


  • 00:00 – The "Preppy Bro" first impression that was totally wrong.
  • 04:31 – The car ride "interrogation" and the moment Charles swooped in.
  • 07:27 – Why Charles stopped reaching out after Katie had her first child.
  • 09:08 – The "second wave" of fear: Who is showing up for the person struggling?
  • 11:05 – When friendship becomes a mirror of shared depression.
  • 12:23 – The "oxygen mask" realization and the failure of the "bubble."
  • 15:03 – Why Katie drove three hours to Albany based on a "feeling."
  • 17:54 – The "Cold Fish" vs. Stoic: Why we hide our vulnerabilities.
  • 21:17 – Would Katie have been "ready" to hear the truth five years ago?
  • 24:10 – The terrifying "security system" thoughts and postpartum loops.
  • 25:15 – Why the standard postpartum doctor questions didn't work for Katie.
  • 27:09 – Balancing a chemical imbalance with a second pregnancy.
  • 29:05 – Millennial parenting and the generational shift in "feelings."
  • 31:10 – The relief of a simple "Happy Birthday" text.
  • 35:51 – Choosing to be the "supporting character" in someone else's story.
]]> false full 9 <![CDATA[Paula Calabrese: How to Push Through When You Want to Give Up | Ep. 8]]> Have you ever hit a wall so solid it felt like the universe was telling you to quit? Most people see that "stuck" feeling as a dead end, but what if it’s actually the exact moment your expansion begins?

In this raw conversation, Paula Calabrese shares the mindset shifts required to navigate the overwhelming seasons of starting a business and the "crusade" for financial education. Listeners will learn how to transition from feeling messy and stressed to finding the "why" that makes quitting impossible. 

How to Find a Support System That Works

When everything goes wrong, having a mentor or support system is the difference between quitting and evolving. Paula explains that you need at least one person who can help you take a step back and realize the chaos is simply part of the process.

Why Hitting the Wall is a Growth Signal

Feeling stuck isn't a sign to stop; it’s a critical decision point where you are forced to go back to your "why." Breaking through that wall is the literal process of you becoming the "next version" of yourself and reaching the next level of your career.

Overcoming the Fear of Starting Late

It is a myth that you have to start in your twenties to find success. Paula discusses how it is never too late to create the life you’ve imagined, whether you are in your thirties, fifties, or beyond, because there is always a way to improve.


Links & Networking

Disclaimer: The TURTZED Podcast reflects the opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. Content is for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare provider for advice tailored to your individual needs. For the full disclaimer, visit our website.


  • 00:00 – The "Guest List" Secret to a 15-Year Career
  • 02:22 – The Master’s Degree Trap
  • 04:57 – Why Law School "Anxiety" Changed Everything
  • 07:28 – From the Front Row to the Front of the Room
  • 09:24 – The Eucalyptus Towel Hustle
  • 12:46 – The "Homeless" Feeling in a Dream Job
  • 14:52 – Recognizing the Intellectual Ceiling
  • 17:38 – The Terrifying First Time Without a Plan
  • 19:23 – Ripping Up the "Beautiful Garden"
  • 22:22 – The Fatherhood Schedule That Sparked Curiosity
  • 24:19 – The Heavy Reality of Long-Term Care
  • 26:19 – Seeing a "Powerhouse" Father Cry
  • 29:20 – The 14-Day Leap of Faith
  • 32:48 – Recording Classes to Master the Cue
  • 36:17 – The $10,000 Question
  • 39:30 – Why You Only Feel Stuck When You Stop
]]> Wed, 08 May 2024 08:00:00 -0400 https://www.turtzed.com/podcast 45:22 Have you ever hit a wall so solid it felt like the universe was telling you to quit? Most people see that "stuck" feeling as a dead end, but what if it’s actually the exact moment your expansion begins?

In this raw conversation, Paula Calabrese shares the mindset shifts required to navigate the overwhelming seasons of starting a business and the "crusade" for financial education. Listeners will learn how to transition from feeling messy and stressed to finding the "why" that makes quitting impossible. 

How to Find a Support System That Works

When everything goes wrong, having a mentor or support system is the difference between quitting and evolving. Paula explains that you need at least one person who can help you take a step back and realize the chaos is simply part of the process.

Why Hitting the Wall is a Growth Signal

Feeling stuck isn't a sign to stop; it’s a critical decision point where you are forced to go back to your "why." Breaking through that wall is the literal process of you becoming the "next version" of yourself and reaching the next level of your career.

Overcoming the Fear of Starting Late

It is a myth that you have to start in your twenties to find success. Paula discusses how it is never too late to create the life you’ve imagined, whether you are in your thirties, fifties, or beyond, because there is always a way to improve.


Links & Networking

Disclaimer: The TURTZED Podcast reflects the opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. Content is for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare provider for advice tailored to your individual needs. For the full disclaimer, visit our website.


  • 00:00 – The "Guest List" Secret to a 15-Year Career
  • 02:22 – The Master’s Degree Trap
  • 04:57 – Why Law School "Anxiety" Changed Everything
  • 07:28 – From the Front Row to the Front of the Room
  • 09:24 – The Eucalyptus Towel Hustle
  • 12:46 – The "Homeless" Feeling in a Dream Job
  • 14:52 – Recognizing the Intellectual Ceiling
  • 17:38 – The Terrifying First Time Without a Plan
  • 19:23 – Ripping Up the "Beautiful Garden"
  • 22:22 – The Fatherhood Schedule That Sparked Curiosity
  • 24:19 – The Heavy Reality of Long-Term Care
  • 26:19 – Seeing a "Powerhouse" Father Cry
  • 29:20 – The 14-Day Leap of Faith
  • 32:48 – Recording Classes to Master the Cue
  • 36:17 – The $10,000 Question
  • 39:30 – Why You Only Feel Stuck When You Stop
]]> Have you ever hit a wall so solid it felt like the universe was telling you to quit? Most people see that "stuck" feeling as a dead end, but what if it’s actually the exact moment your expansion begins?

In this raw conversation, Paula Calabrese shares the mindset shifts required to navigate the overwhelming seasons of starting a business and the "crusade" for financial education. Listeners will learn how to transition from feeling messy and stressed to finding the "why" that makes quitting impossible. 

How to Find a Support System That Works

When everything goes wrong, having a mentor or support system is the difference between quitting and evolving. Paula explains that you need at least one person who can help you take a step back and realize the chaos is simply part of the process.

Why Hitting the Wall is a Growth Signal

Feeling stuck isn't a sign to stop; it’s a critical decision point where you are forced to go back to your "why." Breaking through that wall is the literal process of you becoming the "next version" of yourself and reaching the next level of your career.

Overcoming the Fear of Starting Late

It is a myth that you have to start in your twenties to find success. Paula discusses how it is never too late to create the life you’ve imagined, whether you are in your thirties, fifties, or beyond, because there is always a way to improve.


Links & Networking

Disclaimer: The TURTZED Podcast reflects the opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. Content is for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare provider for advice tailored to your individual needs. For the full disclaimer, visit our website.


  • 00:00 – The "Guest List" Secret to a 15-Year Career
  • 02:22 – The Master’s Degree Trap
  • 04:57 – Why Law School "Anxiety" Changed Everything
  • 07:28 – From the Front Row to the Front of the Room
  • 09:24 – The Eucalyptus Towel Hustle
  • 12:46 – The "Homeless" Feeling in a Dream Job
  • 14:52 – Recognizing the Intellectual Ceiling
  • 17:38 – The Terrifying First Time Without a Plan
  • 19:23 – Ripping Up the "Beautiful Garden"
  • 22:22 – The Fatherhood Schedule That Sparked Curiosity
  • 24:19 – The Heavy Reality of Long-Term Care
  • 26:19 – Seeing a "Powerhouse" Father Cry
  • 29:20 – The 14-Day Leap of Faith
  • 32:48 – Recording Classes to Master the Cue
  • 36:17 – The $10,000 Question
  • 39:30 – Why You Only Feel Stuck When You Stop
]]> false full 8 <![CDATA[Rob Siclari: Personal Training & Metabolic Science | Ep. 7]]> How do you rebuild your entire identity when the world you excelled in no longer fits who you are? For many in the fitness space, the Personal Trainer Backstory is one of hiding in plain sight, but for Rob Siclari, coming out was the catalyst for trading the "chore" of D1 football for a passion-led empire built on metabolic science and radical authenticity.

In this episode, Rob Siclari shares his journey from being a star football player in the Poconos to navigating the "bad" experiences of coming out in a college environment. He breaks down the specific transformation of moving his business entirely online during the pandemic and explains why he prioritizes bloodwork and metabolic guidance over generic "cookie-cutter" workout plans.

Why Your D1 Athlete Mindset Might Be Holding You Back

Rob discusses how the high-pressure environment of competitive football eventually felt like a chore, leading him to rediscover fitness as a tool for self-confidence rather than just a physical requirement.

How to Navigate Coming Out in Competitive Sports

The transition from the "closet" to the bodybuilding community involves shedding insecurities and finding a new, supportive community when old friends fall away.

The Science of Metabolic Guidance vs. Traditional Dieting

Successful body transformations require looking at the "why" behind the weight, utilizing bloodwork to understand how an individual's body specifically metabolizes food.


Links & Networking

Disclaimer: The TURTZED Podcast reflects the opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. Content is for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare provider for advice tailored to your individual needs. For the full disclaimer, visit our website.

  • 00:00 – The "First Guest" jitters and a working relationship
  • 01:25 – When the D1 dream starts to feel like a chore
  • 02:44 – The father-coach dynamic and childhood roots
  • 04:39 – The "second life" of partying and rebellion
  • 05:19 – The weight of the closet and the "rainbow" misconception
  • 06:42 – Why 15 years ago was a different world for gay athletes
  • 08:30 – The roommate who moved out when he found out
  • 09:26 – Walking the graduation stage with a secret
  • 11:30 – From an air mattress in Philly to the Tampa sun
  • 12:20 – How COVID-19 forced a digital business revolution
  • 15:44 – The danger of 3% body fat and mental health
  • 16:56 – Why your blood work is the ultimate roadmap
  • 19:29 – Learning to "portion with your eyes" at dinner
  • 21:44 – Why Joe’s macros will never work for you
  • 23:17 – The 24-hour rule and the "new dad" workout
  • 26:54 – The $5 million morning: A TikTok truth bomb
]]> Wed, 01 May 2024 08:00:00 -0400 https://www.turtzed.com/podcast 28:27 How do you rebuild your entire identity when the world you excelled in no longer fits who you are? For many in the fitness space, the Personal Trainer Backstory is one of hiding in plain sight, but for Rob Siclari, coming out was the catalyst for trading the "chore" of D1 football for a passion-led empire built on metabolic science and radical authenticity.

In this episode, Rob Siclari shares his journey from being a star football player in the Poconos to navigating the "bad" experiences of coming out in a college environment. He breaks down the specific transformation of moving his business entirely online during the pandemic and explains why he prioritizes bloodwork and metabolic guidance over generic "cookie-cutter" workout plans.

Why Your D1 Athlete Mindset Might Be Holding You Back

Rob discusses how the high-pressure environment of competitive football eventually felt like a chore, leading him to rediscover fitness as a tool for self-confidence rather than just a physical requirement.

How to Navigate Coming Out in Competitive Sports

The transition from the "closet" to the bodybuilding community involves shedding insecurities and finding a new, supportive community when old friends fall away.

The Science of Metabolic Guidance vs. Traditional Dieting

Successful body transformations require looking at the "why" behind the weight, utilizing bloodwork to understand how an individual's body specifically metabolizes food.


Links & Networking

Disclaimer: The TURTZED Podcast reflects the opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. Content is for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare provider for advice tailored to your individual needs. For the full disclaimer, visit our website.

  • 00:00 – The "First Guest" jitters and a working relationship
  • 01:25 – When the D1 dream starts to feel like a chore
  • 02:44 – The father-coach dynamic and childhood roots
  • 04:39 – The "second life" of partying and rebellion
  • 05:19 – The weight of the closet and the "rainbow" misconception
  • 06:42 – Why 15 years ago was a different world for gay athletes
  • 08:30 – The roommate who moved out when he found out
  • 09:26 – Walking the graduation stage with a secret
  • 11:30 – From an air mattress in Philly to the Tampa sun
  • 12:20 – How COVID-19 forced a digital business revolution
  • 15:44 – The danger of 3% body fat and mental health
  • 16:56 – Why your blood work is the ultimate roadmap
  • 19:29 – Learning to "portion with your eyes" at dinner
  • 21:44 – Why Joe’s macros will never work for you
  • 23:17 – The 24-hour rule and the "new dad" workout
  • 26:54 – The $5 million morning: A TikTok truth bomb
]]> How do you rebuild your entire identity when the world you excelled in no longer fits who you are? For many in the fitness space, the Personal Trainer Backstory is one of hiding in plain sight, but for Rob Siclari, coming out was the catalyst for trading the "chore" of D1 football for a passion-led empire built on metabolic science and radical authenticity.

In this episode, Rob Siclari shares his journey from being a star football player in the Poconos to navigating the "bad" experiences of coming out in a college environment. He breaks down the specific transformation of moving his business entirely online during the pandemic and explains why he prioritizes bloodwork and metabolic guidance over generic "cookie-cutter" workout plans.

Why Your D1 Athlete Mindset Might Be Holding You Back

Rob discusses how the high-pressure environment of competitive football eventually felt like a chore, leading him to rediscover fitness as a tool for self-confidence rather than just a physical requirement.

How to Navigate Coming Out in Competitive Sports

The transition from the "closet" to the bodybuilding community involves shedding insecurities and finding a new, supportive community when old friends fall away.

The Science of Metabolic Guidance vs. Traditional Dieting

Successful body transformations require looking at the "why" behind the weight, utilizing bloodwork to understand how an individual's body specifically metabolizes food.


Links & Networking

Disclaimer: The TURTZED Podcast reflects the opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. Content is for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare provider for advice tailored to your individual needs. For the full disclaimer, visit our website.

  • 00:00 – The "First Guest" jitters and a working relationship
  • 01:25 – When the D1 dream starts to feel like a chore
  • 02:44 – The father-coach dynamic and childhood roots
  • 04:39 – The "second life" of partying and rebellion
  • 05:19 – The weight of the closet and the "rainbow" misconception
  • 06:42 – Why 15 years ago was a different world for gay athletes
  • 08:30 – The roommate who moved out when he found out
  • 09:26 – Walking the graduation stage with a secret
  • 11:30 – From an air mattress in Philly to the Tampa sun
  • 12:20 – How COVID-19 forced a digital business revolution
  • 15:44 – The danger of 3% body fat and mental health
  • 16:56 – Why your blood work is the ultimate roadmap
  • 19:29 – Learning to "portion with your eyes" at dinner
  • 21:44 – Why Joe’s macros will never work for you
  • 23:17 – The 24-hour rule and the "new dad" workout
  • 26:54 – The $5 million morning: A TikTok truth bomb
]]> false full 7 <![CDATA[Kerri Keaton: Human Design for Beginners: Understanding Your Chart | Ep. 6]]> How do you move from a life of corporate burnout and personal grief into a state of total energetic alignment? Human Design for Beginners: Understanding Your Chart is more than just a spiritual trend; it is a practical roadmap for those feeling "unfulfilled" or "out of alignment" with their true selves.

In this episode, Kerri Keaton shares her powerful journey from a 20-year corporate career to founding The Vessel after a "failed adoption" became the catalyst for her own radical transformation. Kerri breaks down the synthesis of ancient modalities and quantum physics to show you how to stop "climbing the wrong ladder" and start living according to your unique energetic blueprint.


What is Human Design and How Does it Work? Human Design is the "science of differentiation," combining astrology, the I Ching, the Chakra system, and quantum physics to map your unique energetic gifts and soul curriculum.

How to Use Your Energy Type for Better Relationships By understanding your "energy type," you learn how you are designed to exchange energy with others—such as "waiting for the invitation" to ensure your contributions are valued rather than resisted.

Making Aligned Decisions Without Overthinking The system teaches that aligned decisions come from a "felt sense" in the body rather than a logical pros-and-cons list, allowing you to reduce friction in your personal and professional life.

Overcoming Conditioning in Your Career Many of us are "conditioned" by societal expectations; Human Design serves as a tool for "deconditioning," giving you permission to rewrite your story and work in ways that actually light you up.


Links & Networking

Disclaimer: The TURTZED Podcast reflects the opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. Content is for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare provider for advice tailored to your individual needs. For the full disclaimer, visit our website.

  • 00:00 – Why this "priceless" information changed Charles’ career
  • 01:54 – The Sunday morning text that started a six-year journey
  • 03:20 – Ancient modalities meet quantum physics: The blueprint explained
  • 05:49 – The "Corporate Joke": Why success felt like a misalignment
  • 08:10 – A failed adoption and the heartbreak that fueled a new path
  • 10:45 – "Timeline Hopping": Using major life events as expansion catalysts
  • 14:22 – The question that redefined success: "Who do I want my son to remember?"
  • 19:00 – The "Permission Slip" to stop being who they want you to be
  • 21:30 – Why you must "Wait for the Invitation" to protect your energy
  • 22:55 – The danger of pros-and-cons lists in decision making
  • 27:14 – Learning through failure: The "Three-Five" profile archetype
  • 31:30 – Beyond labels: Why Human Design is a tool, not a box
  • 37:31 – The secret to managing burnout in a nine-to-five world
  • 44:19 – Navigating the "Void" during a massive life transformation
  • 49:20 – "Life is empty and meaningless": The shift that empowered everything
]]> Wed, 24 Apr 2024 08:00:00 -0400 https://www.turtzed.com/podcast 51:55 How do you move from a life of corporate burnout and personal grief into a state of total energetic alignment? Human Design for Beginners: Understanding Your Chart is more than just a spiritual trend; it is a practical roadmap for those feeling "unfulfilled" or "out of alignment" with their true selves.

In this episode, Kerri Keaton shares her powerful journey from a 20-year corporate career to founding The Vessel after a "failed adoption" became the catalyst for her own radical transformation. Kerri breaks down the synthesis of ancient modalities and quantum physics to show you how to stop "climbing the wrong ladder" and start living according to your unique energetic blueprint.


What is Human Design and How Does it Work? Human Design is the "science of differentiation," combining astrology, the I Ching, the Chakra system, and quantum physics to map your unique energetic gifts and soul curriculum.

How to Use Your Energy Type for Better Relationships By understanding your "energy type," you learn how you are designed to exchange energy with others—such as "waiting for the invitation" to ensure your contributions are valued rather than resisted.

Making Aligned Decisions Without Overthinking The system teaches that aligned decisions come from a "felt sense" in the body rather than a logical pros-and-cons list, allowing you to reduce friction in your personal and professional life.

Overcoming Conditioning in Your Career Many of us are "conditioned" by societal expectations; Human Design serves as a tool for "deconditioning," giving you permission to rewrite your story and work in ways that actually light you up.


Links & Networking

Disclaimer: The TURTZED Podcast reflects the opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. Content is for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare provider for advice tailored to your individual needs. For the full disclaimer, visit our website.

  • 00:00 – Why this "priceless" information changed Charles’ career
  • 01:54 – The Sunday morning text that started a six-year journey
  • 03:20 – Ancient modalities meet quantum physics: The blueprint explained
  • 05:49 – The "Corporate Joke": Why success felt like a misalignment
  • 08:10 – A failed adoption and the heartbreak that fueled a new path
  • 10:45 – "Timeline Hopping": Using major life events as expansion catalysts
  • 14:22 – The question that redefined success: "Who do I want my son to remember?"
  • 19:00 – The "Permission Slip" to stop being who they want you to be
  • 21:30 – Why you must "Wait for the Invitation" to protect your energy
  • 22:55 – The danger of pros-and-cons lists in decision making
  • 27:14 – Learning through failure: The "Three-Five" profile archetype
  • 31:30 – Beyond labels: Why Human Design is a tool, not a box
  • 37:31 – The secret to managing burnout in a nine-to-five world
  • 44:19 – Navigating the "Void" during a massive life transformation
  • 49:20 – "Life is empty and meaningless": The shift that empowered everything
]]> How do you move from a life of corporate burnout and personal grief into a state of total energetic alignment? Human Design for Beginners: Understanding Your Chart is more than just a spiritual trend; it is a practical roadmap for those feeling "unfulfilled" or "out of alignment" with their true selves.

In this episode, Kerri Keaton shares her powerful journey from a 20-year corporate career to founding The Vessel after a "failed adoption" became the catalyst for her own radical transformation. Kerri breaks down the synthesis of ancient modalities and quantum physics to show you how to stop "climbing the wrong ladder" and start living according to your unique energetic blueprint.


What is Human Design and How Does it Work? Human Design is the "science of differentiation," combining astrology, the I Ching, the Chakra system, and quantum physics to map your unique energetic gifts and soul curriculum.

How to Use Your Energy Type for Better Relationships By understanding your "energy type," you learn how you are designed to exchange energy with others—such as "waiting for the invitation" to ensure your contributions are valued rather than resisted.

Making Aligned Decisions Without Overthinking The system teaches that aligned decisions come from a "felt sense" in the body rather than a logical pros-and-cons list, allowing you to reduce friction in your personal and professional life.

Overcoming Conditioning in Your Career Many of us are "conditioned" by societal expectations; Human Design serves as a tool for "deconditioning," giving you permission to rewrite your story and work in ways that actually light you up.


Links & Networking

Disclaimer: The TURTZED Podcast reflects the opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. Content is for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare provider for advice tailored to your individual needs. For the full disclaimer, visit our website.

  • 00:00 – Why this "priceless" information changed Charles’ career
  • 01:54 – The Sunday morning text that started a six-year journey
  • 03:20 – Ancient modalities meet quantum physics: The blueprint explained
  • 05:49 – The "Corporate Joke": Why success felt like a misalignment
  • 08:10 – A failed adoption and the heartbreak that fueled a new path
  • 10:45 – "Timeline Hopping": Using major life events as expansion catalysts
  • 14:22 – The question that redefined success: "Who do I want my son to remember?"
  • 19:00 – The "Permission Slip" to stop being who they want you to be
  • 21:30 – Why you must "Wait for the Invitation" to protect your energy
  • 22:55 – The danger of pros-and-cons lists in decision making
  • 27:14 – Learning through failure: The "Three-Five" profile archetype
  • 31:30 – Beyond labels: Why Human Design is a tool, not a box
  • 37:31 – The secret to managing burnout in a nine-to-five world
  • 44:19 – Navigating the "Void" during a massive life transformation
  • 49:20 – "Life is empty and meaningless": The shift that empowered everything
]]> false full 6 <![CDATA[Nicole: Breaking the Cycle of Toxic Relationships & Abuse Recovery | Ep. 5]]> Can you truly break the cycle of toxic relationships when chaos is all you’ve ever known? In this raw and deeply personal conversation, we explore the grueling journey of "Breaking the Cycle of Toxic Relationships," from witnessing childhood abuse to surviving a tumultuous marriage and finally finding the strength to choose peace over patterns.

Nicole joins Charles to share her powerful transformation from a woman who "didn't know how to function without abuse" to a mother who successfully fought for full parental rights and found a healthy, supportive partner. You will learn how to identify the subtle signs of gaslighting, the difficulty of "walking on eggshells" even after leaving, and the vital importance of forgiving yourself to make room for a life you actually deserve.

How to Recognize the Signs of Gaslighting and Manipulation

Abuse isn't always physical; it often starts with psychological warfare where strong, independent people are slowly stripped of their self-worth until they feel like "nothing". Nicole describes how manipulators prey on the strong and use inconsistent behavior to keep victims in a constant state of insecurity.

Why the "Calm" Feels Like a Threat After Trauma

When you are biologically wired to survive chaos, peace can actually trigger intense anxiety. Learning to navigate life without a "fire to put out" is a secondary struggle of recovery, as your brain expects disaster even when things are finally good.

Breaking Generational Patterns for Your Children

The decision to change often stems from a desire to give children what we lacked in our own childhoods, such as emotional safety and open communication. Nicole shares the pivotal moment her daughter begged her not to let the abuse back in, which served as the ultimate catalyst for final separation


Links & Networking

Disclaimer: The TURTZED Podcast reflects the opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. Content is for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare provider for advice tailored to your individual needs. For the full disclaimer, visit our website.

  • 00:00 – The 18-year reunion that feels like yesterday
  • 01:54 – Why some friendships can pick up exactly where they left off
  • 03:22 – The hidden reason Charlie felt "safe" being gay around Nicole
  • 04:30 – Why we disassociate from our true selves during the school years
  • 06:15 – The high cost of being "known" and the start of the bullying
  • 08:32 – The "Two Brothers" story: Why some repeat trauma and others break it
  • 11:15 – The moment a newborn daughter saved a life
  • 13:50 – Gaining back power after witnessing childhood abuse
  • 15:10 – Why manipulators target the "strong" instead of the weak
  • 17:40 – The 13-year-old's plea that ended a cycle of abuse
  • 21:50 – Why the body is biologically wired to disassociate from pain
  • 23:36 – The "fourth" trauma response almost no one talks about
  • 25:40 – Why "peace" feels like a threat after leaving an abuser
  • 29:30 – The "light bulb" moment: Why you can't go back to the person you were
  • 32:20 – Finding love on Twitch: When the "gamer girl" met her match
  • 35:30 – Why we pull the "emergency parachute" when things finally feel good
  • 38:40 – The "Red T-Shirt" rule for supporting someone with trauma
  • 41:00 – The three words from a grandmother that changed everything
]]> Wed, 17 Apr 2024 17:54:00 -0400 https://www.turtzed.com/podcast 43:22 Can you truly break the cycle of toxic relationships when chaos is all you’ve ever known? In this raw and deeply personal conversation, we explore the grueling journey of "Breaking the Cycle of Toxic Relationships," from witnessing childhood abuse to surviving a tumultuous marriage and finally finding the strength to choose peace over patterns.

Nicole joins Charles to share her powerful transformation from a woman who "didn't know how to function without abuse" to a mother who successfully fought for full parental rights and found a healthy, supportive partner. You will learn how to identify the subtle signs of gaslighting, the difficulty of "walking on eggshells" even after leaving, and the vital importance of forgiving yourself to make room for a life you actually deserve.

How to Recognize the Signs of Gaslighting and Manipulation

Abuse isn't always physical; it often starts with psychological warfare where strong, independent people are slowly stripped of their self-worth until they feel like "nothing". Nicole describes how manipulators prey on the strong and use inconsistent behavior to keep victims in a constant state of insecurity.

Why the "Calm" Feels Like a Threat After Trauma

When you are biologically wired to survive chaos, peace can actually trigger intense anxiety. Learning to navigate life without a "fire to put out" is a secondary struggle of recovery, as your brain expects disaster even when things are finally good.

Breaking Generational Patterns for Your Children

The decision to change often stems from a desire to give children what we lacked in our own childhoods, such as emotional safety and open communication. Nicole shares the pivotal moment her daughter begged her not to let the abuse back in, which served as the ultimate catalyst for final separation


Links & Networking

Disclaimer: The TURTZED Podcast reflects the opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. Content is for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare provider for advice tailored to your individual needs. For the full disclaimer, visit our website.

  • 00:00 – The 18-year reunion that feels like yesterday
  • 01:54 – Why some friendships can pick up exactly where they left off
  • 03:22 – The hidden reason Charlie felt "safe" being gay around Nicole
  • 04:30 – Why we disassociate from our true selves during the school years
  • 06:15 – The high cost of being "known" and the start of the bullying
  • 08:32 – The "Two Brothers" story: Why some repeat trauma and others break it
  • 11:15 – The moment a newborn daughter saved a life
  • 13:50 – Gaining back power after witnessing childhood abuse
  • 15:10 – Why manipulators target the "strong" instead of the weak
  • 17:40 – The 13-year-old's plea that ended a cycle of abuse
  • 21:50 – Why the body is biologically wired to disassociate from pain
  • 23:36 – The "fourth" trauma response almost no one talks about
  • 25:40 – Why "peace" feels like a threat after leaving an abuser
  • 29:30 – The "light bulb" moment: Why you can't go back to the person you were
  • 32:20 – Finding love on Twitch: When the "gamer girl" met her match
  • 35:30 – Why we pull the "emergency parachute" when things finally feel good
  • 38:40 – The "Red T-Shirt" rule for supporting someone with trauma
  • 41:00 – The three words from a grandmother that changed everything
]]> Can you truly break the cycle of toxic relationships when chaos is all you’ve ever known? In this raw and deeply personal conversation, we explore the grueling journey of "Breaking the Cycle of Toxic Relationships," from witnessing childhood abuse to surviving a tumultuous marriage and finally finding the strength to choose peace over patterns.

Nicole joins Charles to share her powerful transformation from a woman who "didn't know how to function without abuse" to a mother who successfully fought for full parental rights and found a healthy, supportive partner. You will learn how to identify the subtle signs of gaslighting, the difficulty of "walking on eggshells" even after leaving, and the vital importance of forgiving yourself to make room for a life you actually deserve.

How to Recognize the Signs of Gaslighting and Manipulation

Abuse isn't always physical; it often starts with psychological warfare where strong, independent people are slowly stripped of their self-worth until they feel like "nothing". Nicole describes how manipulators prey on the strong and use inconsistent behavior to keep victims in a constant state of insecurity.

Why the "Calm" Feels Like a Threat After Trauma

When you are biologically wired to survive chaos, peace can actually trigger intense anxiety. Learning to navigate life without a "fire to put out" is a secondary struggle of recovery, as your brain expects disaster even when things are finally good.

Breaking Generational Patterns for Your Children

The decision to change often stems from a desire to give children what we lacked in our own childhoods, such as emotional safety and open communication. Nicole shares the pivotal moment her daughter begged her not to let the abuse back in, which served as the ultimate catalyst for final separation


Links & Networking

Disclaimer: The TURTZED Podcast reflects the opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. Content is for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare provider for advice tailored to your individual needs. For the full disclaimer, visit our website.

  • 00:00 – The 18-year reunion that feels like yesterday
  • 01:54 – Why some friendships can pick up exactly where they left off
  • 03:22 – The hidden reason Charlie felt "safe" being gay around Nicole
  • 04:30 – Why we disassociate from our true selves during the school years
  • 06:15 – The high cost of being "known" and the start of the bullying
  • 08:32 – The "Two Brothers" story: Why some repeat trauma and others break it
  • 11:15 – The moment a newborn daughter saved a life
  • 13:50 – Gaining back power after witnessing childhood abuse
  • 15:10 – Why manipulators target the "strong" instead of the weak
  • 17:40 – The 13-year-old's plea that ended a cycle of abuse
  • 21:50 – Why the body is biologically wired to disassociate from pain
  • 23:36 – The "fourth" trauma response almost no one talks about
  • 25:40 – Why "peace" feels like a threat after leaving an abuser
  • 29:30 – The "light bulb" moment: Why you can't go back to the person you were
  • 32:20 – Finding love on Twitch: When the "gamer girl" met her match
  • 35:30 – Why we pull the "emergency parachute" when things finally feel good
  • 38:40 – The "Red T-Shirt" rule for supporting someone with trauma
  • 41:00 – The three words from a grandmother that changed everything
]]> false full 5 <![CDATA[Charles Turtz: Coming Out Story (PT. 2): Overcoming Childhood Trauma and Depression | Ep. 4]]> Can you truly find your authentic self when you’ve spent a lifetime hiding behind a mask of survival? Overcoming childhood trauma and depression isn’t a linear path, but a grueling journey of unlearning the coping mechanisms—like emotional dissociation—that once saved your life but now keep you from living it. In this deeply personal episode, Charles Turtz goes beyond the surface to reveal the moments of desperation and the specific turning points that forced him to stop running and finally look inward.

Charles Turtz shares the raw reality of growing up in a household defined by "The Emperor’s New Clothes" syndrome, where the truth of narcissistic fury was ignored by those meant to protect him. Listeners will experience a transformation from feeling like a "disconnected computer" to reclaiming their emotional depth, learning how a life-threatening medical emergency served as a final wake-up call to come out—not just as gay, but as his most authentic self.

How to Identify Emotional Dissociation

Dissociation is often a survival mechanism used to protect a fragile psyche from history of abuse or negative emotions, which can leave you feeling like a "computer" or "empty inside".

Recognizing the Signs of Narcissistic Abuse

Growing up with a parent who uses manipulation, projection, and anger can lead to "Stepford family" syndrome, where children feel forced to portray perfection while their internal reality is dismissed.

How to Break the Cycle of Generational Anger

The fear of "becoming" the person who hurt you can lead to shutting down all emotions, including anger, sadness, and fear, leaving you with no depth in your day-to-day life.

Why Authenticity is the Ultimate "Coming Out"

True authenticity isn't just about a single announcement; it's the daily practice of showing up as your real self and setting boundaries to protect your mental well-being.


Links & Networking

Disclaimer: The TURTZED Podcast reflects the opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. Content is for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare provider for advice tailored to your individual needs. For the full disclaimer, visit our website.


  • 00:01 – The episode Charles was afraid to record
  • 01:45 – Feeling like a "computer" for 35 years
  • 02:45 – The "fetal position" body language tell
  • 04:30 – Why your body chooses dissociation to save you
  • 06:00 – The "Emperor’s New Clothes" of toxic families
  • 07:15 – How childhood trauma becomes a "gift" in business
  • 08:30 – Why he prayed to be sent away to boarding school
  • 09:45 – The terrifying warning: "Don't become him"
  • 11:30 – The lucid dream that predicted a breakdown
  • 13:00 – Why a 27th birthday emergency surgery saved his life
  • 15:30 – The "Press Release" email that changed everything
  • 18:00 – Why he almost missed his MBA graduation
  • 21:30 – The subway tracks and the fear of triggers
  • 24:00 – What to do when your mind stops answering your body
  • 26:30 – Building a "village" for the dark places
]]> Sun, 17 Mar 2024 20:33:00 -0400 https://www.turtzed.com/podcast 29:02 Can you truly find your authentic self when you’ve spent a lifetime hiding behind a mask of survival? Overcoming childhood trauma and depression isn’t a linear path, but a grueling journey of unlearning the coping mechanisms—like emotional dissociation—that once saved your life but now keep you from living it. In this deeply personal episode, Charles Turtz goes beyond the surface to reveal the moments of desperation and the specific turning points that forced him to stop running and finally look inward.

Charles Turtz shares the raw reality of growing up in a household defined by "The Emperor’s New Clothes" syndrome, where the truth of narcissistic fury was ignored by those meant to protect him. Listeners will experience a transformation from feeling like a "disconnected computer" to reclaiming their emotional depth, learning how a life-threatening medical emergency served as a final wake-up call to come out—not just as gay, but as his most authentic self.

How to Identify Emotional Dissociation

Dissociation is often a survival mechanism used to protect a fragile psyche from history of abuse or negative emotions, which can leave you feeling like a "computer" or "empty inside".

Recognizing the Signs of Narcissistic Abuse

Growing up with a parent who uses manipulation, projection, and anger can lead to "Stepford family" syndrome, where children feel forced to portray perfection while their internal reality is dismissed.

How to Break the Cycle of Generational Anger

The fear of "becoming" the person who hurt you can lead to shutting down all emotions, including anger, sadness, and fear, leaving you with no depth in your day-to-day life.

Why Authenticity is the Ultimate "Coming Out"

True authenticity isn't just about a single announcement; it's the daily practice of showing up as your real self and setting boundaries to protect your mental well-being.


Links & Networking

Disclaimer: The TURTZED Podcast reflects the opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. Content is for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare provider for advice tailored to your individual needs. For the full disclaimer, visit our website.


  • 00:01 – The episode Charles was afraid to record
  • 01:45 – Feeling like a "computer" for 35 years
  • 02:45 – The "fetal position" body language tell
  • 04:30 – Why your body chooses dissociation to save you
  • 06:00 – The "Emperor’s New Clothes" of toxic families
  • 07:15 – How childhood trauma becomes a "gift" in business
  • 08:30 – Why he prayed to be sent away to boarding school
  • 09:45 – The terrifying warning: "Don't become him"
  • 11:30 – The lucid dream that predicted a breakdown
  • 13:00 – Why a 27th birthday emergency surgery saved his life
  • 15:30 – The "Press Release" email that changed everything
  • 18:00 – Why he almost missed his MBA graduation
  • 21:30 – The subway tracks and the fear of triggers
  • 24:00 – What to do when your mind stops answering your body
  • 26:30 – Building a "village" for the dark places
]]> Can you truly find your authentic self when you’ve spent a lifetime hiding behind a mask of survival? Overcoming childhood trauma and depression isn’t a linear path, but a grueling journey of unlearning the coping mechanisms—like emotional dissociation—that once saved your life but now keep you from living it. In this deeply personal episode, Charles Turtz goes beyond the surface to reveal the moments of desperation and the specific turning points that forced him to stop running and finally look inward.

Charles Turtz shares the raw reality of growing up in a household defined by "The Emperor’s New Clothes" syndrome, where the truth of narcissistic fury was ignored by those meant to protect him. Listeners will experience a transformation from feeling like a "disconnected computer" to reclaiming their emotional depth, learning how a life-threatening medical emergency served as a final wake-up call to come out—not just as gay, but as his most authentic self.

How to Identify Emotional Dissociation

Dissociation is often a survival mechanism used to protect a fragile psyche from history of abuse or negative emotions, which can leave you feeling like a "computer" or "empty inside".

Recognizing the Signs of Narcissistic Abuse

Growing up with a parent who uses manipulation, projection, and anger can lead to "Stepford family" syndrome, where children feel forced to portray perfection while their internal reality is dismissed.

How to Break the Cycle of Generational Anger

The fear of "becoming" the person who hurt you can lead to shutting down all emotions, including anger, sadness, and fear, leaving you with no depth in your day-to-day life.

Why Authenticity is the Ultimate "Coming Out"

True authenticity isn't just about a single announcement; it's the daily practice of showing up as your real self and setting boundaries to protect your mental well-being.


Links & Networking

Disclaimer: The TURTZED Podcast reflects the opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. Content is for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare provider for advice tailored to your individual needs. For the full disclaimer, visit our website.


  • 00:01 – The episode Charles was afraid to record
  • 01:45 – Feeling like a "computer" for 35 years
  • 02:45 – The "fetal position" body language tell
  • 04:30 – Why your body chooses dissociation to save you
  • 06:00 – The "Emperor’s New Clothes" of toxic families
  • 07:15 – How childhood trauma becomes a "gift" in business
  • 08:30 – Why he prayed to be sent away to boarding school
  • 09:45 – The terrifying warning: "Don't become him"
  • 11:30 – The lucid dream that predicted a breakdown
  • 13:00 – Why a 27th birthday emergency surgery saved his life
  • 15:30 – The "Press Release" email that changed everything
  • 18:00 – Why he almost missed his MBA graduation
  • 21:30 – The subway tracks and the fear of triggers
  • 24:00 – What to do when your mind stops answering your body
  • 26:30 – Building a "village" for the dark places
]]> false full 4 <![CDATA[Charles Turtz: Coming Out Story (PT. 1) : Why I Felt Like "The Other One" | Ep. 3 ]]> Have you ever felt like a ghost in your own family, hiding behind a "small box" just to survive the day? This gay coming out story explores the raw, often painful reality of living as "the other one" while navigating the shadow of a "perfect" sibling and the crushing weight of paternal expectations.

In this deeply personal solo episode, Charles Turtz unpacks the emotional labor of hiding his true self from a young age. Listeners will experience a transformation from the "simplest version" of self-preservation to a man reclaiming his autonomy and rewriting his future. 

Dealing with the "Other One" Syndrome in Families

Growing up in the shadow of a sibling who perfectly fits a parent's ideal can create a deep sense of inadequacy. Charles discusses how being labeled by his brother’s success led to a lifetime of feeling like he didn't matter.

How to Heal the Divide Between Siblings

Parental favoritism and rigid gender roles can inadvertently pit siblings against each other on "opposing teams." Understanding that this anger is often misdirected is the first step toward building a supportive adult bond.

Overcoming the Fear of Coming Out to Parents

The terror of "losing everything" often stems from a displaced fear of a specific parent’s wrath rather than the reality of their reaction. Charles explores the psychological barriers that keep us from asking for support when we need it most.


Links & Networking


Disclaimer: The TURTZED Podcast reflects the opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. Content is for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare provider for advice tailored to your individual needs. For the full disclaimer, visit our website.


  • 00:04 – The emotional "two-parter" that almost didn't happen
  • 01:10 – What it really means to be called "the other one"
  • 01:35 – The "sport gene" and the beaming father
  • 02:05 – Doing cartwheels while the world expects a goal
  • 02:40 – The supportive brother and the missing father
  • 03:40 – The bartender's question that pulled the chair out
  • 04:10 – Carefree Charlie: The last time I felt free
  • 04:45 – One month of cheerleading and a lifetime of ridicule
  • 04:55 – The hallway silence during a high school assault
  • 06:10 – The "check" that was never written for the wrong sport
  • 06:40 – Why we were unknowingly placed on "opposing teams"
  • 07:25 – The claustrophobia of the six-sided safety box
  • 08:30 – Why the "perfect" coming out story is a myth
  • 09:40 – The "Call Me By Your Name" moment in the back row
  • 10:45 – The 0.001% chance of losing everything
  • 13:10 – A father's absurd ultimatum about New Jersey
  • 15:15 – The "life or death" moment waiting in Part 2 
]]> Tue, 05 Mar 2024 13:29:00 -0500 https://www.turtzed.com/podcast 16:38 Have you ever felt like a ghost in your own family, hiding behind a "small box" just to survive the day? This gay coming out story explores the raw, often painful reality of living as "the other one" while navigating the shadow of a "perfect" sibling and the crushing weight of paternal expectations.

In this deeply personal solo episode, Charles Turtz unpacks the emotional labor of hiding his true self from a young age. Listeners will experience a transformation from the "simplest version" of self-preservation to a man reclaiming his autonomy and rewriting his future. 

Dealing with the "Other One" Syndrome in Families

Growing up in the shadow of a sibling who perfectly fits a parent's ideal can create a deep sense of inadequacy. Charles discusses how being labeled by his brother’s success led to a lifetime of feeling like he didn't matter.

How to Heal the Divide Between Siblings

Parental favoritism and rigid gender roles can inadvertently pit siblings against each other on "opposing teams." Understanding that this anger is often misdirected is the first step toward building a supportive adult bond.

Overcoming the Fear of Coming Out to Parents

The terror of "losing everything" often stems from a displaced fear of a specific parent’s wrath rather than the reality of their reaction. Charles explores the psychological barriers that keep us from asking for support when we need it most.


Links & Networking


Disclaimer: The TURTZED Podcast reflects the opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. Content is for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare provider for advice tailored to your individual needs. For the full disclaimer, visit our website.


  • 00:04 – The emotional "two-parter" that almost didn't happen
  • 01:10 – What it really means to be called "the other one"
  • 01:35 – The "sport gene" and the beaming father
  • 02:05 – Doing cartwheels while the world expects a goal
  • 02:40 – The supportive brother and the missing father
  • 03:40 – The bartender's question that pulled the chair out
  • 04:10 – Carefree Charlie: The last time I felt free
  • 04:45 – One month of cheerleading and a lifetime of ridicule
  • 04:55 – The hallway silence during a high school assault
  • 06:10 – The "check" that was never written for the wrong sport
  • 06:40 – Why we were unknowingly placed on "opposing teams"
  • 07:25 – The claustrophobia of the six-sided safety box
  • 08:30 – Why the "perfect" coming out story is a myth
  • 09:40 – The "Call Me By Your Name" moment in the back row
  • 10:45 – The 0.001% chance of losing everything
  • 13:10 – A father's absurd ultimatum about New Jersey
  • 15:15 – The "life or death" moment waiting in Part 2 
]]> Have you ever felt like a ghost in your own family, hiding behind a "small box" just to survive the day? This gay coming out story explores the raw, often painful reality of living as "the other one" while navigating the shadow of a "perfect" sibling and the crushing weight of paternal expectations.

In this deeply personal solo episode, Charles Turtz unpacks the emotional labor of hiding his true self from a young age. Listeners will experience a transformation from the "simplest version" of self-preservation to a man reclaiming his autonomy and rewriting his future. 

Dealing with the "Other One" Syndrome in Families

Growing up in the shadow of a sibling who perfectly fits a parent's ideal can create a deep sense of inadequacy. Charles discusses how being labeled by his brother’s success led to a lifetime of feeling like he didn't matter.

How to Heal the Divide Between Siblings

Parental favoritism and rigid gender roles can inadvertently pit siblings against each other on "opposing teams." Understanding that this anger is often misdirected is the first step toward building a supportive adult bond.

Overcoming the Fear of Coming Out to Parents

The terror of "losing everything" often stems from a displaced fear of a specific parent’s wrath rather than the reality of their reaction. Charles explores the psychological barriers that keep us from asking for support when we need it most.


Links & Networking


Disclaimer: The TURTZED Podcast reflects the opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. Content is for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare provider for advice tailored to your individual needs. For the full disclaimer, visit our website.


  • 00:04 – The emotional "two-parter" that almost didn't happen
  • 01:10 – What it really means to be called "the other one"
  • 01:35 – The "sport gene" and the beaming father
  • 02:05 – Doing cartwheels while the world expects a goal
  • 02:40 – The supportive brother and the missing father
  • 03:40 – The bartender's question that pulled the chair out
  • 04:10 – Carefree Charlie: The last time I felt free
  • 04:45 – One month of cheerleading and a lifetime of ridicule
  • 04:55 – The hallway silence during a high school assault
  • 06:10 – The "check" that was never written for the wrong sport
  • 06:40 – Why we were unknowingly placed on "opposing teams"
  • 07:25 – The claustrophobia of the six-sided safety box
  • 08:30 – Why the "perfect" coming out story is a myth
  • 09:40 – The "Call Me By Your Name" moment in the back row
  • 10:45 – The 0.001% chance of losing everything
  • 13:10 – A father's absurd ultimatum about New Jersey
  • 15:15 – The "life or death" moment waiting in Part 2 
]]> false full 3 <![CDATA[Breaking Generational Patterns: The Power of Authenticity and Name Changes | Ep. 2]]> Have you ever felt like you were living a life designed by someone else, repeating the same painful cycles until you finally chose to break the mold? Charles Turtz explores the heavy cost of hiding your true self and the liberating power of reclaiming your identity, starting with the very name you carry.

In this episode, Charles Turtz dives deep into his personal journey of shedding "shadow" identities and the "mold" imposed by his upbringing. Listeners will discover how to identify the duality in their most painful experiences and transform trauma into a "superpower" for coaching, connection, and true vulnerability.

How to Identify Generational Trauma Patterns

Recognizing the "deja vu" moments in your relationships is the first step toward healing. By identifying similarities between current struggles and early childhood dynamics, you can begin to understand why the same obstacles repeat and how to stop the cycle.

Overcoming the Need for External Validation

Growing up as an "extension" of a parent can lead to a lifetime of contorting yourself to remain safe. Learning to own your choices—from your career to your physical appearance—is essential for moving from a "transactional" sense of value to genuine self-worth.

The Emotional Impact of Changing Your Name

Reclaiming your name can be a profound act of empowerment that pulls you out of the shadows of a life you wish to leave behind. While the process is legally and logistically complex, the emotional weight of choosing a name that reflects your lineage and personal truth is life-changing.

Why We Stay in Toxic Situations Too Long

Inauthenticity often leads to "outsized emotions" where we push healthy people away at the first sign of trouble while staying in hurtful situations for far too long. Breaking this pattern requires deep reflection in therapy to dismantle the limiting beliefs that we aren't "good enough" or "safe".


Links & Networking

Disclaimer: The TURTZED Podcast reflects the opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. Content is for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare provider for advice tailored to your individual needs. For the full disclaimer, visit our website.

  • 00:00 – The "Deja Vu" of Unresolved Trauma
  • 01:23 – Why Your Father’s Criticism Still Echoes
  • 02:35 – The Question That Stopped Me Dead in My Tracks
  • 03:15 – Turning Childhood Pain into a Coaching Superpower
  • 03:55 – The "Camping" Lie We All Tell on First Dates
  • 04:52 – "I Could Never Introduce You to My Parents"
  • 05:25 – The Blindsiding Truth About "Real Jobs"
  • 06:15 – The Mortifying 99-Yard Line Sports Fumble
  • 07:45 – Why Being Ignored Would Have Been a Blessing
  • 08:30 – The High Cost of Suppressed Emotions
  • 09:10 – Why We Push the "Amazing People" Away
  • 10:20 – When Your Own Name Feels Like a Shadow
  • 11:30 – A Grandfather’s Unexpected Tears
  • 13:10 – Handling the "Fury" of a Name Change
  • 14:05 – The Irony of My Father’s Own Name Choice
  • 15:10 – The Case of Two Charlies: A Sales Strategy Gone Wrong 

]]> Wed, 21 Feb 2024 05:01:00 -0500 https://www.turtzed.com/podcast 18:46 Have you ever felt like you were living a life designed by someone else, repeating the same painful cycles until you finally chose to break the mold? Charles Turtz explores the heavy cost of hiding your true self and the liberating power of reclaiming your identity, starting with the very name you carry.

In this episode, Charles Turtz dives deep into his personal journey of shedding "shadow" identities and the "mold" imposed by his upbringing. Listeners will discover how to identify the duality in their most painful experiences and transform trauma into a "superpower" for coaching, connection, and true vulnerability.

How to Identify Generational Trauma Patterns

Recognizing the "deja vu" moments in your relationships is the first step toward healing. By identifying similarities between current struggles and early childhood dynamics, you can begin to understand why the same obstacles repeat and how to stop the cycle.

Overcoming the Need for External Validation

Growing up as an "extension" of a parent can lead to a lifetime of contorting yourself to remain safe. Learning to own your choices—from your career to your physical appearance—is essential for moving from a "transactional" sense of value to genuine self-worth.

The Emotional Impact of Changing Your Name

Reclaiming your name can be a profound act of empowerment that pulls you out of the shadows of a life you wish to leave behind. While the process is legally and logistically complex, the emotional weight of choosing a name that reflects your lineage and personal truth is life-changing.

Why We Stay in Toxic Situations Too Long

Inauthenticity often leads to "outsized emotions" where we push healthy people away at the first sign of trouble while staying in hurtful situations for far too long. Breaking this pattern requires deep reflection in therapy to dismantle the limiting beliefs that we aren't "good enough" or "safe".


Links & Networking

Disclaimer: The TURTZED Podcast reflects the opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. Content is for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare provider for advice tailored to your individual needs. For the full disclaimer, visit our website.

  • 00:00 – The "Deja Vu" of Unresolved Trauma
  • 01:23 – Why Your Father’s Criticism Still Echoes
  • 02:35 – The Question That Stopped Me Dead in My Tracks
  • 03:15 – Turning Childhood Pain into a Coaching Superpower
  • 03:55 – The "Camping" Lie We All Tell on First Dates
  • 04:52 – "I Could Never Introduce You to My Parents"
  • 05:25 – The Blindsiding Truth About "Real Jobs"
  • 06:15 – The Mortifying 99-Yard Line Sports Fumble
  • 07:45 – Why Being Ignored Would Have Been a Blessing
  • 08:30 – The High Cost of Suppressed Emotions
  • 09:10 – Why We Push the "Amazing People" Away
  • 10:20 – When Your Own Name Feels Like a Shadow
  • 11:30 – A Grandfather’s Unexpected Tears
  • 13:10 – Handling the "Fury" of a Name Change
  • 14:05 – The Irony of My Father’s Own Name Choice
  • 15:10 – The Case of Two Charlies: A Sales Strategy Gone Wrong 

]]> Have you ever felt like you were living a life designed by someone else, repeating the same painful cycles until you finally chose to break the mold? Charles Turtz explores the heavy cost of hiding your true self and the liberating power of reclaiming your identity, starting with the very name you carry.

In this episode, Charles Turtz dives deep into his personal journey of shedding "shadow" identities and the "mold" imposed by his upbringing. Listeners will discover how to identify the duality in their most painful experiences and transform trauma into a "superpower" for coaching, connection, and true vulnerability.

How to Identify Generational Trauma Patterns

Recognizing the "deja vu" moments in your relationships is the first step toward healing. By identifying similarities between current struggles and early childhood dynamics, you can begin to understand why the same obstacles repeat and how to stop the cycle.

Overcoming the Need for External Validation

Growing up as an "extension" of a parent can lead to a lifetime of contorting yourself to remain safe. Learning to own your choices—from your career to your physical appearance—is essential for moving from a "transactional" sense of value to genuine self-worth.

The Emotional Impact of Changing Your Name

Reclaiming your name can be a profound act of empowerment that pulls you out of the shadows of a life you wish to leave behind. While the process is legally and logistically complex, the emotional weight of choosing a name that reflects your lineage and personal truth is life-changing.

Why We Stay in Toxic Situations Too Long

Inauthenticity often leads to "outsized emotions" where we push healthy people away at the first sign of trouble while staying in hurtful situations for far too long. Breaking this pattern requires deep reflection in therapy to dismantle the limiting beliefs that we aren't "good enough" or "safe".


Links & Networking

Disclaimer: The TURTZED Podcast reflects the opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. Content is for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare provider for advice tailored to your individual needs. For the full disclaimer, visit our website.

  • 00:00 – The "Deja Vu" of Unresolved Trauma
  • 01:23 – Why Your Father’s Criticism Still Echoes
  • 02:35 – The Question That Stopped Me Dead in My Tracks
  • 03:15 – Turning Childhood Pain into a Coaching Superpower
  • 03:55 – The "Camping" Lie We All Tell on First Dates
  • 04:52 – "I Could Never Introduce You to My Parents"
  • 05:25 – The Blindsiding Truth About "Real Jobs"
  • 06:15 – The Mortifying 99-Yard Line Sports Fumble
  • 07:45 – Why Being Ignored Would Have Been a Blessing
  • 08:30 – The High Cost of Suppressed Emotions
  • 09:10 – Why We Push the "Amazing People" Away
  • 10:20 – When Your Own Name Feels Like a Shadow
  • 11:30 – A Grandfather’s Unexpected Tears
  • 13:10 – Handling the "Fury" of a Name Change
  • 14:05 – The Irony of My Father’s Own Name Choice
  • 15:10 – The Case of Two Charlies: A Sales Strategy Gone Wrong 

]]> true full 2 <![CDATA[Finding Your Authentic Voice After Trauma | Ep. 1]]> Have you ever found yourself on the shower floor, breathless and broken, wondering how you ended up so far away from the person you were meant to be? Finding your authentic voice after trauma isn't about a quick fix; it’s a grueling, "barefoot and bleeding" climb toward reclaiming your autonomy and your truth.

In this debut episode, Charles Turtz strips away the "sales closer" persona to share the raw, unscripted reality of his 14-year mental health journey. From the "psychological thriller" of his parents' marriage to the crushing weight of professional perfectionism, Charles illustrates the specific transformation required to stop chasing a mental picture of success and start living a life of genuine alignment.

How to Identify When You Are Out of Alignment

Many of us chase a "white picket fence" dream while having no clue what we actually want. Charles discusses how your head, heart, and actions can become so disconnected that no external success can fix the internal void.

The Role of Shame in Silencing Your Voice

Trauma doesn't just cause pain; it creates a crippling sense of shame that makes you feel the need to hide your true self. By rationalizing that "it could have been worse," we often inadvertently trample on our own voices and stall our healing.

Why Professional Success Can Be a Mask for Trauma

For many high-performers, work becomes a distraction and an addiction used to avoid emotional processing. Charles shares how "Business Charlie" thrived on goals and execution while "Personal Charlie" felt like a zero-sum game, leading to a dangerous cycle of dissociation.

Links & Networking

Disclaimer: The TURTZED Podcast reflects the opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. Content is for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare provider for advice tailored to your individual needs. For the full disclaimer, visit our website.


  • 00:01 – The French tattoo that killed perfectionism
  • 01:05 – Why I threw out the script 12 hours before launch
  • 02:10 – The "Hardcore Sales Closer" identity crisis
  • 03:02 – The darkest of dark: A turning point on the shower floor
  • 04:15 – The 7:00 AM phone call that changed everything
  • 05:22 – Why your life isn't the "Fairytale" you were promised
  • 06:15 – The "Chiropractor" of emotional alignment
  • 07:45 – Redefining Valentine’s Day as a 70-year love story with yourself
  • 09:35 – The three questions that determine your future
  • 11:10 – The book that taught me everything except myself
  • 12:45 – Why "Business Charlie" was addicted to the grind
  • 14:05 – Reclaiming power from the grip of shame
  • 15:30 – How to stop your emotions from "misfiring"
  • 17:15 – Why I’m finally changing my name 

]]> Wed, 14 Feb 2024 05:01:00 -0500 https://www.turtzed.com/podcast 19:38 Have you ever found yourself on the shower floor, breathless and broken, wondering how you ended up so far away from the person you were meant to be? Finding your authentic voice after trauma isn't about a quick fix; it’s a grueling, "barefoot and bleeding" climb toward reclaiming your autonomy and your truth.

In this debut episode, Charles Turtz strips away the "sales closer" persona to share the raw, unscripted reality of his 14-year mental health journey. From the "psychological thriller" of his parents' marriage to the crushing weight of professional perfectionism, Charles illustrates the specific transformation required to stop chasing a mental picture of success and start living a life of genuine alignment.

How to Identify When You Are Out of Alignment

Many of us chase a "white picket fence" dream while having no clue what we actually want. Charles discusses how your head, heart, and actions can become so disconnected that no external success can fix the internal void.

The Role of Shame in Silencing Your Voice

Trauma doesn't just cause pain; it creates a crippling sense of shame that makes you feel the need to hide your true self. By rationalizing that "it could have been worse," we often inadvertently trample on our own voices and stall our healing.

Why Professional Success Can Be a Mask for Trauma

For many high-performers, work becomes a distraction and an addiction used to avoid emotional processing. Charles shares how "Business Charlie" thrived on goals and execution while "Personal Charlie" felt like a zero-sum game, leading to a dangerous cycle of dissociation.

Links & Networking

Disclaimer: The TURTZED Podcast reflects the opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. Content is for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare provider for advice tailored to your individual needs. For the full disclaimer, visit our website.


  • 00:01 – The French tattoo that killed perfectionism
  • 01:05 – Why I threw out the script 12 hours before launch
  • 02:10 – The "Hardcore Sales Closer" identity crisis
  • 03:02 – The darkest of dark: A turning point on the shower floor
  • 04:15 – The 7:00 AM phone call that changed everything
  • 05:22 – Why your life isn't the "Fairytale" you were promised
  • 06:15 – The "Chiropractor" of emotional alignment
  • 07:45 – Redefining Valentine’s Day as a 70-year love story with yourself
  • 09:35 – The three questions that determine your future
  • 11:10 – The book that taught me everything except myself
  • 12:45 – Why "Business Charlie" was addicted to the grind
  • 14:05 – Reclaiming power from the grip of shame
  • 15:30 – How to stop your emotions from "misfiring"
  • 17:15 – Why I’m finally changing my name 

]]> Have you ever found yourself on the shower floor, breathless and broken, wondering how you ended up so far away from the person you were meant to be? Finding your authentic voice after trauma isn't about a quick fix; it’s a grueling, "barefoot and bleeding" climb toward reclaiming your autonomy and your truth.

In this debut episode, Charles Turtz strips away the "sales closer" persona to share the raw, unscripted reality of his 14-year mental health journey. From the "psychological thriller" of his parents' marriage to the crushing weight of professional perfectionism, Charles illustrates the specific transformation required to stop chasing a mental picture of success and start living a life of genuine alignment.

How to Identify When You Are Out of Alignment

Many of us chase a "white picket fence" dream while having no clue what we actually want. Charles discusses how your head, heart, and actions can become so disconnected that no external success can fix the internal void.

The Role of Shame in Silencing Your Voice

Trauma doesn't just cause pain; it creates a crippling sense of shame that makes you feel the need to hide your true self. By rationalizing that "it could have been worse," we often inadvertently trample on our own voices and stall our healing.

Why Professional Success Can Be a Mask for Trauma

For many high-performers, work becomes a distraction and an addiction used to avoid emotional processing. Charles shares how "Business Charlie" thrived on goals and execution while "Personal Charlie" felt like a zero-sum game, leading to a dangerous cycle of dissociation.

Links & Networking

Disclaimer: The TURTZED Podcast reflects the opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. Content is for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare provider for advice tailored to your individual needs. For the full disclaimer, visit our website.


  • 00:01 – The French tattoo that killed perfectionism
  • 01:05 – Why I threw out the script 12 hours before launch
  • 02:10 – The "Hardcore Sales Closer" identity crisis
  • 03:02 – The darkest of dark: A turning point on the shower floor
  • 04:15 – The 7:00 AM phone call that changed everything
  • 05:22 – Why your life isn't the "Fairytale" you were promised
  • 06:15 – The "Chiropractor" of emotional alignment
  • 07:45 – Redefining Valentine’s Day as a 70-year love story with yourself
  • 09:35 – The three questions that determine your future
  • 11:10 – The book that taught me everything except myself
  • 12:45 – Why "Business Charlie" was addicted to the grind
  • 14:05 – Reclaiming power from the grip of shame
  • 15:30 – How to stop your emotions from "misfiring"
  • 17:15 – Why I’m finally changing my name 

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